When was the last time you listened to someone? Listened, without thinking about what you were going to say in reply? Or waiting for your turn to talk?
Unfortunately, that is all I can do at the moment.
Whatâs worse I canât even understand what they are saying. Iâm literally listening to her heart and to her guts, as well as mine. But literally and figuratively Iâm still in the dark. The only one I can actually understand, listen to and talk to is myself.
Iâm continuing to count, continuing to listen and those are the only things that I can do at the moment. This morning, I thought I could hear my motherâs voice.
Iâm not sure at what point the cochlear develops in the womb but words and sounds seem to be becoming clearer. I guess maybe Iâve been feeling her heartbeat more than hearing it but now I can hear my motherâs voice and she is singing.
Singing to me maybe.
Does she even know that Iâm here? Will she have noticed? How long does it take for a baby to be aware? And long does it take a woman to be aware of a baby? I mean premature babies can survive, but from what age can they survive, and at what point does consciousness begin?
Maybe it is simply because my listening skill has levelled that I can hear her. Sound being fairly muffled in here, easily half as loud as it would be outside.
Also, interestingly enough, my endurance, strength and dexterity all gained 1 stat overnight.
Iâm growing and my stats seem to be growing with me.
I wonder when they will stop or if they ever stop. Will adding in my free points support or stunt my growth. There are just so many things I donât know so best to leave it to nature for now. Anyway, back to the singing or humming, not a hundred percent sure which it is, what with my ears under water and still under development.
That said, I think it sounds beautiful.
Even if, it still doesnât make sense.
It is quite clearly not English, French or Spanish it doesnât sound like a Slavic language but I was never very good at those. Itâs not German, Japanese, Korean or Chinese but is pleasant and enjoyable to listen to.
Hopefully I will get another skill from listening in. Maybe a musical appreciation skill. Iâm not quite sure what skill I would get and my listening skill needed to be done for at least an hour before I got that. Plus, she isnât singing for two hours at a time, maybe I could give a kick whenever she stops. But I suppose if it adds up over time maybe in a week or two I will be able to level it up. Besides I think I am still too small for a kick to be felt right now.
As for my day today, I know it must be day as she is moving around a lot so obviously itâs daytime that or she sleepwalks. Anyway, sheâs up and about, physically moving and yes I think Iâm upside down again right now. I know you need to be upside down later on in time to be born so maybe Iâll just stay this way round.
Not that Iâm being particularly successful at turning around and I donât know whether I am to be born soon or later. I still have a fair amount of space and without too much pressure on me or rather all around me it will probably be later rather than sooner.
Right back to this meditation school of mine. Iâm going to get it somehow. Without being able to concentrate on my breath Iâm going to focus on a heartbeat. Mine is too quick to relax to as it feels like Iâm sprinting all the time at the speed it is going. Paying attention to my motherâs which is slower and louder seems to be the way to go. 3,600 seconds later, with a fair few detours into dreams, I still donât have it.
Could be a lack of being able to focus on the breathing and it is difficult to stop thinking about what life will be like but Iâm going to persevere. Iâll try again tomorrow or actually maybe later tonight.
One of the things that makes it hard to try and get is the fact that Iâm moving or being moved around so much and the fact that Iâm upside down half the time. Iâll try again tonight, when she stops moving. Hopefully I will be lying down rather than being upside down and Iâll see if I canât get it then.
Todayâs highlights are that I have time sense up to level 3 and listening up to level 2!
Then I finally got my meditation skill!
It took most of last night before she started getting up again and moving around but I now have meditation level one and thatâs enough to put me up to an overall level three. I think Iâve been aware on and off for a week now although time sense says it has only been three days since I got a system.
Got to keep grinding the skills that I have, counting the seconds, listening to my mother and meditating the nights away.
The best result from today though is that my health has shot up to 30 when I got a point in vitality and my mana shot up to 20 when I gained a point in magic. Stamina has made it to 17 as I gained a point in strength and dexterity. Not quite sure how the physical stats impact one another. The stats for Mind and Senses continue to grow the most perhaps through leveling related skills.
Level: 3 Experience: 0/800 Age: 3 days
Health: 30/30 Stamina: 17/17 Mana: 20/20
Vitality: 3
Endurance: 1
Strength: 1
Dexterity: 1
Senses: 3
Mind: 48
Clarity: 2
Magic: 2
Free Points: 30
Skills: Time sense (LV 3) Listening (LV 2) Meditation (LV 1)