Chapter 58: are you sure?

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We stared at each other for a few seconds because my brain could barely process his words.

„Only if you want, of course ! Like I said, I don't want to pressure you.".

He could barely finish his sentence because I pulled him down to me and kissed him deeply. „Please! I want it.", I whispered against his lips.

Without wasting another second, he moved away and left a trail of kisses on the way down to the lower part of my body. Heeseung locked his hands under my legs and pushed them up so my feet were now on the bed. I was too busy on cloud 7 to even wonder what he was thinking – all I wanted was for him to touch me, and do it now.

"Guide me, if you need to!", he mumbled against my thigh and kissed it softly.

I tried to block out the environment around me, the cool air that surrounded me as I practically gave myself over completely. He saw me in a way that no one had ever seen me before and no one else ever will.

He continued kissing them and soon licked them up and down, the slick of his tongue grew my excitement and my blood started boiling. I thought I was already close. But I was severely wrong, because as his lip sucked against my outer lips, I thought I had been catapulted into another century. I bucked my hips at the sensation his tongue left on my skin, but his strong hands held me down.

I couldn't help but cry out at the feeling his tongue teased me, his lip found my clit and sucked, circling over across it.

"You taste so sweet.". He mumbled, which send vibrations through my body and I grabbed a bunch of his hair. My legs were shaking from his harsh grip and the way his skills almost sent me into la-la-land.

He continued to kiss and suck at a pace that left me intoxicated in pleasure. There were times that I thought I was going to go over the edge, but the excitement was so much that I felt it at times be too much and retreat.

It kinda felt like being stuck.

But as if I had asked for it, his middle finger slipped back inside me. My returned moisture made it work as if I had done it 100 times before, and the squelching noise almost made me sink into the ground in embarrassment.

As if he had memorized every inch of my body, he immediately found my sweet spot again and stimulated it from the inside.

My feet became restless on the bed and I squirmed back and forth as if I wanted to escape his grip. At this point, sounds escaped my mouth that I never thought I would ever make. But that seemed to confirm to Heeseung how much I liked it, because he never slowed down.

Another surge of excitement washed over me and I grabbed frantically at his shoulder. "Hee!"

But he did not stop. I wasn't even sure if he had heard my whimper. His tongue was moving at an inhuman speed and I was sure that it wouldn't take another 10 seconds before I possibly experienced the most intense orgasm of my life.

"Please stop, Heeseung!", I cried out. "I...fuck...I can't hold it anymore.". I tried to pull him away from me with all the strength left in my body.

But thankfully, he broke away from me immediately. "Should I stop? Are you okay?". His voice sounded worried.

"I-I don't wanna cum.". I breathed out, exhausted. "...not yet.".

His eyebrows furrowed in confusion and he moved up to me again. "You don't? But...isn't that the whole point?"

I couldn't help but smile at his cuteness. "Yes, but I want to wait until we actually ... you know.". I choked on the words in my throat. In the brief silence, I could hear my heart beating loudly. But when a smile appeared on his face as well, I felt relieved.

My nerves were nearly frayed, but that was replaced by desire when Heeseung licked his lips and looked down at mine. I grabbed his neck and pulled him back on top, placing my lips on his. We lay down together without breaking the connection for a second. He propped himself up with his elbows as he got onto me and cupped my cheek. "Are you sure?". My hands slid along his back, feeling his soft skin, the tense muscles of his shoulders. "I want you, Heeseung.".

He nodded calmly. "You will get me, baby.".

This was all I needed to hear as my body went back into drive, finding my way down to his gray joggers and started pulling them down. I hear him draw in a breath against my lips. His breath became hot and damp against mine, kissing me hard.

He helped me get rid of his pants and kicked them off his ankles. He found his way between my legs again, kissing deep in my neck, and collarbone, and nipples. We both scoot ourselves further onto the bed.

With his chest pressed flush against mine, I realized for the first time in my life how nervous Heeseung was. His hands trembled on my skin and he seemed short of breath on my lips.

"Hee?". I pressed against his chest and immediately his head shot up with concern.

"What's wrong?"

I couldn't help but smile. "I was about to ask the same thing.".

A nervous chuckle escaped his lips. "Nah, I'm fine. I just wanna make this special for you.". He seemed to have difficulties putting his thoughts into words. "Like, I don't want to disappoint you. That you regret having your first time with me.", his voice trailed off and I pressed a short peck on his lips.

"How would you disappoint me?", I whispered, shaking my head. "You don't have to prove anything to me. I couldn't imagine anybody else I would want to do this with.".

"I love you.". he stroked my hair softly.

"I love you, too!".

I closed the gap between us again and my legs trembled with excitement when he reached down to his boxers with one hand and started tugging at the waistband. I leaned up from the mattress and helped him fumble the piece of fabric off his legs.

I didn't intend to turn away with shyness at the way his cock sprung out of his boxers, but I was kinda overwhelmed at this point. It's going to happen for real. He noticed me getting shy, and scooted back.

He was ever so slightly grinding against me, I could feel him against my thigh, creating goosebumps all over my body. I moved my legs further apart and drew up my knees, to create more space for him, while my heart was beating up to my neck with nervousness.

"You will tell me when it hurts, okay?", he asked, but I've never seen his face so serious. I just nodded silently and laid my arms flat beside me.

I couldn't help but smile at how focused he suddenly was, when he pumped his length a few times. He scooted back over me and allied himself with my entrance.

"Uhm...Hyeona.", he suddenly addressed me and my head snapped up from his cock.

"Hm?".

"Don't you think we should use protection?".

My mother's words flicked into my head and I gasped in shock. "Fuck! You're right.". I was about to scramble up from the mattress but Heeseung calmed me down and made sure that I stayed put.

"Wait". Heeseung crawled over to his nightstand and pulled out a rubber from the drawer. He opened it with his teeth and threw the package on the floor to our clothes.

With a pounding heart, I watched him roll it over his length with an ease. Not a second later, he hovered over me again, propping himself up on his arms. His brows furrowed together as he worked to find it, shifting slightly and raising his hips. I placed my hand on his chest. "I trust you.".

A soft smile appeared on his lips. "I know". He hummed, took one deep breath and placed his hands on my hips, persuading my legs to spread further. He shuffled as close as he could until his thighs were pressed deep into mine.

"Here we go.". He breathed out and my body stiffened when he brought his tip against me and I could already feel that it was going to be painful. Out of reflex, I grabbed the closest thing I could reach - his arm.

"I'm nervous.", I said, but I was proud of myself for admitting it.

"Me too.", he laughed and stroked my cheek carefully. "Promise me you will tell me when it feels uncomfortable in the slightest way, okay?".

I nodded again. Seconds later, he started pushing and heat spreads throughout the lower part of me. I flinched at the hardness and wetness of it. He wasn't even inside yet, but I could already tell what stretch was awaiting me. The pressure increased as he leaned closer to me and with him starting to push a bit harder, I could feel the tip enter.

I felt my mouth drop open automatically, and I tightened the grip around his arm.

Heeseung glared down at me, his mouth hung open as well. "Does it hurt?". he panted worriedly, noticing my squeezed eyes.

"Yes.". I answered honestly.

He nodded immediately and started to move out of me again, but I grabbed his lower back to stop him. "No, no, no, stay!". My nails digged firmly into his skin.

"Hyeo, if it hurts then...". He started but I shut him off with a kiss. "Please". I looked at him with googly eyes, but I couldn't hide the fact that they were also filled with tears.

„Keep going.", I gasped.

Somewhat hesitantly and with a reluctant face he pushed in a little deeper. My feet squirmed on the bedsheets while he buried his face in the pillow next to my neck.

While one part of me wanted him to stop and push him away, the other one wanted to pull him closer into me by his thighs. So that he is buried deep inside me and I would be able to feel every millimeter of him.

My eyes filled with tears, when the stabbing pain intensified and my knees were literally begging to cling to his hips. Heeseung almost had difficulty creating the space he needed. „That's almost halfway, baby.", he said. „What does it feels like?".

„It hurts. It hurts so bad.", I cried out. „I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm too dumb.".

„Hey.", He kissed my temple. „Don't say crap like that. You're just tense. Your muscles are cramping even though you don't realize it.". His arm reached around my thigh and only now I noticed what he was talking about. „The only thing you need to do is relax. Don't pressure yourself!".

When I consciously relaxed my muscles for the first time, I realized what enormous tension I still had in my body. A kind of relief fell from me.

„Just like that.", he encouraged me and his left hand reached down to my hipbone. He began to thrust into me carefully with minimalist movements. „Tell me how it feels.". If he hadn't mentioned it, I almost wouldn't have noticed that he had started to move. That's how careful he was.

„It feels...", I concentrated on the feeling in my lower body part.

„Weird? Does it still hurt?"

„...no. It feels kinda good. But also weird though.".

Heeseung could hold back a laugh, but quickly became serious again. „I'm relieved.".

With a smile I reached for his head and pressed a short kiss on his lips. „No shit! I'm serious! I don't want to hurt you.".

„I love you.", I mumbled against his cheek but a sudden pain shot through my body and a startled squeak escaped my mouth.

„Fuck, I'm sorry!", he panted and looked down at me worriedly. „I slipped in.". At the part where our bodies merged, we were now completely connected. His thighs pressed into mine. Nevertheless, he made no effort to move.

"Don't worry.". I replied. Never in my life I had thought that I would be able to take him completely.

A bit scared to move, I shifted my hips on his bed and gasped when I felt him twitch. „Ah shit. He grabbed my wrist with full force. His cheeks as rosy as a few days ago. „You're squeezing me.". The short pause made me think a bit startled. Did it hurt him? „I'm not sure how long I'm able to hold it.".

Heeseung was obviously embarrassed to talk about it. „I just don't want it to end that soon, because I...".

„...Hey!", I interrupted him. „Don't think about it. It doesn't matter at all. The only thing that is important to me is that I can experience this moment with you.".

With this words, he bent down and kissed me both passionately and tenderly. I moved my hands to his back and clutched on hard. I felt Heeseung's hips rock gently, going in and out. The rhythm he created washed out the pain and it was almost all replaced with a frenzy of bliss.

"Can I keep going?" He asked, his voice faint.

I nodded. Holding my breath, I felt him pull out of me almost completely, only to carefully enter me again seconds later. My body was pushed further up against the headboard of the bed by the movement.

A moan escaped my mouth, which made Heeseung's gaze snap up from my core to my face. Worried whether it was a sound of pain or satisfaction. I nodded at him in consent and he reached around both of my thighs to to pull me further down, away from the headboard.

He repeated the motion and gasped lowly, when he pushed his cock back into me to the hilt. Inevitably, my arms wrapped around his shoulder blades. "Can you go faster?". I asked, almost choking on my words.

"Are you sure?", He assured himself and I nodded again. His thrusts became sharper and his hands moved below my head to support me.

I felt myself stretch around him. The pain only lasted a few more seconds until I adapted to him, and then it decreased. My hands moved all around his body. From his back to his chest to his butt to his arms, I couldn't get enough of him.

I let out a soft gasp with each inevitable thrust. Heeseung pushed my hair back with his thumbs.

I noticed how his mouth was slightly open and the redness slowly spread from his face down to his chest. I could hear how excessive his moans were getting, and the way they came out in whimpers too. „Fuck...fuck", he breathed out and his movements suddenly stopped out of nowhere.

Without realizing it beforehand, I noticed how I was moving against him. I let my hips slide up and down at the same pace to match his thrusts.

But suddenly his hand grabbed my waist and stopped me. So firmly that I was sure I would have a bruise on the spot tomorrow.

„Oh, shit...". I felt his thighs tremble, as his head fell in the crook of my neck. I flinched at the feeling of his twitching dick inside me and clung to his back until his breathing had normalized again.

I looked into his dark eyes when he propped himself up again after a short time and cleared his throat. He avoided my gaze. „Hey?", my voice sounded thin.

„Shit, I'm sorry.", his eyes finally met mine and I noticed a spark of embarrassment inside them. „I think I got too exited. Usually I last much longer...". I interrupted his words with his kiss. My hands roamed around his face, to pull him closer. „I enjoyed it as much as you did! I couldn't have imagined it any better.". I mumbled against his lips, which finally made him smile.

He carefully shifted his hips, to slip out of me. „You need to finish too, Hyeo. I can't just leave you hanging like that.", He suddenly spoke firmly and his hand found its way between my legs. I bit surprised, I opened them a little wider to give him better access.

My head sunk back into the pillow, when he gently tapped my clit and I reached for his arm. My hips bucked up due to the sensation. „Tell me what feels good.".

His fingers slipping through my wet folds almost made me see stars. Heeseung kissed me once again. This time more sloppy but I wasn't really able to kiss back. Whiny moans escaped my lips over and over again, when he hit this special point.

My hands never stood still. I roamed around his back, kneading the back of his thighs.

His rubs quickened as my eyes fell shut. I realized it was only a matter of seconds until I exploded. „I think I'm close!". I warned him. He nodded. „I know! Come on!".

But my mind demanded something else. „I wanna be on top.".

„What?", he laughed softly and glared down to check on his dick which got hard once again in the meantime. „You're so close, Hyeo. Don't you wanna finish first?".

„I do. But I want to feel you.", I shyly admitted.

Heeseung gasped in surprise, but immediately moved away from me. "Gosh...you will be the death of me.".  I also got up from the mattress. I felt a slight ache between my legs. But that wasn't important at the moment.

Crawling over to his bedside table, he opened the drawer and pulled out another condom. He threw the small package on the bed and got rid of the used one. I cast an unobtrusive glance at his cock. His tip glistened like the last time and the color was even pinker than a few minutes ago. The irresistible urge was back in one fell swoop.

He lowered himself against the headboard of his bed and took a handkerchief from the dispenser. "Let me fix this for a second.". Just as he was about to freshen up, I reached for his wrist and took the tissue from his hand.

He looked at me in amazement as I crumpled the cloth in my fist and sat down on his legs.

Without saying a word, my hands moved to his length and I started pumping him in a slow pace. I glared up, to see his jaw hang open as I continued to stroke his member a bit faster. Without realizing, I brought my head closer and licked my lip at the sight of his dick disappearing in my hand over and over again. "Hyeo...". He uttered when he noticed my fixed, inescapable gaze.

I gathered my hair and put it over my shoulders, shortly before I bent down and licked the tip of his erection tenderly. "Oh fuck...". Dropping his head against the headboard, my confidence grew. He shifted his hips, and held my hair together as if in a ponytail as I carefully wrapped my lips around his tip and started bobbing my head. As I was inexperienced, I couldn't even take half of it, but Heeseung didn't seem to care. I simply added my hands to take care of his base.

I heard him inhale sharply, and could feel his body tremble harder. I twisted my head and slowly pulled away, repeating this action again and again. "Hyeo, please - "Heeseung muttered. He placed his hand on the top of my head and at times I felt him push my head down gently.

My cunt was already back in full swing because of his lustful noises. I could tell from his firm grip how close he was to his second orgasm. He struggled to keep his hips on the mattress to avoid thrusting against my movements. „Stop...please stop, or I might come again.". Heeseung grunted but I continued, adding even more tongue to play around with his tip.

„Fuck Hyeo!", he removed his hand from my hair, obviously stressed that I wasn't listening to him.

Of course I was only trying to tease him. Not a second later, I stopped and grinned at him. „Never imagined you to be this naughty.", he replied, shaking his head.

„Surprise", I answered with a laugh and took the wrapped condom he handed me.

„Be careful. Make sure that the outside remains clean.", Heeseung explained as I slowly rolled it over his length with a concentrated face.

I leaned forward onto his chest when I was done. „Are you sure you still want this? We can stop at any time!".

I replied with a soft kiss. „I know! I want this. I want you.". Heeseung pulled my head down once again, and kissed me tenderly. Our lips moving in sync, as light as they have ever done before. His hand moved to by butt, kneading the skin as we continue to make out.

With a gasp, I broke away. With a glance into his deep, black eyes, I showed him that I was ready. I repositioned myself by leaning forward on his hips.

„Take your time. We don't need to rush, okay?", he cupped my cheek and I nodded with a smile.

Attentively, I knelt up on my shins so that his manhood was right under me. As I lowered myself carefully, the tip penetrated me first. I immediately remembered the feeling of being filled and moved up again - only to sink a bit lower this time. I bit my lip from a mixture of discomfort and pleasure.

„That's so fucking hot.", Heeseung gasped and placed one hand on my waist, while he watched the area where his cock slowly disappeared inside me.

I threw my head back. „Oh my goosh...", I moaned and clung to his hips, when I consciously relaxed my pelvic floor and he slid in quite a bit further.

But despite his satisfaction, Heeseung was on the alert. „Does it hurt you like this? Tell me baby!". I silently shook my head. „No, you're just...", I hesitated because of how cringe those words sounded in my mind. „...just so big.", I finally finished the sentence. He couldn't suppress a laugh. „I'm not. Look at you! You're taking me so well.".

I clenched at his words and another gasp escaped both our mouths.

„Fuck, I'm sorry.", I apologized, looking down at him again.

„Don't worry.", he took my hands from his waist and placed them on his shoulders, causing me to lean forward slightly. „Do whatever makes you feel good.".

I closed my eyes and started rocking my hips forwards and backwards, which instinctively put me in a flashback state. The angle in this position felt deeper, which is why I drew gentle circles with my pelvis. But I noticed his cock was stiff and unwinding.

I looked down at Heeseung's face, his eyes closed and his mouth slightly open, squirming underneath me. He grabbed onto my hips and slid me up and down his length slowly. I felt my spot getting hit with each stroke, and little gasps came flooding out my mouth

„Oh my god," I whined. I positioned my palms on his chest and rode him harder. Actually, I had no idea of what I was doing, but it felt like I've done it a hundred times before.

"Shit." his voice came out strained. His hand clutched around my wrist. My rhythm sped up every few seconds. The pleasure was so good that it started to get unbearable. I couldn't even form words, much even less moan.

I felt myself tightening against him once again. „Keep going! That's it!", He snorted, his hands moving back to my hips, where he pushed me down harder. „Don't stop, Hyeona. Don't fucking stop!", he continued to courage me. My head fell into my neck and the burning in my legs was almost excruciating. I realized how close I was, and yet so far away. Something was holding it back, as if I was stuck.

Heeseung seemed to notice my struggle and suddenly he reached in between my legs. My eyes almost rolled back when he found my clit.

My body stopped moving as I let in the feeling of him rubbing me, going faster and faster. My fingertips literally clawed into his shoulders and left red marks.

"Come on.". He started thrusting from below, to keep me moving. "Let it out.". He rubbed at an irregular fast pace as heat rose all over my body. My thighs clung to his hips and the pain and exhaustion I had felt a few minutes ago were completely washed away. I cried out and my back arched when my orgasm shot through my body.

Heeseung placed his hands back on my hips and continued pumping into me. I watched as his eyes squeezed shut and his breath caught in his throat. He exhaled hastily and looked at me, searching my gaze in desperation.

"I'm gonna come.". I was only vaguely aware of his words because the climax put me in such a state of ecstasy that I lost touch with the outside world for a moment. "Fuck, Hyeona...I'm about to...", his words got stuck and he closed his eyes. Heeseung's name was a mere whisper on my lips. My walls clenching around him repeatedly, enough to tip him over.

"Please", I begged and pressed down further, as his hands became wild against my hips and ass. He squeezed hard as he inhaled deeply. He thrust into me harder and harder, with a series of wild and unpredictable groans. I couldn't help but moan as he released himself and his cock twitched as hard as ever before.

As his breathing slowed down, his grip on my waist loosened. I collapsed on top of him and he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me impossibly close. His heartbeat was similar to mine, beating fast and loud against his chest. I continued to gently grind my hips against his to quench the last hint of pleasure.

When reality started to set in again, I kissed his jaw, exhausted. The ecstasy in my body slowly disappeared and the foggy feeling faded more and more with every second. Everything felt different somehow, even though it wasn't.

I struggled to push myself up from his upper body and met his worried gaze. "How are you feeling?". he panted. A smile appeared on my lips. "Great.".

Heeseung pulled me back onto his chest. "I'm relieved.". He placed a soft kiss on my forehead.

"Why so?". I giggled against his skin. "It was perfect, Heeseung.".

Hearing me add his name to my praise made his heart leap. "You are perfect!". My cheeks flushed at his compliment and I avoided his gaze shyly. "I love you.". Brushing a strand of hair behind my ear, he kissed my lips softly. "I love you, too.".

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