âYo, itâs unusual. Are you reading a book?â
âYeah, Eiji. â¦â¦Itâs just that I havenât been able to get into my studies. Iâm reading a book I borrowed from Nagi the other day.
âHee? Thatâs even more unusual.
I smiled at Eijiâs words and closed the book with a bookmark in it.
ââ¦.Itâs like, I canât concentrate on anything.â
âIs that so? A loversâ trouble?â
Eiji asked back with a grinning face. I thought about punching him once, but decided against it because I felt he would only be somewhat pleased.
ââ¦â¦Eiji is.â
âHm?â
I had no choice but to ask. Though itâs embarrassing.
I made up my mind and told him the rest of what I had said.
âWell, how should I put it. â¦â¦Do you ever have those moments when you canât get someone out of your head?â
âHuh? When you canât get the love of your life out of your head?â
âDonât rephrase.â
My face became hotter and hotter when he hit the bullseye, and I couldnât help but cover it with my hand.
âSighâ¦..â
âSorry, my bad. But of course it happened to me too, you know?â
âIs it?â
âWho do you think I am. I havenât learned anything in the class for about a month since we started dating.â
âThat bad?â
âYeah. Well, maybe itâs because we were in the same classroom.â
Eiji chuckled. Thatâs very typical of himâ¦â¦
âBy the way, do you have a solution for this?â
âI donât have any.â
âSo you donâtâ¦â¦â
âYeah. Give it up.â
Itâs a one-sided decision. â¦â¦Well, itâs true that I knew it wasnât something I could manage.
âWell, we all get used to it sometimes,â¦â¦ah. Maybe it will come.â
ââ¦..I wish I could have at least said it out loud.â
âItâll be like that for a while. Hang in there.â
Even though my cheeks cramped as Eiji tapped me on the shoulder, I let out the heat that had built up on my face.
âââ
âWhatâs wrong? I always had the image that you were always reviewing and preparing homework when you came to school.â
âHayama san,â¦â¦no, about that.â
I was reading a book at school when I was approached by Hayama san, who came later than I did.
âHm? Donât tell meâ¦â¦youâre so full of happiness that you canât handle it?â
âY-youâre reaching the conclusion too quicklyâ¦..no. I know itâs not a good thing to do.â
Hayama san heard my words and looked at me strangely.
âNot good? Itâs a good thing to be happy.â
âN-no, I mean. But if I canât get anything else doneâ¦..â
âBut youâre happy now, arenât you?â
At Hayama sanâs wordsâ¦I nodded slightly.
I was a little embarrassed, but there was no substitute for being happy.
âThen itâs fine. Life seems long but itâs actually short, so you have to enjoy it.â
ââ¦â¦Youâre quite philosophical.â
âHahaha. Iâve had a lot of life advice after allâ¦thatâs why when I see the girl who consulted me looking happy. Iâm happy too.â
Hayama san smiled happily as she said this.
It even made me happy.â
âThank you so much for many things.â
âYes, youâre welcome.â
As we were exchanging conversation, a question suddenly popped into my head.
âSpeaking of which, do you have a lover, Hayama san?â
âMe? I donât have one.â
Her reply was very unexpected.
Hayama san is very beautiful. She must take good care of her skin and hair. Her hair is a beautiful golden color, and her skin looks spotless and dull. She is well developed and her hairstyle is shoulder length.
I couldnât help but stare at her face and body, when I wondered if Hayama san had noticed, she chuckled.
âI-Iâm sorry.â
I donât mind, though. Weâre both girls. There are a lot of reasons why I donât have a boyfriend.â
I was a little curious about the reason. I was wondering whether I should ask or not, but Hayama san told me.
âItâs not like I have a particular reason. Itâs just that I canât find a good man. Well, I admit that my ideals are high.â
ââ¦..I see. Is there someone that you think would be good for you up until now?â
âThere is someone out there, but.. For exampleââ
Hayama san looked at me and smiled mischievously.
âLike Minori kun?â
ââ¦â¦!â
I gulped at the unexpected words. Before I knew it, I was standing up.
âI-I wonât give Souta kun to you !â
Thatâs what I said.
âAhaha, I know, donât worry. I donât think I can beat Nagi chan either. I donât know Minori kun as well as Nagi chan. I wouldnât go so far as to say that itâs all just a first impression.â
I thought she was teasing meâ¦.but then she seemed to be serious about it. Hayama san grinned at my gaze.
âIn case youâre wondering, Iâm serious, you know? Someone that matureâ¦..or rather, I donât have a classmate who can be that considerate of others and still think about himself. There are people who are more or less on one side or the other. To be honest, I wonder why he didnât have a girlfriend before.â
âThatâsâ¦..true. I have wondered that myself.â
But I know the answer because I heard it from himâ¦â¦and from his mother.
âBecause Souta kun treats everyone with a sincere attitude. â¦..But he hasnât had a chance to show it until now.
âI seeâ¦..come to think of it, was it a communication problem?â
âYeah. He showed me his album photos, and heâs been alone for a long timeâ¦.no. Come to think of it, I remember that he was popular with female students when he was in elementary school.â
Iâm a little doubtful. If they have a chance to talk with Souta kun, it shouldnât be strange to notice his charm.
âAh. I guess it depends on the individual, but elementary school students tend to go to those who have interesting stories to tell. Of course, it doesnât mean that Minori kunâs stories are boring.â
â⦠I canât imagine it.â
âWell, isnât that fine? Nagi chan was the first to notice Minori kunâs charms.â
â¦â¦Sure, thatâs true.
I nodded and at the same time I felt a little better.
BecauseâI remembered that such a nice guy was my lover and fiancée.
ââ¦.Fufu.â
âOh? Youâre thinking about your beloved boyfriend again, arenât you?â
âYes. â¦â¦Iâm really happy.â
With him. I was able to meet Souta kun.
Iâm so glad that I was able to get along with him.
Iâm glad from the bottom of my heart.
Thatâs whyâ¦..this time, I will.
âI will make him happy.â
I whispered quietlyâ¦..so that no one could hear me.
âHm? What did you say?â
âNo, itâs nothing.â
Shaking my head, I smiled back at Hayama san.
âHayama san too. If you have a boy youâre interested in, and if you have any concerns, please talk to me, okay?â
âOh, now you said it.. Iâll talk to you a lot then, okay?â
âYes !â
Then Hayama san laughed.
â¦â¦Ah, Iâm glad that Hayama san is my friend.
I thought so from the bottom of my heart.
âââ
[Hm, me? Iâm just going to have a lovey-dovey time with Eiji all day long. Hm ãEiji said he heard from Minorin that the place has been decided.]
After school, at the back of the gymnasium, where few people were passing by. I was calling Nishizawa san. I asked her, [What are you going to do for Christmas?] and Nishizawa-san answered.
âOh, no. I wasnât asking about the placeâ¦â¦.um. If you donât mind, I would like to ask you about a present for my boyfriend.â
What happened earlier is just a prelude. This is what I wanted to hear.
[hm? A present? Iâm thinking of earrings and piercers. For now.]
âPiercingsâ¦..?â
[Yeah. Eiji has been saying that he wanted to get a piercing for a while, but he said he was afraid of getting a hole drilled in it. Do you want the one I just wear? I thought it would be a good idea.
âI see.â
I put my hand on my chin and looked at the sky. The blue sky is filled with pure white clouds floating here and there.
[Does Nagirin feel worried?]
âNo, Iâve already decided what Iâm going to give himâ¦â¦but now that I think about it, a little. Iâm wondering if itâs too heavy or not.â
[Is that so? What are you going to give him?]
I was a little hesitant, but I had to talk to her to get started.
I told Nishizawa san what I was going to give her.
[Eh? Not good? Itâs not like thereâs something to be worried about, you know?]
âI-is that so? I was told the same thing when I asked Hayama san earlierâ¦â¦â
[Yeah, I think itâs fine. He will be very happy. Wouldnât it be nice to give him a ring or something?]
âR-ring !?â
I unintentionally let out a loud voice. IImmediately cover my mouth with my hand and clear my throat.
âE-excuse me.â
[D-donât worry. â¦â¦You know. Isnât it unexpected? Thereâs even an engagement ring.]
âThatâsâ¦..Iâm a little short on time. As for the money problemâ¦..it looks like my mother will handle it, but thatâs not what I mean. Besides, I have to measure Souta kunâs finger size.â
[Ohâ¦.youâre a quiet realist.]
Butâ¦itâs not a bad idea.
Iâll keep that in the back of my mind.
âHmâ¦.even if you give something else. I donât know if Souta kun would want the accessories or not.â
[Hmm. I feel like heâll be happy no matter what you give. But isnât it fine to leave it as it is? Iâm sure heâll be more pleased that way. For sure.]
âYouâre right â¦â¦.Iâll do that. I have one other thing that came to mind. Iâll prepare that as well.â
[Oh, thatâs good. Enjoy worrying about it.ãYou should have fun with this kind of thing.]
Rather than thinking alone, itâs better to talk to someone like this to come up with a good idea.
â¦Yeah, I think itâs a good idea.
âThank you very much. Iâll be able to give it to Souta kun successfully now.â
âYup, donât worry about it. We will have fun too. Have fun, Nagirin and the others.]
âYes ! Well thenâ¦.â
[See you ! If anything else comes up, let me know !]
âI understand.â
Then I hung up the phone. â¦â¦All right.
Letâs go home and get ready.
Christmas is coming soon.