âI-Iâm sorry ! Really !â
âNo, itâs okay. If you are tired, it canât be helped.â
I woke Shinonome up at the previous station. After a few moments, she began to apologize.
âI-I did a very embarrassing thing. U-um. I didnât do anything strange, right?â
âAh-â¦â¦.â
She didnât, though itâs easy to say that. I hesitated.
She looked at me like that. Shinonomeâs expression stiffened.
ââ¦â¦I talk in my sleep, right?â
âWell. Most of it was inaudible, so I couldnât understand it.â
At my words. Shinonomeâs face came closer and closer to mine.
âMost of it, you say?â
âDonât worry. You didnât say anything strange. I didnât even know what kind of dream you were having.â
ââ¦..I see. I understand.â
She felt a little relieved. She exhaled. I was wondering what kind of dream she had. Well, I thought that she would forget about her dream after she woke up. Somehow, I looked outside.
It was a familiar sight. I see it every morning and evening, so itâs only natural.
However, I found something unexpected. I wondered if there was a Teishoku-ya (set meal restaurant) in such a place.
I probably wonât go there, though.
âUm, Minori kun.â
âWhatâs wrong?â
I shifted my attention from the scenery outside to Shinonome as she called my name.
Shinonome glanced at me. Her cheeks were red, and she was trying to say something.
I wonder whatâs going on. Well, thereâs no need to rushâ¦..
âAh.â
At that time. We arrived at the station, Shinonomeâs destination. Shinonome hesitated for a while. She let out a sigh.
âIâll tell you tomorrow. Or rather, what I want to ask you.â
âY-yeah. I understand. Well then, take care.â
âYes, thank you very much. Take care, Minori kun. Bye.â
âYeah, Iâll see you tomorrow.â
When she waved her hand slightly, I waved backâ¦..I hope itâs just my imagination, even though thereâs only few people on the train.
But what was she really trying to say? I canât help but wonder.
â¦â¦Well, Iâll find out tomorrow. Iâll take a good rest today.
âââ
[Oh? So? How was it? What did you think of your first date?]
[I told you. It wasnât a date.]
[Donât be stupid. If a man and a woman go out, itâs a date.]
[â¦.Sigh.]
As soon as I got home, I received a phone call from Eiji. On top of that, itâs been like this since a while ago.
[No matter what you say. I just did my studies like a normal person.]
[What about the hands? Did you hold hands?]
[Weâre not supposedâ]
I was about to say no. But I closed my mouth without thinking.
When I was being absorbed by Shinonomeâs figure. I remembered that she pulled my hand.
[So you did? You had that reaction, didnât you !?]
[â¦..Itâs an accident.]
[And then? Howâs your reaction? If she doesnât mind, youâve got a chance.]
[Life canât be that easy. â¦â¦Sigh. Thatâs a lot to explain. Anyway, weâre just friends. I mean, Iâm tired, Iâm hanging up.]
[Okay. Let me hear from you tomorrow.]
I hung up the phone and lay down on my bed.
ââ¦..Friend. Nothing more, nothing less.â
Itâs true that sometimes she got nervous. Iâm sure that it wasnât because of me, so thereâs no problem.
And thenâ¦â¦.about going out or not. Or lovers. Iâve never thought about it. â¦.Iâm sure itâll never happen.
âIn the first place. Iâve never been in love with anyone before.â
I sometimes feel envious when I see a couple who are getting along well. I canât answer when asked if I want a girlfriend or not.
Iâm not a good communicator to begin with. I can only see a future in which I make my partner feel uncomfortable and get pity from her.
I hear that more and more single people are living for their hobbies these days.
âSighâ¦â¦â
Itâs not good. Itâs like an excuse, and Iâm just a high schooler.
Somedayâ¦â¦that time will come. If it doesnât come, it wonât come, Iâll just have to think about it then.
I closed my eyes quietly. I fell asleep naturally.
Luckily. At that time, I had already forgotten what Shinonome was going to say. I was able to fall asleep without worrying.
âââ
âGood morning, Minori kun.â
âYeah, good morning.â
The next day was another study session. I had a good nightâs rest yesterday, so my head was refreshed.
âYou look good today, too, Minori kun. You look great.â
ââ¦..Oh, thank you. you look great too, Shinonome.â
Shinonome was also very beautiful today.
Yesterday was sunny and the sun was strong, so itâs a rare summer day for fall. Today was cloudy and chilly.
She was wearing a white blouse, a dark brown cardigan, and a long black skirt. Today, she has the appearance of a young lady, with an air of elegance around her.
Her hair is also different from usual, shaped like a ponytail but braided.
âThank you. Iâm grateful to the staff.â
âYouâre right. â¦â¦Well, I guess there are things that are good for you.â
Honestly, she looks good no matter what she wear. The rough outfits will be more foreigner-like combined with her look. Boyish clothes would also emphasize her coolness.
However, did Shinonome not understand my words? She looked puzzled.
âNo, itâs nothing. Never mind.â
âY-yesâ¦â¦?â
I had recently forgotten that Shinonome has a phobia of men. Now that weâre in a position to be friends, I guessâ¦â¦she doesnât have a problem with it. Thereâs a possibility that she thinks I looked at her as a woman, and she wonât trust me.
âAh, come to think of it. Minori kun, you also put on perfume, didnât you?â
âHm? Yeah. I remembered that my mother gave it to me before I came here. I was too lazy to use it, so it was in the back of the drawer.â
âI see. â¦.Is it okay? To use something like that for someone like me.â
Shinonome asked with anxiety, I replied with a smile.
âYeah, of course. I guess thereâs no way to use it other than times like this. How is it? â¦..Do you smell anything bad?â
Itâs a citron, citrus kind of smell. But different people like different smells.
I asked. Then Shinonome brought her face closer. I cursed my own remarksâ¦at the same time, she smelled softly.
âYes, it smells very nice. I like your usual smell, Minori kun, because itâs calming. I like this one too, you know?â
And at close range. I was told so with a carefree smile on her face.
I can feel my face getting hotter.
ââ¦I-Iâm glad to hear that.â
From now on, Iâm going to think before speaking.
While studying. Shinonome and I went to the same café as yesterday.
Hm? I think Iâm forgetting somethingâ¦â¦
âââ
âAh, I remembered now.â
While studying with Shinonome. I remembered something that had been bugging me.
ââ¦â¦? Whatâs wrong?â
âNo, I thought I forgot something. Or rather, itâs you, Shinonome.â
Yes. Thatâs it.
âYesterday, you were going to say something, right? What was it?â
When I asked that. Shinonomeâs body jumped.
ââ¦â¦â
Shinonome?â
Then, she suddenly turned her head down. She kept silent. I panicked for a moment, thinking that I had said something bad. I couldnât swallow the spit I had thrown up.
Just like that, I waited for Shinonome to say something.
After a little whileâ¦..Shinonome raised her face and looked at me.
âM-Minoti kun. I have a favor to ask you.
âWhat is it?â
Shinonome stared at me. She took out a certain thing from her bag.
It was a smart phone.
âC-could you tell me yourâ¦.contact information?â
I froze. I looked at Shinonome, who had a bright red face and was straining her hands to hold the smartphone.
I covered my face with my hand.
Sheâs too cute. Whatâs with this gap? I thought I was attracted to her cool beauty, or rather her cold atmosphere.
ââ¦..D-do you mind?â
Shinonome looked at me with a glance. I exhale once. I let out a breath to release the heat from my face.
âOf course I donât mind. Or rather, I would like to ask you the same.â
I said so.
Shinonomeâs face brightened up. She smiled cheerfully.
âIâm gladâ¦â¦um. Whatâs wrong?â
Shinonome asked me while Iâm still covering my face. I replied [Donât worry about it].
After calming down a little, I removed my hand and I took out my phone from my pocket.
It was a common chat application to exchange. It took us both a while to figure out how to do the exchange, which was fun.
ââ¦â¦Seems to be all right now.â
âY-yes. Itâs my first time exchanging contact with people other than my family.â
Shinonomeâs words made my heart skip a beat. Calm down, todayâ¦..or rather, Iâve been acting strange since yesterday.
ââ¦.Finally, I was able to say it.â
I smiled bitterly at Shinonomeâs words. The feeling is painful. I donât have many friends either.
At the same time, I feel sorry for her.
âOkay. Then, shall we continue?â
Unlike before, she looked somewhat cheerful.