Itâs been a few days since my brother tried to warn me away from Vaughn. I never was good at listening, especially when it wasnât something I agreed with. Looking behind me as the wind blows my hair, I smile at Vaughn as he sits behind the steering wheel of his boat. His sunglasses cover his eyes, but he looks back at me and I watch the corners of his lips twitch.
When he asked me last night if I wanted to go out on the boat with him for the day, there was no way I was going to say no. This is what life on the lake is about and if it involves spending time with him, sign me up.
Vaughn motions for me to come over to him, so I abandon my spot on the front of the boat. As I reach him, he wraps his arm around my backside and pulls me down onto his lap in one swift movement. I settle on his thighs, leaning my back against his chest as he wraps one arm around me and the other hand holds on to the steering wheel.
âWhere do you want to go, London?â Vaughn breathes against my ear. His lips brush the outer shell, sending a shiver down my spine. âIâll take you anywhere you want to go.â
Heâs entangled in my soul. âTake me wherever you want to,â I tell him, my voice breathless as I shift my hips in his lap.
âYou better be careful,â he murmurs, nipping at the lobe of my ear. âThose words can be taken a couple of different ways.â
âTake them however you want and do whatever you feel necessaryâ¦â
Vaughn laughs lightly in my ear before he drops his lips just below and presses them to my neck. We take the boat through the center of the lake and spend the majority of the day cruising around. After stopping in a few coves to take a dip in the water, he drives the boat to the small island that we used to frequent at.
He pulls the boat up to the small dock and kills the engine before he lifts me off his lap. I go to the front end of the boat and throw the rope to him as he climbs off and secures it to the dock. He walks back to the side and extends his hand to help me off. As my feet hit the wooden surface, he doesnât release me and leads me toward the island.
There was another boat at the dock when we got here, but neither of us paid much attention to it. This piece of land doesnât belong to anyone else, so a lot of locals or people who come here for the summer end up coming here. There are a few spots along the water that you can swim in and then thereâs the firepit through the clearing of trees.
âYou remember the tree house?â Vaughn asks me as we walk through the wooded area.
Deeper in the woods, thereâs an old tree house that our parents built when we were younger. It wasnât just for us, as other people used it too, but in a way, it felt like it was our own little secret spot. We all used to hang out inside it when we were younger, but itâs been years since weâve visited it.
I nod, looking up at him with a smile. âOf course, I remember. Itâs been forever since weâve been there.â
âLetâs go check it out,â he says, pulling me along the trail.
âHoly shit!â a voice calls from over to the left where the firepit area is. âIs that Vaughn Carter?â
Vaughn freezes and I stop beside him. His hand tightens around mine and he doesnât look in the direction of the voice. Instead, he stares straight ahead into the trees, his body completely rigid.
âWho is that?â I ask him, my voice quiet as I hear footsteps approaching.
Vaughn glances down at me but his eyes are almost vacant. âSomeone I havenât seen for two yearsâ¦â
His words confuse me for a second and then two guys are walking through the clearing, stopping directly on the trail in front of us. They both have their shirts off, showing their athletic, muscular forms. Theyâre both wearing swim shorts which are wet, probably from swimming.
âDude, itâs been like two fucking years,â the one with messy dark hair says with a smirk on his face. âHow the hell have you been?â
âCome on, come hang out with us,â the other with dark green eyes says.
I look between Vaughn and the two guys. Vaughnâs jaw clenches and his hand tightens around mine again. âWhatâs up, Hayden?â he says, his voice tense as he looks at the one with dark hair. âCam,â he nods at the other guy.
âWhoâs your friend?â Hayden questions him, tilting his head to the side as he looks at me with a smile.
âThis is London,â Vaughn tells him in a clipped tone.
âHayden!â a girlâs voice calls from afar. âWhere did you run off to?â
Two girls appear through the clearing. âVaughn?â they both say at the same time with confusion in their voices. âWhat are you doing here?â
âMy family has a house here on the lake. What are you guys doing here?â
âWe all came here for the weekend and found this sweet island,â Cam, the one with dark green eyes offers as he slings his arm around one of the girlâs waist. âWe had no idea you were staying here or we would have called.â
Vaughn snorts and directs his attention back to me. âThis is Hayden King and Cameron Sawyer. We all used to play hockey together at Wyncote.â
The dots connect and it all makes sense. The sudden shift in Vaughnâs mood and why heâs being standoff-ish to these guys. From what Iâve been told, it was an opposing team that had the player who caused the accident with Vaughn. I donât know of any bad blood between him and his friends, but seeing people from his past canât be good for his mental health.
Not when he spends so much time living in the past and being angry about everything that happened.
âHi, itâs nice to meet you guys,â I tell them as I step forward and shake their hands.
âIâm Eden, Haydenâs wife,â the one girl says with a smile as she gives me a small wave.
âAnd Iâm Aspen, Cameronâs wife,â the other says, still standing underneath his arm.
âWe missed you at both of our weddings,â Cam says quietly. âYou got the invitations, right?â
Vaughn is silent for a moment. âYeah.â He simply leaves it at that and the air around us grows awkward. They both invited him to their weddings, yet he didnât even reach out to them? His problems run deep⦠deeper than I realized.
âItâs all good,â Hayden offers in a light tone. âYou were pretty fucked up after the accident, so there was never any hard feelings.â
âHaydenâ¦â Eden scolds him in a low tone, a warning lingering within her voice. Hayden glances at her, his eyebrows pulling together as he shrugs.
Vaughnâs body is still rigid and I know heâs uncomfortable with these four right now. It still confuses me. They spent a lot of time together and played on the same team. From what Iâve gathered, it was like they were all family. These guys are just happy to see their old friend, yet Vaughn looks less than pleased to see either of them.
âI hate to be the buzzkill here, but I actually forgot I was supposed to be home soon,â I tell all of them apologetically before turning my attention to Vaughn. âDo you think you can give me a ride home? I know my mom is waiting for me to go to that dinner she had planned.â
Itâs all a lie, but I canât stand seeing Vaughn like this. Itâs literally breaking my heart, watching him struggle to hold it all together. If one thing about hockey is brought up, I donât think it would take much for him to break himself.
âSure,â he says, his voice flat and void of any emotion. âIâll see you guys.â
âIt was good seeing you, Vaughn,â Cam says, his voice filled with a sense of sadness. âWe need to get together and catch up sometime.â
âYeah, let us know when youâre free and we can try and coordinate our schedules,â Hayden adds.
Vaughn gives them a curt nod and I wave to the girls before we turn around and head back in the direction of the boat. His hand is still in mine, yet it feels like heâs miles away. I donât know what to say to him or how to reach him right now. Thereâs been a shift in Vaughn and itâs not for the better.
We walk to the boat and Vaughn helps me get on board before he undoes the rope that had it secured to the dock. He climbs on and finds his seat behind the steering wheel. He doesnât make a move for me to sit on his lap and heâs completely guarded as he white-knuckles the wheel. Feeling deflated, I take a seat on one of the bench seats and stare out at the water as he races back to his house.
Vaughn knows damn well that I didnât have anything planned with my mom, but he doesnât say a single word about it. Hell, he doesnât speak a single word about anything. He docks his boat at his house and helps me off before he leaves me there alone. Iâm confused and hurt as I watch him stalk across the yard and up the stairs onto his back deck.
He doesnât stop to look back at me once, and then heâs disappearing into his house. I collect my things and my shoulders sag in defeat as I head back over to my own house. Maverick is sitting by the pool smoking a joint when I walk past. He raises an eyebrow at me but doesnât question anything. I know he just saw whatever the fuck that was that just happened.
He doesnât give me a look of satisfaction, instead a wave of pain washes through his eyes. He didnât want to be right about Vaughn, even though he was just trying to protect me. And maybe he was right. Vaughn isnât in a good place mentally, and Iâve been lying to myself this entire time.
Vaughn was doing much better, but all it took was seeing people from his past to set him off. Heâs retreated back into his shellâ¦
And Iâm afraid I might be losing him now.