Chapter 42: CH 42

“There must be a lot of thoughts. Some may be desperate, some may want the power, or some may be fascinated by the beauty of fire.”

“However…. they don’t have a God even if it’s a denomination. You can’t hope for a miracle….”

The world’s religious system is, so to speak, an equivalent exchange of faith and benefits.

Human puts faith in God, and God bestows his grace through the apostles, who hear his voice, and the priests below him.

How reliable is the existence of God that can be felt directly.

But the Apostle was a little skeptical.

“Well. I don’t know what’s going to happen with that part.”

“What do you mean?”

“Human faith makes more possible than we think.”

Faith…

I suddenly stopped walking.

‘Human beings give faith to God.’

But there was no God in the Church of Fire, though there was faith, there was no God.

“Do you mean a new god could be born?”

“I can’t guarantee it, but I think it is.”

“Flendena…..”

“Flendena doesn’t say anything.”

I didn’t understand.

There must be such a thing as the total amount of faith, but when a new god is born, won’t the rest of the gods have less pie to share?

When she said so, the apostle burst into laughter.

“Minuelle, you’ve been like this since you were little, but you’re a really unique kid.”

That was what he said while wiping away the tears at the corners of his eyes after laughing for a long time.

“Who is worried about God’s situation? Though you’re a weak human.”

For a moment, the apostle’s eyes glistened like glass.

The eyes were not the Apostles I knew. More menacing…..

‘Flendena?’

I swallowed my saliva without realizing it. Sometimes I heard that God borrowed the Apostle’s body, but it was the first time I witnessed it.

‘God is familiar because I grew up reading Greek and Roman mythology. How?’

…..The words went up to my throat.

However, I didn’t want to have circular hair loss or abscess after attacking the god of beauty for no reason, so I asked only questions naturally.

“What should I do? How can I return the power within me to the spirit stone?”

“It depends on the spirit’s mind.”

“What?”

Does it mean that spirits have thoughts, too?

However, God suddenly disappeared as much as when God appeared because she did not know the kindness of God.

The conversation was cut off here, and the apostle blinked like a broken robot for a moment and smiled curiously.

‘Oh, he’s back.’

“You’re asking questions without being surprised, aren’t you?”

“I was surprised, a lot!”

I was surprised, but I only had a stronger survival instinct.

“Yes, I was surprised, too. It’s really rare for Flendena to speak directly.”

It was a great experience, but I’m somewhat depressed because I didn’t get the exact answer.

“I should have asked more instead of asking back like a fool.”

For example, I might ask, “Do you mean I can communicate with the spirit?”

“I thinks it’s amazing that you didn’t fall down in that situation.”

The Apostle tapped me on the shoulder and held out his thumb.

“You might be the next Apostle, right?”

Are my eyes seeing wrong? It was as if I saw a person who wanted to leave the company looking for a successor from the Apostle?

I declined somewhat.

“I want to live in the world, Apostle.”

I want to gather handsome men and live happily.

The Apostle laughed again for a while after hearing the roughly dragged excuse.

“It’s no different from Flendena or the temple, right?”

Oh? That’s true, too.

The apostle reached out to me, who was wondering if the answer was to return to the temple.

“Since it’s been a while, will you join me for tea?”

Will other apostles of God do the same? He asked as if he were borrowing my time, giving all believers time to think of it as infinite glory.

“Of course.”

There’s no way I’m gonna say no. Holding the apostle’s hand with respect, I smiled.

“Oh, my God.”

He had just walked together without letting go of his hand and reached the Apostle’s personal parlor.

The Apostle stopped walking, clapping his hands like a person who came up with something belatedly.

“Oh, no. I think I left the keys to the tea cabinet in the chapel.”

“I’ll be back. I think Ramande is still there.”

“No, there’s a rest room for the trainees right in front of me, so I’ll ask for a favor.”

“I’m sorry, I’m taking a break. It’s just….”

“It’s time to get tired after taking a walk, right? Go in and rest.”

That was true. I gratefully accepted the apostle’s consideration and entered the parlor.

However, the passenger was sitting there.

“Minuelle.”

The person who looked at me and stood up slowly.

Do I forget my dreams?

It was Esadien, who turned 360 degrees.

“Aaahhhh!”

After about two seconds of silence, I immediately turned and grabbed the handle with a loud scream.

However.

Click.

As the door was locked, the Apostle’s refreshing laughter was heard.

“Ahaha. Minuelle, open your heart and talk.”

“Apostle!!”

Bang, bang, bang!

Even if I knocked on the door, my hands hurt, but all that came back was the sound of laughter getting farther away.

“Apostle, how did you say this to me?!”

“I… Minuelle.”

“No, stay away!”

I shouted without realizing it and covered my mouth. I might get more stimulated if I make a loud noise.

‘No wonder. He came every day and said that today there is no one but the door.’

But how the hell did Esadien know that I was coming here today? Besides, getting help from the Apostle…..

Esadien spoke slowly, as if to soothe me who looked at him suspiciously.

“Minuelle, I am not crazy.”

Crazy people never say they’re crazy!

I kept my mouth shut and stuck closer to the door.

Esadien, who looked at me for a moment, sighed lightly and pushed a chair toward me.

“Sit down. It will be difficult.”

Then he walked and stood far away against the wall on the other side.

“Is this all right? I won’t leave this position. I promise.”

“……”

“I’m telling you, I’d like to prove it myself, but I don’t know how.”

Esadien had become emaciated over the past few days. His jawline was more prominent than usual and his lips were rough.

‘The exhausted look suits you, but the original is prettier… No! It’s not this!’

I frantically shook my head.

That appearance is really…..

Anyway, I felt that Esadien’s condition had subsided a little compared to the last time, so I timidly sat down.

‘You have to replenish your physical strength to run away. Yes.’

Just by sitting down, Esadien relaxed his shoulders as if he were relieved.

But that’s all. Without saying anything, he just stared at me with his left hand on the sword handle.

‘No, why is your posture….. Do you want to kill me?’

For insulting you that you’re crazy? Come to think of it, you tried to kill Lafesch last time…..

‘Did, did you sit her down to cut her neck at once?’

Don’t tell me that’s it. Whether I stand, sit or roll forward, Esadien could cut me with a single stroke.

I thought so, but I sat back a little more, swallowing my saliva.

“Well, then why are you appearing like this?”

“It’s…..”

Esadien bowed his head. As if looking into my eyes.

“As I said last time, please keep it simple. To be honest, it’s uncomfortable to meet just the two of us at a time when we broke up.”

“Breaking up. I made it clear that I would not accept breaking up, Minuelle.”

“I told you I don’t forgive you either, Prince.”

“…….”

This silence was unbelievably suspicious. Isn’t it really fun to come and go?

“Don’t you remember….”

“I remember!”

“Ah, yes.”

You can do it if you remember. Why are you screaming? As expected, you’re out of your mind…..?

“I mean, I really wasn’t crazy.”

I was shocked.

‘If you’re just quick-witted.’

Why didn’t you know how I felt when you were quick-witted…..?

Haa. I’m about to get angry again. I shouldn’t think about it at all.

‘Inner peace, inner peace.’

Esadien spoke slowly to me, who secretly practiced Ramande’s breathing method.

“Last time…. I’m sorry. Even if you misunderstood my mental state, I have nothing to say.”

“……”

You must have pride as an imperial family, but you say this.

I looked up with hesitation and made eye contact with Esadien. Unlike last time, his eyes were calm. Like the calm sea I used to know.

Seeing it, I had no choice but to admit that Esadien’s claim was correct.

“I’m sorry, too. I seem to have made a hasty decision.”

When I apologized honestly, Esadien smiled slightly.

“I thought this was because I was only busy hiding my feelings. So I tried to show it……”

“Aahh.”

Thinking about Esadien’s condition, which he did this and that, made me a little convinced.

Now that I think about it, it’s like. It was similar to raising the TV volume and then repeating the mute button.

“It was hard to control.”

But now, he seemed to have gotten used to it. The bitter smile hanging from his lips proved.

“I also thought that I would rather be crazy, if that mean I can go back to the time where I spent my time with you.”

It was a desperate remark. My expression cooled down, but I couldn’t see Esadien, who was lowering his head more and more.

“That’s how much I missed you. I couldn’t stand it, so I asked the Apostle of Flendena.”

There’s a song that’s perfect for this kind of situation.

‘Do your best when you have the chance. Don’t regret it.’

“I told you last time. There’s a time for everything.”

“I’ve thought a lot about it.”

Esadien looked up.

I shuddered as if he wanted to come this way, but I felt more sorry for him than I thought when I recalled the promise.

“Minuelle, aren’t we confused by misunderstanding? If we solve it and you tell me what I’m lacking, I will fix it in the future.”

She swallowed her saliva, perhaps because she was thirsty.

“Am I being too selfish?”

“No, you can think of it that way.”

“Then….”

Esadien’s eyes glistened with hope.

Thinking about whether this person was this easy to understand, I laughed bitterly this time.

“I know what you expect, but I can’t live up to it.”

What I had left behind was not something to look back at.

“More than anything, I don’t get excited when I see the prince now.”

Ash does not catch fire, and I burned my heart for him.

“…….”

“So, I would like you to sign the engagement annulment letter. I hope we don’t have more opportunities like this.”

Esadien, noticing that I was about to get up from my seat, called me urgently.

“Minuelle.”

“Haa. Prince, you’re not going to make any difference….”

“No, wait a minute.”

“What?”

Esadien’s expression changed for an instant.

With that expression on his face, he put his finger in front of his lips. It was when I held my breath and listened as if trying to hear something.