Bondita
"Oye! Where are you lost? Everything is alright na?" Aansh had asked me, sensing something was off.
I sat in the café with Aansh, He came to Mumbai yesterday. I felt like I was carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. I wished I could tell him about the mess in my life but I knew I couldn't keep lying to him for long. He was the only one who had been there for me when I needed someone the most during my that time. I knew he deserved to know about my current situation.
I took a deep breath "Aansh, I want to tell you about-" My words died down as I was about to tell him everything but I saw Anirudh walking towards us with my brother. I couldn't believe my eyes. What was he doing here? Was it another coincidence or did Veer have something to do with this? I remembered him telling me about visiting this café, but why was he helping Anirudh? Didn't he remember what Anirudh had done to his own sister?
Disappointed and upset, I looked at Veer, who avoided my gaze, He couldn't even meet my eyes and looked down in shame. Meanwhile, Anirudh wore a smirk on his face, clearly enjoying my disconcert.
"Hey, Bon isn't that Veer?" Aansh asked excitedly and called him to sit with us.
I felt a wave of panic wash over me as they approached us. I grabbed the hem of my shirt to steady myself, feeling like I was about to lose control.
Just as they reached our table, I made up an excuse and hurriedly rushed to the bathroom, desperate to escape Anirudh.
I stood in front of the mirror, I couldn't help but feel vulnerable. My emotions were all over the place, and the memories of the past started flooding my mind. I knew I had to talk to someone, and the only person that came to my mind was Arya. I quickly dialled her number, and as she answered, I could sense the concern in her voice.
"Bondu, are you crying? What happened?" she asked.
I hesitated for a moment, trying to gather my thoughts and emotions. Finally, I mustered up the courage to speak.
"He is here," I whispered, feeling a lump in my throat.
"Who?" Arya asked, trying to understand.
"Ani-" I couldn't finish his name, as tears started streaming down my face.
Arya paused for a moment, trying to find the right words to say.
"Don't cry over him, Bondita. He's not good for you. Remember how he used to ignore you, even when you tried your best to win him back?" she said, her voice gentle yet stern.
"I do," I replied, wiping my tears with the back of my hand.
"Then why are you crying over him again? You're with Aansh now," she reminded me.
"I know, Arya. I love Aansh, but not romantically. You know that. I thought I had moved on from Anirudh, but when I saw him again after four years, I saw the same emotion in his eyes that used to give me hope back then. I thought I had moved on, but then I saw him again," I explained, feeling a mix of guilt and confusion.
"Bondita, just shut up! How can you forget what you did to move on from him? And now you want all of that to go to complete waste?" Arya scolded me, her tone firm and rude.
I shook my head, remembering exactly what I did to move on from Anirudh.
"You're right," I said, feeling a sense of clarity.
"Good. Now wipe your tears and go back to them. Show Anirudh that his presence doesn't bother you," Arya advised me.
I nodded, feeling grateful for her words of wisdom.
She was right. I couldn't let my emotions get the best of me and hurt Aansh in the process.
Anirudh
As soon as I heard from Veer that Bondita had gone to meet her boyfriend, Aansh, I felt an inexplicable urge to see her. I couldn't resist the temptation of seeing Bondita with her boyfriend, and I decided to pay them a visit. However, as I made my way to the cafe, I felt a strange sense of jealousy that I had never experienced before.
When I finally arrived at the cafe, I saw Bondita and Aansh talking, and my blood boiled with rage. I couldn't believe that she was with another man. My mind was filled with negative thoughts, and I couldn't help but feel betrayed and hurt.
Suddenly, I locked eyes with Bondita, and she seemed surprised to see me. I could sense disappointment in her eyes as she looked at me, and I knew that she was thinking about Veer. Before I could approach her, that boyfriend of her called us over to their table. However, before we could reach their table, Bondita made an excuse and went to the bathroom.
Five minutes had passed, and I started to worry about her. I wondered what she was doing in the bathroom, and many thoughts started to come to my mind. When I decided to check on her, I saw that her eyes were red, and she was crying. My heart felt heavy, and I wanted to hug her and tell her that everything would be okay.
I found many opportunities to talk to her but she completely ignored me. I could feel her pain and knew exactly what she was going through as I had been in her shoes before.
The whole time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, but she didn't even glance at me. After a few minutes of Aansh and Veer talking, we decided to leave. However, I couldn't take Bondita's ignorance anymore and knew that I had to talk to her. But before I could make things difficult for her, I had to leave.
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Veer was visibly upset and kept repeating the same thing over and over again, "This was the last time I helped you. Do you know how bro looked at me disappointedly?" His words were starting to annoy me.
"I can't let her roam around that guy alone, you know that," I said trying to explain my actions.
"Stop making excuses. Aansh was Di's best friend for four years and they are now in a relationship for a few months now," Veer mocked me.
I took a deep breath and said, "Please Veer, I know I hurt your sister and I regret it. I'm still regretting it and I'm ready to apologize to her until she forgives me."
"Don't you remember what Di did to move on from you?" Veer questioned me.
"I do, and I still have the letter," I replied.
The memory of her writing a letter before leaving, confessing about all her feelings, not to propose but to move on from me, was still fresh in my mind.
Flashback
"Ani, Di sent a letter." Veer told me, My heart sank as I heard her name. I was trying to ignore her, but she kept finding ways to come back into my life. I didn't want to go back to her, but it seemed like she didn't understand that.
I wondered why she couldn't just leave me alone. After all, she was the one who lied to me in the first place. But now, she had to send a letter. I felt conflicted and didn't know what to do.
Veer pleaded with me to read the letter, and I reluctantly agreed. After all, what harm could it do? I opened the letter, expecting to see the same old excuses and lies. But what I read shook me to my core.
Dear Anirudh,
I hope you are doing well. I am writing this letter to you because I have been carrying a heavy burden of emotions in my heart for a long time. I don't know if you will read this letter or not, but I hope that by expressing my feelings, I can finally move on and find some peace.
you suddenly broke up with me without giving any clear reason. I was left confused and heartbroken. I tried to understand why you did this, but you never gave me any closure.
What hurt me the most was that you approached me first, and then ignored me like I was nothing to you at first. It made me feel like I was just a temporary distraction for you.
After our break up, you had multiple girlfriends, but what about me? You know about a fact. After our break up I realised that I love you. I did everything possible to get you back, but you never cooperated with me. I knew one thing for sure, that I still loved you and wanted you back in my life. But now I know it was not possible.
I waited for you at the entrance of our college just to get a glimpse of you. I tried to talk to you, but you never gave me the time of day. It has been two years since our break up, and I have finally realized that I need to move on.
I don't want to take my feelings with me to a new beginning. That's why I am confessing to you so that I can be free from these feelings and finally move on. I hope you can understand that it's not easy for me to say this, but I love you, Ani.
Please don't misunderstand my intentions. I am not asking for you to take me back or anything like that. I just wanted to express my feelings to you so that I can finally move on. I hope you will be happy in your life, and I wish you all the best.
Sincerely,
Your Bondu.
I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. I ran outside to where Veer was standing and asked him, "Where is Bondu?"
Veer looked down before replying, "She left for Delhi one hour ago." I was devastated. I had ignored Bondita when, in reality, I loved her. I had always ignored my own feelings, and now it was too late.
I cried that day for the first time. I realized that I needed to take responsibility for my own feelings and decisions. I couldn't keep ignoring them and letting others influence me.
So, I decided to pay a visit to the girl who had been the main problem from the start.
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Any guess who was that girl?
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