Warning: Nazi is included as Poland is
Fighting with his past fear. As it
Also has nationality self worth.
Poland didn't feel well lately as he was struggling with Trauma and insomnia. He didn't want to see Germany and didn't want to see anyone. He locked himself inside his house and shit all blinds, locked all doors and had only a limited amount of lights.
The last time you saw him was a week ago, where you saw him in the market and said hi and started talking to each other. That's how you got to know him so well as he was now a close friend, but distanced the relationship. You went up to his door and knocked, there was no answer, you tried again and the door opened a little and you saw
A glimpse of Poland. The door fully opened as Poland looked at you in shock and concern and asked " Why are you here?" He asked while sobbing. You instantly hug him and cried " Poland, I missed you so much, I'm so glad you " He pulled you in and shut the door and locked it, he pushed you away as you slammed into the wall hard. You were hurt as you
Tried to stand back on your feet. Poland took a few seconds to see what he did as he tried to hug you, but you backed away a little. You started to cry thinking he was gonna hurt you again. But said " y/b I'm so sorry. Please come here, I didn't mean to " He gestured for a hug as he was actually genuine, as a few tears escaped his eyes. You slowly walk up to him
And hugged him calmly as he hugs you tight not letting go " I'm so glad you're here, your the most one out of the people I wanted to see " He said laying his chin on your shoulder. You smile and asked " Poland, tell me. I know there's something wrong, and you need to tell me " You said touching his shoulder. " I'm having
Dreams that feel so real. Ww2, the Nazi's they came back, they're going to kill me, I can feel them!!" He panicked. You pull him in your lap as he cried in your chest. You stroke his back as you tell him to calm down. " Poland I know a way that can ease your trauma against one of the most scaring things that happened to you. But in order to that, I'm afraid it will include
A large shock or scare " He nods in agreement knowing how painful this will be, but he didn't wanna suffer forever, so he asked " how do we do this? " " well first we need to sleep, I need to sleep with you " He blushed as you said " oh Poland I meant go to bed at the same time with you " You stutter as he smiles for a quick second. He grabs your arm and goes upstairs to
His bedroom. You look at his large bed as he smiles and nods as you knew what he meant. You took off your H&M jacket as you laid on is bed, you wore waist Jean shorts and a tight white shirt. He took off his brown sweater and got on the bed with you, he wore a white shirt with a collar and black pants. " ok, now Poland. We are gonna have to sleep, but when you sleep you cannot move, ok? " You say firmly
He brings you in and cuddles you as you excepted and relaxed and went to bed while being close to him.
You appear in a dark abyss as you see Poland already waiting. He looks at you and flies closer to you as you ask " Poland are you ready " He nods " Remember there is no turning back. Just remember that you are strong and that you have the power and potential to defeat fears that you think, you cannot overcome " He smiles and says " Thank you" As you both stopped floating and stood on the dark abyss.
As you see the ground crack as red neon lights
occur in every crack, you saw it went straight for Poland, Poland didn't see it come fast, as he felt the ground below his vanish as he hung from the edge of the broken black floor in the abyss. He felt hands grab him as he started to whimper, knowing he will be pulled down. You stood there saying
" Poland, do not call for me to help you in aid. This is your fear, you have to overcome the fears yourself as they are your own weakness " Poland sighed as he tried fighting back. " You have to let them take you Poland, you have to find the center and destroy it. I know it's painful but trust me, it gets easier the more you go through it " You smile while Poland reluctantly let the hands grab him and pull him down from the top down to another layer of the dark abyss.
Poland finally reached the floor as you tossed him a weapon. A giant blue ora glowing axe, he saw large hands reaching out from the ground trying to crush him as there lots of them. The hand punched him as he flew backwards.
" You're week " Poland heard. He again was attacked by another arm grabbing him and throwing him to the ground as he slid from one side to another. " Pathetic " He heard from behind.
Again and again he kept getting thrown around, beaten " You're nothing " " Dishonor " " You've let yourself down " " you let the others go " " You can't win " " How can a country not be able to protect himself when he has the potential and determination that endures his understanding on having the abilities to win? " Yet he chooses to be such. A joke.. " It struck him here to there. " Y/n I can't do this, I'm
Too week, I can't do anything, I'm a failure. I couldn't protect the things I cared for the most " He whimpered as then now saw war flashbacks and war images as he heard the awful sounds of war. " Poland when past fear arises, who are you to let them win. Are you going to let them take your future, that's not what you want. You can do this, I know you can. You have an amazing power that can increase your mental strength and that every word they say, is them, it's not you. What they say is not you until you start to agree with them " You say.
Poland smiles as he picks up the axe once again and strikes every arm he sees. " I am important " " I am strong and independent " "I love and let go " " I have strengths " " I have a worth that out stands the discouragement that applies to me from another nations " " I am Myself and you are not part of me, and you are no longer what I thought could have controlled me forever " He said which each hit the hard started to disappear. He became stronger with every realization and understanding he discovered. As he saw the center, the Nazi symbol that glowed from the color purple and strikes the center.
You both slowly wake up as he immediately hugs you and says " Thank you so much. I love you " He says kissing your forehead, you smile and pull him by the neck closer. He giggled and says " I've learnt now. It may be past that we need to remember because we have to make sure to not let it happen again. But I realized I can't keep fearing forever, it makes it even more scarier and harder to cope with " He smiles " Yes, something's are so painful you start to remember them forever, but at least
You learnt how awful it was and that you know
To not start one and to not get involved in one. And when your overpowered, you fight and give it everything you've got. The best thing you can do for yourself Is to except the fact it happened, and to not dwell on the past, and make sure your future is bright and safe. Most importantly, making sure your happy " You say as you kiss his cheek. He guys you again as you both get up and open everything up, you both
Went downstairs as Poland cooked food while you cleared up most messy parts of his house. You walk and sit on the couch as you tie your jacket on your waist as Poland pulls you in closer. " I love you Poland " You smiled while blushing. He hugged you back as he calmly whispers " I love you too, so much " He says as you lay your head on his shoulder. The food dings as you got off his shoulder and he went into the kitchen and brought the food out.
He gives you a bowl as you the food as you don't recognize it but looked interested " Oh n/n I forgot to tell you, that's gorÄ ce pÅatki owsiane which translate Hot oatmeal? " He giggles you eat a mouth full and blush as you said " it taste really good though " He looked confused and said " have you never tried oatmeal with milk and fruit? " He asked. Ly" Not like this one though it's amazing " You said eating all of the food. He smiled and said " thank you " You blushed and saw he was tired.
" I'm so proud of you Poland " You said while looking away. He turns you around and gets on top of you while hugging you close. You giggle as he was warm. He was very very soft, as his scent was comforting and that his breathes you felt, made him feel calmer. You slowly got up and grabbed the two bowls and walk to the kitchen " Oh n/n no need to it's ok " He says gesturing you to sit back down " Aww Pol Ymir's see you're a little tired. Take a rest, I don't mind " You say while walking to the kitchen as you hum while waning the bowls
( bro you can eat hot oatmeal it's pretty guud so for some of you, d-don't look at me like that T^T )
And spoons. You felt Poland hug you by your waist as he rests his chin on your shoulder. You blush hard, because you always felt weird in this position because it felt submissive. Poland did not let you go as you were done doing the dishes and dried the bowls and spoons. " Poland? " You ask in a high voice. He lets go of you and grabs the bowls and spoons and puts them back to where they belong and pulled grabbed your hand and went back upstairs. He pushed you onto the bed as he took of your jacket and set it down to the side as he climbed on top of you and said " I want cuddle time " He says smirking. He pull him down as he lays on top of you as you said " Good Afternoon Poland " " Good afternoon " He says while hugging you tight. you both then slowly drift to sleep.