"I have talked and screamed and listened and cried today. Now I want to fight."
"I'm not gonna fight you." Luca replied, his hands by his sides while I was in position. "Well too bad, I was really looking forward to a challenge." With that I took a swing, my fist connecting with his jaw, I didn't hear the ever so satisfying crack but even a little action like this was exhilarating.
Luca staggered back, hand cradling his jaw, eyes wide in shock, he tried to form a sentence but I honestly didn't care for words right now. Stalking up to him I landed a punch to his stomach, as he hunched over I brought my knee up to his face. He falls to the ground hands covering his nose as blood started to seep out.
Now don't get me wrong, I wasn't a sadist. But seeing his eyes water in pain and seeing the blood drip from his nose to his white west, made me smile in pure satisfaction. "Get up, bitch." Lightly nudging him with my foot.
He got up, "Kate please can we just talk about-." I cut him off trying to get a hit in but this time he blocked it and swung at me, as my head whipped to the side, I ran my tongue over my lower lip, and I was left with the metallic taste of blood. "Finally." I muttered under my breath.
Facing him again, I pulled out the karambit knives, tucked into the back of my slacks. "Time to make this interesting." Luca's eyes widened, "Since when are you keeping knives on you?" I shrug, "Since I had to gut a man who tried to get a little to handsy while asking for directions. Also.... Element of surprise."
We went on like this for a couple of minutes, I took swings at him while he dodged, he barely got a chance to hit me, he was left playing defence while I had the time of my life. Somewhere in between I abandoned the knives wanting to hit him with my bare hands.
At last I swiped his legs from beneath him, as he landed flat on his back, I got up on him, my left forearm on his neck keeping him from getting up, and my right fist raised waiting to be brought down. Just one more punch, just one more and he'll black out.
He deserved it right? Yes, yes he did, the words he said, the looks he gave me did a lot more damage to me than a simple punch would do to him. He body relaxed underneath me.
My hand hovered over his face, "Do it. I deserve this." He said, in a defeated voice. This time I didn't think, I didn't let myself concentrate too much on what was going to happen. I wanted to hurt him, make him feel pain the same way he did. "Yes, yes you do."
I brought my hand down in full force, the sound reverberated through the empty room. The thudding of skin coming in contact with the plastic mat on the floor. Both of us were breathing heavy, Luca slowly opened his eyes, confusion plastered over his face on not feeling the impact.
Fuck! I punched the mat again and again and again, until my wrist was stopped halfway, Luca caught it only then did I notice the force of my punches had lead to my knuckles bleeding. "Ugh I hate you." I spat as I payed down because Luca catching my breath.
"Why didn't you do it?" He asked I didn't look at him, but I felt the stare on me. Staring at the ceiling I answered "Because if I did. I'd become her. Hurting others just to make myself feel less weaker. And I'd light myself on fire before I ever came close to being her."
We were silent for a while until Luca spoke up again. "So what's our situation now?" "What does that mean?" Even thought I knew very well what he meant "Kate, I can't even begin to explain myself to you, I mean the shit I said was beyond fucked up and if there is anything I can do to prove to you how sorry I am about this I would. Just name it and I'd do it."
I let out a laugh, "See that's the thing, I just don't know what I want from you. I mean I want to forgive you, god help me I do. I want my brother but I just can't forgive you without knowing something like this won't happen again, I- I don't know." I turned towards the side, looking at him, he looks towards me as well. "I get that. Just know, when you do figure it out, just tell me and I'll do it. Until then I'll just have to work on it on my own."
I nodded my head, agreeing with him, a drowsy smile on my face as I grew tired. The confrontation earlier today and add to that the fight right now, I was fucking exhausted. Luca was still talking but I was too exhausted to pay attention. I don't know at what point but I fell asleep listening to him talk about some story about our brothers.
I had woken up in my bed, still in the same clothes, I didn't remember actually coming up here. Luca must have brought me up to my room, as I tried to rub my eyes, I saw the bandage wrapped around my knuckles. A small smile spread across my lips.
I can't even remember the last time I tended to a small injury like this, the limited supplies were saved for the bad injuries, cuts like this were just ran under the water and left to be healed on their own. God, life has sure changed.
I took a lengthy shower, scrubbing my body almost raw wanting to feel fresh and get all the negativity of yesterday off my body. After getting changed into a pair of scrunched jeans, a black top and a shirt over it. I put on my boots and went down for breakfast.
Everyone was already there, as I entered the idle chatter stopped immediately but nonetheless I made my way towards the fridge in the mood for cereal. Getting the milk out and pouring the cereal into a bowl, adding the milk I took a seat at the table. The others still quite.
"What are you staring at?" I ask, their silence was getting annoying. Alex silently gestures to my wrapped knuckles and then over to Luca's face which I now noticed for the first time and let me tell you it did not look good.
"Shit happened last night. And by now you should know that I've dealt with worse." That just seemed to make their faces even more pale. "Oh come on, now that you know you're gonna have on start dealing with my sardonic humour a lot more often." An amused smile playing on my lips.
Finally as everyone started to settle back into their normal morning routine I notices Marco kept looking at me again and again, as if contemplating weather to say something or not. "Speak." I said out loud silencing all the other ongoing conversations.
As I was met with confused looks, I pointed my spoon towards Marco, "You're hesitating about saying something. I don't like people who aren't confident in what they want to say, so either speak now or move on."
Finally Marco spoke up "I was- was just thinking, if you are an actual assaying and a fighter why didn't you ever, I mean why didn't you ever fight back?" I wasn't expecting that. A sad smile echoed on my lips as my mind went back, thinking truly about why I didn't ever fight back.
"Because I was stupid, 16 years and I still held hope, hope that maybe she would change, maybe-just maybe she would be different. You know what's fucked up? If she cam here, right now. And apologised, nothing big just a simple 'I'm sorry', I'd forgive in a heartbeat. No questions asked.
It really it's screwed up how what she did to me is a thousand times worse than what you three did." I pointed towards Marco, Dante and Luca. "Yet with her it doesn't matter, I try to think of a time where she was an actual mother to me, I can't think of any. But even through all of this even after the hell she has put me through, I still wanted a mother, I wanted someone who didn't feel happy as they carved my skin, I wanted someone who loved me."
Small tears had pooled in the corners of my eyes, blurring my vision slightly. I cleared my throat and blinked the tears away. I felt a hand wraparound mine, looking up to see Dante with a comforting smile on his face. Not pitiful. Comforting. And I squeezed his hand back, a sign that I was okay.
The rest of the day was spent with nothing much exciting happening. But our family was getting priced back together, I was going to have people who cared for me, me accepting and forgiving the others for their past actions was going to be hard but it going to happen none the less.
One day at a time.
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Hello beautiful people! Another chapter is out. Katherine whole confrontation is finally over. I am not to practices with writing fight scenes, so I really hoped you liked this oneð¤
I have so many plans for the upcoming chapters,it's all just a big mess but I have decided to introduce our long awaited sharpshooter, Sophia very very soon. So stay tuned for that!!
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