In the Beijing Hospital, Jiang Nuan sat on a chair in the corridor of the hospital with a list in her hand, with a lot of thoughts in her mind.
The doctor's words echoed in his mind.
"Seven weeks pregnant, in good health, and the twins' fetal heart rate is normal."
Later, the doctor explained the pregnancy precautions, but she didn't listen to a word, and her mind was in a mess. How could she be pregnant? And she was pregnant with two!
Obviously Xu Yan wears it every time she does it...
But she also knows that no contraceptive method can achieve 100% contraceptive effect.
But it was too sudden and unreal. She never thought about pregnancy, at least she is still in school now, and she will not put pregnancy on the agenda for a few years. Although grandpa wanted to hug his grandson very much, but He has never urged her, let alone Xu Yan. He has always focused on her wishes. She is still young and not ready to become a mother...
Why did she come to the hospital for an examination? It has to start from this morning. Speaking of.
This morning, she felt tight in her chest. She got up early and went for a walk in the park after washing.
She walked by and heard the first mother talking about her daughter-in-law's pregnancy, saying that her daughter-in-law hadn't had her period for two months and didn't think about pregnancy. If she didn't vomit and dizzy yesterday and went to the hospital for an examination, she would know that she was pregnant. 10 weeks.
After all, the aunt patted her chest in fear, saying that her daughter-in-law's work is intense and her temper is careless, and she is really afraid of knocking... After
talking for a long time, the aunt also glanced at the watch on her wrist, and said: With a smile on his lips, he said that he would go to the vegetable market earlier to buy meat and bones, and he would make soup for his daughter-in-law to nourish her body.
The aunts around congratulated her repeatedly, and talked about a lot of things to pay attention to during pregnancy and nourishing foods for pregnant women.
Jiang Nuan's heart skipped a beat after listening to one ear. She suddenly realized that she didn't come to her period last month. She was very busy because of the final week, so she didn't care. A hunch.
I simply came to the hospital for an examination, listening to the fetal heart rate, blood test and urine test, and ordinary B-ultrasound. After a process, as expected, I was pregnant.
Jiang Nuan sat in the hospital for a while before leaving. She was very upset and didn't want to go home, so she wandered aimlessly in the big park next to the hospital. Today is cloudy, the sun is not out, and there is still a bit of wind. It's not too hot, and there are still people picnicking and flying kites on the lawn in the park, almost all young parents with their children.
Jiang Nuan found a chair and sat down quietly looking at the cute kid running wildly and laughing. Her mood was a bit complicated. Who doesn't like human cubs, but the key is to let her give birth, she is afraid.
There are many women who fear marriage and childbirth in the future. The marriage rate and birth rate of the population are getting lower and lower. It has also aroused heated discussions on the Internet and is frequently searched. Comments, every time you watch, add a little trick for fear of life.
She looks scared, let alone giving birth, and now she is not painless... It really gets worse the more I think about it.
"It's going to rain, pack up your things!" The
picnickers packed up their things one after another and walked out of the park.
A young mother was about to leave, when she turned her head and saw the delicate and bright girl sitting alone on the chair under the tree. People feel pity.
She stepped forward quickly, patted the girl's shoulder lightly, and said softly: "Girl, go home quickly, it's going to rain." The
voice interrupted Jiang Nuan's thoughts, she looked at The strange young woman in front of her looked concerned and thanked her politely.
The woman smiled and said that you are welcome, and hurried to her husband and children who were waiting not far away, watching the backs of the family of three leaving, Jiang Nuan looked back, looked up, and there was an iron blue flower hovering in the sky Clouds, thick black clouds squeezed the sky, and soon, the clouds were overcast, and the wind roared.
Jiang Nuan hurriedly got up and walked to the entrance of the hotel not far away. Just as he walked under the eaves, it was pouring down with heavy rain.
Jiang Nuan looked at the heavy rain in front of her. The rain was too heavy, and she didn't bring an umbrella, so she wouldn't be able to leave for a while.
There was a tempting aroma coming from the restaurant, her stomach growled, she looked down at her watch, it turned out that it was already noon.
She didn't eat breakfast, and now she was so hungry that she couldn't help touching her flat belly, pursed her lips, and went into the restaurant.
For a long time, Jiang Nuan looked at the two clean bowls of dumplings, and fell into deep thought again. No wonder she has eaten so much recently. According to the past, she could only eat one bowl of dumplings, at most one and a half bowls. Now she finished eating two bowls of dumplings. The bowl also wants to eat other things.
It turned out that there were already signs of pregnancy. During this period of time, in addition to eating a lot, she also slept a lot.
Jiang Nuan saw the girl eating sour plum soup next to her, and she swallowed her saliva in disappointment. She really wanted to drink it, and she really wanted to eat the spicy braised duck neck...
so greedy, so greedy, no! Jiang Nuan shook her head, wouldn't her small waist and slender limbs disappear faster and become more exaggerated if she ate her like this?
But she was really about to cry...
After lunch and sitting for a while, the rain outside became lighter, and there was a child selling umbrellas at the door, so she bought one.
The ground was wet and some roads were slippery, so she walked carefully.
I went to the nearby snack street, drank sour plum soup, ate duck neck, took a break, and then went to the Friendship Store. She wanted to buy two looser skirts, and she stopped when she passed the area where baby products were sold.
When Jiang Nuan came out of the store with big bags and small bags, it was after four o'clock in the afternoon, and the rain outside had stopped, but the sky was a bit gloomy.
Thinking that she didn't say anything to Xu Yan after coming out for so long, and didn't leave a note, she stomped her feet in annoyance, caring about her own mood, he should be worried.
It was already 5 o'clock when I got home. I opened the courtyard door and went in. I looked at the window. The curtains were closed tightly, and it was dark without a trace of light.
Xu Yan is not at home? Did he go out to find her?
Opening the door, Jiang Nuan turned on the light. The bright light made her see a slumped man on the sofa in the living room with his back arched and his hands on his knees. He looked at her with dark eyes, and his dark eyes seemed depressed. with a certain emotion.
She was startled, froze in place, and said cautiously: "Brother, why don't you turn on the light at home? I didn't..." I told you that I went out, and I'm sorry for making you worry.
Before she could finish speaking, Xu Yan's cold question came from her ear.
"Where did you go? Why didn't you tell me, look at what time it is now, do you know that this is very worrying? Do you know, how to write the word worry? Have you considered my feelings? "The
voice was very low and hoarse, like rolling gravel, and it was also very cold. The low air pressure radiating from her body made her feel chilly all over her body. He had never spoken to her in such a tone.
After finishing speaking, he turned his head to the side, facing her with the cold back of his head, as if he didn't want to see her.
Her aggrieved eyes immediately turned red, why didn't she know that he was worried, but after knowing such a big thing today, her mind was in a mess, and when she remembered that she didn't tell him when she went out, she was also very worried that he would worry, As soon as he thought of it, he rushed back, and he was hungry after shopping, but he still held on.
She didn't know why he was so cold to her, she didn't mean it, why didn't he understand her at all? He's starting to be aggressive with her now, and treats her coldly and violently. Does it mean that he doesn't love her anymore? Look at this attitude? Will he still upgrade in the future, will he still beat her?
Look at his deep and indifferent eyes just now, as if he wanted to kill her.
The more she thought about it, the more she felt that her thinking was very reasonable. She was angry and wronged, and tears welled up in her eyes.
She angrily threw the few bags she was carrying onto the ground.
There was a muffled sound on the wooden floor, and the clothes in the bag were scattered, including skirts, baby clothes, and a pregnancy test sheet lying on it.
Hearing the sound, Xu Yan turned his head, lowered his bloodshot eyes and glanced at the ground, the list was the one he entered.
He stared blankly, looked and looked, and picked it up stiffly with trembling hands.
The great surprise washed away most of the panic, fear and discomfort in his heart, and he raised his head to glance at the entrance.
Wei Song's body and mood immediately repeated the same mistakes when she saw her tears streaming down her cheeks, her whole body immediately tensed up, her heart ached to the point where she couldn't breathe.
He stood up, walked to Jiang Nuan in two or three steps, and looked at her helplessly.
Jiang Nuan pursed her lips tightly, looked at him with tears in her eyes, turned her back without saying a word, raised her right hand to rest on the doorknob, she didn't want to stay here for a moment.
Cold violence, right? He's not the only one who knows!
"Where are you going?" Xu Yan grabbed her arm and said anxiously.
Jiang Nuan cried and got angry at him: "Don't worry about it! Let me go! I just don't know how to write about worrying. I have never considered your feelings. I am as selfish as you think! Let go, I want Get out of here, and I will take the babies and disappear from your world!" She pulled his hand away vigorously, and beat him while crying, trying to knock his hand off, but her hand hurt from slapping him. The hands were still as tight as pincers, and she couldn't walk at all.
Hearing the word "disappear", Xu Yan's expression froze, his heart ached, and the pain pierced his bones. He gritted his teeth and growled: "Leave? Disappear? No! You and the children are mine!" The strength is unconsciously increased.
Jiang Nuan exhaled in pain, "It hurts..." He used "violence" against her again, right? She was in a bad mood at first, and the fear of pregnancy kept pressing her down. Her hands hurt and her heart hurt too. The pain was killing her. She stopped struggling and cried out with a "wow" with her mouth open.
The strength in Xu Yan's hands was immediately removed. Seeing her heartbroken crying with her back to him, and her whole body trembling uncontrollably, he suppressed the red eyes and burst into tears.
He carefully wrapped her arms around her from the back, took her arm, kissed her, and said in a hoarse voice: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, please don't go, don't leave me, if you feel uncomfortable, hit me and scold me, okay?" , don't ignore me, let alone leave or disappear, okay, please..." After
a long time, the crying in the room gradually died down.
On the sofa, Jiang Nuan was being hugged and coaxed by a man. His clothes were wet. Although it wasn't cold, it was uncomfortable to be hugged by him like this.
She struggled slightly, Xu Yan thought that the hug was too tight, and she was uncomfortable, but he loosened his strength, he didn't dare to hug her hard, he just hugged her weakly, he patted her on the back lightly, and the sound of coaxing her was louder than her. Just a little bit dumber.
"Baby, don't cry, it's my fault, I hurt you, I shouldn't hurt you, are you thirsty? Do you want to drink water?"
Jiang Nuan looked at his red eyes, feeling uncomfortable in her heart, she knew it was It was her fault that she made him worry, but when she thought of his questioning tone and his indifferent eyes just now, she felt wronged. Is she still her favorite baby, and she is pregnant with his two babies? , how could he be so fierce to her, just now he was cold and violent to her, even though it was only for a while, she felt very uncomfortable.
With a cold face, she turned her head aside without saying a word, not wanting to look at him.
Let him also have a taste of cold violence.
Xu Yan also knew that his appearance just now frightened her, and he said that to her just because he was too scared, afraid that she would never appear in his life like in a dream...
Xu Yan hugged her Get up, hold her buttocks and go to the kitchen to boil water.
After the water was boiled, he mixed a glass of warm water for her to drink. After drinking, he carried her to the bathroom, wiped her face, and coaxed her very patiently. Jiang Nuan's mood improved a lot.
Seeing that her clothes were soaked by his, Xu Yan was afraid that she would catch a cold, so he put hot water in the bathtub, took off the clothes on both of them, and held her in the hot bath.
He pressed her legs, shoulders and waist, and saw that her mood had recovered, and her face turned rosy, he kissed her cheek, and coaxed:
"Baby, it's my fault, give me a chance, okay, today Are you afraid of going to the hospital? Tell me later, I will accompany you..."
Speaking of the hospital, Jiang Nuan couldn't help sobbing, and tears overflowed again.
"Honey, what's the matter? Don't cry, don't cry..." Xu Yan pulled her into his arms, and became anxious again. She didn't speak, and he didn't know how to coax her well.
Jiang Nuan wrapped his legs around his waist, hugged his neck, and pear blossom's small rainy face was buried in his broad shoulders and neck.
The water in the bathtub was very warm, and Xu Yan served her very comfortably. She finally couldn't control what happened today and the fear in her heart: "Brother, brother, I'm afraid. I was talking about pregnancy, and I found out that I didnât have my period last month, so I went for a checkup. The doctor said that I had two babies in my stomach, and they were obviously covered. Why would I still be pregnant? I was so scared, I Afraid of having a baby, it hurts so much, brother, Iâm really scared, Iâm most afraid of pain, I donât want to have a baby, but I like babies, wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooâ¦
â When he got the pregnancy test form, he was pleasantly surprised and happy. The woman you love gave birth to you and gave birth to the crystallization of their love. Looks scared.
He also knew that giving birth was painful, and Jiao Baobao couldn't stand the pain at all. When she found out that she was pregnant, how helpless and frightened she must be. For a while, he was also annoyed that the contraceptive effect of the condom was not 100%.
"Honey, I'm sorry for making you wronged..." Xu Yan kept comforting her.
Jiang Nuan's mood gradually slowed down, she raised her head to look at him with red eyes, and kept sobbing, "Brother, you can't be fierce like today, I didn't mean it, my mind is too messed up..."
"Well, I'm sorry baby , I was just too worried, I was afraid that you really disappeared..."
Jiang Nuan kissed his lips tenderly, "I'm sorry, why did I disappear, I will always be by your side, I want to be with my husband For a long time, forever..."
Xu Yan laughed out loud, and his heart that had been hurting for a day was healed immediately. He kissed his sweet baby's red eye sockets from crying, and then asked her to raise her head slightly, Help her wash her hair.
Jiang Nuan hugged him, thinking that she would become fat when she was pregnant, and she was in a bad mood again, her mouth pouted high.
Xu Yanbo kissed her, and asked in a low voice: "What's the matter, baby?"
Jiang Nuan groaned twice, and said in a low voice: "Brother, pregnancy will make you ugly and fat, what should I do if I'm not beautiful?"
Xu Yan said softly Coaxing: "No, you are born beautiful, how could you be ugly?"
"Brother, I'm hungry, I'm hungry."
"Whatever I want to eat, I'll make it for you later."
Jiang Nuan thought for a while, with a greedy expression on her face Said like this: "I want to eat hot and sour noodles, sour and spicy, and I also want to eat hot and sour fish, and I also want to eat boneless lemon chicken feet, brother, is it too much..."
"No, you If you want to eat, I will make it for you."
After the
two of them took a shower, Xu Yan dressed her and carried her to the sofa in the living room. He went in and washed a plate of fruit for her to eat.
Then quickly go to the kitchen to cook, and don't let the delicate baby be hungry for too long.
Xu Yan was very quick, and quickly prepared the dishes that Jiang Nuan wanted to eat. Jiang Nuan was already sitting on the table waiting eagerly. The dishes were really delicious, and she was so hungry.
Jiang Nuan's stomach was like a bottomless pit. She ate a lot until she couldn't eat anymore. She touched her bulging stomach and cried again.
She has a small belly now.
Xu Yan put down his chopsticks, and quickly picked her up to comfort her, "Baby is not fat, baby is the most beautiful, starting tomorrow, I will do exercises with you, don't cry, let's go to the park to eat and drink later."
Jiang Nuan His emotions came and went quickly, and he was soon coaxed by Xu Yan.
...
After washing up in the evening, Xu Yan lay on the bed with her fragrant and soft baby in her arms. After a while, the baby fell asleep. The warm light at the head of the bed shone on her cute and pretty sleeping face, making her very warm. Yes, he stared intently and fieryly for a long, long time, he was not willing to blink, as if if he blinked, she would turn into a butterfly and fly away.
From last night to this morning, he had a long, long dream. In the dream, he watched the life of "Xu Yan" in the dream from the perspective of God as a bystander.
"Xu Yan" in the dream did not return to the army in the capital as early as he did. "Xu Yan" stayed in the army in the mountain village until he was about 25 years old before returning to the city. There was also a girl named "Jiang Nuan" in the dream. He saw With just one glance at "Jiang Nuan" in his dream, he knew that this was not his sweet baby. Although the appearance was the same, his personality and smile were different from his sweet baby.
"Xu Yan" in the dream also received a letter from his grandfather at the same time as him in reality, but "Xu Yan" greeted the village head when he was going down the mountain, and asked the village head to take care of "Jiang Nuan", so he didn't worry about it. Regardless of her, the two have never spoken, and there is no intersection at all.
Not long after, "Xu Yan" heard that "Jiang Nuan" was married to a second-rater in the village and was killed by domestic violence. "Xu Yan" looked calm, without any disturbance, and just helped "Jiang Nuan" deal with the funeral.
He, who watched all this from the sidelines, felt complicated and unspeakable. Although he was not his sweet baby, his heart was very heavy.
"Xu Yan" stayed in the army in the mountain village for three years, so he didn't experience the earthquake in Liao City, the rescue of the army commander, and the entrance to the military academy.
Later, after "Xu Yan" returned to the Beijing army, he also served as the head of the Beijing army. At that time, "Zhao Zhenyang" had the same position as "Xu Yan", and "Zhao Zhenyang" did not violate discipline as in reality, on the contrary. "Zhao Zhenyang" has obtained the merits he has obtained in reality one by one, and his official career is bright.
In the dream, the grandfather has been helping "Xu Yan" to introduce a partner, but "Xu Yan" refuses like a broken love, and the forced blind date also faces each other with a cold face. His face is as dark as the king of Hades, scaring all the girls away. Grandpa is angry Leave him alone.
Soon after, "Xu Yan" in the dream died, in the spring of the year after his 25th birthday, because he saved two children in a large fire.
After "Xu Yan" died, his grandfather heard the news, and his illness came like a mountain, and his illness went like a spinning thread. He was so depressed that he was bedridden for several months, and soon passed away.
The ending of the dream is that "Xu Yan" was named a martyr, and there is a tablet belonging to him in the martyr's cemetery.
In front of the tombstone, he saw his familiar comrades-in-arms, as well as his aunt, Fa Xiao, holding chrysanthemums, standing in front of his tombstone with a painful expression.
After reading "Xu Yan"'s life, he was stunned, his heart was heavy and painful, and he, who was a bystander, had already burst into tears.
After waking up from the dream, he couldn't tell whether it was a dream or reality. The dream was too real, so real that he seemed to be in another world. He was really like in the dream. Without the sweet baby he loved, he would still be like in the dream He died young, and because of his death, his grandfather couldn't get sick, so he went with him.
Now, everything is different from the dream, he is very lucky, now he is almost 26 years old, it is midsummer, the date of death of "he" in the dream has passed, and now he still has his beloved baby, grandpa is in good health .
Even so, he still felt uneasy, eager to see his jiaobao, only to find that jiaobao was gone.
Since he woke up this morning, he has been looking, looking, looking for the place where she usually goes. After searching for a long time, he couldn't find it, as if she really didn't exist like in the dream.
He panicked and frightened, he found the rain when it never rained, and found the rain stopped when it rained, but she still didn't show up.
He returned home in despair, and there was her smell everywhere in the house, but she disappeared...
He thought at that time, if she really disappeared out of thin air, then he really couldn't live on, he couldn't live without her, she It was his life...
Fortunately, he was lucky, Jiao Baobei was always there, she was still pregnant with his little baby, and she didn't never come to his world like in her dream.
Seeing the delicate baby sleeping in his arms, at this moment, his heart was extremely soft, warm and happy.
He reverently kissed her forehead, eyelids, and lips, and gently touched her flat belly.
He looked at the delicate baby in his arms, slightly raised the corners of his mouth, and said extremely gently: "Baby, I love you, we will never leave."
Hearing the sleeping sweet baby hum and chirp "Yeah", as if answering his words, his heart was so soft that
the moon was extraordinarily bright after the rain, and the light came in through the gauze curtain, which was very beautiful.
Xu Yan focused on looking at the delicate baby in his arms, and felt that in this life, when he met her, all the good things in the world had already fallen into his hands.