âFeels weird being here,â Catherine says, huddling into her oversized cardigan. Despite the warmth of late summer, Catherine huddles up like Iâve taken her to lunch in the dead of winter. I wonât comment though. Given what sheâs been through, itâs a wonder she even agreed to a quiet lunch at our favorite place.
âDo you want to leave?â Placing my teacup down, I cross one leg over the other and relax back in my chair. âI donât mind if you do.â
âNo.â Catherine shakes her head and tucks a few strands of hair behind her ear. âItâs good to be here, I just â¦â She glances over her shoulder and shrugs. âI feel like Iâm just waiting.â
âSeth canât hurt you anymore,â I remind her gently. âAnd I had this entire place cleared out. Thereâs no one here but me and you, a couple of staff, and my bodyguards. Youâre safe.â
âYou still wonât tell me what happened between you and Seth?â Catherine fixes me with a slightly accusatory look.
I maintain my innocence with a smile. âNothing happened.â
âI donât believe you,â she replies, the accusation slipping into her tone, but a small smile slips onto her lips.
âItâs better this way.â I resume drinking my tea. âBesides, Seth was ⦠entertainment on date night.â
âWith Roman?â Catherineâs entire aura shifts and curiosity sparks in her eyes. âThe guy you hate.â
âExactly.â A lie. âHate is a strong word.â
âIs it?â She tilts her head and nibbles delicately on the corner of a sandwich. âYour families have been at war for years. His dad had you kidnapped and traumatized as a teen. Heâs also responsible for the deaths of so many of your people.â
âTrue, as am I for his,â I reply, then a deep sigh rushes through me. âI donât know. In the beginning, it was purely business. We both had goals, and an alliance was the only way to reach those goals.â
âAnd now?â
âNow itâs ⦠complicated.â
âBecause youâre addicted to his dick.â
âCatherine!â Heat rushes across my face as we laugh. âItâs not like that. Although he is extremely attentive.â Memories of last weekâs date flood my mind. âHeâs so ⦠powerful, and knowing heâs the man who saved me all those years ago just somehow makes everything ⦠I canât explain it. My crush suddenly has a face, and itâs a really handsome face. And he saved my life.â
âYou like him,â Catherine singsongs. âYou do, donât you?â
âI donât.â
âOh my God you do, look at your face! Youâre as red as a plum!â Catherine breaks out into giggles and finishes her sandwich gleefully. âHeâs not a fantasy anymore, heâs really real. So whatâs holding you back?â
âI â¦â Sinking my teeth into my lower lip, I groan. âI donât know. My hatred of him was so ⦠situational, yâknow? Based on what he and his family did, not him as a person. But now I know him, and he seems so sweet. Genuine. And also pained.â
âWe love a tortured soul,â Catherine grins.
Just the thought of his mother and how heâs cozied up to that man for decades just to get his revenge makes my chest ache. âBut my parents ⦠oddly enough after we had dinner together, my mother became very enamored with him. She talks about him as if heâs my regular boyfriend. But then in the same breath, the wedding causes fights between her and my father.â
âMaybe she just hates Romanâs father.â
âHonestly, Iâm not sure. Thereâs a lot of bad blood there, and I suppose even though she likes him, she thinks the union is bad. And sheâs always furious at my father for organizing it. Which is also weird.â I lean forward and rest my elbow on the table. âThis was my idea, and yet my father is acting like itâs his. Which was my original plan, but heâs like, fully running with it now. I mean, I think even if I came clean, he would call me a liar.â
âYour father is very â¦â Catherine searches for the right words with a hum. âDriven. Maybe the opportunities this creates are too much for him to pass up, and heâs drowning under the success.â
âYouâre probably right. He did say something about this being his ticket to greatness.â I slump back. âSo all in all, if my parents can work through their friction, then Iâll be marrying Roman soon at a huge wedding, and I will actually enjoy it.â
âLook at you!â Catherine laughs loudly. âYouâre smiling like heâs your first crush.â
âOh, shut up!â I launch a grape at her, increasing her laughter and with it, the warmth in my heart. Seeing her this animated and happy after everything with Seth fills my chest with delight. I have no doubts about getting rid of him, but seeing her thrive in his absence is the biggest reward.
âShould we get some champagne?â Catherine asks with a grin.
âActually â¦â The warmth in my chest dissipates. âAbout that.â
âWhatâs wrong?â Catherine sobers immediately.
âIâm two weeks late.â
âLate?â Her eyes dart down to my stomach. âOh my God. Do you think ⦠?â
âI donât know. My periodâs never been regular, and you remember when I was a teen and Iâd go months without anything? Normally, I wouldnât think anything of it.â
âBut you and Roman have been fucking like rabbits.â
âExactly.â
âWell, you know what this means.â Catherineâs face lights up. âTake a test!â
âBut I donât know what I want the results to be.â
âThatâs half the fun!â Catherine discards her napkin, stands, and holds out her hand. âYouâll look at it and if youâre disappointed by what you see then youâll know what you want. Come on!â
Half the excitement comes from Catherine and her desire to help me, so we leave the cafe and walk down the block to the local pharmacy, where we buy three different brands of tests. Hiding in the bathroom, Catherine plays timekeeper as I pee on each stick and lay them out on the counter.
âIsnât it weird how pee can tell if thereâs a baby inside you?â Catherine says, her eyes glued to the three clocks on her phone.
âHormones and ⦠stuff,â I reply as I struggle to unjumble my thoughts. What do I want the test to say? What will I do if it says one or the other? What will Roman say? As if hearing my very thoughts, Roman texts me a second later.
[Ren] Busy?
[Jasmine] Yeah, whatâs up?
[Ren] Is it pathetic if I say I canât stop thinking about you? Havenât seen my fiancée in a week.
[Jasmine] Wow youâre needy.
[Ren] What can I say, Iâve tasted you and Iâm a weak man. Some would call it addiction.
[Jasmine] Thinking about my pussy?
[Ren] And your tits. And your lips. And your laugh. And your eyes.
[Jasmine] This is an interesting mix of romantic and horny. Who are you?
[Ren] Just a guy texting a girl.
[Jasmine] Because youâre horny.
[Ren] Maybe I legit miss you.
[Jasmine] Then come meet me.
[Ren] Time and place.
[Jasmine] Also youâre Ren in my phone now.
[Jasmine] Is that too much?
[Ren] No. I just maybe feel less horny and a lot more emotionally romantic. Tell me where to meet you while I gather my fucking heart.
âTheyâre ready.â Catherine pulls my attention away from my phone.
âWhy do I feel sick?â
âAre you worried? Do you want me to look first?â
Itâs tempting, but despite the increasing patter of my heart, I shake my head. âNo. No, itâs fine.â
Catherine moves out of the way, and I approach the counter where the three tests lie neatly in a line, each displaying the same result.
Pregnant.
I stare at them until my eyes blur.
âSooo,â Catherine says softly. âHow are you feeling? Disappointed? Upset? Angry?â
Slowly, I shake my head as a surge of static rushes through my chest. I feel like I canât breathe for a moment, then I lift my eyes, and the moment our gazes meet, I burst out laughing. âOh my God! Iâm pregnant!â
âAre these happy tears?!â Catherine cups my face which alerts me to the dampness on my cheeks. âAre you happy?â
âYes!â I pull her into a hug and squeeze her tightly. âYes!â
Roman meets me in a bridal boutique later that afternoon while Catherine attends a follow-up appointment at the hospital. Despite offering to stay with her, sheâs determined to do this herself, so I send Roman an address and he arrives within half an hour.
âA bridal boutique?â Romanâs voice drifts through the curtain where Iâm in the middle of squeezing into the custom-made wedding dress my mother had created for me. Her attention to detail is to be admired as lace that feels like a second skin slides over my arms and caresses my back.
âI have stuff to do and you wanted to meet,â I call back. âOr would you have rather waited another few hours?â
âIâm not a patient man.â Romanâs steps sound on the other side of the curtain. âAre we to talk through fabric the entire time? Iâm not against it, but how much imagination should I be using?â
âPicturing me naked would be accurate,â I reply with a smirk.
âOn it,â Roman snorts lightly.
I need to tell him Iâm pregnant. Assuming three drugstore tests can be believed. I hadnât factored something like this into any of my plans, and itâs still surprising that I wasnât upset by the news. Do I want a baby? Will Roman want a baby? Will it mess up our plans?
Too many thoughts jumble together so I turn toward the curtain and rip it open, forcing Roman to become my focus rather than my own thoughts.
Heâs halfway across the room, and when he turns to face me, his face relaxes in open shock for a moment, then he slaps his hands over his eyes. âNo! Itâs bad luck to see the bride in her dress before the wedding!â
âAre you that superstitious?â I snort. âCome on, in our line of work do you really think this is the biggest threat?â
âYou canât mess with the wedding uh ⦠gods or whatever,â Roman declares, keeping his hands raised until I approach and lightly grasp his wrist.
âRelax, dummy.â
He lowers his hands and a soft smile dances across his lips. âIs it corny of me to say you look beautiful?â
âOh, I know I do. This is custom-made although more to my motherâs specifications and tastes hence theââ I wave my hands down to the puff skirt ballooning from my hips. âIâm more of a slinky, sleek kinda girl.â
âItâs your dress.â Roman frowns. âWhy let her choose?â
âIt makes her happy.â
âIâm not marrying her, Iâm marrying you.â
My eyes narrow playfully. âYâknow, I wanted you to see this so you could make sure you plan your suit accordingly to match, but now you present me with an interesting opportunity.â
âWhich is?â
I spin away from him, as much as I can with the heavy ball skirt. âIf you tear this off of me, then weâd definitely have to remake the skirt, and there wouldnât be enough time to recreate this.â
âAre you asking me to sabotage your dress?â Romanâs smile turns sly and he starts walking toward me as I slowly walk backward.
âIâd never dare say such a thing.â
âBecause you only care about my suit.â
âExactly.â
âAnd you want us to match.â
âIndeed.â
âAnd yet here you are looking so ravishing. How can I keep my hands off you?â
âWell, when you put it like that. Itâs any girlâs dream to have the man they like so much tear their clothes off.â
Roman pulls me into his arms by the waist and leans forward until Iâm dipping back and forced to grab onto his arms. His lips lightly brush against mine, and I feel him smile against me as we kiss.
âGo back to the part where you say you like me,â Roman purrs.