I'm writingggg, the wind is so bad and I'm pretty sure I have pink eye... I don't know anymore. But ye-
Hope you guys look this one!
TW : inner conflicts, self hatred, strong words, symptoms of a panic attack
National suicide hotline, 988. help is one call away. Please reach out if you are struggling! Everyone needs help every once in-awhile. <3
Enjoyyyyyy <:
---------
Sam woke up, his neck ached from passing out on his bedroom floor. He propped himself up on his wall, trying to piece together what had happened the previous night.
~
TW start
"Breathe Sam, do you need me to come over?"
"No, Kat, I- I'll be okay."
"I'm so killing Colby. WHY WOULD HE EVEN BRING THAT UP!" Kat spoke her words steering through the blinding light of the phone screen.
"I... I love him Kat." Sam said between breathless sobs. "I- I'm in love with him!"
Sam could hear footsteps outside his room. But he just ignored them.
"I can't- I'm... so- so. I hate myself Kat. God I'm sorry. Love you. Bye." And before Kat could protest or even speak a word, Sam hung up, sobbing into his arms.
Knock knock, there was someone at his door. Sam didn't respond, facing away from the door. Even though he couldn't see the door, he could tell someone entered his room, due to the creeping of the hinges.
Sam, didn't look but someone from behind him pulled him into a tight hug, wrapping their arms around his shoulders. Sam's vision was blurred, but the red hair brushing up against his face signified it was Jake embracing him.
"I don't know what happened, but Colby... he isn't doing great either. I know he's been out of it... but god, I didn't expect this." Jake breathed out, pulling Sam's ridged body towards him. "But I do know, that whatever happened you guys will get over it. You guys are best friends. No matter what. You guys are inseparable. He isn't doing too hot though either."
Sam just crumpled up more in Jake's grip, hating himself even more and more. He could hear the vibration of his phone, it was probably Kat. Worried to death.
"Sam and Colby VS the world... right?"
Sam just nodded, sobbing into Jake's shoulder. He fell asleep like that. At least that's what Sam remembered.
TW end
~
But Jake, was nowhere in sight.
Sam rubbed his eyes, exhaling harshly. He climbed his way up, till he was standing straight up. He picked his phone up, looking at the missed calls and messages from Kat, Jake, and a couple of other people, that Kat probably forced to question me.
Katrina
'Sma answer the phone'
'Sam come on.'
'Please don hurt yourself"
'I called Colby'
'He isn't picking up either'
'Jake is going to cheek on you
'He says you are asleep'
'Take care of yourself, call me soon'
today 1:53 pm
Sam couldn't bare to hear her sickly sweet voice, when he just felt so lost and alone. He had to apologize to Colby. For running off. For whatever had happened earlier that day. It was late, but they had planed to film with Niki and Emma in two days. He hadn't packed, and there was no way they were going to New York, into a haunted exorcist house at their current stage in their relationship. That would just be worse.
Sam rubbed his head and wobbled his way over to his bed, trying not to fall over. He sat down, before picking up a stray sweatshirt on the ground, and throwing it on. He exhaled, checking the time cautiously.
8:43 pm
It had been one of the longest day's ever. With his morning call with Kat, to the intriguing conversations with Jake, to whatever the hell had happened down stairs. (I swear why did I make this day so fucking long ToT)
Sam put his phone in his pocket, and made his way back to the door. He exhaled aggressively once more, before turning the knob and peaking outside his room. Right next to Colby's door and shadowy figure lay. Before Sam could even get a chance to freak out he noticed it was just Jake.
He must have been waiting outside of Colby's door. But it was clear he had fallen asleep, and it seemed like Colby took that time to escape his room as the door was wide open. Sam just shook his head, and let Jake sleep there.
He crept down the stairs, hoping that he could somehow find a way to converse with his best friend. Though lately they hadn't been great at that. Other than when Colby opened up about whatever the heck his crazy ass dreams had been. But Sam tried not to think too much on that.
Before he knew it he found himself right in front of the brown haired boy he was so afraid to talk to. Colby looked up from his phone, obviously still groggy and out of it, because it didn't register for a few seconds who was standing in front of him.
But when he noticed he had a visceral reaction, he jerked his head back, trying to get farther away, which was hard to do since he was already half way into the couch cushions. (Why is English so hard guys)
"Hey... sorry about... earlier." Sam spoke. Sounding a bit more bitter than he would have liked. Colby nodded, trying to find the words, but Sam just continued, "I shouldn't have ran away, I just don't like talking about that day. Not because I didn't like it- NOT LIKE I DID LIKE IT- ... god. I'm sorry okay."
Sam buried his head in his hands, trying not to show his scarlet face. Colby laughed slightly at this. "It's fine Sam, I don't even know why I brought it up, that was stupid of me. It was weird, and I dunno, I've been out of it for a bit. I'm okay though. Just exhausted."
Sam nodded, collapsing on the couch and sighing harshly.
"I get it, today has been exhaustingly long. But hey, Sam and Colby forever, right brother?" Colby laughed at this before nodding and looking into Sam's icy blue (orbssss I hate that word sm) eyes. That made Sam go slightly red, but he just beamed brightly back at his friend.
Jake came bounding into the room, looking at the two boys talking and smiling at each other.
"Jesus Christ! Colby how did you-" Jake wheezed, hands on his knees trying to catch his breath. This made both the blonde and the brunette burst into laughter, staring and their confused friend. "You guys good now?"
"Yeah, we're fine." Sam chuckled, tears brimming his eyes. (brimming, is that even the correct way to use that word, god ð)
"Thank god, Kat kept blowing up my phone. You should call her Sam, she kept on saying you hung up on her and you weren't doing too good." Colby looked over to Sam, looking heavily guilty.
"That one might be my fault."
Sam laughed, glad to be able to talk to his friend, even if they didn't speak for a few hours, that was too long.
Katrina : 'I know you read my text Samuel.'
'Oh shit I'm in trouble'
~ sexy time skip - 1 day ~
"SAMMMMMM! GET UP! We're meeting Niki and Emma todayyyy." Colby hollered into Sam's ear. Waking him up abruptly. They had gotten to New York that morning, and when they had gotten to their hotel, Sam had immediately collapsed on the bed.
"uhgggggg. Shut up." Sam said, aggravated at his rough wake up. Colby snickered and grabbed Sam's arm, pulling him off of their shared bed, and forcing him up on his feet. Sam didn't care enough to react and instead just sighed, gabbing his phone from the night stand.
The two made their way to the hotel lobby, and saw Niki and Emma laughing at something, before they came to meet them.
Sam brought out his hand to shake for Emma, who he had never met, and she gladly took it. Colby went over to hug Niki, who was still sour about her last adventure with Sam and Colby.
"You guys better not get me possessed." She spoke, her accent slipping through each word. She giggled and Sam went over to greet her.
They would only start filming the next day, so the four of them just decided to hang out and goof around the entire day.
~
"I'm fucking exhausted." Sam said, it was the next morning, and they were packing up their gear to go to the Exorcist House. Colby nodded, putting one of the cameras in a black backpack. He could hear nervousness and worry in his best friend's voice.
"We still have to run by the store before we go to the house, and we might have lunch before we even do that... so we have time. Plus I'm right here Sam I'll protection from the ghosts!" He spoke, puffing up his chests and trying to act strong. Sam just laughed at this and grabbed one of the bags, before gabbing his phone and keycard and heading towards there door
Once again Emma and Niki met them in the lobby. They all clamored into Colby's car and went to go grab some food. It was a little before 12 when they reached a restaurant. They ate and by the time they finished it was two o'clock.
"Walmart anyone?" Colby offered, knowing they had to stop and pick a few extra things up for the investigation. Everyone agreed they would stop at the store and find what they needed.
They made it to Walmart and hopped out of the car, splitting up into groups of two.
"I forgot what we even need-" Sam said the Emma, trying to remember what Colby had told him to get. Emma laughed at this grabbing a bag of chips from the shelf and shoving them into the basket.
On the other side of the store Niki and Colby were flying through on the cart. They stopped in the bakery section laughing at the other shoppers who looked at them weirdly.
"Colbyyyyyyy" Sam called,
Finding the two laughing in front of the cake display case. Colby looked up and greeted Sam with a wave, he swiveled his cart to face Emma and Sam. "So should we get potato chips or Fritos?"
Colby rolled his eyes, "You were supposed to get one of those inflatable rafts." Sam perused his lips, and they all just decided to stay together.
They made their way through the store, goofing off, and making jokes. They stopped in the alcohol section. "Ooo should we get the ghost some Tito's? Maybe some fireball!" Colby snickered.
"I do love cinnamon." Niki added.
"Really?" Sam asked.
"Yeah!" She spoke, laughing at his intrigue.
After two hours of bounding around the store, and probably bothering other shoppers, they paid and all got back into the car.
"So? You guys ready?" Colby asked, looking in the rear-view mirror to see both Emma and Niki shaking their heads no. Colby laughed and looked to Sam who smiled back.
"You said you'd protect me so... I'm probably gonna die."
"Fuck off!" Colby said, rolling his eyes, but smiling proudly. Glancing over to see Sam laughing. They jeered like that, making jabs and jokes at each other until they made it to the house.
Everyone got out of the car, and Sam grabbed on of the camera's from the bag and grabbed the backpack to put inside.
"Guys, this place gives me weird vibes, I don't know it's really unsettling." Niki spoke, her voice nearly a whisper.
"I just wanna fuck a ghost-" Emma said, making Colby laugh a bit. But what Niki said, still concerned everyone.
They definitely were in for a treat.
--------
(2002 words)
Sorry I know that was somewhat short and a bit rushed, but I'll probably post part 2 soon. And btw I DONT HAVE PINK EYE! So I'm not cooked guys. And I made it out of Florida, so I'm safe back at home. :P
Hopefully I can finish up my projects and work soon. I've already started the next chapter, if you're lucky I will grind it and you can get it late 2night.
Anyways, gotta go, take care of yourselves. <3
By loves!
- your favorite writer, but probably not, witty writer