My mind was all over the place today.
First, San wouldn't even talk to me after the announcement when I tried to talk to him. Then I heard from Saehi that he was angry because he didn't know that the representative position was not being given to him.
So I was right in thinking that San should have been chosen, so the question remains - why wasn't he?
And then coming to Soobin - he left after saying we'll meet during the weekend but he did not specify anything.
No date, time, or place!
How was I supposed to adjust my schedule last minute?
I wanted to talk to someone about this and the first person who came to my mind was San but of course that was not an option anymore and then my second option was Yeonjun.
I don't even know why my mind even considered him an option, whether in this matter or any other matter!
The pressure was getting to me.
I parked my cycle at the parking stand near a convenience store to get myself a quick snack before I headed to the noodle shop to take an extra shift and help my parents.
I did not have any shift at the Hive today and I wasn't sure why I missed that. I keep expecting to see Yeonjun there at the end of my shift but he isn't there and I barely see him at school and it is not like we talk a lot there.
I just don't like how we left it the last time we talked.
And I definitely did not think, people were saying such horrible things behind his back. Nobody deserves to be called names behind their back, no matter who they are.
But then again, if what Yeonjun said was true, it meant Soobin had a big hand in spreading the said name-calling.
And I can't forget the conversation I overheard on my first day of school.
Thinking about it all makes me a little queasy and reconsider my acceptance to go out on a date with Soobin.
Was it even a date?
I enter the convenience store on autopilot, my mind whirring with many thoughts and that is why I don't see the tree of a person standing in front of me.
"What where you're going" Take the name of the devil.
I look up to see Yeonjun staring down at me. He is still in his school uniform and has the leather jacket casually draped around his left shoulder.
"What are you doing here?" I ask and he looks at me with a grimaced expression I have seen him make many times.
"Trying to learn how to fly a plane. What about you?" he answers sarcastically.
Okay, it was a dumb question. Why would he be at a convenience store if not to buy stuff?
I roll my eyes at his sarcasm. "Very funny, Yeonjun. I'm here to grab a snack before heading to the noodle shop."
He arches an eyebrow. "Noodle shop? You really are the hardworking type, aren't you?"
I ignore his comment, not in the mood for banter.
I move past him and go to the half-off section. It is the end of the day so I am sure I can score some good deals on the meals before they throw it out.
I find a kimbap meal and milk coffee that is half off and go to the cashier. I turn to see Yeonjun following me.
"Why are you following me?" I ask and he rolls his eyes.
"There is only one cashier and I am buying things" he shakes a box of fried chicken and ramen in front of my face and I shove it away before placing my things on the counter and paying for it.
I ignore Yeonjun and heat up my food before taking a seat by the window and start digging into my food.
I moan, my tummy is happy to have food after a long day. There is nothing better than a good kimbap.
"You sure like kimbap, don't you?" I open my eyes to see Yeonjun taking the seat right next to me.
What is his angle?
I see he has a bag of snacks and yet he digs into a bowl of instant ramen and fried chicken.
"You're staring. Want some?" he raises his eyebrows and offers me a piece of chicken. I take it from him wordlessly because I am not sure what is happening.
"Sooo, do you have something to say?" I ask him. I am sure he isn't sitting here to keep me company. He definitely has something to say to me and this is his time to get it out.
I don't want to bring up that night because I am not sure whether he would want to talk about it. I still can't believe Yeonjun opened up to me like that and even apologized for being an ass.
I am still betting that it was because he was high but I am not sure whether he remembers our entire conversation.
I am not sure whether people black out after weed. I know it can happen with alcohol but my knowledge of these things is very limited.
"Getting straight to the point, are we?" he questions. He wipes his lips with a napkin and leans back on the chair.
I stare at his face and the little movements he does.
He runs a hand through his hair. His pink hair has faded a lot, the vibrancy lost and turned to a light pastel. His lips always form little pout and his skin is so flawless.
Can't he get a few pimples?
I take a deep breath, trying to focus on the conversation at hand. "Yeah, I don't have time for small talk right now. So, spill it. What's on your mind?"
Yeonjun leans forward, resting his elbows on the table. "San looked really pissed today."
If it was someone else, I would have thought they were concerned about San. I can't imagine Yeonjun being interested as to why San is upset or bothered by it at all since it does not affect his daily life.
I nod, my mouth is full of kimbap. Swallowing quickly, I respond, "Yeah, he is"
I am not sure what happened at school today but if anyone can give me a bit of answers or insight into it, it is Yeonjun so I decided to pry. "Do you know why he wasn't chosen? It doesn't make sense."
Yeonjun smirks, "Well, let's just say things are happening behind the scenes that not everyone is aware of. Politics, you know?"
I narrow my eyes at him. "Politics? Really? You do know we are not in a K-drama right? And this school is the top in all of Korea, and definitely top 10 in the world"
He chuckles, "Hey, it's a dog-eat-dog world out there, even in high school. And where do you think the K-dramas take inspiration from?" he seems at ease.
"But still, why would they not give it to San?" I look at him for an answer and he has that 'you are the dumbest person on this face of earth' look.
"You know the principal? Do you know who Soobin is? You know who owns Royals High? Put it all together and pressure your brain just a teeny tiny bit and I am sure you'll figure it out" he says condescendingly.
"You mean to say, just because the principal is Soobin's mother, she chose him?" I ask flabbergasted.
"Yeah. And he is the face of Royals" he shrugs as he bites into his food. This is not new to him but it is to me.
I feel uneasy with this information.
"Anyway, you seem pretty agitated about it. Why?" he turns in his seat so that he is facing me.
I sigh, putting down my chopsticks. "Because I think San deserved it, and I hate seeing him upset. Plus, it just adds to the chaos of my day."
Yeonjun raises an eyebrow. "Chaos? What happened? " he actually sounds concerned.
I hesitate for a moment, debating whether I should spill the details of my messy day. "San and I got into a... disagreement a while ago. And now we're not talking so I can't really ask him what he is feeling but I can see him and I know he was upset after the announcement.
"And I wanted to go talk to him but I knew he would not talk to me and then Soobin was out of contact for the entire week and he suddenly sprung up on me and I was shocked and I-" I realize I am ranting to him so I stop.
I also realised I mentioned Soobin and he instantly stiffened up.
Yeonjun's expression darkens, and he clenches his jaw. "Soobin, huh?"
"I uh - " I don't know what to tell him. He raises his eyebrow as if waiting for me to complete my sentence.
"He kind of suggested going out with me last week and I didn't think much of it and he was out of contact for the entire week so it slipped my mind and then today after the announcement he suggested going out for the weekend and it is no big deal anyway. I am sure he didn't mean much of it anyway" I ramble.
I don't know why I can't say Yeonjun about the date. I want to tell him. I don't want him to hear it from anyone else but why would I care for that?
It is not like Yeonjun and I are very close so why am I worried that saying that I am going out with Soobin?
He probably wouldn't even care.
Why would he care?
"So you have plans with Soobin. So?" Yoenjun is stiff and his eyes are narrowed at me. Whatever ease he was in a few minutes back was gone.
Was it chilly in here?
"Anyway, it doesn't concern me. I gotta get going" he gets up without touching the rest of his food.
"Have fun on your date" he says as he leaves the store as I navigate through the tangled web of emotions I feel right now.
A/n: dun dun dun.
Also wishing you all a happy Christmas weekend.