We didn't do it. It or mating.
Mating was something simple but also something that was difficult.
I knew I wanted to be with Riot forever, and I assumed he felt the same way, or he at least acted as he did.
I'm sure people have put their mouths on other people's dicks with no strings attached.
That thought in my stomach flutter with emotion, my cheeks tint again as I laid with my back to Riot. Neither of us had clothes on, and though we had gotten close we didn't take that step. A part of me was thankful because as much as I wanted to be closer to him, we needed to take some time to ourselves. Without the added stress of mating.
Everyone around us would know about the bond, it wasn't something you could hide. It wasn't just a simple bite on the neck, it was a commitment. The mark would go away, but the blood you took from your mate into your body would be in your forever, you would always be one. It was a big step, and it also meant that your smell would be with them, your strength would grow,
Did I really want to leave the room and have my grandfather and Preston know I just got laid?
Maybe a little, but not in a sick way â no, in the way that they would know I would be ok, everything was going to be fine.
Maybe we could mate, sooner rather than later, but I tried not to think too much about it. Tried being the big word because as soon as Riot shifted in bed, turning his body towards mine and putting an arm around me, I couldn't help but have the thought come back to my mind while I stood to attention unwillingly under the sheets.
I shifted with him, letting him know I was awake too as I turned towards him.
Riot was beautiful, his messy hair laying on the pillow as his tired eyes forced themselves open, looking at my face. He gave me a sleepy smile, a small dimple showing on his cheek. The breath was sucked from my lips as Riot shifted, his own heat hitting mine, I didn't want my face to show how embarrassed I was, but I knew that was mute now that he was this close to me, that we were this close to each other.
"We should get up," Riot mumbled, his lips hovering over mine, I gave my head a light shake before meeting his, it was light, calming, it relaxed me, everything about him relaxed me.
He groaned, pulling away with a sigh, "We really should though,"
'Five minutes?'
His eyebrows lifted as he looked at me, lifting himself up on an elbow to look down at me, "Star, I mean this in the best way when I tell you, that if we start something, â"
I shook my head, 'if we start something, we're finishing it.'
Riot looked even more confused now, "like, finishing it?"
'I was just thinking,' I started, sitting up to give myself more room to speak, 'there will never be a good time. I can keep going back and forth with myself about us, about mating. But when will there be a good time? It feels fast, all of it. But people have mated the same night they meet their mates, maybe it wouldn't be crazy. I know. I know I'm not the best person, I know you may not want to take that step but if you do I â " I felt like all we did was cut each other off as his lips stopped me, knowing full and well he couldn't see my hands right now.
Everything felt, right but yet also wrong. When would things be perfect? Preston was out of the house, minding the farm. I know I had just said that maybe it wasn't the right time. But looking at him now, his eyes, feeling his body. Maybe it was the right time.
Maybe he was the right person, he didn't throw me aside like I thought he would, didn't push me to the ground, and call me to the dirt.
It helped that our clothes were already off, my hands were shaking as I touched Riot, who took my hand in his, lacing our fingers together as he put my hand on the pillow by my head. I looked up at him, our lips parting as our eyes met.
I loved these fleeting moments, the seconds we took to just look at one another in these moments while we were tangled together.
My heart was racing as his hand touched me, I couldn't help the nerves, the idea that other people would know, that I would need to tell my parents. That my grandfather would know.
I didn't want that to cloud this moment but I couldn't help it, but the feeling of him on top of me eased my mind.
His fingers played with my skin, his hand letting go of my own. Was this the right time? Was this too fast?
Was I even awake?
"Tell me to stop if you want to stop." He said, his head now nestled in my neck, our bodies almost as close as they could be, but I just shook my head, taking a deep breath as I breathed in his scent.
"It's going to hurt." He said, and I didn't know if he meant the bite, or if he meant the fact he was about to go somewhere no one else had gone before, but either way â I knew, I knew it was going to hurt. I'd heard stories of mating, the mark would be tender, it would make you numb with an erotic feeling that would make your toes curl.
I couldn't wait to have that happen to me, it was something I had dreamed about, and here we were, together, me with someone who cared about me, didn't want to hurt me and only wanted what was best for me. Of course, I was only half in the moment because I was so deep in my head, and I'm sure he noticed.
Riot was calm with me, the moment was like a movie, he used what lube was buried deep in his nightstand just in case a moment like this came up â aren't we lucky?
He was gentle, there was a stinging pain but I almost didn't feel it, because as soon as Riot had put himself inside of me, he took that moment to latch onto my neck, the pain was something I never expected, my throat, my neck everything inside my head vibrated with pain for a fleeting moment.
I wanted so badly to make a sound for him like he was making for me. To moan, to gasp, to laugh along with him.
I had never felt so full, so content with my being as I did at that moment, with Riot over me, his hips moving my body as my legs straddled his hips.
We had fallen back to sleep once we had both finished, once both our necks were marked with canine teeth.
I didn't wake again until fingers touched my hips, walking softly up my body, shiver danced across my body, Riot chuckled behind me, and I let out a sleepy hum.
And then my eyes went wide with realization.