Ch.34
Hiding Yoongi hasn't been that much of a challenge. In the beginning, you were paranoid you sister would find out at any second. She was clueless! It made you cross your fingers for more luck like this. The members haven't said anything about you not eating lunch with them last week. Here goes another week of school! Hopefully, things can continue to ride smoothly. The gang was still angry at Yoongi, but they've cooled down. You liked hanging out with them a lot. It's only when they mentioned Yoongi in a bad light that you wanted to disappear. They haven't found him or beat him up yet so that was good! Everyday you found a reason to run off to the bathroom to meet up with Yoongi during lunch.
Lunch was always your favorite since you got to meet everyone else, but now it was a lot more special. You were quite proud of yourself for improving your relationship with the male. Just this morning, you woke up before the alarm could ring. You turned it off with an evil smirk as you stared at the sleeping boy. He looked so cute cuddling Holly. Ever since he started sleeping with the dog, he stopped getting those nightmares. Time to wake him up! Gently setting your feet on the ground, you tip toed over to the blue hair. You were about to scream and scare him awake. That was the plan at least. Yoongi ruined your fun though by growling 'if you jump me...' in a very threatening tone.
So you gently woke him up, but he still didn't like that. He swore angrily and cutely covered the ears of Holly. The morning process with him has gotten easier. You even managed to get his uniform back for him. He kept it in one of the many closets in the warehouse. It was hard trying to sneak it out without the members wondering about it. They didn't care about the uniform, but they would certainly have questions for you if they caught you trying to take it home. Seokjin dropped you off and you happily gave Yoongi his clothes back. Though that made him happy, the other members were pissed to see him wearing it since that meant he must have returned to the warehouse at one point in time. That wasn't the case at all.
Dealing with this drama was too stressful. It took a toll on you from trying to act natural amongst the gang members and pretending to be on their side. Then you had to come up with all these excuses to hang out with a guy who doesn't even really like you that much. You were happy he didn't exactly hate you anymore, but he did have his moments when he made you feel like sh*t. He did apologize for his insults now though so that's improvement! Yoongi would naturally say hurtful things but he's become a tiny bit kinder towards you. Maybe it's the fact that you house him and feed him. He no longer eats convenience store food since you make his lunch. This boy is getting treated like a prince, so you expect an apology when he calls you b*tch. And it's working!
It might be a little cocky to say this, but you think Yoongi is going to consider you a friend very soon. He's slowly trusting you which is really nice. During the first week he stayed at your house, he became paranoid that the other gang members knew he was with you. He even accused you of telling them and that you were helping them plan some evil scheme. You managed to calm him down from that strange imagination he had. It took some time, but you assured him that he was safe in your care. Yoongi was doing his best to trust you so you appreciated that. You could tell how hard he was trying. Especially since he actually doesn't mind talking to you too much. He only hates in when you can't stop talking.
It's mainly at night when you try coming up with plans to make things right. You've done your best to help the gang see things on your side. Of course, you still have to act like you're furious with Yoongi but not as much. As long as the gang slowly gets it in their head that Yoongi isn't a complete monster. So far Yoongi has sent the group a lot of his money from the deals. They didn't want it though and gave it to you. Namjoon told you to just burn it, but you returned it to Yoongi. He was shocked and you had to remind him to think something up from his heart. Something to help humanize him.
He's been thinking about it all day. During lunch, he stayed lost in his thoughts. The bathroom is usually empty at lunch now. Yoongi made it very apparent that the place was closed at that time. Luckily, Seokjin didn't hear about Yoongi hiding in there. Seokjin being a third year made you super nervous. Right now, you were in your last class of the day and it was hard to focus. They only shared one class. One class could lead to a fight. Once the bell rang, you let out a sigh of relief. All you had to do was hurry to find Yoongi to make sure he didn't have bruises. You wanted to continue having this safe streak. As soon as you stepped out of class, you saw Yoongi waiting across the hall.
"Y-Yoongi? Why are you here!?" You rushed over to him, whisper yelling. He looked around the hall with slight amusement. A lot of the first years didn't dare look in his direction.
"I came to pick you up," He said as if it were obvious.
"How long have you been waiting?" You took his wrist to pull him out of the hall.
"About an hour and a half. I didn't feel like doing my last class." Yoongi shrugged.
Shaking your head at his habits, you began scolding him. He needed to take school more seriously. He even told you how shocked his teachers were when he gave them finished homework. His grades were actually getting better just a bit so that made you happy. In the middle of your lecture, you froze to see a member standing in the hall. Probably the least understanding of them all. And they just had to look in your direction. Yoongi and you swallowed hard as the brunette's eyes grew and his teeth gritted. So much for the safety streak. It wasn't a smart idea for Yoongi to have come here with all these first years around. Three of the members are first years! The brunette charged over like a bull seeing red.
"Why the hell are you near her!?" Jungkook shoved Yoongi away from you.
"Jeon Jungkook, stop it! We were just talking." You stepped in front of him.
"And we can't have that." Jungkook looked at you like you were crazy. His eyes then switched over to the third year. "I'll kill you if you don't get the f*ck out of here and leave us alone."
"How can you talk to him like that?" You forcefully shoved Jungkook back a couple steps. He stared in shock as you pursed your lips. He didn't expect you to fight back like that. That's when you heard more foot steps coming closer to see Taehyung and Jimin angry. Were they shocked by your actions too? Yoongi unzipped his jacket, trying to find something in an inside pocket.
"Why is he here?" Jimin asked.
"Yoongi, you have to get out of here," Taehyung ordered.
"...but I'm going to make things right..." Yoongi mumbled, pausing from shoving his hands in random pockets.
"Make things right?" Jungkook furrowed his brows. "Money didn't fix what you did to our gang."
"I know." Yoongi sighed.
"The other members are going to be here soon if you don't leave." Taehyung frowned.
"Let them come." Yoongi stood up straight as your eyes widened.
"Are you crazy!?" You screamed quietly. The first years were weirded out with your behavior. It was hard for them to tell whose side you were on. They didn't know if you were with them, but just sympathetic or another liar like Yoongi. All this madness made you want to explode into confetti. That would actually make you feel better.
Too bad drama loves to follow the gang. Peace could no longer be kept as the older members came walking down the halls. Their faces were already terrifying. They probably heard a bunch of first years talking about Yoongi or a fight going down. There weren't that many people in the halls though. Most students ran away the moment Jungkook pushed Yoongi away from you. Namjoon looked so disappointed in you as he came over. That face made you ready to just fling yourself out the window. Hoseok had a similar expression but was also frustrated to see that Yoongi had finally made his appearance. Seokjin gave you these eyes like he was expecting this to happen. He couldn't even look at Yoongi yet.
Jungkook began explaining the situation to Namjoon. You fumed as he told a different version, but how could he know the truth? He thought Yoongi came to talk to you about the gang. There's no way he'd know that the two of you were going home together. School ended and you just wanted to go home already. How are you supposed to just leave when this guy is currently sharing a room with you? You wanted to make sure Yoongi returned with you unharmed. Taehyung and Jimin didn't say a word as Namjoon let out a heavy sigh. He crossed his arms as his eyes met yours, trying not to give Yoongi a glance.
"(F/n), Seokjin will take you home. We'll handle things from here," Namjoon said as you jumped away from him.
"I'm staying here!" You shouted. "Nobody is taking me home!"
"(F/n)â" Seokjin spoke up, but you wouldn't let them lay a finger on you or Yoongi.
"No! I'm staying here so you guys don't do something that'll make me hate all of you." You stood your ground. All of them stiffened up. They wanted you to leave so they could roughen Yoongi up. They just didn't want you seeing the 'gang' side of them.
"Come on, why are you acting like this?" Namjoon tilted his head.
"I'm here to make things right." Yoongi stepped in front of you to get an eye roll from the maknae. Namjoon rose an eyebrow. Hoseok looked at Seokjin for an answer, but he didn't know what was going on. "I want to really apologize for what I did to you, Namjoon. And to the rest of the gang."
Seokjin stared down at the ground as he thought deeply. Hoseok's eyes became gentler as he saw Yoongi nervously stand in front of the group. The elder members gave you hope that they could forgive the blue hair next to you. Even Taehyung was ready to listen to what Yoongi had to say. The only ones not as accepting were Jungkook, Jimin, and Namjoon. The leader scoffed and you knew he'd be a hard one to turn over. Yoongi turned his own members on him, made him insecure of his leadership skills, and tried to take his position. Namjoon had the most reason to be furious with Yoongi and the most he has done so far is scoff.
"Sorry is just a meaningless word from you." Namjoon looked away from male as if he were a painful sight to see.
"But I am sorry. I really am. Listen to me!" Yoongi shouted only to get shoved onto the floor by Namjoon.
You covered your mouth in surprise. Namjoon ignored your shocked squeak at first before facing you. His teeth were slightly bared as he panted angrily. Never would you have thought that Namjoon's temper would just explode like that. Seokjin and Hoseok made sure to hold back Namjoon from doing anything else with you standing right there. Taehyung shook his head, looking outside the window instead of at the fight. Jimin eyed the fallen male with a little pity. Then there was Jungkook who was getting ready to fight as well.
"Kim Namjoon!" You shouted.
"I-It's fine." Yoongi worriedly looked at his inside pockets. What did he have in there that he was so focused on? Finally, he found what he's been looking for. He took out what seemed to be a few squished flowers. All the members were confused to see Yoongi on his knees, holding crumbled up flowers in his hands. "I got these flowers for you guys...they weren't squished before. I chose which ones reminded me of you guys."
"The hell...?" Namjoon furrowed his brows.
"This tall pink one made me think of you, Namjoon." Yoongi held up the bent flower for the leader to take. The pink hair hesitantly took it. "Then this flower was really pretty so I thought of Seokjin." Yoongi slowly began to smile as Seokjin grabbed the flat flower with a grin.
"Thanks..." Seokjin lightly chuckled.
"Do I have a flower?" Hoseok asked, catching the attention of Taehyung.
"Which one am I?" Taehyung pushed himself forward. Yoongi was completely stunned. He was speechless, but happily gave those two their flowers. Hoseok received a red flower with large petals since it appeared extra. A white flower was given to Taehyung since Yoongi couldn't find a silver one. They both gave Yoongi thankful grins. The blue hair was only left with two flowers in his hands.
"Jiminie, this one is small and cute like you." Yoongi chuckled as he held it up. "Then Jungkookie, this flower is as strong as it looked. It didn't get squished." Jungkook and Jimin glanced at each other first. It made your stomach twist, but Jimin began reaching for his flower. The gummy smile of Yoongi's was growing wider until Jungkoook smacked both flowers to the ground.
"I'm sorry, but we're not actually accepting flowers." Jungkook turned to the rest of his members. "You guys remember what he did, right?"
"Yeah..." Seokjin held his flower tightly, close to stating his real opinion on the situation. "...buâ"
"Jungkook's right." Namjoon threw the flower on the ground, crushing it beneath his feet. "These are just flowers."
"B-But they came from my heart." Yoongi grew panicked.
"What are you going on about?" Jungkook furrowed his brows. He came over to Yoongi and grabbed him by the collar again.
"Jungkook!" You growled.
"I don't know what you want from me," Yoongi said with a frown before getting punched at the side of his face.
Seokjin called out the maknae's name loudly, but Namjoon stopped Seokjin from interfering. You could feel your blood boiling. Namjoon was someone you respected so much, but this was disgusting behavior on his part. Hoseok and Taehyung didn't move an inch. They only watched Yoongi helplessly fall to the floor again. Yoongi went on his feet as fast as he could to meet eyes with Jungkook. Jimin went over to hold you back from throwing yourself into the fight. Why was he doing this!? Yoongi took a swing at Jungkook only to miss. His fist flew over the brunette who ducked to the side. Jungkook quickly kneed Yoongi in the stomach. Yoongi grunted before getting a hold of Jungkook's throat.
Ripping your arm away from Jimin, you went to stop the scene from escalating further. Yoongi had Jungkook pressed against the wall with one hand on his throat. The other hand was used to repeatedly hit Jungkook's stomach. Yoongi was shouting at the first year, asking what he could do to get their forgiveness. Pulling Yoongi off the maknae, Jungkook fell forward onto his knees. He coughed as he regained his breath. Jungkook lifted his head to glare at the blue hair who was shaking in your arms. Why did the boys have to act like this?
"There! I fought with you! Are you happy now?" Yoongi asked. "Is that what you wanted? Or do you want to leave me close to death? Will that make you guys forgive me!?"
"We want you dead," Jungkook muttered as you gritted your teeth.
"You don't mean that!" You shouted as Yoongi easily freed himself from your hold. He collapsed onto his knees as if all hope was gone.
"Fine! Kill me then. I'm tired of it all." Yoongi held his hands out as he stood vulnerable. "I'm begging you to just kill me already. I don't want to live anymore so please...I'm done." Jungkook's furious eyes lost the fire in them. They no longer stared in hatred, but now showed a hint of worry in them.
"Alright, that's enough!" Namjoon picked up the youngest. "Let's just go our separate ways today."
"Sounds fair." You sighed as Jimin hesitantly walked away from you.
Yoongi leaned against you now, holding his stomach in pain. Namjoon left right away without a second thought, dragging Jungkook with him. The brunette stared at Yoongi with his brows knitted together with a concerned expression. Someone he used to consider family wanted death and you didn't like that. Hoseok frowned at Yoongi for a minute before taking Taehyung with him. The first year was reluctant to leave and soon Jimin followed after them. Seokjin was the last to leave. He stared at his fellow third year with a hard to read expression. Then he stared at the flower in his hands, muttering a thanks to the blue hair. That's when he finally left to catch up with the gang.
"...Seokjin..." Yoongi raised up his head, saddened to see the black-haired male had already gone.
"C'mon. Let's go home for real this time." You put his arm around your shoulder.
The walk home was slow, and you kept looking over your shoulder. You were worried that the boys would be secretly following you guys. Sometimes it felt like Yoongi's paranoia rubbed off on you. It just became hard to trust when you were lying about things all the time. This must be a taste of what Yoongi feels. You were still upset about hearing him tell Jungkook that request. Begging for death changed Jungkook's mind. The maknae with a short temper stopped seeing red the moment those words left his mouth. You're definitely going to have a talk with Yoongi once the two of you get home. There's no way you're going to let him just sleep after today.
When the two of you arrived at your small apartment, you dragged his lazy body over to your room. He could carry his own weight, but he decided to give up half way home. How kind of him. You groaned in relief as you dropped all his weight onto the floor. Yoongi fell onto his back and brought Holly close to his chest. You sat down on your bed as the third year curled up on the quilt. He was so close to earning their forgiveness. Giving them flowers made him so nervous and you could tell some members were readier to give him a second chance than the others. Namjoon was the biggest problem. Jungkook and Jimin appeared to be problems, but now you weren't so sure. They seemed to have a change in perspective from today's little event.
"Did you really mean what you said?" You asked in a soft tone.
"I am sorry," Yoongi spoke into his pillow.
"I know that. But what you told Jungkook..." You frowned as he looked up to the ceiling with dead eyes.
"...sometimes I think it would be easier." Yoongi closed his eyes. "Without the gangâ"
"You'll get your family back, but please don't ever think like that again." You went down on the floor with him to grab his hand. He opened his eyes to stare at your teary eyes. You hadn't told him verbally, but you had forgiven him. Especially after the flower incident. Life's too short to continue holding on to such negative energy.
"I can't help it," Yoongi admitted.
"Don't act on it." You squeezed his hand. Yoongi continued to make eye contact with you for the longest time. He usually always looked away at serious moments.
"...I won't."