Charlie
My legs are shaking with the volume of caffeine pumping through me. Usually, on Saturdays, I am quivering under the covers trying to survive a hangover.
Today Iâm buzzing.
Iâve worked all night and this morning on the business case for submission on Monday, and itâs good. Itâs not just good; itâs great.
After five years of listening to complaints across the globe and across the time zones, I know what this product needs.
Iâve been so focused Iâve barely thought of Danny. He messaged last night asking me how I was. Text banter isnât his strong point. His messages are to the point and with purpose, like a newsreader. As opposed to my messages with Cat, where we exchange fifty screenshots a day, even though we live together and sit on the sofa together.
I type the last point furiously and squeal to myself. Iâm done. I canât give it any more than this. If they donât like it, Iâll accept redundancy and walk away.
Shutting down my laptop, I bounce into the living room.
âHave you finished your paper thing?â Cat licks her lips nervously and darts her eyes between Julie and me.
âMy business case.â I grin like a lunatic and sink into the sofa. âYes, I have.â
âThere is something you need to see,â Julie says sharply, and my glow dims.
I look at her, alert. âWhat?â
She takes a breath and swipes her phone. âLook at this.â
I take the phone and see a picture of Danny. Iâm about to say I donât understand when I read the headline.
Danny Walker leaves Lower Eastâs sideâs hottest new restaurant with bombshell friend.
My heart plummets.
The picture shows him in the back of a car with an attractive blonde. She is smiling directly at him, and he looks relaxed.
My mouth falls open. He promised.
âMaybe sheâs just a friend,â Cat says hopefully.
âFriend.â I snort. âHow many guys just have friends that look like supermodels?â
I look between them both as their faces say it all and burst out crying. Big thick ugly tears stream down my face. Snot and liquid everywhere, Iâm crying from my lungs. From my soul.
They leap up to fuss over me, and I sob into Catâs chest as she rubs my hair.
âI swam in a fucking pond for that guy,â I wail.
âYouâre too attached, Charlie,â Cat says softly. âItâs too soon.â
âI know,â I sob in broken breaths. âI canât handle this. My heart canât cope.â
âBreathe,â Julie says firmly. âWait thirty minutes, then message him. Without emotion. Cool as fuck.â
I look up through tear-stained eyes.
âYou need to be a player, Charlie,â she snaps. âInstead of becoming an emotional wreck each time you see him with another woman.â She shakes her head at me like a schoolteacher. âItâs unbecoming.â
âFine,â I sniffle.
True to my word to her, I wait thirty minutes before picking up the phone. Iâm breathing easier now, although the pain hasnât lifted. Heâs not mine, we arenât together, and I have no claim on him, so I need to stop acting like a needy, highly-strung bitch.
Hi. I type. What have you been up to in New York?
I stare down at the phone on the sofa like itâs radioactive. The response sound beeps loud, and the three of us jump.
Boring business meetings. You? I read out loud.
âLIAR,â Julie hisses. âProbe more.â
Did you get to do anything fun last night? I reply, my hands sweating.
The buzz comes in instantaneously.
Not really. Meetings went on late into the night. I read out loud again, this time in a higher pitch.
âBastard!â I cry, firing the phone back on the sofa. âHe thinks Iâm a bloody mug?â
âHe mustnât have seen the article.â Cat frowns. âI mean, it wasnât hard to find. It came up on my feed, and heâs not exactly an A-list celebrity.â
I grab the phone, seething. I canât act like Julie. Iâm not impartial. Iâm livid.
Business meeting with a blond on your cock? I type furiously and hit send.
âMature.â Julie groans, looking over my shoulder. âYou have blown it now, big style.â
My phone vibrates again, but this time itâs his name on my Caller ID.
âAnswer it,â she hisses.
âWhat the fuck was that?â the deep voice growls down the phone as I put him on speakerphone.
âYour business meetings,â I burst out. âYou hold your business meetings in the back of taxis with gorgeous blonde women? After dinner?â
Thereâs a pause. âActually, yes, I do. But how did you â¦â
He trails off, and I know heâs searching on the internet.
Thereâs a long sigh down the phone. âSheâs my lawyer, Charlie. Sheâs part of my legal team. I have a situation I need to resolve away from the office.â
âI can see why youâd want to resolve that away from the office,â I snap. âHow many lawyers are you fucking? Do you have a conveyor belt of blonde lawyers ready to go?â How stupid does this guy think I am?
âIâm not sleeping with her.â
âReally? Because we both know you like sleeping with blond lawyers.â
I stick up two fingers to the phone in a silent curse. âI guess your talk about not seeing other women was time zone specific.â
âNo, we both donât know that. I finished with the last blond lawyer when you and I started something.â
âOh yeah,â I reply, dripping in sarcasm. âBecause leggy blonde lawyers arenât your type.â
âNo, I prefer hot-headed foul-mouthed brunettes who never run a brush through their hair, take mice to dinner parties and sleep in beds so damn uncomfortable and tiny, I have to go to a physio. You say Iâm the moody one,â he continues, âbut you jump to assumptions and donât ask me. Then you act out.â
âAct out? Iâm not a child,â I snap. âStop patronising me.â
âThen stop acting like one,â he grits out. âLook, Iâm giving you more than Iâve given anyone in years. Iâm putting my closest friendship on the line here for you. What more do you want from me?â
âHow am I supposed to feel?â I grumble. âYou donât show me any emotion. You never message kisses.â
âYou want me to message a kiss to you?â he sighs impatiently. âThatâs what youâre pissed at?â
âThe bombshell from the article is really your lawyer?â
âYes, Charlie. My happily married lawyer.â
Thereâs a long pause.
âIâm sorry.â I exhale heavily. Getting involved with someone as successful as Danny is making me irrationally insecure. âYou get so much attention from women everywhere you go. It deflates my poor ego which is already battered since I donât have my shit together. I mean, youâre a millionaire tech tycoon, and I take calls from angry clients who canât reset their passwords.â
He chuckles. âIf you donât reset those passwords I wonât make any money from the angry clients.â
âIâm serious, Danny,â I whisper. Itâs the first time Iâve confessed my insecurities to him.
âYou have no need to be insecure, sweetheart.â His voice softens. âI happen to consider myself very lucky. Are you going to be in the flat between 4-5pm today?â
âWhy?â I ask curiously.
âThereâs a new bed arriving. Iâm not lying on that heap of planks again.â
âYou bought me a new bed?â I splutter.
âDonât get excited,â he shouts over some type of announcement like heâs in a train station. âItâs not as big as mine. Iâd never get that into your flat.â
Thereâs more background noise.
âWhere are you?â I ask.
âHeathrow.â
Heâs back? Heâs in the UK?
âWhy? Werenât you supposed to fly home tomorrow?â
âI changed my flight,â he says. âThereâs a new bed I need to try out.â
***
âHey.â I tilt my chin up to meet his gaze.
There are bags under his eyes, and he has that dishevelled plane hair and clothes thing going on. My grin widens. He looks like shit, and itâs because he flew home early for me.
âI was forced to fly standard class,â he mutters. âFirst class was all taken. So you better take care of me now.â
âPoor baby.â I roll my eyes unsympathetically as we walk up the stairs to my flat.
âThat new bed better fucking be here. Or Iâm turning around and walking out that door.â
âAm I not worth lying on broken planks of wood?â I pout.
âIâve lost a full nightâs sleep,â he growls. âNo, Charlie, not even you are worth that tonight.â
I hit him. âItâs here. Come have a look.â
We walk into the bedroom where Suze, Cat, and Julie are sprawled across the new bed.
Danny releases a soft groan beside me. âLadies.â
âThis bed is amazzzzzzing.â Cat rolls around on it, and Danny curses a bit louder.
âI searched for this bed online.â Julie eyeballs him. âThese beds cost two grand.â
âTwo grand?â I shriek, turning to him. âYou did not pay two grand for a new bed for me?â
âI thought I was buying it for you.â He eyes them. âDidnât realise it was actually for the whole flat.â
âFeel free to kit the whole house out if you want,â Julie says wryly.
âYou better not let your mother into your bedroom again, Charlie,â Suze says. âOr Tristan. Theyâll be at you like hawks wondering why you forked out on this luxury.â
âDamn.â Danny flinches. âI didnât think this through.â
âYour dirty little secret will have to come out sometime.â Julie smirks, and I glare at her.
âCan the three of you fuck of now?â I mutter, shooing them off the bed like geese.
Two hours later, we are sitting in my favourite Indian restaurant around the corner.
I love this place, but Iâm usually in elasticated trousers ready for a food coma rather than a leather pants and bra number.
As soon as we heard Danny was flying home early, Julie forced me to up the antics. Iâm wearing a leather ensemble that Stevie forced Cat to buy.
She says she hasnât worn it yet, and I really hope sheâs not lying because the leather is chafing so high up my crack, I think it might slice me in two.
âItâs good, right?â I say, shoving more korma into my mouth. âI know itâs not your typical exclusive Mayfair restaurant where the food is telescopic portions at shameless prices. This place is inclusive. Sweatpants, PJs, anything is allowed.â
He chuckles. âIâm not a princess, Charlie. I go to expensive restaurants if the food deserves it, for no other reason. I grew up in a country that eats deep-fried pizzas, remember.â
I roll my eyes. âI donât believe that for a second.â I shuffle my backside on the chair to dislodge the leather. This stuff is really itchy. In hindsight, I could have put it on after the meal; itâs not like I was planning to strip down in the restaurant.
âYou OK?â he asks as I cross and uncross my legs in an attempt to scratch the itch. Argh.
âGreat,â I mutter, resisting all urge to take my fork and scratch my inner thigh until all leather has disintegrated.
âIs deep-fried pizza actually nice?â I wrinkle my nose.
âDelicious. Although with Mum being a vegan nut, it was a rarity when I was allowed it.â
âI never hear you talk about your parents,â I say softly, reaching across the table to take his hand.
His breath catches. âWhen you stop making new memories, you find yourself talking about the person less.â
âWhat was she like?â I ask tentatively.
His face sags, and I instantly regret pushing him out of his comfort zone.
âItâs OK,â I say quickly. âWe can change the subject.â
He gazes out the window for a minute, then he turns to me fully. âYou two share some similar traits.â He lets out a short sad laugh. âWhat does that say about me, hey? Mammy issues. She was creative, fun, the life and soul of the party,â he continues. âShe loved to sing. She used to sing in a band around the pubs in Glasgow.â His tone darkens: âUntil that prick stopped her.â
âYour dad,â I whisper.
âI donât call him that,â he replies gruffly, staring into his beer.
âShe would have liked you.â
âIâm pleased.â I smile. âDo you think thatâs what made you so determined to become successful? The ⦠accident?â
âIt was no accident,â he mutters darkly. âI became successful because I didnât have anything else going for me. All I had left was my grandmother and Karl.â
I nod. âThatâs why Tristan means so much to you.â
He laughs again. âYes, for some reason, Tristan took a liking to me. I wasnât like you in uni. I didnât drink. I was reserved and sullen, I stayed away from people. But he stuck with me regardless. So yeah ⦠Iâm worried about how heâll react if he finds out ⦠about us.â
He closes his eyes with a dark exhale.
âI could count on one hand how many people care about me, and heâs one of them.â
âThatâs not true,â I say softly. âYou need one more finger. I care about you too.â
When he opens his eyes, a private, unspoken emotion passes between us, one I never thought Iâd see on Danny Walkerâs face.
He shifts uncomfortably in his seat, and I decide Iâve pushed him enough for one night. âHowâs the jet lag? Since you had to fly with the normal people, Princess?â
He grins, taking a swig of his beer. âFair enough, I deserve that. The truth is Iâm absolutely shattered.â He looks it.
âWe can have an early night.â
âThis is officially our first date.â He gives me a lopsided smile. âIâm supposed to be sweeping you off your feet. Showing you that I can keep up with a twenty something.â
Groaning, he grasps a hand on his pocket. He takes his phone out, and I see Tristanâs name flash across the screen. âHe thinks Iâm still in New York.â He frowns. âI wonât get it.â
Part of hiding our dirty little secret.
âDanny,â I start, trying to sound light-hearted. âWhy are you so worried about Tristan knowing about us? Are you embarrassed?â
His forehead creases into a frown. âNo, Charlie, Iâm not embarrassed. Tristan made me promise I would never go there. Heâs very protective of you and Callie, you know. After he witnessed how your mother was treated by your father. He used to go out for days and come back, and sheâd hear he was with some other woman. Tristan used to hear her lying in bed crying. He doesnât want anyone to hurt you. Youâre his baby sister.â
âI know all that,â I say, frustrated. âI might have been younger, but I still witnessed it. Thatâs not a reason to mollycoddle me. Iâm a grown woman now. Not to get into Sigmund Freud theories, but you are not my father! Just like I am not your mother. Do you treat women badly?â
He gives a soft laugh. âNo, Iâve always been very straight with women. I rarely want to jump into something serious. Sometimes they ignore that and get hurt when it ends badly.â
Like I will.
I wither a little as his hurtful words sear my ears. If he notices, he ignores it.
âTristan knows me. He knows Iâve been with a lot of women. He doesnât want that for you.â
âWhat about what I want?â I ask. âDoesnât that matter?â
âYouâre younger than me, Charlie. Youâre in a different time of your life. What you want will change.â
I stare at him in disbelief. âDonât patronise me, Danny.â
He takes both my hands. âLetâs not fight. I canât tell you whatâs going to happen in the future. All I can say is that Iâm taking a big risk now because to walk away would be worse. Thatâs all I can give you right now. Is that enough?â
Thereâs a pause.
âYes,â I say at last.
He gives me a look of relief. âNow, whatâs good for dessert?â he asks, opening the menu and turning to the back page.
Damn, I was hoping we could leave after the main course so I could scratch the leather. Heâs here for the long haul. For Fuckâs sake, who orders dessert after scoffing two naan bread, a whole bowl of rice, and a large meat stacked Jalfrezi?
I canât take this.
I use my elbow to subtly stroke back and forth between my legs. Nearly ⦠nearly ⦠ooh, itâs not enough. I need this damn contraption off.
âWhat are you doing?â His eyes are wide, watching as I dig my elbow in further. âDid you just try to scratch your Nether region with your elbow?â
I snort. âItâs the leather.â
âThe leather?â
âIâm wearing a tight leather bra and pants ensemble. It was supposed to be a surprise.â
He gives me an amused smirk. âGod, give me strength. You take out the leather after Iâve sat squashed against a fat man and a baby for eight hours. Are you trying to murder me through exhaustion?â
âYou look like you have fleas.â
âThatâs not the look Iâm aiming for,â I mutter.
He lets out a snort of laughter and finds my hand across the table. âLetâs get the dessert to go.â
***
Back on my new luxury bed, we rip at each otherâs clothes like bears trying to maul the other. Itâs only been a few days, but itâs been too long since I saw him naked. Iâm panting hornily as he tugs my sweater over my head to reveal the leather bra.
I fumble with his jeans like an amateur. Thereâs no time or desire for foreplay tonight.
I push him down onto the bed and climb onto him, my legs straddling his hips.
âIt would be a shame to waste the leather,â he says gruffly, pushing a finger inside the leather bra to circle a nipple.
I hover just above him without touching him as he pushes the leather cups down so that my breasts spring free. His length stands up straight, thick and impatient.
âStop teasing me,â he growls. âGet on my cock.â
I smirk down at him and reach between my legs to pull down the zip of my leather pants, exposing my crotch.
âZipped,â he hisses. âVery efficient.â
His hands tighten around my hips, and he lowers me down so that his head is rubbing against my wet slit.
Then he impales me onto him, filling me so deeply I cry out.
âEasy,â I breathe, rotating my hips to stretch my core out so that I can take his size.
âSorry,â he replies gruffly. âItâs been a week.â
I start to gyrate gently on top of him, thrusting my hips, reaching the spot that I know will bring me pleasure.
âYouâre so deep.â I moan, looking down at him. âDo you know how good you feel inside me?â
I thrust, increasing the tempo as my pleasure dictates, and his breathing becomes laboured, louder.
âIâm going to come.â He closes his eyes, groaning. âIf you keep doing that, I canât stop.â
I donât want him to stop. I want to prove I can make him come hard and fast. I control the movement; Iâll control when he comes.
I slam my hips into his groin and widen my legs deeper, so he is buried to the hilt.
He lets out a strangled growl. âFuck, Iâm coming. Now. Now.â
I feel it like itâs part of me. He explodes into me, filling me with his come as I watch his handsome face twist and contort with a mixture of pleasure and pain.
âDid that help the jetlag?â I ask breathlessly, holding him inside me.
When he opens his eyes, they are swimming with tenderness. âYes, Charlie, Iâll have the best sleep of my life now.â