Chapter 442 So Was That Your Tacit Invitation?
âWhy, Kyran? Why do you think Iâm⦠like this?â
Bitterness tinged her last question. She was angry-angry at the incomprehensibility of her own emotions.
Kyranâs hand ran down her back, his expression serene. âDeirdre, you donât feel joy over anyoneâs death because youâre that kind-hearted. Your happiness doesnât need to be built on anyoneâs pain.â
âBut I should be happy! Shouldnât I?â
âDeirdre?â Kyran lifted her chin and gazed into her eyes. âDo you still love him?â
âLove who?â
âHim.â
She shook her head with all her might. Tears of bitter, painful anger rolled out of her cheeks. âLove!? I hate him! I hate him so much⦠itâs wearing me outâ¦â
âSo, youâll never forgive him, no matter what he does?â
There was not a shred of hesitancy in her response.âNever!â
Even Kyran was taken aback by how quickly her answer sprung. For a long time, he typed nothing.
The silence brewed a quiet sense of unease in her. âW-Whatâs wrong?â
He gave a soft laugh. âNothing. I was just thinking. If you are that sure of your answer, then what else is troubling you?â
Sadness. Somehow, something about his word choice implied sadness. Deirdre did not notice it until she mulled his reply over.
She stiffened.
âWhatâs really troubling you is the strength of your resolve. Are you as determined as you think you are? Is your conviction as unshakable as youâve imagined? Or is there a soft spot in your heart this whole time, and this confusion youâre experiencing now actually stems from your pity?
âBut you heard yourself, didnât you? The answers you gave me were pretty good indicators, right? It wasnât pity or sympathy. You just hate him so much it wore you out and made you want nothing to do with him. any longer.â
That was true. Deirdre cast her eyes to the floor. She knew that the real source of her unease had nothing. to do with Brendan himself. She felt perturbed because she had rejected Madame Brighthallâs plea for help-because she cared about that old woman rather than her son.
She simply did not want her to suffer the loss of her one last family member. She did not want her to send off her son, who was still in the prime of his youth, when she should have been the one to go first.
Deirdre finally understood her own sentiments now. Her lip curled. âThanks, Kyran.â
âIâd rather you thanked me in another way.â
She was stunned. âA-Another way?â
It did not take her long to understand what the other way meant. The manâs breath was beating down on her-rhythmic, heavy. Closer. A puff escaped from his lips, dispelling the winter air around her as they pressed against hers.
When their lips melted together, Deirdreâs fingers trembled.
Kyran locked her hands between the spaces in his fingers. Her senses became a blur. When her lucidity. returned a little, she realized she was already lying on his bed, and his breathing had lost its usual, even rhythm.
The tip of her ears burnt. âK-Kyran, n-not now⦠We canât do it hereâ¦â
Her quivering tongue was tripping itself. âT-This is a h-hospital!â
The man froze and suddenly broke out a giggle.
She gripped the edge of her bed tightly, perplexed. âW-Whatâs so funny?â
âDeirdre, my own body is forbidding me from doing anything too extreme,â he explained. âOf course I know I shouldnât!â
Deirdre reeled back in realization. She had misunderstood his intentions!
She blushed.
âI have to wonder, though. Was that your tacit invitation to intimacy?â he asked. âGod⦠Iâm so happy!â
Deirdre felt a warm glow in her chest as the man threw his arms around her. They cuddled, enjoying their rare moment of peace and completeness.
There was a commotion outside. Hurried footsteps echoed through the corridor, interrupted only by the hushed voices of doctors and nurses. Deirdre could not see anything, but her ears were good enough that she raised her head and looked at the door.
The door opened, revealing Declan, who looked in shock at the cuddling couple on the bed. Then, his shock melted into a very, very suggestive smile.
âMan, arenât you all just glad that it was me who came in? You two might accidentally teach sex education to any unsuspecting kids like this!â he quipped. âMaybe I should even knock the next time I come in.â
Flustered, Deirdre pushed Kyran away from her and took a seat on the bed next to it. Meanwhile, Kyran glared a little at his friend.
âWhatâs going on outside, Mr. King?â Deirdre asked in an attempt to change the subject. âWhatâs with the commotion?â