Chapter 42 Running Away? With Whom?
âIf this is your revenge on me for stubbornly keeping my child, then shouldnât his death have pleased you enough?! I was incarcerated for a year! Iâve lost everything Iâve ever had! Everything⦠Godâ¦
What will it take for you to be satisfied? To let me go?
âIâve already regretted ever taking up the⦠the toxic mantle of being the fake Mrs. Brighthall, and I donât want it anymore⦠Let me go, Iâm begging you⦠I donât want it anymore. I donât want to be Mrs.
Brighthall anymoreâ¦â
She swooned after that.
Brendan released her. His chest was wrangled in pain, a pain so great that he could not contain it. It pressed against his lungs, denying him any chance to breathe.
What was going on?
He had always seen himself as an ubermensch unstoppable and almost omnipotent . And yet he could not answer this one simple question. His mind was beleaguered by sheer frustration. He stood on the balcony and began to empty his cigarette pack, as though he was trying to self-medicate, however temporarily, with nicotine.
Out of all these inscrutable knots, Brendan was sure of one thing: He wanted Deirdre to return to him and be his devout lover. She had nothing left, after all.
Not her eyes or her looks, not even her mother. Sterling might claim to love her now, but Brendan was sure his love was as fleeting as an impulse. All he needed from Deirdre was docility. In exchange for her submission , he would gladly take care of her for the rest of her life. She would never want for anything.
Deirdre had no idea how much time had passed. All she knew was that her phone was ringing, and that is what woke her up. She opened her eyes and was immediately assaulted by a wave of soreness.
She inhaled sharply upon recognizing it all. Deirdreâs hand felt its way to her phone. âHello?â she asked, her voice hoarse and raspy. âWhoâs this?â âDee, itâs me!â
His voice made her wake up for good. âSterry?â
Concern filled his every word. âAre you okay? Your voice sounds so⦠hoarse. Are you sick?â
Pieces of what that beast of a man had done to her formed in her memories, each of them ushering new chills into her bones. She clenched her fists and replied, âIâm okay. Itâs been raining for the past few days, and I caught a cold. What about you, though? How are your injuries?â
âWe⦠should meet.â Sterling always spoke to Deirdre with a special kind of loving, gentle tone, but this was the first time he sounded grave and afraid. âEvery time my mind drifted to the thought of you being caged by t-t that psychopath, I just⦠God, I couldnât help feeling anxious! Iâm just glad he at least granted you the freedom to answer calls. Youâre not homebound too, are you? Tell me your address. Weâll talk when I get there.â
Deirdre wanted to tell him no. She was deadly terrified of dragging Sterling back into this nightmare.
She could not âand would not-entangle herself with him anymore. But there were words yet unspoken that had to be said in person, soâ¦
âA-Alright.
Deirdre had always known where her house was. She told Sterling the address, took some clothes out of her luggage, got changed, and left. She waited at the fork of the street.
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Ten or more minutes passed before Sterling Fuller appeared âa frantic man, his back hunched as he paced toward his destination as quickly as he could. His eyes caught a glimpse of Deirdre in the distance and he quickened his pace.
He skipped a few steps ahead and wrapped his arms around Deirdre, pulling her into him hard.
âGod, oh God! Iâm sorry, Dee⦠Iâm so sorry,â he muttered, sounding guilt-ridden. âI couldnât protect you as well as I should â I should have protected you better! I wanted to go after you that day. I wanted to run out of the house, but the rest of my family⦠They kept me at home. I havenât been able to go outside until now! Thank God youâre okayâ¦
Lord knows I will never forgive myself if anything happens to you!â
Deirdre cast her eyes to the floor. He felt so warm that she began to sniffle.
Then, she remembered the depths of Brendanâs cruelty.
She pushed his arms away, freeing herself from his hug. Sterling paused , dread trickling into his mind.
âWhatâs wrong?â
Deirdre took a deep breath. âThanks for everything youâve ever done for me, Sterry. Those years were really good, and Iâve always wanted to repay you⦠But so many things stood in the way,â she said. âSo I guess this is it. This is goodbye.â Sterlingâs eyes narrowed in disbelief. He then gripped her shoulders.
âW-What are you saying, Dee? Did he make you say it? He did, didnât he?!â Sterling demanded.â Donât believe a single thing he says! He says heâs so powerful that heâs the law of the land, doesnât he? Well, he canât do jacksh*t if we leave this country altogether â and thatâs what weâll do! Iâll take you with me right now!â
Deirdreâs lips parted. Before she could say anything, though, she heard a new voice interject. âTake who?â