Chapter 370 I Donât Want to Keep You Waiting âShe probably doesnât want to see me,â typed Kyran. âThis is because thereâs someone. whoâs willing to sacrifice his job to stay with her. Iâve seen their photos. Sheâs living at happy life now. If this is what she wants, I should leave her alone. As for me, I just need to always remind myself of my past mistakes so that I wonât repeat them while loving the people I want to protect.â
There was a noticeable pause when he reached the part where he wanted to protect the people he loved. It was as if he was talking about Deirdre, causing the tips of Deirdreâs ears to turn red with embarrassment.
Kyran then continued. âShe taught me how to respect others and what was important to me. Perhaps this is the will of God. He wants me to appear in my best form before the person I like.â
âAppear in his best form, huh? To be honest, Kyran is indeed the finest man I have ever met.
Deirdre lowered her head. Kyran did not continue the conversation and asked, âCan I have a cup of water?â
âHuh? Sure.â
Deirdre snapped herself out of her thoughts and rose to her feet. She clearly remembered where the water cup was, so she poured half a cup and handed it to him. âHere.â
However, Kyran did not take it. Instead, he held her hand and said, âDeirdre, I understand that you think Iâm courting you and treating you so nicely because Iâm taking you as her replacement. I admit that I was attracted to you at the church because youâre blind, but your personality and gentleness are what draw me to you.
âThe things between her and me are already in the past. It happened long ago, and I think Iâm ready to start a new relationship. I donât think of you as her. I really like you.â
It seemed that he had prepared his speech a long time ago. He just needed to pull it out from his draft, as there was no pause between his words.
Even though Deirdre couldnât see with her eyes, she could sense the expectant and fiery emotions in his eyes.
His palm that was holding her finger was warm. For a moment, she had the feeling that her hand was going to get burned.
A pang of nervousness clutched at her chest, and she was tongue-tied.
She was not opposed to Kyranâs courtship. It was just thatâ¦
âKyran, since youâre being honest with me, I need to tell you something as well.â She took at deep breath to calm herself down and said, âI had a very terrible and toxic relationship in the past. It made me⦠unable to start a new relationship. I canât fall in love with other people now. It may last for five years, ten years, or even a lifetime.â
There was no way she could forget the pain that Brendan had inflicted on her.
She had liked him since she was young and loved him with all her heart when she grew up. He had trampled and crushed her heart on the ground as if it was something insignificant to him, and she had sacrificed too much because of this relationship.
Her mother, her eyes, her faceâ¦
She had lost too much.
Deirdre did not have the courage to persuade herself to trust and love another person. She needed time to heal her wounds, and Brendan would be her nightmare for the rest of her life.
âYouâre shanking.â
Kyran held her hand, and only then did Deirdre realize she was shaking.
She forced a smile and said, âSo, you shouldnât fall in love with me. Iâm not the right person for you. I donât want to waste your time or disappoint you, so I think weâre better off just being friends.â
Kyran looked at her deeply and released his grip.
âDierdre, do you think Iâm joking when I say I like you? I like you and only you alone. I wonât go to look for another woman. I can wait until youâre ready to be in a new relationship, but Iâll be very sad if youâre just trying to push me away.â
âIâm sorryâ¦â Deirdre bit her lips. âI just donât want to keep you hanging and make you wait. for me.â