My hand, are you crazy?
Why are you holding Perezâs hand like that?
My heart, are you crazy too?
Why are you running like crazy?! (Yeah itâs love)
That was when my mentality was disintegrated by parts of my body that disobeyed me regardless of what I thought.
"Tia."
Thatâs all.
Perez was just calling my name.
Thump-thump.
But my heart was pounding even harder.
And my eyes kept turning to Perezâs face.
No, exactly on those lips.
I keep looking at his lips like Iâm attracted to a magnet.1
Perez must have sensed such a change in me, too.
His gaze, which was firmly fixed as if entangled with my eyes, became hot.
I was completely exposed underneath it and couldnât move.
Slowly.
And through that gap, his fingers dug between my fingers and clipped them tightly.
"Uh..."
It was the same this time.
Thatâs all, but it felt so, so close.
But I canât push it away.
"Itâs too..."
You are handsome.
Yeah, itâs all because of Perezâs crazy beauty.
I closed my eyes tightly.
I donât think I will come back to my senses when I see Perezâs face.
"Pe, Perez."
"....Huh?"
I was wrong.
With my eyes closed, Perezâs voice became more stark and clear.
I opened my eyes and said, really raising the sense of self-control under the soles of my feet.
"We canât do this."
"What is this?"
"Ah, you know! like this!"
I still screamed halfway, raising my clasped hands.
"You have someone you date! I donât have a bad hobby of stealing someone elseâs man!"3
Man-, man-, man-! (echo in the original sentence goo- goo- goo-)
My little cry echoed in the empty hallway.
Perez looked down at me and quietly frowned his dark eyebrows.
"...Someone Iâm dating?"
There was something unpleasant about the low voice.
After a moment of thought, Perez asked.
"...You?"
"No, not me! That, that..."
Perez doesnât know that I know about Ramona.
I donât even know about the link between Perez and the Monak Top in the first place.
What should I say if Perez asks me, âHow did you know about Ramona?â
âIn fact, itâs my person, Violet, who competed with Ramona for the Triva wood.â
Or should I say âI actually returned from the future when you and Ramona became an official lover of the Empire.â?
In the end, I was forced to ask a half-empty question.
"Oh, the girl you met at the Academy?"
"No such thing."
Perez answered right away.
"I have a classmate who is a woman I met at the academy, but."
His hand held my hand tighter.
"None...?"
"None!."
Perez said firmly.
There seems to be no lie.
No, originally Perez doesnât lie to me.
On top of that belief, one thought slowly raised in my head.
So theyâre not in that relationship yet?
At the same time, I felt a sense of relief sweeping down my chest.
Then someone from over the hall called us.
"Your Highness, Lady Florentia."
It was Avinox with a fresh smile on his face.
"What do you do without going in?"
I quickly turned in the direction Avinox coming and let go of the hand I was holding.
Turning my head from the side, I could feel Perez was looking at me.
"We were talking for a while before we went in, Sir Avinox."
"Did you? If youâre done talking, letâs go in together."
"Shall we?"
I tapped Perezâs arm and glanced as I went inside.
"...Yes."
I left Perez on the left and entered the dining room with Avinox on the right.
But my head was full of only one thought.
Why am I relieved?4
...
The dinner ended shortly.
Lord Ivan was not present today, and his second son, Migente, treated us instead.
However, Migente Ivan did not stay long after the meal.
After a brief conversation with Perez in the corner, he told us to âtake a restâ and left the dining hall.
"Then Iâll go..."
Iâm tired maybe because Iâm so nervous because of Perez.
It was time for me to put my napkin down on the table and start my luck.
Squeeze.
Someone grabbed my hand, which is still holding the napkin.
"...Sir Avinox"?"
"Lady Florentia..."
Who gave him a drink?
Avinox, whose face turned red, seemed completely drunk because his eyes had already been loosened.
And to make matters worse.+
"...Sniff."
Who gave him a drink?
Avinox was whimpering with his shoulders drooping with tears in his eyes.
It was a completely different side from the usual bright appearance.
Itâs going to be annoying.
Being sober and crying is the perfect angle for counseling or complaining!
"Sir Avinox? Donât get sober in the morning and cry, go back to your room..."
"What should I do, Lady Florentia?"
It is already a step late.
"I like her, but I donât know what to do."
Avinox was already starting to whine.
"That Sir Avinox, Iâll hold it for you, so let go of this hand."
"Does she hate me?"
I donât know if she doesnât like you or not, but sheâll hate you when she sees you like this.
It was just before I pulled my hand out.
Bum Bum.
Perez, who had been away for a while to get another piece of cake for dessert, returned to the table.1
Then, in no time to stop, he took Avinoxâs hand out of my hand roughly.
"Uh!"
Astonished, Avinox looked at me alternately with Perez, who was staring at me with sharp eyes and apologized quickly.
"Sorry, Iâm sorry, Lady Florentia. I made a mistake."
I guess heâs sober now.
"Itâs okay, Sir Avinox."
I said that with a smile.
By the way, Avinox seemed to understand the word âokayâ a little differently.
"I have a problem, would you please listen to me?"
"Whatâs your concern?... I donât know if I can be of any help."
I canât help but listen to you when you talk like that.
"Thereâs a woman I like."
I listened to Avinox while eating the cake Perez brought me.
"She doesnât even know that I like her. No, she seems to know, but I donât know."
"What, what are you talking about?"
"Yes?"
I almost came out of my mind without knowing it.
"Oh, no. So, wouldnât it be necessary to accurately inform the situation so that we can consult your concerns, Sir Avinox?"
"Oh... thatâs right."
Avinox said, more shrugging.
"So the first time we met was a social gathering. Itâs the most famous reading group in Capital, so I attended without much thought. I really fell in love at first sight. In that beautiful figure."
There are hearts in Avinoxâs eyes explaining about that person.
You really like her.
"Since then, weâve encountered each other several times at banquets or large and small gatherings. So we spent time together reading books and drinking tea."
"Maybe she has a heart for Sir Avinox, too."
"Thatâs what I thought. But..."
Avinoxâs eyes were filled with tears again.
"She said to me not long ago. Soon, it seems that there will be a marriage partner decided in her family..."
Dark clouds formed on Avinoxâs face with a voice that was getting smaller.
"I donât think I can live any longer if she marries someone else."
"No, wait a minute."
I asked, sending a stop sign by hand.
"So she told Sir Avinox that she was about to get married? Is that what do you think?"
"Yes..."
"And it"s not a love marriage, but it"s a political marriage that her family decides?"
"Yes..."
What, itâs a green light.
I looked at Perez because I couldnât understand the tearful Avinox.
I think heâs pathetic.
But for some reason, Perez was tapping Avinox on the shoulder.
He seemed to be very sympathetic.1
Men who donât have courage.
I asked Avinox.
"Sir Avinox. Did you confess to her?"
"Although I didnât confess... I did convey my feelings in a different way."
"For example?"
"Iâll get her a valuable book, or Iâll give her flowers... And if we get a good tea leaf, we can have tea together.
"Youâve done everything but confess?"
"Well, thatâs... Yes..."
Oh my gosh.
I sighed softly and shook my head.
"Sir Avinox, you have to confess."
"Ha, but weâve talked a lot together, and weâve had a lot of time..."
"You have good feelings for each other, but youâre not confident."
"Confident..."
Avinox murmured with a blank face.
"I think there must be a reason why she pre-announced to Avinox about the marriage, and not decided yet."
I canât believe heâs worried about this kind of problem.
Oh, Iâm tired.
I patted the edge of my mouth again with a napkin and stood up and said.
"Express your heart, Sir Avinox. Unexpressed love is not love."9
I roughly told him the phrase I once heard.
Oh, I donât know. Itâs useful to many people, so itâs famous.
"Love without expression is not love..."
"Yes, thatâs right, Avinox..."
It wasnât Avinox.
It was Perez, not Avinox, who was repeating what I said.
And his red eyes looked up at me standing out of my chair. (Tia you have triggered the switch)2
I flinched my shoulders in a little embarrassment.
Why are you listening to that word?1
* * *
Half a year had passed since Madame Sussew was bedridden.
She was very healthy for her age, but she was unable to get out of bed since she slipped in the rain and was seriously injured.
In the end, Madame Sussew made a decision.
He decided to give up his position of the head family, which had not been handed over for a long time.
It was Chanton Sussew, the son of his late husbandâs cousin.
Chanton was one of the most prominent knights in the Empire, where he returned to his hometown a few years ago.
The succession was carried out quietly a month ago.
After placing a brilliant and honest Chanton as a householder, Madame Sussew focused on treating her illness.
Until she heard some strange news today.
Madame Sussew immediately called Chanton to her bedroom.
"Aunt, did you call?"
Chanton stepped inside, calling Madame Sussew âAuntâ without the complicated title.
It was an ordinary face with short-cut brown hair, but he showed the sharpness unique of the swordsman and the relaxedness of the strong man who had been dealing with the sword for a long time.
"How are you feeling, Aunt."
"Itâs gotten a lot better. How are you getting ready to go to the Capital?"
Madame Sussew asked, putting down the book she was reading on her lap.
"Yes. We are preparing well one by one. I was worried because you called me suddenly. What is it?"
"I heard a strange noise today, Chanton. The reason you leave for the Capital tomorrow is because of the Empressâs letter."
Madame Sussew finished her speech and looked at Chantonâs complexion.
He was a tree-like man with a cool shade and no vanity.
So there were many friends and many people who followed him.
It was fortunate for Madame Sussew that Chanton returned home from his position as the Commander of the Imperial Knights.
Because she believed in Chanton that much, so she called him without believing the rumors she heard.
"...Yes, thatâs right."
Madame Sussew swallowed a deep sigh at Chantonâs calm answer, which she thought would jump ânoâ.
"Youâve worked at the Palace for a long time, so you know whatâs going on with the Imperial Family. Iâm sure youâll make the right judgment for Sussew, Chanton."+
But with that said, Madame Sussew didnât look so good.
She was still staring at Chanton with a nice smile, but she finally added a word to him.
"Watch out for Angenas. You should never trust them."7
Chanton, who was listening silently, smiled and nodded.
"Yeah, Iâll keep that in mind. Aunt."