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My eyes were wide as I stared at the figure in front of me. My mouth opened and closed as I tried of thinking on what to say. Anger suddenly coursed through me.
"Never thought I'd see you again, Kyle," I spat his name, my voice full of venom as I hid my shock behind a wall. My hands clenched into fists and I dug my nails into my skin to prevent me from beating the shit out of him.
Kyle remained silent, not saying anything to me. Hannah was oblivious to the tension.
"Oh, you two know each other?"
I let out a bitter laugh as I sent a glare his way. "You can say that." My eyes burned with hatred as I connected gazes with him.
Kyle was Kyan's brother. I was close with him, but like everyone else, he turned his back on me. He sexually harassed me after Kyan was done. HE did things worse than Kyan had ever done at times. He took advantage of me when I was weak and broken. He took the destruction Kyan caused and made it worse. Nobody knew what he was doing, not even Kyan himself. He usually got me when I was at a party or when I was even just walking in the hallway. I could never escape from him. At times he would avoid me but he would always come back. My friends and family knew what Kyan had done but didn't know about Kyle.
And since Kyle is a werewolf, which totally shocked me, there is no excuse for what he did to me. He is suppose to have a mate and I'm pretty sure he wouldn't treat her the way he treated me. No girl should be treated the way I was treated.
"Are you feeling better?" Kyle asked breaking the silence.
I crossed my arms and leaned against the counter sending daggers his way. "Why do you care?"
An emotion flashed across his eyes. Regret and guilt. He then looked down at Hannah. "Please take the bread to the cooks so they can prepare dinner," he spoke. Hannah nodded and took the cut loaves away, leaving me with Kyle all alone. I kept my eyes narrowed at him.
"Listen, Jasmineâ," his deep voice began and my nose flared as I cut him off. "What?" I spat not wanting to deal with his bullshit.
He let out a deep sigh as he ran his fingers through his messy blonde hair. "I'm sorry, OK?" He apologized, his voice laced with guilt. I rolled my eyes. That;s all he has to say? Sorry?
I opened my mouth to say something, but he continued, "I know what I did was wrong. Extremely wrong. I was messed up, I didn't know. I guess I was just jealous of Kyan. He got to have you when I wanted you. Throughout all those years you were together it was painful for me." His voice was sad and his eyes were filled with hurt. I just stared at him with shock and disbelief. This was all so new to me and I had no idea. But all of this just sounds like bullshit and crap.
"I don't know why Kyan did what he did. He never did say but I thought it would be my chance to get you. Then Kyan started using your weaknesses against you and started taking advantage. Turns out he just wanted your body all those years.I wanted to be with you but something came over me. Something about you, maybe your scent or something, caused my wolf to go crazy and I lost control of myself. Every time I lost control and tortured you, I would realize what I did afterwards and regret it. I wanted to apologize to you but I feared it would happen again. I was so guilty and I hated myself for it."
He paused to take a breath as he searched my eyes for answers. He wasn't done.
"It was so wrong of me to take advantage over a woman. I'm not asking you to forgive me, but I don't want you to hate me."
I had no words.
I didn't know what to say. He seemed sorry but he did mess up my life, almost as much as Kyan did. I had received almost daily tortures which turned to weekly and then months. Month after Month. I cried myself to sleep at night. It was hell. I know I can't forgive him.
But now I was curious. He said something about me made him lose control. I wonder what that something was.
I shifted on my foot, "You caused me a lot of pain. I know I can't forgive and you know I can't," my voice was barely above a whisper. Memories flooded my head making Irene whimper.
Kyle looked down at the ground, his eyes glossy, "You don't have to forgive me. I am more than sorry for what I did and I know words can not show how sorry I am." I didn't respond to him but just observed his state.
"If I were you, I'd just punch me in the face," he muttered more to himself but I heard him clearly.
I shrugged and raised my fist and swung it back before landing it square in the jaw. A cry left him as I pulled my arm back. He placed his hand over his jaw and groaned in pain. I smirked as I placed my hands on my hips.
"You punched me," he stated while wincing a bit as he talked.
"I noticed," I replied smugly.
"I deserved it."
I nodded my head, "You did." I then dropped my arms by my side. "Come on, lets get you some ice."
He grunted in response earning a chuckle from me. "I didn't punch you that hard."
"Yes you did!" He groaned back as he complained about the pain.
"You big baby."
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I took a bite of the freshly made meat stew. I'm not exactly sure what's in it but I don't care. It was good. The rogues all sat around on the ground in front of a fire chatting with each other. The bright silver moon was out, stars filled the sky. It was as if you could feel the presence of the Mood Goddess. The cold night air was brought by a breeze. I was thankful for the fire because it was pretty cold.
"You never told me you were a werewolf," I said to Kyle who sat in front of me. Hannah was sitting next to me chatting with Isobel.
Kyle thought for a moment as he watched the fire. "I didn't know how. My mother is human and my father was a werewolf," he finally said.
I wanted to ask more questions. I wasn't sure how to ask them though.
'Ask him how he became Alpha of a rogue pack,' Irene suggested. I agreed with her, I would like to know that.
"How did you become Alpha of a rogue pack?" I asked curiously as I took the last bite of the stew. I frowned at the empty bowl. I could really use some more.
"I was kicked out of my pack because of my father. He had done something against pack laws and he was killed. Because he was killed, he was not able to be kicked out. Since the Alpha of the pack was such an asshole, he kicked me out instead because I was my father's son. I had to suffer the consequences." Kyle tossed a stick into the fire. He watched as it caught on fire.
"As I wondered the woods, not know what the hell to do, I ran into a group of rogues. They gladly took me in. They appointed me as their Alpha. From then on, the pack grew. We maybe rogues but we are like a family."
I couldn't help but smile slightly at his words. That was sweet of them.
I watched as the sparks drifted up and disappeared. The smell of camp fire filled my nose and I couldn't help but think of Parker's scent.
I wonder what he's doing right now.
I quickly pushed the thoughts away. I don't need to be thinking about Parker right now. I rejected him and there is no turning back.
'Mates can accept each other after rejection,' Irene informed me. I knew that they could do that.
'Only if the one who rejected their mate agrees. It can only be done by marking of the male,' I responded to her. An Alpha's mate has to mark him as well because the bond is stronger.
I couldn't help but wonder what it would be like if I marked Parker. How would I do it? I've kissed a guy's neck before. Scratch that, I've kissed Parker's neck before and it was obvious he liked it. I could still feel the way Parker's smooth skin felt again my lips. Imagine what it would be like when he marks me! Will it hurt or feel good? I've been told that it hurts at first but then a wave of pleasure comes with it.
Irene purred at the thought of it all.
"What were you doing, wandering this deep in the forest?" Kyle asked breaking me from my terrible thoughts of Parker that I regret thinking about.
Should I tell him? The feeling of emptiness and pain returned causing Irene to whimper. I focused on the fire and watched the flames dance.
"I rejected my mate," I said quietly. Kyle just blinked at me and his mouth formed an 'o'.
"Oh. I'm so sorry," he whispers. He doesn't say anything else but I can tell he wants to by the way he opened and closed his mouth.
I decide to say more. Maybe I will feel better when I actually say something. "My mate doesn't deserve me," I said once I found my voice. "I'm ashamed of my past. I feel disgusted with myself." My gaze found Kyle who looked extremely guilty. He looked truly sorry for what he had done and I almost wanted to forgive him.
"Not just what you did, but the choices I made after. I partied, got drunk, and had séx whenever I wanted to just forget everything that has happened to me. I regret it all so much. My mate only wanted me for my body so that only made me hate myself even more." The pain in my chest didn't go away and it didn't make me feel any better.
A little part of me regrets even rejecting Parker in the first place.
"Don't think like that. It was all my Kyan and my fault. I haven't seen Kyan since high school but I'm extremely guilty for treating you like that and making your life hell. Words can not describe how sorry i am," Kyle's voice was apologetic. He gave me a sad smile in which I returned. We didn't say anything and it was silent. We could only hear the popping from the fire.
There was then the sound of shouting. Kyle stiffened and his head snapped towards the direction of the shouts. It was then a man ran over to Kyle.
"What is it?" Kyle asked his tone alert. It was then the scent of the familiar campfire scent filled my nose and it was not the fire.
"Wolves have been spotted near camp and they are planning to attack!" The man spoke after catching his breath. A sickening feeling overcame me and I already knew who it was.
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I'm guessing you all know who it is... Do you guys think that Kyle is sorry and that Jasmine should forgive him?
I apologize for not updating! I had this written a while back but then I started receiving TONS of homework for SOLs that I have this week. Wish me luck on them.
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