I tap my finger against my thigh as I stare out my office window.
The view in front of me gives me an urge to cut someone down.
Him, preferably.
Lia is sitting in the garden, holding Jeremy and smiling as she talks to him. Then, she directs that smile at my fucker guard, Yan.
The bastard gives her a toothy grin as he waves at Jeremy.
Itâs been two months since Lia attempted to escape. Two months of constant paranoia that sheâll do it again and succeed this time.
I forbade her from going outside after that stunt, but I can do that for only so long before her depression kicks back in and sheâll need a breathing outlet.
Still, I canât help thinking that one day, I wonât be careful enough, I wonât watch her hard enough, and sheâll vanish into thin air.
Thatâs why I allowed Yan to get close to her, even though that puts me in the constant mood to kill him. I thought that if he watches her all the time and forms some sort of a friendship with her, heâll know when she plans to leave. He might not agree with all of my decisions concerning her, but he also doesnât want her to leave. Unlike her, he knows that what awaits her out there is way worse than what is here.
Sheâs safe under my roof, where no one would dare to touch her, no matter how much the elders in the brotherhood disapprove of her. Being my wife gives her an immunity that she wonât be able to find anywhere else on earth.
However, there has been a slight miscalculation on my part concerning Yan. Or rather, a misconception. I thought I could handle seeing them getting close.
Thatâs far from reality.
Every time heâs in her vicinity, my head fills with murderous thoughts that keep getting more creative with each passing day. They become more brutal whenever she smiles at him, like right now. The fact that she rarely offers me her smiles anymore but gives them so freely to Yan gets on my very last nerve.
Maybe I should ship the fucker back to Russia.
Some Spetsnaz training would do his personality good. If he dies there, oh well. What a fucking pity.
âSir.â
âHmm?â I release an absentminded noise at Kolyaâs voice while I continue to stare at Lia and Yan. Even Jeremy, my traitor son, is giggling at him.
âDonât do it.â
I halt my tapping and stare at my second-in-command sitting across from me with his laptop resting on his thighs. âDonât do what?â
He pauses, then replies, âKill Yan.â
âWhat makes you believe Iâm thinking about killing him?â
âThe way you stare at him.â
âI wasnât thinking about killing him.â
âNo?â
âNo. The Spetsnaz will take care of it. Whatâs the most ruthless unit there?â
âYou have it in you to get rid of him?â
âIf he keeps getting on my nerves, yes.â
âHeâs only befriending her, per your orders, sir.â
âI never ordered him to smile at her.â
âIf heâs stoic, sheâll never open up to him.â
âKeep defending the fucker, Kolya, and his Spetsnaz future will become a reality sooner rather than later.â
âYou canât send him away and you know it, sir.â
âOf course I can.â
âAnd leave Mrs. Volkov alone?â
âSheâs not alone. She has me.â
âYou work all the time. Besides, youâre not talkative enough for her taste.â
âI can be talkative.â
âNo offense, sir, but no, you canât. Let Yan fill that gap. She needs a friend and youâre well aware of it.â
My lips twist in disapproval. I dislike it when Kolya is right. One of the reasons I allowed her to be close to Yan in the first place is because sheâs a lonely soul who needs a friend, someone she can feel at ease around.
While I prefer she talks to me, thatâs not possible lately, after I snapped at her for trying to leave. Though she comes undone around my dick, mouth, and fingers every night, sheâs still scared and wary of me. She counts her every move and word, and even her damn breaths around me now.
I meet Yanâs gaze through the window and beckon at him to come inside. He says something to Lia and she stares back at me, her smile disappearing and her lips parting before she lowers her head and focuses back on Jeremy.
Standing up, I close the shutters. Soon after, Yan knocks on the door before he opens it and comes in. The moment he steps inside, I grab him by the throat and slam him against the wall.
He wheezes, his hands instinctively wrapping around my wrists, but he soon drops them when he meets my murderous expression.
Kolya abandons his laptop on the chair and comes to our side, but heâs smart enough not to interfere.
âArenât you getting too cozy, Yan?â I ask with deceptive calm.
âNo, sir,â he manages through my strong hold.
âGood. In case youâve forgotten, your only mission is to watch her, not to get too cozy with her.â
âYouâre the one who told me to befriend her.â
âDid you just fucking talk back to me?â
âJust stating facts.â
âHereâs a fun fact for you, if I catch you being cozy with her, Iâll crush your windpipe. Or better yet, Iâll ship you to the Spetsnaz so they can do the honors.â
When he nods, I release him with a shove. He catches his breath, massaging his neck as he stares at me. âIf you send me to the Spetsnaz, Lia will be sad.â
âShut up, Yan,â Kolya scolds.
I tilt my head to the side. âWhat the fuck did you just say?â
âIâm the only one she opens up toâ¦after you, of course.â
I narrow my eyes on him.
âIâm just being there for her. Donât take it away, Boss. I promise to never touch her.â
âThatâs because if you do, Iâll break your hand.â
âI need my hand, so Iâd never do it unless absolutely necessary.â
âAnd donât smile at her.â
âThat would be impossible. Iâm not you, Boss. I canât stop myself from smiling when she does itâ¦â he trails off when I glare at him. âBut I will try.â
âYour future depends on how you behave.â
He grumbles a response, and I turn my attention away from him. I should probably call it a day, put Jeremy to sleep, and have Lia all to myself.
I believe that with time, sheâll forget about the idea of leaving.
Sooner or later, sheâll realize that her place is with me and our son.