Adrian doesnât speak as we walk down the hall to my apartment. He doesnât speak when I put in the code, trying to hide it from him after I changed it a few days ago.
He also didnât speak on the ride here, and neither did his guards, who were the same solemn-faced ones from the last time.
To say Iâm nervous would be an understatement.
Iâm the one who came up with this plan to lure him in so heâd leave me sooner rather than later, but I never thought that the actual moment would be this nerve-wracking.
It doesnât help that he looks as lethal and as handsome as ever. His physique is really impressive, whether itâs his straight nose or his chiseled cheekbones or the black clothes that add a dangerous edge to his muscular frame.
Heâs the type of beauty one should only admire from afar. Whenever anyone gets close, heâll snuff them out like a deadly exotic animal.
I step into my apartment and donât turn around to make sure he followed since hushed footsteps fall behind me. I stop in front of the long, narrow table that I usually use for my keys if I havenât left my car at the theater.
Releasing a shaky breath, I shrug off my coat and hang it above the table. It takes me a few seconds of inhaling deeply before I gather my courage. âWeâre inside my apartment. You said youâd let me know whenâ Ohhh.â
My words end in a gasp mixed with a moan when he grabs a fistful of my hair and bends me over the table. My cheek meets the cold surface and my heart clenches in my chest as my eyes widen. I have no freaking clue why the sound I just released was a moan. It shouldâve been a squeal, a scream, a call for help.
Anything but a moan.
His nose touches my hair from where his fingers are imprisoning me in place, then trails down to the soft flesh of my throat. Shudders and goosebumps break out on my skin, covering each other and allowing new ones to form.
His hot lips meet the shell of my ear and he nibbles down before he whispers in tight words, âYou think I havenât figured out what youâre doing, Lia?â
My eyes must double in size as I try to look at him, but his unyielding grip prohibits me the slightest movement. âW-what?â
âYouâve been waiting for this moment all night. Orâ¦letâs say for part of the night. Did that busy brain of yours think you could get rid of me by being an obedient slut?â
My molars grind together as I snap, âIâm not a slut.â
âThen donât fucking act like one.â His words are as scathing as his rare cursing.
âIâm not.â
âYes, you are. Do you want to be treated like a slut, Lia? Is that it?â
My words catch at the back of my throat when he lifts my dress to my waist. Cold air covers my backside despite the heat thatâs on in my apartment.
Adrian cups me through my plain cotton panties and I gasp. Him touching me isnât a novelty but more like meeting an old lover. And not just any lover, the only skilled lover whoâs ever known how to twist my body in all the right ways possible.
But Iâve never had such a lover before. Iâve never been caught in an erotic maze by a mere touch as I am with Adrian.
Why did it have to be him, of all people?
âMmm. Youâre soaking wet. Is it because of being called a slut or being forced into this position?â
Either. Both. I donât know.
I honestly have no clue whatâs going on right now.
I should feel shame at being held down with my half-naked body in his full view. I should fight and get away from his strong killer hands and all the havoc they wreak.
But I canât.
I tell myself itâs so heâll leave me alone afterward. I tell myself itâs some fling like all the others, but those words fade into the background when he puts his hands on me.
Adrian bunches the underwear in his hand so itâs snapped in a tight line and rubs it against my clit in harsh, merciless strokes. My thighs clench in a fruitless attempt to stop the madness, but Adrian ups his rhythm until Iâm trembling against the table.
The pleasure he wrenches out of me hooks against my bones and pulls me under. Itâs not even about the pleasure, itâs about the monster whoâs inflicting it. The unapologetic, savage monster who will stop at nothing to get what he wants. As I fall apart, biting my lip to stop from screaming, I realize thatâs the reason Iâve been caught up in him since the first time he kissed me.
Iâve always secretly liked the type of man who takes whatever he wants while flipping the world the middle finger. No clue what that says about me as a human being, and in my defense, Iâve been doing just fine hiding that guilty pleasure all these years.
But before now, I didnât have this mountain of a man in my life. I didnât expect Iâd meet someone who would put that fantasy into a literal application.
Iâm still riding my orgasm when a slap reverberates in the air and the burning sting registers on my ass cheek. I freeze, my heart nearly stopping from the sudden onslaught of pain over pleasure.
Adrian justâ¦spanked me.
âWhatâ¦what was that for?â I ask in a breathy tone, still fighting the remnants of my orgasm.
âThat was for hiding your voice from me. Donât do that again.â He slaps me a second time and I jolt against the table, both of my hands gripping the edge tightly.
âOkay, I w-wonât.â
Slap.
My body jerks at the assault and foreign tingling erupts between my thighs.
Holy shit.
âI said I wonâtâ¦â My voice breaks with the need to contain my moans.
âBut you used that juvenile word.â He spanks me again, leaving a pulsating burn on my skin and a clenching in my core.
I gasp, heat rising to my ears. âWhat was that for?â
âBecause I wanted to. Mmm. Youâre surprisingly responsive.â He teases a finger at my entrance and I flinch at the hot contact, or maybe itâs me whoâs hot. âYou like being spanked into obedience, Lenochka.â
âNoâ¦â I moan the word, unable to stay still.
âOh, but you do. Look at how your cunt is inviting me in.â
âStop it.â
âStop what?â
âTorturing me.â
âWhy do I think you like it? You hate how much you want it, but you donât hate the sensations it creates inside you.â
I dig my nails into the wood, waiting, holding my breath for him to do something. He teases my entrance, coating it with my own juices and pushes his finger inside, but before I can really feel him, he pulls out.
It takes everything in me not to groan in frustration. Itâs been a long time since I was this turned on, this attuned to my bodyâs needs as if it was the only path to my survival. Hell, Iâve never been this turned on in my life, except for the last time he brought me to orgasm.
âYou want my fingers, Lia?â he asks in a seductive tone, one Iâve never heard before, one thatâs heightening the state of my arousal.
âMmmmâ¦â I release an unintelligible sound.
âWhat was that? I didnât quite catch it.â
âYesâ¦â Shame rings in my ears as I breathe in and out, unable to gather my bearings.
âThatâs a good slut.â
âIâm notâ¦a slut,â I manage to mutter.
âThen are you a good girl?â
My heart thuds faster at those words.
âWhether youâre a good slut or a good girl depends on how you obey orders, Lia.â
My stomach clenches and the malevolent butterflies from the last time slash through it, wrecking any semblance of control I thought I was wielding. It was cartoonish all along, meaningless, and with no actual impact. Because the one who has been holding the power in his brutal hands from the get-go is the man whoâs standing behind me, confiscating my air and my sanity.
âYou wonât get my fingers, though.â
âW-whatâ¦?â
âItâs time I claim you.â While heâs still gripping me by the hair, I hear the unmistakable unbuckling of a belt and the unzipping of pants.
The rhythm of my heart turns scary. Worse than when I have intense workout sessions. Worse than any frightening moment Iâve experienced in my life.
And I realize with terror that itâs because the fear is now mixed with something entirely different. It starts with my sticky inner thighs and ends in my overstimulated core.
He leans over my back and Iâm acutely aware of the massive erection nudging against my ass.
Oh, God.
I donât need to see him to know heâs huge. Itâs been a long time for me, so thereâs no way in hell Iâll be able to take him.
I close my eyes when his hot breath meets my ears and he murmurs, âIâm going to fuck you so hard, you wonât be able to move, Lia, and when you do, youâll only feel me inside you.â
I donât get to analyze his words as he tugs on my underwear and rips them off me. I gasp, both at the barbaric action and the friction that follows at my clit.
Adrian palms my hip and parts my legs with one of his knees, and then heâs rubbing the head of his cock at my entrance.
I suck in a sharp breath when he drags it all the way over my folds and against my clit before going back again. He does it a few times.
Up.
Down.
Rub.
Down.
Up.
My head swims in a dizzy mixture of sensations, unable to take the torture anymore.
âAdrianâ¦â I moan.
âImpatient, Lenochka?â
âPlease.â
âPlease what?â His voice hardens with arousal and authority.
âPleaseâ¦â
âI asked, please what?â
âDonât make me say it.â Iâm breathing out the words now, sounding wanton to my own ears.
âI want to hear you say it.â
âAdrianâ¦â
âWhat?â
âDo it.â
âDo what?â
âFuck me,â I murmur, my ears exploding in flames.
âI didnât hear that.â
âFuck meâ¦ahhh.â I moan, then gasp when he sheathes himself inside me in one savage go, his groin slapping against my ass with the force of it.
I choke on the air as itâs knocked out of my lungs. My fingers are white and clammy around the tableâs edge as I catch my breath and get used to the sheer size of him.
Did I think he was big? Heâs so fucking massive, I can feel him everywhere inside me, all around me, and especially behind me.
I want to turn my head and look at him, see if his expression is as bewildered as mine must look right now. See if the mere penetration is affecting him like it is me. Heâs not even moving, but the feel of him inside me pushes me to that edge all over again.
Adrianâs firm hold forbids me from staring at him as he starts moving, thrusting slowly at first, but itâs so deep, I feel the stretching of my walls around him.
âYouâre so tight, Lia.â He strains, as if moving inside me is a chore. âSo fucking perfect.â
My heartbeat roars in my ears as he ups his speed, hitting a secret part inside me that I didnât know existed.
âAhhhâ¦Adrianâ¦â
âYou feel that, Lenochka?â
âYesâ¦yes⦠I neverâ¦neverâ¦ahhhâ¦â I trail off as he hits it again, then pulls my legs farther apart to reach it fully.
âYou never what?â
âNeverâ¦felt like thisâ¦â And itâs not just because of the sharp pangs of pleasure that come with each of his thrusts against it or how heâs taken complete hold of me. Itâs about how a monster like him is able to wrench such strong emotions from me, how he hasnât only entered my body, but is also forcing entry into my soul.
âAnd you never will at the hands of anyone else. From now on, youâll forget about any bastard who touched you in the past.â His rhythm becomes uncontrollable, unforgiving, as he rams inside me with a force that rattles the table and my insides.
When he hits that spot again, Iâm screaming in a voice I never knew I possessed. Itâs so long and raw, like standing at the peak of a mountain and shouting at the top of my lungs to my heartâs content.
And just like that, Iâm free. Like that day in my bedroom, Iâm having an out-of-body experience where everything is trapped in a halo.
Adrian powers inside me over and over again, never slowing down. As he promised, he fucks me so hard, my front slides back and forth on the table, straining my hard nipples on the harsh surface.
That added burst of pleasure triggers another submerging wave that transports me to an alternate space. I couldnât fight it if I wanted to. And I donât want to, because at this moment, I feel wild and free like I never have in my life.
âAdrianâ¦â
He wraps my hair around his fist and pulls me by it so that Iâm suspended in mid-air while he drives into me. The position isnât exactly comfortable, but it gives him more depth and my orgasm more force.
âSay it again. My name.â
âAdrianâ¦â I manage on a whimper as my eyes clash with his. Theyâre ashen, but sparking with lust that mirrors mine. Itâs so strong that I can taste it in the small space between us.
âYouâll never say anyone elseâs name in that tone again.â The raw possessiveness registers for a second before he rubs my clit and Iâm falling again.
This time, he uses my hair to drag me closer and crashes his mouth to my aching lips, plunging his tongue inside. He twirls it against mine with the same rhythm heâs fucking me. Iâm delirious, the triple stimulation my undoing. I donât even know if Iâll get back from this one, but I fall anyway.
Thatâs how Iâve felt about everything to do with Adrian since I first met him. He has a way of making me abandon my inhibitions and justâ¦fall.
Itâs liberating as much as it is dangerous.
Delicious as much as it is terrifying.
My eyes are drooping when I find myself in his arms again, his tongue at the back of my throat and his cock ramming into me with the harshness of a warrior.
He goes rigid at my back and grunts in my mouth as warmth fills my insides and then trickles down my thighs when he pulls out of me.
Iâm yanked out of my haze when I realize that he just fucked me without a condom. Holy shit. How could I not think about it until now?
Iâve been on the pill for years to regulate my period, so that will protect me from pregnancy, but thereâs something worse than that nowadays.
Adrian releases my hair, and before I can say anything, he picks me up. I squeal, arms looping around his neck to stop myself from falling.
He walks with absolute nonchalance toward my bedroom. His pants are hanging open, but other than that, everything else is in perfect order. His face is hard and unwelcome, and one would never think heâd reached his peak of pleasure just now. However, he feels more relaxed than when we first arrived. His muscles arenât filled with tension and his hold feels a bit tender.
âYou didnât use a condom,â I murmur.
His gaze slides to mine and I feel cornered in it. âSo?â
âSTDs. Ever heard of them?â
âI havenât been sexually active for months and Iâve always used condoms, so Iâm clean.â
I trap my lip beneath my bottom teeth, my mind strangely going to the part where he hasnât been sexually active for months. Who was his last victim? Someone like me?
That makes my skin crawl and I quickly shoo it away.
âWhy didnât you use a condom just now?â
He pauses. âI forgot.â
âYou forgot?â
âYes, am I not allowed to?â
âNo, it just seems that youâre the type who would never forget.â
His eyes ease. âCorrect.â
âSo why did you?â
âI wish I knew.â
The quiet in his tone gives me pause as I ask, âWhat if I werenât on birth control?â
âYou obviously are, so why fuss about it?â
The nonchalant way he speaks bothers me. Itâs like he really wouldnât care even if I wasnât on birth control. Does he truly lack any sort of remorse? Would he throw me out and regard the baby as collateral damage if I were to get pregnant?
âWould you like to have a shower first?â He pulls me out of my chaotic thoughts.
âFirst? Why? Whatâs going to happen after?â
âIâm taking you again.â He stops in the middle of my room, nuzzling his nose against my hair and inhaling me in. âFucking roses.â
Goosebumps cover my skin and my thighs clench, because even though I havenât come down from the first high, the need for another one hits me with a slamming force.
Still, I go the logical route. âIâ¦I thought it was a one-time thing.â
âYou thought wrong, Lenochka.â His voice is as calm as the devil, and just as lethal.
And I know, I just know that my life will never be the same again.