The sun is warm and inviting today, the complete opposite of yesterday when the four of us woke up to Bradyâs loud ass laugh around five in the morning.
We never did make it into the house, passing out on and around the patio set, which is exactly how Brady found us. After getting some sleep, we tried to head down to the water to hang with our cousins and friends, but we didnât make it past the deck, our hangovers taking a victory lap. So, we turned right back around and threw ourselves onto the couches. It was a movie marathon kind of day.
Today, though, we woke up juiced and ready for some fun. We went for breakfast at Oceans Café, a place Lolli swears by, and then we hit the store to test out Bradyâs fake ID there. It worked and weâre double stocked, just in case.
Since weâve got all we need for the bonfire tonight, we unpack the party favors and hit the sand.
Cam, Mason, and Brady run off, going straight into the cool water, but I lay my beach mat out and waste no time dropping onto it. I close my eyes and smile as the sun soaks into my skin, but the slight shuffle beside me has me looking up.
Chase stands there, staring after our friends with a twisted expression, so I suck it up, and pull on his trunks to get his attention.
He looks down, and I push up on my elbows, using my palm to shield the glare from my eyes. I motion with my head for him to join me.
He hesitates a second, then, without looking at me, drops down, mimicking my position.
A hint of anxiousness washes over me as I know we canât escape what happened at the club any longer. This is the first moment weâve had alone since that night and I know Iâm not the only one who realizes it.
I admit, I woke up a little embarrassed the next day, but not enough to regret it. Had he shown any sign of anger or ignored me after, I likely would, but he hasnât. He hasnât exactly met my eye, but he hasnât avoided it either. He is right now though, the tension in his shoulders doubling with each passing second as he tries to focus on the others goofing off in the ocean before us, but I know heâs not even seeing whatâs in front of him. His mind is muddled by me. Or more, because of me.
His chin meets his chest, and here it comes.
âAre we okay?â he asks, his focus pointed at the sand beneath him.
âWhy wouldnât we be?â
âCome on, Ari. Donât do that.â He shakes his head, looking off.
A wave of apprehension washes over me and I take a deep breath. âChase, look at me, please.â
He does, revealing sadness and confusion.
âTalk to me. Whatâs going on in there?â I ask, tapping my temple with my free hand.
Sighing, he lies down next to me, turning his head to stare directly into my eyes.
How the heck am I supposed to concentrate with him so close, I donât know, but I give him a small smile, encouraging him to speak.
Heâs staring at me so intently that I want to look away, but I wonât.
âWhat was that at the club?â he eases into the topic.
A knot forms in my throat, but I swallow past it.
âI was letting loose.â
âHaving drinks with friends is letting loose.â
His eyes narrow and I sigh, pushing up into a sitting position. âIf youâre looking for an apology, I canât give you one.â
âIâm just trying to understand.â
A wounded, humorless laugh leaves me and I look to the sky. âDonât pretend you donât know,â I whisper. âAnd donât pretend you werenât as curious as I was, even if you didnât want it, I know you thought about it.â
âWhat does that mean?â
My head jerks his way and I frown. âYou might have pulled away, but not before you held me tighter.â
âI was shocked!â he whisper-yells. âThat was the last thing I expected you to do.â
âYeah?â I pop a brow. âWas it the shock that made you hard?â
âWhoa!â His hands fly up, and again, he cuts his gaze around us. âThat was the liquor and the mood andââ
âAnd me.â I shake my head. âMaybe you didnât want anything to happen, but you canât deny that. I know we were drunk, trust me, I didnât need the reminder. I probably would have been too chicken to do it sober, but Iâm not sorry I did. Iâd do it again.â
âDonât,â rushes from his lips with his next breath so quickly that he himself didnât realize it was coming out until it did.
We both tense.
Chase drops his eyes to the sand once more, slowly bringing them up to me. âDonât,â he whispers, so low itâs almost missed. âThat canât happen again. I love you, Ari, you know that, but this isnât⦠we canât.â
âCanât as in shouldnât?â I swallow, forcing my gaze not to drop from his when I want to cower away. âOr canât as in you donât want to?â
Chase exhales harshly, a tragic smile pulling at the edge of his lips. âBoth, Ari.â
I scoot over, putting more space between us, and he reaches for me, but I tug back.
âIâm sorry.â His shoulders fall in defeat.
I inhale, returning my eyes to his.
I want to be angry. To yell and scream, but I wonât allow my disappointment to cloud the truth, because I know better.
Chase isnât saying this to be cruel. He isnât malicious or manipulative.
Heâs just⦠my brotherâs best friend.
We stare at each other a moment, and then his lips twitch.
âWhat?â
âIâm just a little surprised you had it in you.â He grins.
An embarrassed chuckle slips from my lips, and I bury my face in my palms, but he reaches out, pulling them away.
I laugh again, but Chase, he doesnât, and slowly, the humor on his face begins to fade.
I swallow. âChaseââ
âHeads up!â
Before I can react, Iâm hit in the head by something, the impact of the foreign object knocking me over slightly.
âShit!â Chaseâs arms lift, freezing midair. âAri! Are you okay?â
I rub at my head, spotting a football lying near my feet.
âYeah, Iâm fine. It didnât hurt, itââ My words lodge in my throat as my skin prickles, the weight of a warm hand falling onto my bare back just below my bikini strap.
I peek over my shoulder, and my breath hitches as I lock eyes with a stranger.
A blue-eyed stranger.
A blue so deep, like a tropical stormy oceanâs night.
No, thatâs not right.
Theyâre more like midnight. Like when the moon is at its brightest in the sky, casting a shadow over the dark sea.
Or is it metallic blue, like a rainbow fish?
I canât say for sure.
I look to his hair, a deep, dark shade of brown; itâs as if he just stepped out of the water, and maybe he did. I donât know. It does have that slightly styled, messy thing going on. I wonder if itâs soft.
It looks soft.
And those lips. Iâ
Wait.
What the hell am I doing?
I donât even know the guy.
But seriously, though, who has such perfectly shaped lips like this? And the way they move when he speaks is like the perfect sync of a symphonyâ
Hold up. His lips are moving.
Heâs talking to me. And now heâs⦠grinning?
Itâs a really good grin, too, kind of crooked and cute.
Oh, my god, heâs totally laughing at me. My eyes fly up, finding humor and inquisition swimming in his gaze.
âIââ I swallow. âWhat?â
Heat spreads along my chest, and I know thereâs nothing I can do to hide the flush taking over.
Mystery man lets out a low chuckle that causes something to burn in the pit of my stomach.
And itâs official. Iâm officially losing my mind.
A throat clears behind us.
Itâs Chase.
Oh my god, Chase!
I quickly jump to my feet, giving myself some distance, leaving Chase sitting on the ground with mystery man bent at the knees beside him.
âYou okay?â mystery man asks, hiding his grin.
Did I say hiding? I meant attempting to hide his grin and failing. Miserably.
âYo, nineteen!â a familiar voice calls from somewhere in the distance.
The man turns his head, refusing to take his eyes off mine until the very last second, when he glances over his shoulder.
I follow his line of sight to find Brady walking up.
Brady nods his chin, the universal Iâm about to bullet this ball and you better be there to catch it motion all guys seem to understand, and then he does just that.
The guy catches it effortlessly. Seriously. No effort. He pretty much pushed to his feet, lifted his hand and boom. Ball meet open palm.
Thereâs that laugh again.
Brady jogs over, Mason and Cameron on his tail.
Mystery man looks back at me and smiles, briefly flicking his gaze over my body, but not in a pervy way, maybe not even on purpose. More like, âyouâre a woman in a tiny bikini and Iâm a man with eyes.â
Chase must notice, too, because he snaps out of whatever fog he was in, hops to his feet, and positions himself directly behind me. Iâm talking flesh to flesh. So close my head jerks around in shock, spotting the scowl building across his face
Brady reaches us, instantly taking note of mine and Chaseâs nearness. He frowns, quirking a blond brow in question. Just like that, Chase shuffles away from me.
My chest heats for an entirely different reason now.
âWud up, man?â Brady smiles, going in for the infamous bromance handshake, slap thing. âDidnât know youâd be back in town.â
âWait.â I look between the stranger and Brady. âYou two know each other?â
Mystery guy looks at me with a sly grin. âAh⦠she speaks.â
Bradyâs gaze narrows expectantly.
So I explain, âI was a casualty of a rogue football.â
Another earned chuckle, but when my eyes pop toward him, I donât get to see his expression because Brady steps into my space, kissing my hair.
âYou okay, Ari baby?â he asks sincerely, petting my hair like a dog.
âFine.â I try to push him off, but he shifts, now throwing his arm around me.
He nods, facing his apparent friend. âI take it you havenât met my girl yet?â
Mystery man grows curious, cutting a quick glance toward Chase.
Oh awesome, he thinks Iâm a groupie now.
Before I can defend myself, Mason arrives and does it for me.
âSheâs not your girl, asshole.â My brotherâs annoyance is evident in his tone.
Brady laughs and I slip from his grasp, looking toward my brother.
Mason slides up with a full-blown smile, the kind you wear as a kid when stepping into the stadium at your first pro football game. âBro, what up? How you doinâ?â
Mystery man is staring at me but addresses Mason. âGood, just relaxing while I can.â He cuts a glance toward Mase but quickly makes me his focus once more. âAre you sure youâre okay?â
âIâm fine, no big deal.â
As quickly as I respond, Mason is before me, frown in full effect.
These boys, I swear. âI said Iâm fine, Mason. Chill. I got knocked by the ball. Iâm alive and breathing. Like I said, no big deal.â
âIt was my bad,â the stranger speaks, a hint of hidden humor in his melodic tone. âI misread the pass.â
Mase nods, backing off as a grin splits his lips. âA missed pass, that doesnât sound like the guy I know.â
âIâm sure I can teach you a thing or two about following through,â Chase spits with unmistakable arrogance.
My spine goes straight, but I force myself not to look his way.
âHarper.â The guy jerks his chin. âHowâs the shoulder?â
âPerfect.â
âUh,â Cam draws. âAre we about to drop trou, maybe pull out a ruler?â
I canât keep my gaze from flying to Cameron, who grins at the newcomer.
âNah, weâre good. I think heâs worried about his girl,â mystery man says, his eyes never leaving mine.
I bite back a smirk, and somehow, he knows it, his tongue slipping out to hide his own.
Now thatâs one hell of a way to fish, cast your line out right in the middle of chaos. Itâs a guaranteed bite, and he knows it, just like I know Cam will jump on this one.
She doesnât disappoint.
âOh, she is sooo not his girl, ainât that right, Chaser?â Cam pins Chase with a sharp brow in challenge.
Get him, girl.
Instead of allowing Chase to answer, not that he would, Mason takes the lead, as usual.
âNot sure where you got that idea, but youâre way off, bro.â Mase motions toward me. âAri, this is Noah Riley, heâs our team captain. Noah, this is my twin sister Ari and our friend Cameron.â He points to her. âTheyâre headed to Avix with us.â
âNoah,â as Mason introduced him, smiles a hello.
âWow.â Cameron speaks the second Mason stops, looking Noah up and down. âIf youâre any indication of whatâs to come, weâre gonna get into some serious trouble this year.â Eyes on Noah, she cocks her head to the side. âAinât that right, Ari?â
âDonât answer that.â Mason pins me with a hard glare, quickly serving Cameron with it just the same.
âOkay,â I interject before either of them decides to open their mouths again and turn toward Noah. âItâs nice to meet you, Noah, and since I get the feeling, youâre going to ask again, yes, I swear Iâm fine. These three have hit me in the head with a football more times than I can count, itâs nothing but normal at this point.â
He stares at me, a flicker of some unknown purpose painted in his eyes. âRight, quarterback for a brother.â
Noah smiles and I will mine not to follow.
God, this guy is too gorgeous. Itâs unnerving.
âSo, whatâs up, man?â Mason asks him. âYou stickinâ around for a few days?â
Reluctantly, Noah shifts his attention.
âI wish, I have a couple meetings, so I have to get back to campus. Thereâre always a few overeager freshmen who show early. If Iâm not there to show âem the ropes, Coach will have my ass.â He grins, glancing my way. âIâm actually out of here first thing tomorrow.â
Chase pipes up then. âToo bad, guess weâll see you back at school.â
Noah nods, eyeing Chase a moment.
âWell, tomorrowâs tomorrow, so you have to come to our place for a bonfire tonight.â Cameron swipes her wet hair from her face.
âYeah, man, come,â Brady adds.
Noah glances behind him, a little unsure. âI came with a few other guys from the team, so Iâd hate to crash your party.â
Cam gapes. âThereâs more of you?!â
âJesus fuck,â Mason grumbles.
âThere are.â Noah nods, fighting the smile threatening to take over his full lips. âFour of us to be exact and my buddyâs sister is here with a few friends.â Noah meets my gaze.
âWell, the sister we could do without.â
âCameron!â I hiss.
âI just said what we were both thinking.â
My asshole best friend clearly interprets my wordless What the hell expression and feeds me with her own that screams you know you agree while waving her hand dismissively.
This bitch winks at me.
Iâm going to kill her.
âDonât mind her,â Brady says, then points at Mase. âI think sheâs got some pink puff goinâ on.â
Noahâs brows pull in. âPink puff?â
Oh god, no. Please donâtâ
âYeah.â Brady shrugs as if his nonsense should make total sense. âYou know, we get sucked in, tight as fuck, achy ass blue balls and they get swollen, sensitive as hell, pink puffs.â
I bury my face in my hands.
I love my little group to death, but holy what the hell?!
Mason chuckles and I donât have to look at Cameron to know sheâs nodding in agreement.
âWhoâs all here?â Chase wonders, his tone cordial for the first time since Noah showed up.
âNick and Jarrod and my buddy who wasnât at camp, Trey Donovan.â
My head snaps up, eyes locking with Cam.
âHeâs on the team, defensive lineman.â
âDidnât think camp was optional,â Brady jokes, making Noah smile.
âTrust me, itâs not, but heâs a senior this year, missed the draft last year, so heâs got a little wiggle room. He was invited to a pro day inââ
âTampa,â Cam and I blurt out at the same time, causing everyoneâs head to jerk in our direction.
âYeah, actuallyâ¦â he draws out.
âHoly shitâ¦â Cam whispers, slowly looking to me. Her smile finally grows and then sheâs squeezing my arms. âHoly shit!â She beams. âSo much for never seeing him again!â
âHow do you twoââ Noah cuts off mid-thought and a slow grin tips those lips of his. He stares at me for a beat before his eyes fall to his feet. âButterflies?â He glances up.
âAw,â Cam gushes. âHe told you about us?â
âWhat the hell is going on?â Chase asks.
âThatâs exactly what I wanna know,â Mason snaps.
âI knew it!â Brady yells.
Cam and I freeze, our wide eyes locked on each other in a moment of panic.
Oops.
âKnew what, damn it?â Mason growls, his eyes flying around the group.
âYou two,â Brady accuses, pointing at me and Cam. âTook off the minute we left for camp.â He crosses his arms over his chest, frowning.
âWhat?!â both Mason and Chase shout, each taking half a step forward.
I gape at Brady. âHow do you always do that?â
Noah lifts his hands. âHey, I didnât mean toââ
âNo, Noah, this isnât your fault.â Cameron glares. âThese assholes try to keep us on a tight leash without the benefits, if you know what I mean. So, yeah, shitheads, we did. We went on vacation without you. Me and my bestie flew free for three whole weeks in St. Petersburg.â She puts her hands on her hips, refusing to feel bad about it. âWe met some amazing people, including Trey Donavan, whoâs apparently your new teammate, and we had a fan-fucking-tastic time.â
âSon of a bitch!â Mason shouts, lifting his arms just to slap them back down against his sides. âAnd Mom went for this? Dad?â
I lift a shoulder. âPaul was there for work,â I tell him about Cameronâs dad. âWe checked in with him, stayed in a room next to his.â
Masonâs glare doesnât budge, but his body loses a hint of tension.
It gives him comfort to know we werenât out there alone, or, well, without him, but not enough to keep him from being pissed off. Heâll call our parents later and feed them every reason in the book why they should never allow that again, but it will fall on deaf ears. Finally. Weâre eighteen now. Theyâll advise, but my parents arenât the controlling type. Where Mason gets it from, I donât know. My dad says he was the same when he was young and that Mase will grow out of it, but Iâm not so sure about that.
âAll right, letâs put a pause on this, huh?â Brady pats Noahâs shoulder, holding on to Masonâs and taking him with him as he walks away, Chase right behind them. âNoah, weâre the dock property at the end. See you at seven. All of you.â
Cameron sighs, offering Noah a small wave before she too heads to the house.
I stare after them until they reach our back deck, and then turn to face Noah.
âSorry about that. Itâs nothing personal against Trey. Itâs just, wellâ¦â I let out a defeated sigh, glancing toward the house again. âGod, itâs a lot of things, I guess.â
Noah meets my gaze, nodding as if he understands.
Weird thing, I get the sense he does.
âCam can be complicated on the calmest of days.â I laugh lightly, rubbing my arms with my hands to rid myself of the chill making its way across my skin. âSheâs into my brother, but heâs, I donât even know.â
I peek up at Noah, expecting a bored expression or for him to be searching for a way to get back to his friends, but instead, I find Noahâs ocean eyes staring intently, his head tilted as if heâs interested in what I have to say, even though it has nothing to do with him.
âSorry, I was rambling.â
The corner of his mouth lifts. âDonât be, I kind of like the sound of your voice,â he teases.
âSure, you do.â I laugh lightly, motioning toward the beach house. âI better go help them get ready for the bonfire.â
He nods. âYeah, thatâs probably a good idea.â
âWell, maybe weâll see you tonight.â I smile and walk away, making the conscious effort not to look back.
My steps are slow as I replay the last half hour.
Chase finally acknowledged our kiss, but not in the way I had hoped he would.
Whether he wants to admit it or not, he was feeling me for at least a moment. He was hard, pressed against my body.
He wanted me.
Or maybe he was just turned on by the mood and the vibe, like heâd said.
Maybe it wasnât about me at all.
So, what was with the long, slow, wretched expression today?
What was he thinking?
What was he about to say?
He was about to say something, right?
A harsh breath pushes past my lips, and I pause at the foot of the deck stairs.
If only we werenât interrupted by Noah.
I bite the inside of my cheek.
Noah. A random guy on the beach.
Or not random, but the guysâ new team captain.
My hand meets the railing, and before I know what Iâm doing, my eyes are gliding over my shoulder, drawn to the exact spot in which I left Noah Riley.
The spot where the blue-eyed strangerâs still standing, his attention pointed this way.
I donât know why, but I lift my hand and wave, and the moment I do, my cheeks turn pink because, somehow, I know the action has him chuckling, even if I canât hear him from here.
I had a feeling this trip would be full of surprises, and it seems thereâs more to come.