EVIE
I made up my mind that I was done with bonfires. They were just too much drama, especially the ones in the bayou. My emotions were all over the place. I couldnât even identify what I was feeling.
Fear, anxiety, curiosity, excitement, and the most terrifying of all, love, were all swirling inside me. I couldnât dispute anything Noah had said. It didnât make any logical senseânot one bit.
But deep down, in my heart and soul, I knew he was speaking the truth. The feelings I had for him, the feelings I experienced around him, were inexplicable. Only the unbelievable seemed to make sense.
And it was this unbelievable that scared me the most. It was the reason I chose to study folklore: the need to understand the unexplainable and the fear of never being able to. What frightened me more than anything else was his wolf.
Not the idea of him transforming into a giant wolf, but the thought that another beingâa wolfâresided inside his mind. Noah had assumed that the mate bond would be the hardest thing for me to comprehend. And it was challenging, no doubt about it.
The mate bond was overwhelming, but deep down, I knew it was right; it made sense. But a wolf living inside Noahâs mind? That was something I couldnât rationalize.
It was a little past noon on Sunday. I hadnât slept a wink the previous night. My mind was consumed with the events of yesterday, and sleep was the last thing on my mind.
I was sitting in my living room, staring at the blank TV screen that I hadnât even bothered to switch on, when a knock at the door startled me. I jumped off the couch in surprise. I wasnât expecting anyone, and I half-expected to see Noah at the door.
A part of me even hoped it would be him. I snapped out of my daze and walked over to the door, pulling it open to see who it was.
âMolly?â I was taken aback to see her standing on my porch.
âEvie! Thank the Goddess youâre okay!â she exclaimed, pushing past me and entering my apartment.
âSure, make yourself at home,â I said, my voice dripping with sarcasm. I rolled my eyes and shut the door behind her. âWhy wouldnât I be okay?â I asked.
âAre you serious? Yesterday was intense.â She flopped down on my couch and let out a dramatic sigh.
âIâm fine, Molly.â I sighed, settling down on the oversized chair across from the couch.
âThe alpha said you were strong. I guess he was right.â She gave me a sidelong glance, and I suddenly felt like an exhibit in a zoo.
âAnyway, Iâm glad you know now. I hated lying to my friend!â she exclaimed.
âYou mean you hated lying to me for the whole week weâve known each other?â I chuckled.
âWell, yeah.â Molly frowned.
âDid Noah send you here?â I asked, suspecting that Molly was here to keep an eye on me.
âNo way. I was worried about you, especially after you didnât answer your phone.â
That made me wonderâwhere was my phone? I got up and went into the kitchen where I last saw my phone. It was on the kitchen counter, plugged in and untouched since last night.
I woke up the screen and saw a dozen missed messages from Molly and a few from Noah. I ignored all of them and turned back to Molly.
âI know you set me up with him at the bar on Friday,â I accused her.
âOkay, yes, I did that. But to be fair to Noah, I did it without his knowledge. I didnât tell him until that day that you were coming,â she admitted, looking slightly guilty.
âReally?â
I was genuinely surprised. I was certain that Noah had something to do with it.
âReally. After the bonfire last Saturday, Noah just asked me to keep an eye on you, to make sure you were okay. I decided to play matchmaker on my own. I think youâre perfect for the alpha!â Molly gushed, her grin stretching from ear to ear as her voice steadily rose in pitch.
âMolly, youâre at a ten right now, and I need you to dial it down a bit.â I winced, walking back to the chair.
âI canât.â She was practically bouncing on the sofa.
âDo you always act like this, or is it just for me?â I questioned.
âNah, itâs pretty standard for me,â she responded nonchalantly.
I shook my head, a small smile creeping onto my face despite myself.
âBut seriously, Evie, how are you handling all this?â Mollyâs face contorted in a way that I assumed was her attempt at a serious expression.
âI wonât lie, itâs freaking me out. Iâm trying to make sense of it all. It would probably be easier if I didnât believe him, but I do. Itâs like Iâve been thrown into a different world that I know nothing about.â I let out a sigh.
âI canât even begin to understand what youâre going through. Especially after hearing about your attack and how terrifying wolves must already seem to you. And I know the whole mate bond thing isnât a concept humans are familiar with, so that must be overwhelming.â
Molly looked like she wanted to comfort me, and I had to admit, it felt good to have a friend like her around. Even if she was a whirlwind of energy that drove me crazy half the time.
At least she was easy to talk to and was genuinely the most authentic person I had ever met.
âThe thing that scares me the most is the idea of you guys having a wolf living inside your head,â I confessed.
âYeah, thatâs a bit hard to explain,â she conceded.
A thought suddenly occurred to me.
âIs it okay if I ask about your wolf?â
âAbsolutely! Her name is Kira.â Molly beamed.
It was so strange how casually they discussed their other personality. In the human world, having another personality wasnât exactly seen as a positive thing.
âSo how does it work? Can she speak when youâre in human form?â I inquired.
âYeah. She can take control in human form just like I can take over when weâre in wolf form. Do you want to talk to her?â
I wasnât exactly thrilled about interacting with their wolves, but if I had to meet one, Iâd rather it be Mollyâs than Noahâs right now.
âSure, okay,â I agreed, albeit reluctantly.
Mollyâs grin widened as she closed her eyes. When she opened them again, they were no longer blue, but pitch black.
âHello, Luna. Iâm Kira.â
I wasnât sure what I was expecting, but Kira sounded just like Molly.
âActually, my nameâs Evie,â I corrected her.
âI know, but youâre the luna.â Her tone was different from Mollyâs. She was more confident, less bubbly.
âI donât know what that means,â I admitted.
âYouâre the alphaâs mate, which makes you luna,â Kira clarified.
âOh,â was all I could manage.
âMolly is a good girl; sheâs a good friend.â Kira smiled.
âIâm sorry, I just canât wrap my head around how you two coexist in one body,â I said, my voice strained with frustration.
âI know itâs hard for a human to understand. But weâre content.â Kiraâs words took me by surprise.
I hadnât considered that they might be happy. I hadnât thought about wolves having emotions at all.
âNoah always refers to himself in the plural, too. Are you two really that connected?â
âMolly is my soul, my favorite person. I love Molly. Wolves canât survive without their soul. I wouldnât exist without Molly.â
Kiraâs words left me speechless. She genuinely cared for Molly, loved her like a sister. I had thought of the wolves as some sort of parasite, like a succubus. But that wasnât the case at all.
âWhat does a mate mean to you?â I asked Kira.
Her eyes lit up.
âA mate is a gift; a mate is my life. I hope Molly and I find our mate.â
âYouâre okay with sharing your mate with Molly?â
I had this image of a wolf battling Noah for control over me, like two jealous boyfriends.
âMolly and I are one; we have the same mate. Our mate gets to be loved by both of us!â Kira declared joyfully.
âNoah mentioned that he struggles for control with his wolf. What does that mean?â I asked, a bit apprehensive.
The idea of something battling Noah for control of his body and mind didnât sit well with me, especially when that something was responsible for beating Sawyer to a pulp when he touched my shoulder.
âCompared to me, Molly is more human, more intricate,â Kira began. âWolves are straightforward. We desire our mates and view anyone who stands in our way as a threat. I only challenge Molly for dominance when Iâm angry and itching for a fight. I believe once we find a mate, Iâll crave control to communicate with our mate or to shield him.â
Kiraâs explanation started to bring clarity. Noah had described the wolf as more beast-like, while Kira claimed they were simpler. They were driven by the instinct to safeguard those they cherished, even if it meant overriding logic.
âWould you ever harm Molly to gain control?â I questioned.
Kiraâs eyes widened in shock.
âNobody harms Molly!â she snarled.
âI apologize; I didnât mean to upset you. I just feel a strong need to protect Noah, and Iâm worried that his inner wolf might try to harm him,â I explained.
âNo, no! Alpha Remi adores Alpha Noah; he safeguards him. He would only inflict harm on Alpha Noah if Alpha Noah threatens the luna.â
Kiraâs voice held an unexpected innocence. I found myself visualizing a puppy rather than a colossal demonic dog.
âThank you, Kira. Youâve been a great help.â
Kira lowered her gaze. âItâs my privilege to serve you, Luna. Would you like to see me?â she asked, her voice filled with eager anticipation.
âWhat?â I wasnât certain I had understood her correctly.
âYou see, Molly, would you like to see me?â she reiterated.
âDo you mean your wolf form?â I queried.
âI am wolf!â Kira retorted defensively, clearly upset that I might have mistaken her for Molly.
âIâm not sure Iâm prepared to confront a werewolf,â I admitted in a timid voice.
âIâm significantly smaller than Alpha Remi; Iâd be a more suitable wolf to encounter first,â she stated matter-of-factly.
I tilted my head, considering her words. She had a point. I was inevitably going to have to face a wolf, so wouldnât it be better to start with a smaller one?
âWeâre in the middle of town,â I pointed out, attempting to find a reason to avoid a direct encounter with a wolf.
âWe can head to the bayou, on pack landâweâll be safe there,â she suggested excitedly. âIâll relinquish control to Molly, and she can drive us.â
Before I could protest, Mollyâs eyes returned to their normal state.
âThat seemed to go well,â Molly beamed at me as if no time had passed.
âWere you able to hear all that?â I asked.
âYes, Iâm still present,â she replied, tapping her forehead. âIâm just not in control. Like right now, Kira is communicating with me, and she can hear everything weâre discussing. Sheâs just not the one steering us.â
â~Interesting~.â I mused, processing the new information.
âI know Kira can be a bit overwhelming.â I chuckled at Molly. ~Talk about the pot calling the kettle black.~ âBut she has good intentions. If you donât want to see her wolf form, she wonât be ~too~ offended.â
I could tell from Mollyâs expression that Kira would definitely be offended if I declined to see her.
I let out a sigh. âNo, I want to. I need to.â
I had to take this leap and confront my fear sooner rather than later.
âAll right, would you prefer to ride with me or drive yourself?â
I wanted to drive myself, but I was fairly certain that if I did, I would never make it to the bayou.
âIâll accompany you, if thatâs all right.â
âLetâs get going, then!â Molly exclaimed, bounding out of my house.
I grumbled as I dragged myself across the living room. I collected my phone, keys, and jacket before trailing after Molly to her car.