Weâre about midway through our set when Anika signals for a time out.
Rhett takes his cue and addresses the crowd. âAll right, guys. Weâre gonna take a brief intermission. Enjoy a little classic country from the jukebox, refill those drinks, and empty those bladders. Weâll be back in a jiff.â
The four of us rush off to meet Anika backstage to find out whatâs going on. We donât keep our phones with us on stage, so the girls know to call her should anything pressing arise. Naturally, weâre all a bit frazzled, because for Anika to pull us off stage, it must be something major.
âJust got a call from Ravenâthe kids are fine,â she rushes out when Nick gets a panicked look on his face. âBut theyâve just admitted Sammi to Memorial.â
The rest of her words sound like theyâre coming from underwater. My head goes foggy, and my knees nearly give out on me. The thought of anything happening to her or our baby is paralyzing.
Frank materializes behind me with a chair, grips me by the shoulders, and forces me to sit.
Then a glass of whiskey splashes me in the face, bringing me back from whatever dimension I just went off to. âSnap out of it, dumbass.â Aiden shakes his head. âYouâre not supposed to pass out until you see the gore.â
âShâ¦sheâs okay?â My eyes fix on Annie as I lick the liquor from my lips. I donât know why my mind instantly went to thinking the worst, but whatever that little blackout was caused me to miss most of what was said.
âYes,â she says with a laugh. âSheâs fine. Just getting ready to have a baby.â
âA babyâ¦today?â I leap to my feet, hit with a sudden burst of adrenaline. âWeâre having a baby!â My heart starts pumping double time.
âHell yeah, you are.â Rhett slaps me on the back. âGet your ass to that hospital. Weâll have Gage fill in for you.â
After a string of well wishes from the guys, I sneak out through the back with Frank, and we make a mad dash to the hospital.
I attempt to call my wife as soon as we reach the car with no answer, but soon after received a message that sheâs in the middle of being checked. This apparently means the doctor is all up in her business, and itâs not a good time to talk.
âSheâs six centimeters,â I tell Frank, needing someone to talk to when the news comes through.
âIs that good?â he asks, flipping his blinker and merging onto the highway.
âI meanâ¦yeah.â I nod. âI guess so. Gotta get to ten before he comes out.â My foot is steadily tapâtapâtapping on the floor. âShe says we have time.â
âThatâs good.â He punches the gas anyway and takes off flying with his caution lights flashing.
âJust got her epidural,â I announce, not at all upset to have missed that part. That needle is no freaking joke. My wife is a beast.
âSays sheâs feeling no pain.â
Frank nods, smiling to himself at my nervous chatter. âGlad to hear it.â
Pretty sure my friend is ready to throw himself into oncoming traffic by the time we arrive at Memorial. Iâm in such a rush to get to my wife that I donât think to wear a disguise, nor do I even attempt to hide my identity, which is even more obvious than usual since Iâm in concert wear.
As soon as I step foot into the hospital, heads whip in my direction and the whispering starts.
âThis way!â Dr. Ruby waves me over to a staff elevator, away from the prying eyes. âSheâs doing great, Lyle.â She cups a hand to my shoulder. âBreathe.â
âBut isnât it too soon?â I can feel my blood pressure rising again. Iâm a nervous wreck.
She shakes her head. âThirty-seven weeks is considered full term, and remember we had to date by ultrasound. That really just gives us a ballpark.â
Once the elevator stops, she guides me down the hall to the room all the way at the end. I can hear Sammi, Korie, and Raven cackling before I even step foot inside.
âOh, Lyle,â Raven says when I enter the delivery suite. âWait til you see the stretched-out mess that was once your belovedââ
âStop it.â Korie smacks her behind the head. âIt goes back to normal. Donât listen to her.â
âIf not, Iâm sure you could ask doc hereââRaven hitches a thumb over her shoulder toward Dr. Ruby whoâs snapping her hands into a set of gloves to examine my wifeââto uhâ¦add a few extra stitches.â She makes a sewing motion with her right hand.
Ignoring the peanut gallery, I rush to my wifeâs side, bringing her hand to my mouth, kissing each of her knuckles in tandem. Then, I kiss her forehead, the tip of her nose, and finally her lips. âI canât believe weâre having a baby .â
âRight now, actually,â doc says, popping up from beneath the sheet shielding Liâl Bitâs business. âYouâre complete.â
âComplete?â I stare at my girl, waiting on clarification while listening to the doctor in the background suggest to the ladies that itâs time to head out to the waiting area just down the hall.
Sweat beads on Sammiâs brow. âThis is it,â she says, eyes wide. âItâs time to meet our little bean.â Sheâs white with fear but also teeming with excitement.
Before I know it, there are two nurses in the room, breaking apart the bed and pulling stadium lighting down from the ceiling and aiming it at her crotch.
Everything happens so fast. Thereâs none of that nervous pacing like in the movies. No time for passing out cigars. I just walked into the damn room and itâs go time.
âSheâs crowning, guys,â a redheaded nurse announces after having a peak under the sheet. âSomeone get Dr. Ruby back in here, stat.â
When the doctor returns, the nurse moves to the opposite side of my wifeâs bed from me. She tells me to keep a hand on her back and when sheâs given the order to push, Iâm to help lift her into a sitting position.
Seems easy enough. And Iâm glad to have an assignment, because right now I have enough nervous energy to climb the fucking walls.
âAll right, Sammi,â Dr. Ruby says, rolling her stool to her spot at the foot of the bed, âon the next contraction I want you to give me a big push.â
âBut IâI donât know how,â she whines, looking around in a panic for guidance.
âYou just grab the back of your legs and sit up and strain like youâre having a bowel movement,â the nurse opposite me instructs.
âHah!â I choke on a laugh, instantly recognizing those instructions. âYou got that, love? Same way you removed that butt plug the other day.â
âOh no, you didnât.â Leslie, the nurse, sucks in her lips, trying not to laugh while shaking her head.
The glare Sammi aims at me is lethal. âI think I might actually hate you right now.â But knowing I distracted her from her fear for even a minute is worth the temporary disdain.
Dr. Ruby keeps her poker face firmly in place, not reacting at all to my nonsense. âPush!â she says, then starts counting back from ten.
Liâl Bitâs face turns almost purple as she puts everything sheâs got into forcing this baby out.
âAndâ¦
.â Dr. Ruby looks up briefly to smile at my wife. âYouâre doing great. His headâs already almost out. Give me another one just like thatâ¦â She waits for the monitor to start climbing, signaling another contraction. âNow!â
âCome on, baby, you got this,â I say, encouraging her through another ten-count while sneaking occasional glances at the mirror set up down there for our viewing pleasure. I canât look for very long because every time I do, I end up feeling woozy. âPushhhhhh!â I shout while she squeezes the life out of my hand.
âHeadâs out! You can relax for a minute.â
This time Sammi remains in her upright position, ready to go when given the order.
âThere he is,â I say, pointing toward the bloody mess in the mirror and trying not to pass out. It looks like a scene from a horror movie down there, with the doctor unwrapping the cord from around his neck and suctioning all kinds of goop out of his mouth.
âHeâs so beautiful.â Big fat tears spill from my Liâl Bitâs eyes. This must be what theyâre referencing with that phrase âa face only a mother could love.â Because my wife is smitten.
âThatâs exactly what I was just thinking,â I lie, praying the situation gets better once heâs cleaned up.
âOne more big push,â the doctor says, nodding at my wife. âIn three, two, oneâ¦â
Sammi bears down, digging deep for every ounce of strength she can muster.
âHeâs out!â
The second Dr. Ruby makes the announcement, Sammiâs body falls back and she is racked with sobs.
Itâs the sound of his first cry that has me biting back tears. Hearing his little voice for the very first time. âYou did it, Sam!â
My chest swells to near bursting with immeasurable pride. âYouâre amazing.â I grip her face in my hands and smash my lips to her sweaty forehead while she attempts to catch her breath. âI love you so much.â
âI love you.â Her fingers tighten around mine. âSo much.â
âMr. Livingston,â Dr. Ruby calls, âwould you like to cut the cord?â
I look to my wife, who smiles up at me and nods, giving me a little nudge. âGo meet your son.â
The overwhelming feeling of warmth that consumes me as I look at our little miracle is the purest form of love Iâve ever experienced. âHeâs perfect,â I rasp, as tears run unchecked down my cheeks.
âRight between these clamps,â Dr. Ruby says, handing me the scissors.
Once I make the cut, the doctor hands him off to the second nurse, who until now had just been hanging out near the baby warmer.
âWhatâs happening?â Thereâs an edge of panic in my wifeâs voice. âI thoughtâ¦shouldnât we be doing skin to skin?â
âIâm sorry, Sammi,â Dr. Ruby says. âItâs standard procedure when a baby comes this early to have them thoroughly checked out by a NICU nurse. Given his size and that we donât have a true due date to work off of, itâs really for the best.â
âOhâ¦okay.â Her voice cracks and fresh tears spill down her cheeks.
I move back to my wifeâs side, dabbing her face with a tissue. âItâs better to be safe,â I say, smoothing her sweaty hair back. âThat cord was wrapped pretty good around his neck too.â
Sammi nods, never taking her eyes from that warmer.
âFive pounds, ten ounces,â the nurse announces.
âHeâs so tiny.â Sammi continues to stare in awe at the little life she created. âIs he okay?â
âSo far, so good,â the nurse says, looking back briefly to smile at my wife. âLungs are good and strong.â
âHeâs such a handsome little guy,â Dr. Ruby offers while finishing up with whatever sheâs still doing between my wifeâs legs. âHave you two decided on a name?â
The way she just carries on conversation while sheâs messing around down there boggles my mind.
âGeorge Wayne Livingston,â I answer, not missing a beat.
âThatâs niââ
âThatâs his name,â Sammi says, cutting her off when she nails me with another one of those killer glares. âStop calling him that.â
I cower at the unfamiliar bite in her tone. âSorry, baby. Wonât happen again.â
âWould you like to hold your son?â The nurse chooses the perfect moment to walk over with the baby bundled up like a little burrito and place him into my wifeâs arms. âCongratulations. You have a healthy baby boy.â
Iâll never forget the expression on her face as she trails a finger over his little features, as if trying to commit them to memory. This right here is the definition of love at first sight. Itâs sacred and pure and I feel honored to bear witness to it.
âJudd,â she says, lifting her gaze to mine for approval. âJudd Wayne Livingston.â
âItâs perfect.â
The name.
The baby.
This moment.
Our life.