Editor: Amaris
Yu Xingzhe could be said to be quite resilient to some extent.
He had a lot of âillnessesâ and was extremely fastidious, but those who werenât that familiar with him had no idea about these at all.
The entire companyâs top management thought that Yu Xingzhe had an incisive foresight, was resolute at decision-making, was extremely prescient, and had perfect aesthetics.
Even though these were achieved thanks to Yu Xingzhe being secretly âtouched upâ using âSUN BeautyCamâ, Old Yu himself already had these advantages with him.
He was fastidious, but he wouldnât make things difficult for others; his mysophobia and neat freak tendencies had reached their terminal stages, but he wouldnât trouble others because of them, it would just get him down.
Just like now, even though SUN had leftâcausing Yu Xingzhe to be so grieved as to wish he was deadâhe didnât tell anyone about it. He tried his best to endure and get used to it. Although difficult, he had firmly endured for so long.
But his endurance had reached its limit...
After all, what he had lost in his heart wasnât a mere assistant, but someone extremely important to him. Even if Yu Xingzhe didnât exactly know what he was feeling, the feeling of loss was true. It was tearing his nerves apart that the âmountainâ before his eyes seemed to be insurmountable.
Yu Xingzhe missed SUN, he missed everything about SUN.
Yu Xingzhe finally took out his cellphone and dialled SUNâs number.
SUN looked at his cellphone and answered after it rang six times.
This was exactly the right number, not too long or late, it was just right.
The moment he heard SUNâs voice, Yu Xingzheâs eye sockets turned a little red.
SUN could see Yu Xingzhe, but he didnât know, so he didnât restrain himself anymore. Still, he said using a calm voice, âCould you come back?â
SUN stared at him without blinking. He finally replied using a calm voice after mulling over it for a while, âGo back to being your assistant?â
Yu Xingzhe paused.
SUN said, âLetâs meet and talk.â
Yu Xingzhe promptly agreed, âAlright.â
SUN asked, âWhere are you? Iâll pick you up.â
Yu Xingzhe told him the place. Not long after, SUN arrived.
Finally being able to meet again after so long, all of Yu Xingzheâs emotions surged up so much that he simply wanted to hug SUN tightly.
SUN only took a glance at Yu Xingzhe and said, âIâll drive.â
Yu Xingzhe responded with a grunt, âMn.â
SUN opened the door for him. Yu Xingzhe sat down, then SUN bent over to fasten his seatbelt.
It was really marvellous just how SUN could do everything perfectly. He was even using the most comfortable angle to fasten the seatbelt for Yu Xingzhe.
Yu Xingzhe didnât realize it when he was already used to it. Only after he had lost him and got him back again did Yu Xingzhe deeply realize just how awesome SUN was.
Yu Xingzhe didnât say anything, but he gradually felt better and he slowly relaxed.
The carâs temperature was just right. The song that SUN picked was fantastic. SUN drove the car very steadily. Even the angle of the seat was the best...
Yu Xingzhe, who had been exhausted for a long while, fell asleep just like that.
SUN took Yu Xingzhe back to his place.
After the car stopped steadily, Yu Xingzhe suddenly awakened. He flurriedly looked everywhere and eventually felt at ease after he saw SUN. âSorry, I fell asleep.â
SUN said tenderly, âLetâs go. Iâll prepare a meal for you.â
Yu Xingzheâs eyes brightened up.
SUN lived in the suburbs, in a small but beautiful house. It wasnât wide, but it was quiet and elegant. Yu Xingzhe fell in love with it at first sight.
âThis place is so beautiful.â
SUN simply smiled and took him in.
The moment they stepped in, the smart home system sensed that its owner had returned and automatically turned on the soft light. Seeing that, Yu Xingzhe couldnât help but take a breath.
SUN asked, âDo you like it?â
Yu Xingzhe liked it so much he was going to burst soon! What are hell and heaven? There wouldnât be any freaking harm if you donât compare the two, alright?! What the fuck!
The entire house was designed according to Yu Xingzheâs satisfactions, right? It practically went straight into his heart!
âThis is...â Yu Xingzhe truly didnât know what to say.
SUNâs voice was especially gentle when he said, âI designed it.â
Yu Xingzhe opened his eyes wide.
SUN looked into Yu Xingzhe, his gaze carrying the love he could not conceal anymore. âI thought of giving it to you as a new year gift.â
Yu Xingzhe tried to open his mouth, but noticed that everything he wanted to say became powerless.
It didnât matter how much the house cost, anyone would be the same in thinking that the intention is the important thing.
No one in this world except SUN could design such a house. No other person could understand Yu Xingzhe better than SUN. Not a single human could make Yu Xingzhe this elated except SUN.
However...
SUN said, âYou should sit down for now, Iâll prepare the meal.â
SUN turned around and went to the kitchen. Being left alone, Yu Xingzhe couldnât control himself anymore, thus he revealed all of his emotions and looked around like a child. His eyes were filled with curiosity and joy, like a child getting a favorite toy. Looking at him acting like that, SUN pursed his lips into a smile.
Being able to make his beloved happy after he did something with a lot of effort gave SUN a tremendous sense of satisfaction.
SUN gave Yu Xingzhe happiness and Yu Xingzhe also did the same.
Hence, these six years seemed to pass in a blink of an eye for SUN.
No need to mention dinner, Yu Xingzhe simply wanted to weep as he ate.
So great, great, great, everything is so great! Everything feels great with SUN here!
After they were full, SUN immediately cut to the chase. âYou want me to come back?â
Yu Xingzhe anxiously looked at SUN before he nodded. âYeah.â
SUN endured himself not to soften his heart. âBut I donât want to be your assistant anymore.â
Yu Xingzhe drooped his sight, his eyelashes slightly fluttering like a butterfly wing that poked the tip of SUNâs heart.
SUN still endured. He asked, âDo you know what I mean?â
Yu Xingzhe asked back, âDo you want us to be lovers?â
SUN didnât say anything in response.
Yu Xingzhe really didnât want to go back to these gloomy days, thus he said in whispers, âTh...then, letâs become lovers.â
He would do anything as long as he wouldnât lose SUN again!
SUN chuckled, his voice more charming than ever when he asked, âDo you love me?â
Yu Xingzheâs heart skipped a beat.
SUNâs hand reached out to Yu Xingzhe, then it rested on his neck. He looked at Yu Xingzhe face to face and said earnestly, âI love you, but you donât love me. You want to be my lover for something else...â
âYu Xingzhe,â SUN had never spoken to him with this kind of voice for the whole six years, âhavenât you gone too far?â
Startled, Yu Xingzhe just stared blankly at SUN. Countless words were already on the tip of his tongue, yet he couldnât manage to even get a word out.
SUN didnât force him, however. He let go of Yu Xingzhe, then got up and said, âThis house is yours. You should rest early.â
Yu Xingzhe started to speak, âYouââ
SUN interrupted before he could finish his words, âSome things just couldnât be forced.â
Yu Xingzhe sat motionlessly at where he was as he stared blankly.
That night, Yu Xingzhe couldnât sleep soundly at all.
Everything was clearly up to his taste: the bedroom was nice, the bed was fine, even the smell of the air was his favorite.
But he couldnât bring himself to fall into a slumber.
As Yu Xingzhe thought of SUN, he couldnât close his eyes.
What should I do? Just what should I do to make SUN stay?
SUN had left on the next day. He had prepared breakfast, but he was gone.
Yu Xingzhe didnât have any appetite at all and he didnât feel like staying at home.
He truly wouldnât have imagined that there would come a day where he couldnât tolerate the things he loved.
With that, Yu Xingzhe went back to his house and spent a few days there while his mind was still in a whirl.
He eventually couldnât endure anymore and gave Ye Chen a call.
Ye Chen answered in whispers, âBrother Zhe, is something the matter?â A lot of noise could be heard from his side.
After the movie had been screened, Ye Chen instantly became popular!
His role as Zhan Chen in the movie had originally been particularly charming, yet Ye Chen performed the role very nicely. The innocence and infatuation when Zhan Chen was young and the pride and affection when he had become an adult, all of them were performed brilliantly by Ye Chen. As a result, he had gained countless fans.
The actors had the looks and skills. With the addition of the top-tier marketing team, was it impossible for the movie to not be popular? Must be hallucinating.
Ye Chen became extremely busy after the movie exploded in popularity. Yu Xingzhe didnât want to disturb him at first, but he really couldnât bear it anymore. âCould we sit down and talk?â
The reason why Ye Chen was loved dearly by his two fathers has a lot to do with his âlittle angelâ attribute.
When they were young, no matter if it was Old Gu or Old Yu who were in a bad mood, Ye Chen would immediately notice it and tried his best to make them happy again.
Clumsy as he was, it worked pretty well.
Who wouldnât be glad to have such a considerate friend?
Noticing the gloominess in Yu Xingzheâs voice, Ye Chen immediately said, âWhere are you? Wait for me, Iâll go there!â
Yu Xingzhe told him the location.
Ye Chen, âItâs quite close, I should be there in ten minutes.â
Yu Xingzhe responded, âOkay.â
Yu Xingzhe hung up the call. He probably hadnât waited for ten minutes before the doorbell rang.
Ye Chen shivered the moment he went inside the house. âItâs really cold outside.â
Yu Xingzhe asked, âWhy are you wearing so little clothes?â
Ye Chen replied, âI was surrounded by so many people in the morning, so my coat had wrinkles all over after being crowded. Thatâs why I left my coat in the car and didnât take it with me.â
Hearing his reason, Yu Xingzheâs heart warmed up. Taking Yu Xingzheâs âillnessâ into account, Ye Chen didnât want to hurt his eyes, so he immediately took off his coat before coming in.
Yu Xingzhe said, âImmediately drink warm water now. What should you do if you catch a cold?â
Ye Chen replied, âRight, right, right, I must drink two glasses of warm water, since I wonât be able to go on a trip with Ren Jing if I catch a cold.â They had decided to go to an island for the holiday. Ren Jing would definitely be reluctant to let Ye Chen travel if he was sick and the trip would be delayed for a while then.
Yu Xingzhe had inexplicably swallowed a mouthful of dog food, but he didnât feel sad at all and felt somewhat happy instead. His mood had surprisingly become a bit better after hearing Ye Chenâs story. Even he himself was unclear whatever the hell he was feeling.
Yu Xingzhe poured warm water for Ye Chen, then Ye Chen obediently drank two glasses and finally felt warmed up afterwards.
Yu Xingzhe couldnât help but âscoldâ him, âNext time, dress yourself properly before coming in. Since when have I ever been disgusted by you?â
He truly hasnât... After all, Ye Chen had been given the green light to visit Yu Xingzhe.
Ye Chen said as he grinned, âNo worries, that coat is truly too hard to explain in a few words, youâd explode when you see it.â
After Yu Xingzhe imagined it for a bit in his mind, â...â
Ye Chen immediately understood what Yu Xingzhe was thinking the moment he saw his expressions. Ye Chen changed the subject so that he wouldnât feel unwell, âWhatâs the matter? Why did you look for me?â
Hearing Ye Chenâs questions, Yu Xingzhe was confused.
Contrary to what he expected, Ye Chen went straight to the center of the matter. âHave you gone to find SUN?â
Yu Xingzhe nodded.
Ye Chen asked again, âYou want him to come back?â
Yu Xingzhe heaved a sigh. âHe doesnât want to become my assistant anymore.â
Of course he doesnât, everyone could clearly see that he wants to be your lover! But certainly, Ye Chen didnât straightforwardly say that. He must go along with the flow when dealing with a tsundere.
Ye Chen asked softly, âDo you think you truly donât love SUN?â
Yu Xingzhe paused for a moment before finally asking the load that was on his mind, âA Chen, what does it mean to love someone?â
Ye Chen, â...â
Death System, âOld Yu needs me! Too bad Iâm already bound to you.â
T/N: âHEEEEY ITâS BEEN ELEVEN (11) CHAPTERS SINCE I APPEARED SO ITâS TIME TO MAKE MY GRAND APPEARANCE!! This super stylish system is still its hostâs favorite!!! Although, Iâm kinda a useless system now because both my host and his husband are completely head over heels with each other now... Sigh, it ainât easy being a system, you know!? I need to be honored, so here I am!â â Death System, probably.
Also, YEAAAAHH YU XINGZHE FINALLY REALIZING HEâS A DUMDUM AND HAD TO TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY AAAAA (Fortunately thereâs Chen Chen reminding him!! Ye Chen is the true MVP in his best friendsâ love life let me tell you!! Find yourself a friend like him!!!) ððð Poor SUN bby had been waiting for six years, now is your turn you fish!! Do you even know what youâve done these six years!? Thank god SUN is a gentleman, heâs willing to wait again and again (yeah, heâd totally get along with Ren Jing)... NOW GO U FISH, MAKE HIM HAPPY! NOW!! OR IâLL TURN YOU INTO AN UNLUCKY SALTED FISH HMPHâ
personal updates
CW: Mentions of death and some gloomy things, please be advised before you read.
Hi, itâs been a while since my last personal update (10 months ago iirc)~ IDK, most of my âpersonalâ updates ended up being gloomy ones... Including this one sdfdgfsdgdfghsdfsdg. So you see, it hasnât been a year, yet I got to witness the death of another close family member just recently. It was really sudden, no kidding. Right, my father passed away because he was contracted with COVID-19. He couldnât be saved because there werenât any hospitals with a spare ICU room and enough tools (?) to help him with breathing. Now, that isnât the only problem. My mother, who took care of my father for a few days, contracted the virus as well. Iâm taking care of her at the moment. And for some reason, my nephews, who are still children, ALSO contracted the virus (but my cousins are fine). No one knows whom contracted the virus to whom, but alas, since me, my mom, and my little sister could be said to only be âlodgingâ in my auntâs house where my cousins and nephews also stay in, we had to shoulder all of the blame LOL. We literally wouldnât have a place to stay anymore if not for my other uncle and auntie (yeah, I have quite a lot of relatives) who offered to take us in and suggested my mother to do self-isolation there. Really, I had no more energy to argue, but why must my aunt pull the âblamingâ card now? We donât go blaming others when we realized that my father had contracted the virus and find the solutions instead. Why still bother to blame others? I know that sheâs sad that her beloved grandsons got contracted with the virus âbecause of my fatherâ. BUT WEâRE ALSO THE SAME. WEâRE NOT EVEN DONE MOURNING WHEN WE FOUND OUT THAT MY MOTHER ALSO CONTRACTED THE VIRUS. I donât want to compare, and I have no intention to do so; ALL of us are grieving right now. But why is it that instead of finding a cure and solution, we had to blame others first?
This pandemic has made the world gone chaotic enough. Please, if any of you or anyone close to you got infected with the virus, take immediate action. Confirm the symptoms with a doctor, and get yourselves checked if possible. DONâT WAIT. DONâT GET FOOLED BY FAKE NEWS. And most importantly, PLEASE FIND A SOLUTION INSTEAD OF BLAMING OTHERS. Iâm begging you on my knees. I donât want to see any more deaths with my own eyes. We canât hold hands or hug right now, but the least we could do is to support each other from the distance. This pandemic WILL end, but only if weâre doing it together. The virus is deadly and horrifying, I know, I really do. So if by any chance any of us got contracted with it, get it treated. Follow the doctorâs recommendation so that you could recover soon. And even if death is inevitable, Iâm sure there are still those who are alive. While weâre still alive, strive. Even if it seems futile. Even if it looks impossible. The least we could do in this kind of situation is to keep pushing forward.
With that said, I wouldnât have much time online in general or to do whatever Iâve been doing until now for two weeks at least. I could never be sure of what lies ahead, but Iâll do my best to help my mom recover, so Iâll keep watch of her full-time. Donât worry, Iâll take care of myself, too. And Iâve started retranslating a few of the earlier chapters, but I had to pause it for now. If worst comes to worst, Iâll have another translator to do it. Though, Iâd still like to finish it by myself if possible. I know this is selfish of me, but please bear with me for now. Iâll be fine... I think. So yeah, see you later when the time comes~ Take care!