Is Eliyas a materialistic man without a drop of emotions?
No.. Absolutely not.
Even someone like him, with a lot of money, a lot of responsibility to bear, much ambition and dedication towards his work is still just an average man who cuddles to his wife at the end of the day and wants to be loved and surrounded with warmth.
Even when he has so much of confidence, when he's ruthless, and seems undefeated.. He's still just a man, since we're not godly complete, my almost perfect husband is no exception of course, he has many flaws and uncertainties.
Our visit to Azziz proved this fact to me again.. Meaning that my husband is sometimes led by his feelings, that he can be uncertain and needs to be reassured.
When we finally went out of the jail, Eliyas who was dragging me behind him finally stopped walking and he decided to act bossy with other people instead, his victim was the innocent protection team, he immediately summoned the team leader then issued endless orders, mainly he wanted the bodyguards to be more alert and provide me even more protection which was, in my opinion, quite unnecessary since they already were extremely alert and careful, if they were asked to top that even further they might as well put me in a metal armor!
But what was taking my full attention was not Eliyas's overreacted orders in fact, it was his hand that held mine instead.
His grasp was getting tighter with every passing moment to the point where my bones almost collided and my joints were about to pop, needless to say it, my hand was hurting so bad. Being the phobic person that i am handling pain as you know is not my best quality, surprisingly though, i totally ignored the pain and didn't even object nor tried to pull my hand out of his, such unexpected behavior of mine has no explanation, it just happened.
At the moment, I only kept thinking of Eliyas who acted very much unlike him self, he was even intervening with the protection team's work which is something he rarely does, and his whole composure was very perplexed and pale.
After watching him for a long time i finally decided to intervene, i called his name softly:
_"Eliyas."
He turned to look at me, with anxious eyes.
You see, i know this man enough to tell the difference in his gaze, as for the reason why i have to go to such extremes such as to examine his gaze to decode his feelings, it is of course attributed to his permanent cold expressionless face, i need to know what's behind his cold mask somehow and only his eyes can unveil that.
When looking at his eyes all i noticed that he couldn't look at mine properly, he avoided meeting mine actually.
So yes, it was clear.. My husband wasn't afraid of any external threat to us, he was simply afraid of "me".. His wife.
_"let's go" i suggested firmly and bossily.
He nodded, then he finally let go of my hand and led us to the car, once we sat inside i decided to act like a decent wife and reassure him that i didn't care that much about what Azziz said, which means there was no reason for him to worry.
I took a deep breath and genuinely said:
_"Eliyas, i already know that you're not the kindest person out there so my bottom line for you is very low, if you truly separated Azziz and I at the time then as long as you didn't threaten to kill someone then i'm willing to consider whatever reason that you had and whatever that you did, i know you're too smart to__"
_" i didn't separate you both for the purpose of taking you from him if that's what you think was my reason.. " He immediately interrupted me.
He looked out of the car pensively and continued:
_" Although i loved you dearly, i still had my pride to keep too Noursine."
I'm well aware of how prideful is Eliyas filladi, he's so prideful that for 3 years he never tried to contact me simply because in a fit of despair i kicked him out of my life! That's how mount everest high is his freaking pride!
Since there was certainly no doubt about this point, i continued to ask:
_"then why did you toy him? More importantly, what did you do exactly to him?"
He scoffed saying:
_" the basic of course.. I gave him money, he accepted it."
Before i even had the time to feel dejected he turned to look at me attentively then he said:
_" Yes.. i offered him money, i was too generous in fact and offered a lot, and i said he could take all the money if he simply left you, this was a test for the man you cherished Noursine, i wanted to see how much he cherished you back, If he chose to stay with you and refused the money then i wouldn't get in your way, if he chose the money though then i would have protected you from a fake man at least."
_"And he chose the money." i whispered with a tight throat.
That money, he probably used it to establish his magazine.
Eliyas soon added:
_" back then i made sure to keep your relationship with him hidden from my father, if father knew about Azziz's existence, he would have offered him money too, but definitely not to simply separate from you Noursine, father who knew how valuable you are to me would have used you in every possible way with the assistance of the man you loved the most, Azziz who simply took my money, wouldn't he easily take anyone else's? And easily fool you for the sake of money? I had to step up first, it was inevitable."
i won't lie to you, I spent a decent amount of time afterwards trying to accept the words i heard from him, it never crossed my mind that Azziz who spent long months ruining our relationship bit by bit and crushing my love for him was actually persuaded by money behind the curtains, such a lowly person.. I regretted the respect i kept for him.
I didn't blame Eliyas in my heart, not even the slightest, in fact i strangely felt really thankful for having such a sneaky husband watching over the naïve me.
After this long accepting process of mine, i finally and logically asked Eliyas:
_"And why did you conceal this fact from me until now?"
As soon as he heard my question, Eliyas's face that got slightly better when we were previously talking went even paler than it initially was.
I guess this was what made him anxious all along, this particular question, "Why did you not tell me until now?"
I didn't even need to hear his answer, it was clear right through his face "he was afraid of my reaction once i find out, afraid that the silly me would hate him for separating me from the man i once loved."
Such way of thinking is logical actually, because this silly me already wanted to leave him once for an even dumber reason, for Lydia khoudjali.
In love, and in marriage, once we make a wound it would never completely heal, no matter how hard we try to mend it.. To overlook it.. And to move on from it, the scars will always remain.
Eliyas who witnessed how easy it was for me to simply throw the divorce papers on his face and walk away from his life, no matter how hard i try to convince him now that i have changed and that i trust him more, he would still not completely believe that, the uncertainty i created within him would never fade away.
It pained me to see the consequences of our past reflected again on his face, and i didn't want to torture him for any second longer. So i moved from my seat and bent closer to him, i pulled him towards me, then i hugged him tight.
Eliyas was so surprised with my hug, so confused as well, he completely froze.. Only his heart was pounding so fast against my chest, almost soundly.
This sudden action of mine didn't only surprise my husband who seemed on the verge of having a heart attack, it sure put the poor bodyguards in a really tough position as well, they probably didn't know whether they should obey Eliyas's order of keeping their eyes on us, or obey Eliyas's other order of keeping their eyes off of us during such particular situations.
The cause of their unresolvable turmoil, namely me, kept hugging their boss for an excruciatingly long time.
Since i absolutely was not in a situation where i would think about the miseries of others, i was completely oblivious to their suffering, i tightly hugged my husband and didn't have the heart to part from him.
Then i lightly kissed the tip of his shoulder and whispered:
_"Eliyas, if you still think that i would ruin what we have for such people again then you don't know me at all."
I kissed his shoulder again then added:
_" and if you still think that i would leave you when i'm scared of what you are and what you do to others, then i need to remind you Eliyas Filladi, that as long as you're not committing the forbidden, i'll always try to understand you, and stay by your side."
When i finished speaking, his tensed body finally softened and his breaths calmed, it will always be surprising to see how this cold man is so affected with me.
He softly circled me with his arms then he drew me even closer towards him, without saying a word, he hugged me too for an even longer time.
He finally whispered:
_" is it really ok?... Or you're just pretending to be calm because you're curious and you want to know more before you express your anger?"
Well, this man sure knows me.. But he is wrong for once.
I chuckled and logically asked him:
_"when did i ever succeed to hide my anger? If i was truly angry then would i have been so generous to let you hold my hand in jail?"
He didn't answer, he just hugged my tighter.
While being in his embrace i thought: " i really do love this man so much."
A bit of time later, we finally decided to end the guards agony, and we moved back to our seats, while fastening my seatbelt i asked Eliyas:
_" by the way, is it true that Lydia has no relation with Azziz and she really did plot something fishy?"
He quietly nodded.
And i felt like a dumb again.
I looked at him carefully then wondered:
_" i might have missed lydia's plot but i'm not that clueless Eliyas Filladi, that assistant who is always around you is weirdly missing today, and it seemed that while we were in jail you brought even more guards, now it looks like a whole army is around us, there's something definitely going on, you offended someone, haven't you?"
He started the car, then he calmly nodded.
He nodded!!
_"what did you do?" I asked displeased.
He made a signal for the protection team that we were leaving, then he answered me:
_" Not much, my father was building a resistance with khoudjali and a couple of other associates to attack me in the near future, i initially was turning a blind eye because i wanted to test their full potential before i attack them, but seeing that lydia khoujali who used your chance encounter in such a way and was that eager to bring my wife to an excluded institution behind my back, she probably was assuming you wouldn't tell me about this and they would have used my disregard, like they did in the past, i guess they had the intention of including you somehow in their plan all along, i'm not willing to put you in risk under any given circumstances, so i had to move prematurely, i expect they will react quite unreasonably and maybe try to attack you since you're my only weakness, it's preferably better if you don't leave the villa for the coming days."
And yes ladies and gentlemen, my husband told me that my life was probably in danger because he messed with a couple of people with a monotonous voice and a cold face!
With no change of expression!
I immediately held my phone and i frantically searched for the latest news while the heartless Eliyas drove the car calmly as if he didn't just report to me that my freaking life was in danger!
I soon discovered the "not much" he actually did within hours:
Khoudjali fateh, namely Lydia's father, was officially penniless and heavily charged of public resources robbery.
a mrs.Goumed followed suit.
Chihala co which is a decent trading company is faced with a smuggling scandal.
Not to mention a couple of other known businessmen are all pointed out in what the media is calling " the biggest trading scandal of the decade".
My fellow journalists must be really busy and excited for the juicy scoops my devilish husband generously gave to them!
I looked at the heartless man sitting beside me and while having goosebumps i asked:
_" Eliyas, are you sure these people can't catch anything against you? They wouldn't blink an eye before they slaughter your neck if ever they caught anything!"
_" didn't you notice that someone is missing in this list?" He asked back to my surprise.
I whispered:
_"Your father."
He laughed mockingly although his eyes looked quite dark and sinister, then he said:
_" he's their leader, he plotted everything and moved all chords but i still failed to catch not even the slightest thing against him, nothing at all."
He shook his head and smugly reminded me:
_" Noursine, i was taught by the hands of this man, do you think i would leave anything behind?"
_"Lydia is missing too." I commented.
_"well, she didn't commit anything against the law, but there's always better ways than jail to remind her of who she messed with."
So again, Is Eliyas a materialistic man without a drop of emotions?
The answer is: Yes, 90% of the time if not more, he is .. A ruthless emotionless devil.