At my words, he couldnât answer; Ferdel did have outstanding abilities, even excelling over my dad.
Right, the only reason why Ferdel was never killed or threatened was because of his skills and efficiency.
Even if I didnât know the entire story, I knew that Ferdel was a good person.
A heavy silence swept us for a moment. Something let me know that it wasnât a normal silence, a heavy one. I didnât know what happened.
âHave you heard why I fired him?â
The question I had been waiting to hear the answer to, but I wasnât sure if I was allowed to learn it.
What happened?
âNo. Why?â
âItâs fine if you donât know.â
Responding to my question, Caitel went silent.
I was a little silent. I thought he would tell me.
Was it their secret? Couldnât they tell me too? Ugh, I felt alienated.
Since they were nasty, I deliberately broke down the bread with a vulgar expression to show my displeasure. It seemed like he noticed what I was feeling.
âWhat will you do, dad?â
âYou wonât be able to win over your cute daughter with such an attitude!â As I smiled widely, my dad stared at me but said nothing.
âHuh?â
âYou need to eat slowly, dad!â
ââ¦â
He really seemed like he wanted to hit me on the back of my head.
It was amusing, though.
I was really lost in thought, but I couldnât do anything. There surely was no answer. Uhm.
I had fun teasing my dad, even though I knew that it wasnât right. Still, I couldnât wait to do it because it was the only fun I had.
How could I give that up!?
Above all, my dad was such a cutie; he scared others to death but stayed silent when I said something. No one would think that he was the Caitel they knew, nor would I share it.
âAh, but dad, there was something I wanted to ask.â
âWhat?â
âWhen you came to rescue me from that mansion, how did you manage to bring the sixth princeâs mother?â
I could have asked Ferdel, but I felt like Caitel was the one who had to be asked.
âHow did you know that you could force my release if you use her?â
I constantly wondered.
Unlike me, who was eager to get the answer, Caitelâs answer was simple.
âFerdel suggested it.â
Huh?
âWhen I became the Emperor and the sixth prince ran away, Ferdel told me that she was the only woman who could bring the sixth prince back to us after his escape. Thus, we kept her alive. Hidden.â
âHuh? Hidden?â
âRight. Ferdel kept her hidden because I would have killed her right away. He would surely come for his mother. There was no way a mamaâs boy could live with the absence of his mother.â
Mamaâs boy. I struggled to understand where Caitel was going with it.
âThe war in the south is also his plan, that insidious bastard.â
âBastard?â
âSiorn, motherfucker.â
âBut dad, your choice of words is rather crude if taken out of context in front of your daughter.â
It wasnât like he wasnât supposed to speak like that, but dad must know that education at home was essential.
However, in front of Caitel, it was best if I chose to stay silent.
I didnât need to spend my time arguing with him.
âI decided to let him go and ensure his capture at a later time, but before I could do that, Ferdel stopped me. Now, my daughter is not just sympathizing with Ferdel but also cooperating with him.â
Haha, as I thought. Fardel really had a handful to handle.
I tried to overlook the situation with an awkward laugh, but Caitel wasnât buying it. Even I wouldnât if I was in his place. I realized that I shouldnât learn what went down between them.
âDad, I hate it when you fight.â
Placing the tray aside, I grabbed my fatherâs hand.
âWhy?â
âOther people hate you.â
It had been a long time since I held my dadâs hand.
I couldnât remember when I held his hand the first time, but I knew that I wanted to hold onto his hand for a longer time.
âI want other people to like you as much as I do.â
That was the real thought I began to generate since I was young; no, it was something I wished after liking Caitel. A genuine wish for Caitelâs sake.
âIs it too childlike?â
âYou are a child.â
A smile appeared on my dadâs face.
Right, still young. Eighteen. I thought as much; I was young. I would only reach adulthood after another year.
I decided to forget how old I was when I restarted my life. I decided to no longer care about the life I lived before. I felt foolish to hold onto something which ended for a long time. It was enough proof that I wasnât living faithfully to the current one. Well, currently, Ariadna really was 18.
When I concluded everything, my surroundings cleared.
Everything I had to do or could do and the possibilities around me gleamed like countless dazzling stars.
I was glad to be born again, really glad.
Feeling my dadâs warm hands made me refuse to let him go.
âI will come back safe.â
Caitel smiled at my greeting.
âIt feels like I am sending you off to marriage.â
âAh, Iâm not yet at the age to marry.â
âRight, Iâll do that when Iâm twenty-five.â
In fact, I wanted to do that after thirty, but maybe having a child at that later age would be tough, so I pulled it back to twenty-five. Well, if I could meet a very fateful partner, I wouldnât mind doing that at twenty!
Caitel raised his hand and stroked my head.
Very gently, gentle enough to know that he cared for me.
Oh, that was so good.
âI feel like it was just yesterday when you were a kid.â
âNot at all. Yesterday makes no sense. It was over fourteen years ago, dad.â
âHas so much time passed?â
It really had been long.
As I nodded, Caitel sighed.
âI donât really remember what your age was then, but when I see you, I always realize it.â
That it had been seventeen years since we met? That time passed? Thatâs new. He must have been through a lot of new things.
âHow many more years can we be together?â
âUntil death!â
What was my dad even asking!
âIsnât that natural?â
Caitel clicked his tongue at my question.
âStupid answers.â
âW-what was with that reaction!â
Wasnât he being too mean even after I said that I would stay with him till my death? Caitel smiled and patted my head again with his usual low voice.
âDonât grow up too fast.â
I already grew upâ¦
When 18, one was already a grown-up. Still, for my dad, I was a child.
âI donât want to send you.â
Where was he even sending me?
At that moment, I realized. It seemed like dad didnât want me to go to the talks.
I sighed. My dad was looking at me with eyes that were looking for a different future. I had no intention of leaving my dad alone.
âI need to go. Be patient cause I will be back in a week. I will miss you a lot, dad.â
âOkay.â
Oh, how could I even leave such a man alone? When parents get older, they begin to act like kids. I didnât think he was that old, but my dad was already acting like a kid.
How old did a man have to get to turn back into a child?
Strange thing. Even then, I didnât want to leave his arms, a new problem for me.
âLook now. If someone sees us, theyâd think that weâd stay here forever. The father and daughter are unusual ones. Is it not?â
âIt is fine. If they point their fingers at us, I will cut it all off.â
I was trying to say something touching, but he decided to ruin it.
Ahhâ¦
I wanted to smile, but I could only sigh. Ugh, I didnât know where to start.
Fortunately, I felt better than before. I liked it.
âDad, you canât walk around.â
ââ¦â
âI would get apprehensive, understand?â
Instead of answering, Caitel just looked away.
âGive me rice.â
My turn.
I was fortunate that he didnât retaliate to my request, so I took comfort in it.
However, I couldnât hide my anxious expression while feeding him.
It was a problem.
âWah, what am I supposed to do with such a dad?â