When Ahin returned, I couldnât get rid of my thoughts so quickly.
âWhat is this? This unknown feeling?â
Usually, I wouldnât be worrying or thinking about a person, but strangely, Ahin was lingering on my mind.
âPrincess hasnât changed,â he said.
When I thought about it, it was like calling an adult cute. It made me feel weird.
âWhat the hell, itâs so stupid!â
âUh, hmâ¦â
âWhy? Why does it feel right to be treated like that?â
After taking a hot water bath, I wanted to rest my head in the inn.
No, I just wanted to die.
If I could die, I would be the first human to do so out of shame.
After a while, I thought of sleeping in the bed. The room was empty as no maids were serving us, but it wasnât awkward since I was used to living alone in the past. It felt refreshing.
At that time, I used to be too busy to even enjoy anything for myself.
My past life.
Shockingly, I didnât miss my past lifeâjust some memories of myself. I should say, it was to the extent where I just smile and think, nothing much.
Even if I returned to earth, I would just miss this place more; I might even whine about returning to Agrigient.
These memories were vivid, while my past life experiences had already faded a long time ago. I didnât want to live on earth.
As I changed my clothes and dried my hair, I looked out the window. The cityâs night view from the third floor was beautiful with the city lights and the stars. The sky seemed to be alive.
Perhaps it was because the air was clear.
In my past life, the night sky was pitch black in my imagination.
Seeing the sky, I thought of my dad.
Now that I had come to think of it, ever since I got a cold after walking out late at night, my dad would walk with me; our walks would last for a while sometimes.
Uhm, I felt like we were apart. I was missing my dad.
I got up from my seat since I was feeling depressed. I would never be able to sleep.
Putting the robe over me, I stood near the door. Even as Godâs Wall guarded the place, this place was still colder.
I wanted to take Assisi and Valer out for a walk.
I opened the room to fetch them, only to meet an unexpected person. Ah, he scared the shit out of me!
âWhy are you here?â
I saw Havel dressed in formals. No, was he going somewhere?
Somehow, his expression seemed like he was in a bad mood.
âCouldnât sleep.â
He asked me back.
âWhy did you come out like that?â
â⦠couldnât sleep.â
I was tired, so I didnât change my clothes.
He coughed out of embarrassment; thankfully, Havel didnât care about it.
Damn, why was he so struck after seeing a woman in nightclothes?
They couldnât even look any more vulgar than this.
Later, when I decided to get married and get myself a husband, I decided to choose a friendly man who wouldnât care about these details.
âAre you going for a walk?â
âI was about to⦠but not anymore.â
My answer made Havel frown. Why? Where I would go was not his concern.
I was so nervous that I missed the timing to enter my room. In the blink of an eye, Havel grabbed my wrist. Moving closer, he looked at me as if he had something to say.
What kind of situation was this?
I was flustered. I tried to breathe. I was worried that he would hear my heart pounding.
Why was my heart doing this? I couldnât even run!
I tried to calm myself down, but I wasnât doing a good job.
Suddenly, Havel asked.
âWhat is your relationship with him?â
⦠huh?
I couldnât get a grip over myself. What was he saying?
âWho?â
âThat white one earlier.â
As soon as I asked back, he answered me.
The white one, pale one, I guessed, ugh.
âAhin?â
âYes, him.â
Quite honestly, I was shocked.
What the hell was with his attitude? My head was thinking about other things. How could he call the next ruler of the North as this one and that one? I tried to control my emotions.
âHe is a successor. Be careful of your words, Your Majesty.â
âDonât divert the topic.â
âI am not. What has it got to do with you? Our relationship is none of your concern.â
What was his intention?
Havel frowned.
âDoes that mean you are close?â
Why did he think that?
We werenât close, but we had a special bond, so I chose to be silent. In this case, it was best just to shut up.
Havel stared at me and then smiled since I stayed silent. It was a distorted smile.
âI thought you wanted to run away, but I guess you had your reason to do that.â
Reason? What was he talking about?
I looked confused since I couldnât understand what he said, and Havel released my wrist.
âItâs tough catching you.â
What?
I couldnât understand what Havel was saying.
He moved away in an instant.
He left a red mark on my hands, but it didnât hurt much. Havel walked back into his room.
âGood night, but I hope your dreams are dreary.â
In the end, I couldnât get any answer from him, so I sighed, wrapping a hand around my wrist.
Really, this guy and that guy.
However, one thing was for sure; he was acting weirdly.