I do say that Iâm all grown up. Iâm still 18.
No one would deny that I was still young, even if I did pass the standard adult age-17. Even if I started playing an adultâs role, people would probably ignore my actions for being a young one in the elderâs eyes.
However, those things wouldnât apply to me.
As if it wasnât enough to be the resident of the Imperial palace, I stood above the social world.
Well, that was it.
âI was sure that I said it was nice to see.â
There was a gift given to me, an accessory set carved out of blue spirit stones.
It was a set containing a tiara, necklace, earrings, ring, and anklets; even if it were a highly attainable stone, it would have looked impressive to my eyes, but a rare spirit stone made this one in front of me. Oval cut, one of the well-known ones, that shape always signified the elegance of the person. The elegantly cut spirit stone was less shiny than the others, but it had a brilliant color made up for its backdrops; it just left me enchanted.
Pretty things are always lovely, but why was this thing given to me?
Unlike me, who was confused, the maids seemed relatively happy.
âHe said he brought it because you would like it.â
I seriously pondered.
âDid I ever ask anyone to bring such a thing?â
I couldnât remember. Rather than that, was this really precious?
Even in typical situations, the spirit stones were sold for high prices, and if it was as rare as this one before me, it must have been expensive. Considering that spirit stones were ten times more valuable than diamonds, it made it difficult for me to value this jewellery set.
I thought of giving a standard answer that it was pretty; one must describe the magnificence of pretty things, but why was such a specialty dedicated to me?
Of course, when given, I accepted things. Refusing gifts, bribes, or anything of that sort wasnât my thing.
Even then, if I did receive this thing, there was nothing I could give back to the sender, and I felt terrible for the nobles who would send gifts without expecting anything in return. Besides, it was difficult to remember each noble who gave me a thing or two.
Did I turn into a person who couldnât even remember those who send gifts to me?
Uh, maybe this was my popularity? My fame?
âWhat can I do? Everyone is nervous and expectant to see the princess.â
What Libby said was the obvious truth, but I could only laugh in vain.
Yep, all this was because I was an adorable person, sucks. Why was I born this way?
Right, I was this way since birth. I was always lovely and pretty.
Why did I have to be so lovable and pretty? And smart too! I mean, I was born to be loved⦠bullshit.
Realizing the shit I was telling myself, I sighed.
It was time for dinner.
Ha, I hated eating dinner.
âUh-huh.â
In the evening hell called dinner, I swallowed back my tears. Although I succeeded in recovering from the situation I had with Havel, I couldnât solve it. Most of all, our relationship seemed fine, but for some reason, it felt uncomfortable for me.
Why so? Why was I feeling like that?
âWhy is it so difficult to treat him like Cito or the twins?â
I met the twins and Cito when I was young; there was no way I would see them differently now, but it felt challenging to treat Havel like any other noble. Even if I did try to be a perfect princess who moved with grace, I couldnât get a single task done because of Havel, who kept laughing.
Ugh, to make a woman suffer!
Thanks to that, I got close enough to him to greet or ask a few things, but that didnât make us close.
Every time I asked such things, he would tilt his head a little, as if he didnât understand why I was asking such things.
Ugh, such a difficult human to deal with.
I already lived with Caitel, my dad!
The maids sighed as they sorted out all the gifts; then, Brenda asked me.
âAre you acting like this because of that southern Emperor?â
âUh, who else would make me feel like this?â
As I sighed with drooping shoulders, the maids chuckled to themselves.
Anger flushed into me. Those would die for sure. Their master was in trouble, and they were laughing about it? I was sure to gather them and give them some education, but I quit right away; I didnât have time.
Ha, what was I doing!?
âBut, he really is a cool person. Are all men of the south that cool?â
âRight. He looks great with the princess.â
âI wish I could marry a man like that someday!â
âOh my, you? Wake up from those dreams!â
Listening to the maidsâ fuss was annoying since they only made snarky remarks. If such a man was the ideal type for the maids, it looked like my empire would fall for him.
âBut it is a bit scary.â
âRight. Did you hear the rumor? Not a single noble who opposed the Emperor of the south was left alive.â
âEven after they surrendered at a later time, he didnât accept it and killed them all.â
âThere were women and children too.â
âArenât all the countries the same when in war?â
As I listened to the bothersome chatter of the maids, I went silent. It wasnât as if their stories were lies. Such things always happened; although the rumors were exaggerated, it was still the truth.
Of course, my dad was great in war, so we wouldnât be destroyed so easily. There was no war Caitel hadnât played and won, from civil wars to aggression wars to riots.
⦠I couldnât let myself be proud of it.
Although it was frustrating, I was proud of my dad, which made me think of how fucked up I was.
Apart from that, Havelâs actions reminded me of Caitelâs younger days. There was no particular reason for it, but it reminded me of the days when Caitel was a tyrant. If it were someone I didnât know, I would avoid them at all costs, but I knew this guy, which made it even more complicated to avoid, hmm.
âWhat is that one?â
I pointed at an unusually white little box. It was about the size of a palm.
âI donât know. Was it sent from the palace? For the princess?â
âHuh? Open it.â
I ordered without even thinking, but the little hairpin which came out of the box was enough to grab my attention.
âHuh? Pretty.â
It wasnât flashy, probably why I liked it a lot. A rose made of coral, and small diamonds embedded on it.
Without delay, I put it on my hair.
I had to try out something like this!
âIt looks like it was made for the princess!â
âI know. It fits so well.â
The maids admired and nodded at each other. It had been so long since I found something I liked. Who could have sent it?
âDid dad send it? Or Assisi?â
âProbably not either of them.â
The maids shook their heads.
âIf it isnât by those two, weâll never know who sent it.â
âWellâ¦â
Thatâs right. Even if those two did try to send me gifts anonymously, they would have gotten exposed.
The maids chuckled among themselves as they looked at the way I touched the hairpin. My appearance, something I saw often, looked weird because of the hairpin. I just shrugged.
Hmm, so what? I was a woman; I get to decorate myself!
I was trying to change my hairstyle to see the hairpin shine more, but I forgot something important.
âPrincess, it is dinner time.â
⦠damn it.