But I want Assisi to be happy. And if Iâm an obstacle to that happinessâ¦then I donât mind disappearing from his life. Of course, the best option would be if Assisi was happy by my side!
âBut still. Assisi used to be too attached to me. He would be with me from the moment I opened my eyes in the morning until I closed my eyes at night.â
I said it and soon denied what I said.
âNo. Actually, Assisi would probably guard my side all night while I was sleeping too.â
Yeah, he would do that.
Itâs something Iâve only learned relatively recently, but even when Iâm sleeping, heâs been always guarding me. I thought he quit that since he got caught when I was young, but seems like he continued it secretly.
You donât have to guard me, seriously.
Well, Assisi is also a human so he does sleep too. But the problem was that he sleeps so lightly that he could open his eyes as soon as he could feel someone elseâs presence. I was so sorry when I heard the story.
Sleep is something you need to take in a good bed.
I always think about it, but I donât know why heâs so harsh on himself.
Of course, I want to stop him from doing that, but heâs not a man who would listen to me, so I just let him be. Thereâs no specific solution.
It made me hate my dad for leaving him alone while I didnât know, tsk.
âThatâs why I was sorry for him.â
Itâs like seeing my mom sacrifice everything for me.
A mother who has lived only for me without her dreams or her own life. I canât be the answer to your life. And Iâm not that great or outstanding to receive everything.
I felt sorry and thankful and sad for him.
Assisi is not my mother, but when I see him, I am immersed in such complex feelings.
Iâm just a little kid, but heâs been protecting me sincerely.
Maybe thatâs the reason. Thatâs probably why I felt relieved when Assisi became the chief instructor of the royal guard. Iâve been protected by him plenty until now. So itâs my turn to protect him.
âHeâs still overprotective of meâ¦but he doesnât worry as much now that Iâm grown up, so thatâs better. â
Libby smiles at my answer.
Sheâs younger than me, but there are moments when she looks at me like my mother. Just like now. Iâm embarrassed because she looked at me so pleased.
âYou must really like Sir Assisi.â
âWellâ¦itâs true.â
Itâs a little embarrassing, but whatâs true is true!