Translator: Yonnee
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Chapter 56
âI hope to see Your Grace together with the Duke next time. Youâd look like a painting together.â
After confirming the order, Paula said this as she tucked in the receipt in her bag. I only smiled silently in response.
Paula was the kind of person who could deal with different kinds of people because she was friendly.
It wasnât unusual to hear these kinds of platitudes especially because of the position Iâm borrowing, but I think Paula isnât a completely pretentious person.
Itâs common, however, to think that she may just be trying to make the other party lower their guard with that smile of hers so that Iâd spend more money.
Maybe thisâll be the last time Iâll see her.
The clothes tailored today would be enough for the rest of my days here.
Of course, the premise was that Iâd miraculously still be alive then.
After Paula left, Rona excitedly bounced around the room.
âMilord will really like it when he sees you in your new clothes, Milady!â
âReally?â
I smiled bitterly. Only his blue eyes, which pierced so deeply into me, stood out starkly in my memory.
I thought we had gotten a little closer, but just as a butterfly would flutter away just before being caught, we were far apart yet again.
It was still my intention to stay close to him and prolong his lifeâthereby protecting my own well-being.
I donât think Iâm wrong.
I wasnât trying to kill him. In fact, Iâm doing everything I can to save him.
How must I prove myself again?
The goal was to protect him from dying, but at the end of the day, arenât I just saving my own skin by doing so?
Thatâs a plausible enough reason. But thereâs no way that this could get rid of his doubts against me.
What else was there?
I had my head in my hands as I wracked my brain for an answer, but I suddenly thought of something.
âShould I propose a contract?â
Iâll promise to divorce him, and all heâll need to do in return is cooperate so that he could recover.
If I say this, would he listen?
But then, he might bring up my contract with Camilla.
He would be mad at me for having this kind of contract that was controlling his marriage and⦠he could just hate me more.
Anyway, it was me who accepted the contract and signed it myself.
And even before thatâ¦
Thereâs still a possibility that the contract would be broken by default, and Camilla was likely to drive me away by calling me a crazy woman and promptly shipping me off to the loony bin.
That had a higher probability of happening.
âWhat do you want from me, huh.â
I dunno. Ah, seriously, I dunno.
What should I do so that I can live well?
How can I win over Amoide to my side?
At least, from what I heard from Raymond, his complexion had gotten better and his general condition had improved somewhat.
Of course, thereâs also the matter of the exaggerated rumors of his⦠vivacity⦠I would need to take responsibility for that, along with managing his health.
âThen you can take responsibility for me in return.â
I decided to simplify these complicated thoughts.
Since I did something wrong, I need to apologize and appease him until he forgives me.
Thatâs how I can continue my life extension project.
But thereâs one thing⦠Itâs been days since I last saw him. I was told that he rarely came out of his room and just locked himself inside.
He hadnât been going on strolls to get some sunlight.
Heâs been stuck in that dark room all this time.
Apart from that, Jean kept sighing while saying that he hasnât been eating well.
Weâre back to square one.
â¦This is bad.
âIâll be back after seeing Amoide.â
âThen Iâll accompany you.â
Rona stood up, worried.
âNo, itâs fine.â
I left the room waving behind me.
* * *
ââ¦â¦â
As soon as I stood in front of Amoideâs door, I had to face the maid who stood like Cerberus itself, guarding the underworld.
It wasnât Emma, but a maid close to her.
âL-Little Madam, Milord will not be meeting anyoneâ¦â
The distorted expression she had, despite her having a hard time maintaining it, was full of annoyance. But I had no time for thisâheâs being neglected.
Thus far, Iâd been going out on walks with Amoide, so this was a complete one-eighty again from the habits we had established.
Even so, he thought that I was pretending all that time.
It was scary to think about.
âSure, fine. Now get out of my way.â
I lightly pushed away the maid guarding Amoideâs door.
However, she stood her ground.
âMilord said he wonât meet anyone.â
It was Emma who spoke from behind me, rushing forward to block me. Itâs like sheâs shooting lasers out of her eyes.
Oh, me in the past. How did you endure all this?
A deep sigh came out of my lips as a sense of indignation rushed in.
Was there a reason for me to endure any longer?
The person I signed a contract with was Camilla, and the condition stated in the agreement was for Amoide not to find out about it.
Although it was between his mother and his wife, it was only right for him to detest me because Camilla and I made a deal about him without his consent.
Thatâs why I was able to withstand hurtful words like âGet outâ and âStop trying to fool meâ.
It made me feel less guilty.
But right there, these maids were not the people I had to apologize and bow towards.
Itâs my husband.
Camilla used me only to achieve her own goals.
In return, I accepted monetary compensation. Thereâs no need for me to feel more inferior or feel more guilty because of this arrangement.
âIâm the wife of the person who said that.â
I answered calmly.
âAre you allowed to treat me like this?â
With a low, frightening tone, the maid looked at me with a shaky gaze.
âBut Milordâ¦â
âYes. Amoide said he wonât meet anyone. That doesnât apply to me.â
In fact, I already knew that I was the person he hated to see the most.
Even so, I raised my chin and spoke in a pressuring tone.
âGet out of my way. How many times must I repeat myself?â
Emma quietly lowered her eyes, faltering to the side.
âI have been unwise.â
âOf course.â
After the door was opened, I jerked her out and closed the door shut in front of her face.
As soon as the door closed with a loud bang, a strange silence followed.
This room was something like a pocket dimension that could only be entered through that door, and it was completely different from the outside.
âAmoide?â
I called his name still, but I couldnât hear an answer.
âWhere are you?â
Even as I called again, only still air responded.
It was such an unsettling silence that it didnât even seem like thereâs someone here.
The room was dark. The heavy curtains on the windows wouldnât let even a single ray of light in, so it was hard to believe it was midday.
âItâs always been like this.â
In my two years of stay here at this mansion, there was a time when his condition became critical.
That was the cause for him to stay cooped up in this room where no sunlight entered.
I couldnât move forward without waving my hands in front of me for fear of knocking something down or falling myself.
And cold air wrapped around my body.
âWhy is it so cold?â
His room was facing the south where the sun would later shine warmly, so this room should be the warmest place in the mansion.
Nevertheless, bitingly cold air pierced through my skin, colder than the air at the warehouses in the north.
âItâs alright if you donât want to look at me.â
I kept moving forward.
But I really couldnât tell if I was going left or right because this was a large room.
âHowever, this will ruin your health.â
When my eyes gradually adjusted to the dark, I breathed a sigh of relief.
I could see some movement from the bed. Even so, he wouldnât answer.
âAmoide?â
I called his name once again. He was still as immovable as ever.
Ah. I donât know anymore.
I stepped closer to a window and opened a curtain at once.
I heard a swear word uttered under his breath behind me, but I pretended not to hear anything.
âThe sun is shining so brightly. Why did you close all your curtains?â
ââ¦â¦â
There was still no answer. Letâs just attack from this point on.
Anyway, who does he resemble with that closed-off heart of his?
Was his father also like this?
Did he ever make Camilla upset whenever heâd just shut his lips when heâs angry?
No matter how temporary of a wife I am, this is still too much.
I kept my boiling anger at bay, then turned towards him.
Amoide, who rolled to his side with white sheets tucked up to his chin, was finally found by me.
His blonde hair was sticking out from the rolled sheets. It was the only indication of his presence.
I held back my laughter for a second.
âWhat is this? Youâre not even a caterpillar.â
I approached his side and placed a hand over the sheets wrapped around him.
ââ¦â¦â
The temperature I felt under my skin was a little strange.
Why is it so hot? Did his body temperature rise because heâs wrapped up under so many blankets?
But even so, this was still a higher temperature than normal.
âAmoide?â
Somethingâs wrong.
âAre you sleeping?â
No. This canât be.
So whoâs the one who said the swear word I heard just now?
I grabbed his shoulders and shook him hard.
Shhhk.
The sheets slid down and his face was revealed.
âOh my god.â
I was already nearly sobbing when I raised him from the bed and embraced him. His drooping body was heavy, but there was no resistance.
âWakeâwake up. Please. Can you hear my voice?â
Slap, slap!
I hit him hard enough that it would make a sound, but his eyes still wouldnât open.
Instead, only a voice that groaned out flowed out from his heavily opened lips.
âBe qui⦠etâ¦â
Then with his face so flushed from his fever, his head fell forward.
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