4-29-14 Continued...
"You're moving?!"
"Yeah."
I think I just felt my heart drop into my stomach and shatter into a million pieces.
"Where?"
"Nevada*."
Holy shit. I'd never see him again!
"Why?" "Golf and stuff." He shrugged.
This could not be happening! My series!
My feels!
I love you!
My mind was racing from that little fourth grade girl to me now. Logical verses irrational. Feelings vs. embarassment.
If I could burst out in tears and run out dramatically, I would. But I can't.
I had to sit here and pretend I was okay with the one guy I've ever cared about leaves.
When I was the exact opposite.
4-30-14
"You look good today." Â I put a hand on Kevin's shoulder and laughed.
The things these stupid speeches make us do.
I was hiding behind a smile sure, but weren't we all at some point?
I couldn't let him know I was upset.
So I did the best thing I could do and started messaging Sarah here on wattpad.
I explained everything. Even the encounter with Nick earlier. To which she informed me of Nick getting all crazy with Britt.
Sarah:She's just ugh I don't trust him worth a crap! He's a weirdo!
Me: He is! I mean who in their right mind torments their ex for five months? I keep bringing that up sorry.
Sarah: Eh believe me, after seeing how weird and creepy he is, you won't find him attractive. He's real emanding like not even the same Nick when Britt and Nick text. It's weird and creepy. I never in the first place throught he was attractive, I thought he was real nice and sweet for Britt but like EW not anymore.
I'll admit, it kinda hurt hearing Sarah still think he was sweet for Britt after all the had done to me.
Me:You're saying he's got creepier? Weird.. but yeah I thought he was nice and sweet in the end but now look where I am. The only good thing about Nick is that a book came out of him xD
Sarah:IM DYING. BAHAHAHAHA right!! You dodged a bullet dude! Seriously!
Me:Well it's true! I mean the kid could be hit by a truck for all I care. Wow that was mean. I don't even care haha
Sarah:OMG DYING I LOVE THAT! I'm screenshotting that!
Me: Lo yuo canscreen shot all you want. This might go in a book so go ahead haha
Sarah: Plus Selena, you could do so much better. I mean he's scary. OMG HAVE YOU READ SAVANAH'S BOOK?! IF NOT, DO IT RIGHT NOW!
Me:Lol I have higher standards now. I mean it was just the eyes lmao I will but this in EWB Â as soon as I get time to update! Lol tbh I'm scared to see him next year dude!
Sarah: Don't be, he's not even worth looking at. I mean I think he covers it all up and fakes it out. We nee boyfriends like ASAP! lol
Me: I'll look at the book now
Long story short to the rest of the convesation, Nick was talking to another girl on snapchat (deja vu right?!) and now Britt and Sarah hate him. Kay.
* Â * Â *
Yearbook signing. The last yearbook Kevin Brooks will ever sign for me.
When Kevin handed it back, I was excited to see what he had written.
Jokes on me.
"One Direction #Summer!" That's f*cking it?!
I looked at him and he burst out laughing.
It was the last I'd see of his squiggly writing.
Whatever.
I handed the other jocks my book then got it back to read.
The normal 'have a good summer' was inevidable.
But one stood out.
"I want an invitation to your and Kevin's wedding." was the first line of what Jon wrote in my yearbook.
I dropped my pen.
I looked at Jon in disbelief who was telling Kevin.
"Don't tell him!" I hissed at the exact moment Kevin faced me.
I almost peed myself.
"Uh yeah no I'm marrying Avery."
You know when Kevin said he was moving and I felt my heart breaking? Yeah, that was a piece of cake compared to this feeling.
You know that feeling when something goes wrong, and then it does and you almost feel guilty because it's as if you could have prevented it? That's how I felt.
I should have seen this kind of rejection coming but I didn't. I was foolish.
"Oh."
You could hear the dissapointment in my voice.
So he still was with Avery?
I had to have him repeat that because I just couldn't believe it.
That is rejection on the ultimate level.
I literally felt like crying and I just wanted to go to bed.
Even worse, I wanted the Earth to swallow me whole because Kevin Brook's didn't want me.
Who plans on marrying their freshman girlfriend anyways?!
She looks like a f*cking barbie doll and isn't even that cute AND still has pictures on instagram of her and her ex boyfriend!
And to top it off, she looks twelve! I bet she's hidious without makeup on! Didn't know Kevin was into the cake-face thing?
Well just a few days ago Kevin was talking about how Avery stayed with him and his grandparents which had to be in summer since he goes there every summer.
*April 25th, 2014
Kevin had been going on and on about Avery. My ears were literally on the verge of bleeding.
And of course the girl golfs. Damn I should have taken him up on his offer when he offered to teach me earlier this year! God Selena you're so stupid!
"What's wrong?" Kevin asked me quietly when he caught my eye. His voice was so soft it was almost as if he mouthed it to me. He sort of did.
I shook my head and smiled sadly. I kept my head down, my thoughts consuming me whole, which wasn't a good thing. She was prettier. Probably smarter. She was a cheerleader too. Probably skinnier and more cordinated. Definently more corinated.
"Selena, what's wrong?" He used my name. Ouch.
"Nothing." I lied as I looked into his deep brown eyes. I had memorized those eyes so well that it hurt me to ever have to say goodbye to them.
I looked down and blinked away the few tears that threatened to fall.
"Oh. Okay." He said, going back to his work. We were a table away but he didn't hesitate to ask if I was okay. I would enjoy the gesture if I wasn't feeling so depressed right now.
"Just that I don't want to hear about your girlfriend." I mumbled under my breath.
I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. What am I going to do?
*
5-1-14
"Those glasses literally f*ck you up." Dylan's blue eyes captivated mine.
We were going through a DWI precaution for the people at prom. Dylan had ditched his date for Vegas so he wasn't going this weekend.
They put some glasses on him that made him visualize oddly so he acted as if he were drunk.
"Really?" I laughed. I enjoyed myself when Dylan was around. And even better? I forgot about Kevin.
"Yeah like they make it seem as your tilting and I was like f*ck I'm gunna fail." He laughed.
I smiled. His cowboy boots didn't help him much in the test either. He literally had to feel around his foot just to walk a straight line.
When the cops 'arrested' him, it was hot as hell. Seriously I wish I got a picture.
It was really hot seeing Dylan get arrested. I would definitely pay to see that again.
Throughout the entire thing I've seen Dylan get arrested, go to jail, take a photo for his mom of course curtsy of his sister tagging along, Now we were waiting for the community service booth.
"Then that lady back there scared the shit outta me. She was like, "I better not ever see you here in reality."" He laughed.
I laughed as well.
Soon the guys were running around smacking each other with lanyards. "How do you do that?" I asked.
Dylan quickly showed me then had me try. I failed until Damien helped me understand the process.
So right before he went to the community service booth, I smacked Dylan.
"Damn! That got between my legs." He laughed at me. I seriously could swim in his blue eyes.
He sat and took a psycological annalisis. All fake of course.
"Are you a drug dealer?" She asked.
"This is fake right?" He asked. She nodded.
"Then yes."
I burst out laughing, resting a hand on his shoulder for support.
Seriously Dylan is so funny I can't.
For the next few booths Dylan and I stuck together.
"So, says here you're a drug dealer." Another lady eyed Dylan.
"Yes." He nodded.
She raised an eyebrow.
"No like not forreal!" He assured.
When we left the booth and sat at a table, we sat beside each other.
"I think that lady really thought I was a drug dealer." His eyes got wide as he breathed out.
"Me too." I burst out laughing.
"Draw the one thing you need in your life." The lady interupted Dylan and I's conversation.
"Money." The girl next to me said aloud.
I didn't know what to draw so I started drawing a family.
"Alcohol." Damien laughed.
"You guys are terrible. I'm drawing God." I looked over at Dylan's paper and saw he was drawing a cross.
Yeah I need God too obiously. So I started drawing a cross too.
Soon the DWI fake-out was over.
The girl we were with, Bethany, and I started walking back up to the building while Dylan and Damien were late for seasonal baseball practice.
5-8-14
Mid-twitter timeline scroll, Dylan plopped himself in a seat in front of me.
"So Selena," he began, drawing my attention to his beautiful blue eyes.
"Why do you like One Direction?"
You have got to be kidding me.
"Um, they make me happy."
He scrunched his face up and shook his head.
"Why do you like One Direction like no." "I listen to other bands to you know?"
"Like what?"
"Like 5 Seconds of Summer."
He shook his head. "No idea who that is."
"Fall Out Boy." "Nope." "You don't know who Fall Out Boy is?! Do you live under a rock!?" "Yes."
I sighed. Stupid sarcastic Dylan.
"Um... Fifth Harmony. Little Mix." "Hey Little Mix is that british group of girls right?" Aiden butted in.
"Yeah." I nodded.
Dylan looked at me, waiting for me to name more bands.
"Um... I'm not sure... Â I just like a lot of bands."
"Still doesn't explain One Direction." "They sing amazing and they make me happy."
"Still not valid." He shook his head and laughed before walking off.
Hmm.
So later I sent him a picture of Harry telling in an interview how fans confide in their music to keep them strong. When Dylan didn't believe me still, I told him "It's like when you feel that nothing in the world can cheer you up but that one thing makes you happier. For me that's One Direction. Understand now?"
And finally, he understood. On the bright side of talking and being around Dylan, he made me forget Kevin. Forget the pain I had kept thinking about when I thought about him leaving.
Dylan? I was confiding in him. And I enjoyed it.
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Ah Dylan is such a sweetheart. He has no idea he takes my mind off things.
So a day late but still not three weeks lol.
I have a bad feeling there is only one more chapter left :( THIS IS NOT THE END YET THOUGH!
I have figured out a lot since my last update but you'll just have to read the next update to understand what I'm talking about.
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