Previously on Enemies with Benefits: Freshman in Traning:
Which I did an hour later.
While trying not to fall down the stairs, I sent Dylan a snapchat saying, "Hey... you okay?"
He didn't reply for hours. But they had a game about two hours away for basketball.
When he did, it was five hours later.
'just really irritated' he said.
after like five minutes of debating what to say, I said: 'sorry. it was kind of rude of them'
"'im just tired of shit like that. i prolly fail'
I really felt bad for the guy. He failed his book report -which he was destened to anyways- because his ex girlfriend and Bella couldn't stop laughing and being rude.
'im sure you didn't fail. mccomb knew you were pissed when you left.' I told him.
'good' 'thanks for checking on me' I smiled. He was grateful.
'you're welcome it just kinda made me mad...'
'why'
I wanted to bang my head on a table. DON'T ASK WHY IT'S BECAUSE IT WAS RUDE OKAY?!
'because it was rude and they didn't care' Good enough.
'Ok. ill snap you when i get home' I almost died. He wants to talk to me when he gets home!
'alright'
Since It was 11 on a school night, I actually didn't wait for him, I went to bed.
To be continued...
2-13-14
Dylan kept his word.
When I woke up at 2am, don't ask why, I saw he had snapchatted around midnight.
I didn't reply until I got up at 6:30. He said, "Just got in."
Like holy shit what guy messages a girl when he just got in? And even more of a fact that he remembered for two freaking hours of a bus ride! That's insane!
I had sent, "Geez! Did you get in around midnight?" But he never replied. Though I didn't care.
And yes I freaked out about that snapchat all day.
I also subtially asked Bella for her approval.
"So like, if I was talking to one of your close friend's ex's.... would you get mad?" I asked.
"Kinda. Just depends on how close we are." "Super close." I said quickly. Her and Tate were close and I didn't even know why.
"I don't know."
* * *
"Can I see your friend again?" Bella asked as we ate in the library.
I unlocked my ipod and got on snapchat.
"Yeah just go to the list of people and it'll be there under Jay." I told her, walking over to Hondo who had called me.
"Should I do a fancy font or regular?" "Do fancy it makes you stand out."
He agreed.
I walked back to Bella scrolling on my ipod with her mouth hanging wide open.
I snatched it back and realized what she was doing.
She had just saw all the opened and sent snapchats from Dylan.
Holy shit I'm in for it.
"It's not what it looks like!" I said quickly.
"MHM." She nodded, taking an angry bite out of her apple.
"The guy I'm talking to is not him!"
Okay that was a bit of a lie. Dylan and I weren't 'talking' perse but I concitered it when he remembered to snapchat me at midnight.
"Seriously Bella. It was about school. I asked him about science." I kept repeating. Well I wasn't lyng. That's how it started...
"I don't care."
"Seriously Bella. How many did you see?" I slumped in my seat.
"Enough."
I looked at the place she was and kept scrolling. Good thing she stopped where she did because she would have been three times more pissed if she found out our snaps went all the way to the bottom.
"It's not what it looks like." I kept trying to explain.
"Do you believe me?" I asked nervously.
She did a so/so.
"Just- just don't tell Tate." "I won't." "Say bible." "Bible." "Swear on you baby brother." "I swear on Gabe."
"Good. Please don't tell her. It looks worse than it actually is."
"I won't."
I'm still on edge.
Probably will be until I can figure out a way to sort of tell Bella the truth.
2-14-14
I would say happy Valentine's day but I'm not that happy.
Just a few minutes ago Kevin, Makayla, Jason,and Lauren proceeded to throw paper in my hair. Jason seemed to laugh that it would stop for a second then fall.
Kevin on the other hand was throwing them left and right, at me, laughing.
It honestly made me want to cry.
How could he get so much pleasure out of my misery?
And also the fact that nor did Dylan speak up or ask if I was okay like I did him.
"will you play with my hair?" Bella asked.
"No I'm irritated."
"Why?"
"Ask Kevin."
She groaned. "Ugh Kevin Imma cut you fool."
Need I remind you Bella is white.
I didn't really talk to Dylan on Valentine's Day. Not really to anyone...
* * *
2-15-14
[Future appologies I'm in a rush to go to bed I'm exaused here's why:]
Be brave. Just say hi.
After fifty erased selfies, I sent a 'hey' to Dylan.
He replied seconds later.
"Why hello."
That scared the life out of me. It felt like he was planning on killing me at my house but instead I show up to his to make it easier. It felt weird like he hadn't expected me either.
"What's up?"
"Getting gas"
"Oh nice"
"Gunna stuff my fave"
"You mean face? xP"
"Yes"
"Haha all good"
"Going bowling!"
"Late night bowling ð :D"
"Right!!"
"Drawing goddesses are complicated"
"That a girl!!" This snapchat kinda made me smile. It was cute and encoraging.
"Haha thanks"
"Welcome"
"Wanna see when I'm done?"
"Very much so" This also made me smile.
"Alright"
Then he sent me a picture of his little sister Paige. She was so cute.
"Awe she's adorable!"
"Isn't she?"
"She your sister?" I knew it was his sister but on top of the chance that I could be wrong, I didn't know what else to say.
"The younger one"
"I thought so. Awe"
"The older one is manlier"
"Haha oh gosh that's mean! She's pretty"
he didn't respond. But like duh. He was bowling.
When I finished drawing goddess Eos I sent it to him.
"I had a bit of help but..."
"It's great!"
"Thanks!! It took long enough"
That was the last snap I got from Dylan that night.
But that sadly wasn't the last conversation about him. I wanted to show Bella the talking was innocent so I messaged her.
Me: im going to tell you somethingbut you can't get mad and/or yell at me via interwebs
Bella: lol ok dude go 4 it and i won't
Me: okay. so those snapchats, ill explain. The only reason we had so many was because i asked if he was okay after he stormed out of speech. Then after we just kinda kept talking but that's it i swear. i know you hate him but he is a human and i just wanted to make sure he was okay
Bella: oh. who cares if his bitch ass is ok. he just wants attention.
Me: I didn't think it was about attention..
Bella: bebe girl neither did i at first when i first started getting to know him
Me: why would he want that attention? you act like he expected someone to make sure he was alright?
Bella: he was
Me: I just don't get it. I can't see him like that...
Bella: idk selena believe what you want. im not stupid with stuff like this. and yeah you cant but i couldnt either you act like im a heartless bitch. i gave him chance after chance but he just kept fucking me over so whatever. you choose his side of the story, cool. later on youll see why i hate him so damn much. im NOT a bad persoon.
Me: Okay one you promised not to get mad or yell via interwebs. Two, I didn't say you were a heartless bitch or a bad person. I know you aren't. And I'm not like dating the guy Bella we're barley even friends alright? It's not like he ranted to me and i believed him. We. Just. Talked. It's not like he gave me a full on backstory..?
Bella: fool idc if yall are talking if you are youre not the smartest. ask anyone in my group. wanna know why nobody in my group like him??? cuz we seen the real him. yeah hes a fun guy when he wants and yeah he does shit spurr of the moment thing and yeah thats cool but not too much. only when he wants to feel good. mos tha time he starts shit and soo much drama. i cant. im a nice person when i want. i tried to help him and be his friend but if i get tired of trying to help someone emotionally somthings up. im like dr phil and things like that i never give up i gave up on him for a reason.
Me: okay i didn't mean talking like that. and hold up you think sometihng is emotionally wrong with him?
Bella: yes i do hes fucked up in the head. and all he ever will want is attention. hes sad inside to an extent but hes also an asshole who only worries about himself and throws anybody under the bus for his own good. just. like. his. dad.
Okay maybe I didn't know Dylan too well but if someone pulled out the dad card on me I'd flip a shit.That's f*cked up.
Me: His dad? I didn't know dillon had a dad. (like in the picture you know like me)
Bella: he does.
I had so many questions. What was his dad like? Did he live here? Did he ever see Dylan?
Me: how do you know he's like his dad? that's kinda far fetched
Bella: because he talked about his dad a lot to me.
Okay that made me a tad jealous. I loved learning about people's stories. This just happened to be mine.
Me: okay Bella think. what if he really is emotionally messed up? Hell i should be emotionally messed up!
Bella: nvm do yo thang fall for it thas cool but i aint stoppin ya. when he throws you unda the bus ima tell you i told you so!
Me: okay wait, define under the bus? because that usually means gets you in trouble but i think you have a different meaning
Bella: nope.
Me: what do you mean nope?
Bella: he got me in trouble with tate and tana not even gonna go into that anymore i already told u
Me: oh yeah. but (not looking for another argument BUT) wouldn't it be hard to throw me under the bus? What is he gunna do? Turn you and I against each other? Psh no one could
Bella: eeh he has his ways girl. he could use kevin against you you know?
Me: Use Kevin against me?
Bella: idk selena theres lots of things that douche could do. but just be aware if yo do try to talk to him more okay???
Me: okay okay. im aware. trust me im more wary of kevin than dylan. so far Dylan hasn't made me almost cry on valentines day so its a better start. not that i plan on any other interactions really
Bella: lol well ill ttyl i should go to bed gonna see duh bae again tomorrow!
The conversation ended.
And for the first time I felt worried.
I'm worried Bella's right. I'm worried I won't listen to her.
I'm worried Kevin will only worsen his ways toward me.
But Alle is right from the messages we shared that I'm too exaused to post, I just need to be myself. I can't go off other people's standereds because I'm my own person.
I mean sure I'm afraid that something crazy will happen with Dylan but I'll keep my distance.
At least I'll try.
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Btw 5 page research paper due in two weeks and today my science teacher assigned a 7 page research paper and I'm like hell no! But of course I'll do it because Im a good student. Ok anyways got to go; sorry if updates will be late for a while byes!