Dear Kevin,
If you ever read this, I'm sorry. Maybe it's not my right to tell all your buisness to the world. But in my defense, you don't exactly care a whole lot when it's me. Just, hear me out. I hope you never read this, or hear of it. If you do, my appologies. If you don't want to talk to me again I get it. Just know... You know how you would talk to me and I'd listen. That's my fans; the readers. They listened to me... when you didn't.
-Shyanne xx.
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10-3-13
Kevin did reply.
With a, 'Haha I won't.'
So that's that.
"F*ck Dylan." Kevin mumbled, plopping down next to me.
"Huh?"
"He wants me to forgive him so easily. But no sorry doesn't cut it this time like seriously." Kevin shook his blonde locks.
"Aren't you guys best friends?" I asked.
De-ja-vu!
"Not really." He shook his head then lowered his voice. "He's the one who said all that stuff to me." He whispered.
I had a feeling Kevin only told me because I was the first to listen and to care. He needed to rant and I let him. That's the part I felt bad about. He had no one to tell, no one to care.
"Oh my god." My jaw dropped.
"Yeah." Â He nodded. "That's why I told you I have no true friends."
For once in a long time I see a helpless little boy. Just trying to fit in with his friends but in the end, they never fully let him. He was always the one being pushed around. And he kept everything in.
And to me, I was the one he talked to. And that was okay with me. I wish he'd talk to me more about his personal life. Because even if it's a second, I can relate to Kevin. And that's pretty sad because I've been through a lot when it comes to friends.
I didn't want anything more than to wrap my arms around him and tell him that he could pick better friends. People that really knew how beautiful he is.
I looked away, trying to escape my thoughts of wanting Kevin Brooks. (as my boyfriend you perverts)
Just having his arms around me, telling me thank you for listening to him.
I shivered at the thought. I rubbed my arms up and down to get the goosebumps away.
Kevin started talking.
"Selena." He said, bumping my arm with his elbow.
"Oh um sorry, What?"
"So I was playing this game last night. It's like an assasin game. I'm fighting other assasins and the British. Like the British are assasins and- well  you get it." He chuckled.
I nodded.
I tried to focus on the board.
"So- Hey!" He tapped me again.
Okay dude you have my attention! Don't push it!
"So yeah. Look at this." Kevin put a hairtie on his arm.
"I heard it helps you work out."
That's stupid.
He put it on his bicep.
"So... if I wanted I could launch it that way." He felxed the arm closest to me and raised his other hand up, as if almost shooting a gun.
But in reality, I knew he was flexing. Dear god...
I held out my extra hairtie on my wrist to Kevin.
He put in on his other bicep.
To or to not fangirl because my hairtie is on my crush's bicep. Hmm... oh well!
Eeep!
"Pew!" He said in a high voice.
"Ugh. It feels like I can't do my high voice anymore. Like I'm getting sick." He said.
"Don't touch me then." I moved away slightly, only kidding.
"So I think the bracelet is done." Kevin told me.
He messed with his dark blue bracelet. I had a strange feeling he was about to offer it to me.
"Do you-"
"Kevin! Selena! Are you paying attention?" Ms. A snapped at us.
Well I was trying to.
"Um to be honest no." Kevin said bluntly. The whole class started laughing while I flamed scarlet. "I was just talking to her about this-" "I don't care. Pay attention."
I ducked lower as everyone laughed at us.
Darn Kevin!
I zoned out when he kept playing footsie with Lauren. I laughed on the outside, but on the inside it bothered me.
Making me jealous? I think not. More like being a flirt like he always is.
He kept glancing back at me in science, but I didn't care. Do you ever just feel hopeless with someone?
* Â * Â *
10-4-13
Half a day yay!
"Ugh." Kevin said in disgust as Austin brought up the subject of Dylan.
"What? You guys fighting or what?" Austin asked.
Lauren laughed.
"You know what? I didn't laugh when you and Ivy fought so just shut up." Kevin hissed at her.
I shrugged in my seat a bit.
"So what happened dude?" Austin laughed.
"I don't wanna talk about it." Kevin mumbled.
I understood. It's emberessing. If Scar called me something offencive I'd get awkward about telling people. Because the one person who wasn't supposed to judge you, was.
I felt for him.
"Just tell me."
"Dude so I was playing this game last night. Freaking sick!" Kevin said.
Being simpleminded also, Austin jumped in.
I smiled to myself. Kevin obviously did that on purpose. I had a strong urge to reach under the table and grab his hand, squeezing it reassuringly. But I couldn't.
"Seriously dude tell me though!" Austin said after five minutes of some Grand Theft Auto 5 talk.
"It's a long story and I just don't wanna say it all right now." Kevin said, kinda urked.
"Well it's homecoming and we have a hell long of a time." Austin retorted, a smile leaking his face.
"Nothing. I just heard them talking about me. They had no idea I was there." "Like talking shit behind your back?" Austin said.
I leaned in, despite him being next to me, wanting to know more.
"Yeah. Then later I caught up with all of them. And I was like 'Hey guess what I learned?' then I was just like 'F*ck you!' and walked out." Kevin said.
"I told you that you have fake ass friends. That's why you gotta be with Austin!" Austin smiled, pride obviously showing.
"Yeah." Kevin nodded.
At least he had Austin. I had practically no one.
No one here anyway.
"Now dude tell me the rest. We're cool. Except Selena. She can cover her ears." Austin shooed me off.
Excuse me! He talked to me first! He's just now telling you!
"No. Actually she's pretty cool. Probably the coolest one here." Kevin defended, messing with his papers.
"Awe. Yay." I couldn't help but smie.
I could practically hear his thoughts. She's the one that messaged me, asking if I was okay because the people I thought were my friends, betrayed me.
Jason and Kevin started randomly singing Diamonds for the billionth time in my life.
I hated that song! That's all they sang to me too!
"Move your giant feet!" Lauren complained.
"My feet are huge. Wanna see?" Kevin chuckled.
"Yeah." Lauren said, dead serious.
He shrugged and took off his shoe and sock.
"Oh my god your feet are huge!" I gasped.
His feet were also very white.
"Look at your tan." I laughed. "I know. I don't think I can ever get it back to that you know? Like I'm stuck like this." Kevin laughed.
I laughed at his toes too.
"His big toe is about double mine!" I watched as he wiggled his feet.
Seriously this guy had huge feet.
I laughed at the thought of couples comparing feet. His would cover mine.
Austin eventually pulled the story out of Kevin which involved a few explicit words from them both. Then the idiots were just texting now.
"Are you going to join our texting group?" Kevin chuckled.
"No. I don't even have your numbers." I rolled my eyes.
That was a lie I think. I think I may just have Kevin's. Don't ask how.
Kevin moved my desk as it ittitated his leg and accidently slipped his finger in the hole in my jeans. Okay Dylan!
I jumped slightly at contact.
"Sorry." Kevin mumbled.
Well at least my legs are soft.
Yup. That was my first mental response.
Kevin smiled at me slightly before going back to his actions.
Kevin put his knee against my desk, practically in my face due to my height.
"Move it." I said, pusing his knee.
Well... he's one of few that don't shave his legs.
"Selena's not that cool though." Austin told Kevin.
I snapped my head up to notice whatever they were talking about.
"Hey! He said I was cool!" I laughed slightly.
"Okay well this is the cool table. Those are the cooler tables." Kevin laughed, as if it made sense.
* Â * Â *
I don't think we're doing anything in Science.
Since Kevin was called down to the office, I went and sat in his chair, talking to Ally.
She said she hated sitting by them. Stuff like they were mean to girls; saying they were ugly so they weren't getting snapchatted back.
I was in mid laughter when I saw Kevin reenter.
I hesitated.
"I stole your seat." I mumbled shyly. I'd move, but Ivy took my seat.
"Oh." Kevin said.
He turned at sat on me.
You could tell he wasn't daring to put his weight on me, which I thought was cute.
He put an arm around me, which I admittedly put one on his lap.
"I want a puppy for Christmas." Kevin laughed.
Kevin laughed and got off me. Awe. I kinda liked that. Now I see why guys like it so much.
"What time does the assembly start?" Kevin asked.
"Ten." I said.
He called his mom.
"Hey mom! Can you come get me before ten. Or like now? Because I don't want to go to the assembly. But mom- Ugh! Okay." He hung up.
"Ugh she's pissing me off. She's such a bitch." Kevin rolled his eyes.
"You call your mom a bitch?" I gaped.
Sure I think it but call her it? I'm not that stupid.
"No. Just think she is you know? Ugh she should just come." He sighed.
I think his mom didn't come because between the call, Austin kept saing things like, "Kevin stay so we can get high." and "Pass it Kevin."
Kevin kept getting pissed off.
Kevin put his legs on Austin, which caused a lot of us to pile our legs on.
Soon Austin kicked us off and placed Kevin's foot on my leg.
I pushed his hairy leg away.
"You know what Selena? I think you have a big o'le crush on Kevin." Hondo said.
Seriously bitch when were you moving?
(A/N: OMFG GUYS SKYLAR IS MOVING I THINK GOD IS FINALLY ANSWERING MY WISHES. thats so mean...)
"What?! No!" I hissed.
"Yeah fool."
"No."
"Yeah and Kevin thinks so to." Hondo retorted. Kevin walked away.
"No. No offence but why would I like Kevin?" I whispered.
"Nuh!" Hondo agreed.
I just lied through my teeth, but he doesn't know that.
"Dude my legs get hairier every day!" Kevin told Austin.
"And your bush too." Austin added.
My cheeks flamed as I tried to keep my gaze on my iPod.
Kevin burst out laughing.
"Austin! Austin shut up." Kevin said between laughs.
"Please." I agreed.
You could tell Kevin got embarresed. But hell it was embarressing!
Kevin strarted taking pictures of Austin for snapchat.
"You have a snapchat?" I asked.
"Yeah." Kevin nodded.
"Selena, Kevin doesn't want to snapchat you." Austin said. He was only kidding though.
"I do actually. It's Brook_11" (A/N: NOT HIS REAL IDK WHO'S THIS IS IF ITS REAL)
"Brook? Isn't your last name Brooks?" I looked at him oddly.
"Yeah I forgot the S." He laughed.
"Like in English." I laughed. She called him Brook instead of Brooks because he forgets his S.
I squealed slightly as I felt another finger in the hole in my jeans.
"Almost got it!" Austin cheered.
"What?" Kevin asked.
"Trying to stick his finger in my jeans! Okay Dylan! Stop that." I hissed at him.
Never wear jeans with holes on the thighs around these guys! Seriously!
Austin did it again, this time getting it inside slightly.
The hole is on my mid-lower thigh for you people thinking anything whore-ish of me.
"Got it!" Austin cheered.
I rolled my eyes and crossed my leg over the hole. Stupid guys.
Everyone finished class and was now messing around... again.
Hondo started messing with me.
Touching my shoulders and making me jump.
"Stop!" I hissed.
He pushed my arm.
I grabbed his arm and dug my nails into as best I could.
"Gross! She dug her nails into me dude. I'm going to need sanitizer." He said, getting up.
"Dude he's just always like that." Cam and Jake told me.
Yeah well you guys were sure helpful laughing in the back!
Hondo pushed me with his body as he walked past me.
I grabbed my notebook and hit him with it.
Everything in my notebook fell out.
Hondo, Jake, and Cam laughed. Well Cam sure know how to be a bitch. So much for quiet and sweet. more like bitchy and betraying.
Kevin reached down to help me get my papers but I beat him to it.
It sounded like Kevin was going to say something, then he didn't. He just stood there, listening while messing with his phone.
"Here. Take my phone." Jake said, putting his phone on my leg.
I took it and threw it at him.
He did it again.
"Stop!" I said while pushing it off my leg to the ground.
"Dude. I would've pressed charges for her pushing my phone off like fool." Hondo said.
Shut the hell up and come out of the closet asshole!
"That's mean." Cam said.
"I don't give a f*ck." Hondo shrugged her off.
Once we were dismissed, I was the first to leave.
This day couldn't go any more downhill.
* Â * Â *
I groaned as my family was embarressing me at the parade.
I turned to look behind me.
More people were coming down to 1st street for the parade.
My breath caught in my throat.
Nick Carter.
I didn't know if I was sad, mad, or shocked. Probably all.
He had gotten taller, a tad more built, in a Nick way.
He still wore jeans, grey tee-shirt, and a baseball cap.
Is it weird I missed seeing him a bit? I think it is.
I ducked out of sight so he wouldn't see me and made my family not say my name until I was out of sight.
After the parade I thought I was done seeing Nick Carter. But nope. He happened to be crossing the street when we were turning. I told the driver to run him over but everyone was confused on why. Even my mother.
Hello? Only dumped me a week before Valentine's Day and ruined my life! Â Well not entirely but you get my drift.
Then later at the football game I saw Seth. He didn't say anything though. That's good.
Then I also bumped into Kevin.
It was one of those I-hope-it-happens;it-happened things.
I said "Sorry." while he replied with an 'It's okay.'
So he did go to the game.
One last thing though.
While I started reading my horoscope something caught my eye.
Let's see who can spot it out first.
(I gave you a hint up there.)
Love:
You'll have the chance to shed light on what happened last February. Whatever your relationship status, you're going to learn something  that will be important for the future of your love life.
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So first one to catch what that^^ kinda sounded like or reminded you of, gets a shoutout or dedication. Haven't decided yet.
If no one gets it by next update I'll just tell you xP
Haha okay so super long update!
Okay best wishes!
-Shyanne xx.