9-13-12
(NIALLS BIRTHDAY OH MEH GAWD)
"Guess what Ms?" I smiled.
"Today's Niall Horan's birthday." I smiled.
She laughed.
"Don't talk to Kevin!" she told me, dead serious.
"Oh! I swear we don't talk like he was supposed to tell you just ask him!" I pleaded.
She nodded and walked on.
When Kevin came in I glared at him.
"You got me in trouble!" I hissed.
"What?"
"She came up and told me not to talk to you! You never told her that it was a lie!"
"Oh. Don't worry I'll tell her." he nodded.
"You better!" I hissed.
I felt bad but I wasn't going to let a teacher hate me because of him.
I started with my journal.
"It wasn't Selena. I was just lying to get moved." Kevin laughed.
I looked up and saw Ms. A nodding.
"So don't blame her it was me."
I smiled.
"Okay." she said.
I smiled.
Kevin sat beside me.
"Good dog." Kevin patted my head as I walked by.
I shoved him.
"Don't call me that." I snapped.
He laughed.
He tapped my arm.
"Oh scary dog!"
I clenched my fists.
"Stop." I stated before looking down.
"Why do you take everything so seriously? I mean I do that to all kinds of other girls and they don't care they laugh back." He asked.
"I'm not other girls." I stated.
~I know those other girls well they're beautiful but would they right a *book* for you?~
See what I did there(:
"I know you're not other girls. Just saying you don't joke around. I'd hate to live like that."
I looked down.
Is that what he thought of me? That I couldn't joke around? Maybe if his homes weren't hurtful...
"Now why you don't wanna talk? Fine." He nodded.
I just wanted to be alone.
He didn't care, I wish I didn't care.
"Pssst." He said.
I couldn't help but smile. he couldn't stand me mad at him could he?
"What is this?" he smiled at me, looking down at the paper Ms. A just passed out.
I looked down.
We're taking a collage survey...as freshman?
This is complex.
(Fifty minutes later)
Kevin sat beside me.
I looked over at his list of Collages, curious.
Holy shit!
Right there in his sloppy handwriting he wrote, University of Oregon.
Holy hell.
One of my choices was University of Oregon.
Holy shit!!!
What if...we both went to Oregon?
I'd probably faint and make my move because I had nothing to lose.
It was the the doors of the future opened, and it freaked the life outta me!
***
I got partnered with Kevin for a math project.
Yay.
"Kevin." I called for the billionth time in our project.
"Stop holding hands with Dylan a help me." I groaned.
He smiled and started moving his chair up an down.
I put my hand on his chair and forced it down.
"Damn." Kevin and Dylan said, laughing that I could actually have enough strength for pulling him down.
God I was impressed myself.
Kevin laughed and groaned at the same time.
"When she pulled it down it went right in my ass." he said between laughs. oh Jesus.
* * *
Football game!!
I was so not going to come but Sarah convinced me to go sell for Mock Trial with her.
"Lets go ask the boys if the hot chocolate is good!" I yelled over the screaming.
She nodded.
"Lets go to this one." I nodded.
I'll admit, it was the window Jason and Kevin were working at.
"Hey guys." I smiled.
"What can I get you Selena?" Jason asked.
Jason wore a backwards ball cap under his blonde locks.
Kevin sported one himself, but of course I thought Kevin looked better.
"Oh professional." I laughed.
"Okay guys be honest, is the hot chocolate good?" I asked.
"What?" Sarah laughed.
"Well sometimes it tastes like crap and I wanna make sure it's good."
"Um, I haven't tried it but it looks pretty good." Jason nodded.
I looked at Kevin shaking his head frantically behind Jason.
I smiled.
"Okay um I'll come back, thanks guys." I waved.
Sarah and I walked off.
"That's why you wanted to go to that side." Sarah laughed.
"He's just so gorgeous!" I sighed dramatically.
***
"I'm so cold." I groaned, holding my ears for warmth.
"I'll go with you to get hot chocolate." Sarah nodded.
"Will you drink it with me?"
"No but I'll go with you." she laughed.
I nodded and went to the stands.
I wanted to go to Kevin and Jason's side but theirs was packed.
"What can I get you?" a guy asked.
Why can't I like guys like him?
Because he reminds you of Nick.
Oh...yeah.
"I'll have a hot chocolate." I nodded.
I handed him the money and waited.
The guy handed me my hot chocolate.
"Thank you." I smiled.
We huddled over a bit, more in front of Kevin's window, not purposely.
I locked glances with Kevin.
"Damn it Sarah." Mary laughed.
I snapped my head back.
He doesn't care.
You're just another girl.
He probably doesn't even like you.
Sigh...doesn't work.
***
I sat at the steps of Sarah's house.
"So...do you like anyone else?" She asked.
"Well I saw a hot guy on X-Factor last night." I laughed.
"But nope. I've liked him... for four years." I sighed.
"Well that sounds obsessive." she laughed.
I smiled.
"No the sigh was not like obsessive it was just like, I can't like anyone other than him. I mean other guys are hotter than him but... I just want him." I nodded.
"He gets happy around you though."
"What?" I looked at her like she was crazy.
"When you went up the first to him, he just started smiling like all kinds. You make him happy." she smiled.
That did make sense why he always tried to fix it when we were fighting.
First three years of our story not included.
"That's crazy." I shook my head.
"No he really was. He's so nice to you like I think he likes you." she shrugged.
"He patted my head and told me 'good dog' this morning." I imitated it.
"Still."
"No. That like made me wanna cry. I mean he can still do stuff like that though and I still like him ."
"He made you cry?" she asked in shock.
"No! He says things though that make me want to cry. And I still like him. I'm mesochistic for that." I sighed, sipping the last bit of my hot chocolate.
"What's that?" Sarah laughed.
"It's like getting sexual pleasure from something like hurtful like mentally or physically."
She nodded.
"I don't know. I just can't get over him though. I mean five years! that's intense for someone my age!" I exclaimed.
"Yeah. I liked Sam for 3 years then Angel came and knocked that out of the park." She said, getting mad all over again.
"But what about you? no other crushes?" I asked.
"Nah. I think guys are cute but that's it. That guy at condensation was cute."
"The guy who gave me my drink? I know!" I laughed.
Great minds think alike.
"See that's a crush though! I question what Kevin an I have as even a crush anymore."
"You're friends but its better because you know each other and it works."
I shrugged.
"We need to hang out more often!" she said.
"Dude totally!" I agreed.
I can't wait to see Kevin Monday.
Oh shit.
He's going to be gone for golf.
Awe damn it!
~~~~~~~~~
God I want him to be mine! is that crazy?
I'm already crazy.
He started smiling when I came up like what?! I love Sarah for telling me that!!
So...does he like me? Because I still need a homecoming date hahaha.