My workplace is sacred.
After all, itâs where my ambition thrives. Where my plans are made and my strategies are conducted.
This is where I come to focus and forget about the girl I leave behind and go back late so that I donât see her. Only, sheâs not a girl, is she?
I want to call her that to stop my dick from having ideas, but she was never thatâa girl. At least, not for some time.
Sheâs a woman now. A grown-up fucking woman with legs that go for miles and a tiny waist that can almost fit in only one of my palms.
And sheâs currently in the place where Iâm supposed to be focused, not sidetracked.
Gwyneth is right here, at W&S, and while itâs not her first time, she doesnât usually dress like sheâs at a business meeting.
And definitely not with these three fuckersâmy nephew included. Kingsley made it his mission to keep her away from them and their whoring ways. So Iâm just taking care of it on his behalf. Like I promised him.
Itâs definitely not because of how I want to jam their faces into the table. I shouldnât be thinking about hurting three of my best attorneys. I shouldnât, and yet thatâs the only fucking urge thatâs rushing through my veins instead of blood.
âWhoâs taking whom in?â I ask all of them, not bothering to cool down my tone.
I donât have the frame of mind to, because sheâs here. In my focus zone. And she needs to be fucking gone.
âMe.â Knox places an arm around her shoulder. âGwen will be interning with me.â
She smiles up at him with those bright, bright eyes, all green and with barely any gray or even blue. Sheâs happy, ecstatic, and the thought of murder becomes more and more appealing.
And thatâs an anomaly for a lawyer. A fucking error in the matrix that shouldnât exist.
But it does, and the more she smiles at him, the more he has his hands on her, the redder and hotter that thought becomes.
âRemove your hand if you donât want a harassment suit, Van Doren,â I say with enough nonchalance that doesnât betray my disturbing inner thoughts.
Sebastian grins and I glare at him, so he pretends to be sipping from his coffee and going through his phone. Daniel stands, hugs a box of pastries to his chest, then grabs my nephew by the shoulder and drags him out. âWeâre out of here, but weâre rooting for you, Gwen. Welcome to the dark side.â He winks at her and Sebastian gives me a knowing, taunting look before theyâre both out of the break area.
Itâs only the three of us. Me, Gwyneth, and Knox, who still has his fucking arm around her shoulder.
âNah, you wouldnât do that. Right, Gwen?â Knox shows her his dreamy smile, the one Iâve seen him use to charm women. âWe get along, donât we?â
âYeah,â she says readily, cheerfully, with that energy that I donât like others to see. I donât like others to see anything about her. Period.
âNo.â
At my closed off tone, her smile falls and her lips purse before she steps away from Knox and marches to me with hard, determined steps.
But theyâre for me. Her entire attention and those ever-changing eyes are only focused on me and me alone.
âI have the right to apply for an internship.â
âAnd I have the right to refuse your nonexistent application.â
âBut why? I have the grades to be accepted here. This is discrimination.â
âAnd you can sue for it,â Knox tells her. âWith the right arguments.â
âYou shut up before I call a board meeting about your malpractices.â
âHear that, Gwen?â He steps beside her. âI can sue him for that threat, too. Youâll be my witness, wonât you?â
âIf he doesnât let me intern, I will be.â Sheâs talking to Knox, but her entire attention is on me, her eyes digging holes into my face.
Iâve had countless opponents and most of them didnât dare to even look at me, but Gwyneth doesnât only stare, she also glares and talks back, among a lot of other fucking things.
âYou canât win against me in court, Van Doren. Maybe in a couple of decades, and only if Iâm suffering from some form of dementia. And you, Gwyneth, do you honestly believe threatening me is the right way to handle this?â
âWell, I asked nicely and you didnât listen.â
âThatâs because I didnât want to.â
âHeâs not the boss of you, Gwen,â Knox says. âIf you want an internship in your dadâs firm, you just have to take it.â
She squares her shoulders. âThatâs right. Youâre not the boss of me, Uncle Nate.â
I grind my teeth, and itâs not only because she called me that after so long, but also because she said it in a taunting way. In a âyouâre my fatherâs best friend, so youâre supposed to give me what I wantâ kind of way.
It takes all my self-restraint not to catch those words and jam them back down her throat so she doesnât utter them again. Maybe make her choke on my fingers at the same time. Or another part of me.
âYet,â I say.
âWhat?â
âIâm not the boss of you yet, considering that you do want to intern for me.â
âNot for you,â she says slowly. âFor Knox.â
âThat wonât be happening, so itâs either with me or youâre out of here.â
Her lips fall open and she swallows, then clamps them shut before they open again.
Knox releases a tsking sound. âLike uncle, like nephew, all you and Sebastian ever do is steal my interns.â
âButâ¦I want to intern with Knox,â she says with more conviction.
âThen leave.â
She purses those lips again, her body getting rigid and her nostrils flaring. Sheâs clinking her nails against each other, too.
Clink. Clink. Clink.
âOr follow me.â I turn around, not waiting to see if she follows.
She will.
Not only did she come over here with one intention, but sheâs also not the type who gives up, not even if she has to make compromises.
Iâm the one whoâs supposed to push her away, not offer her an internship or even invite her to my office.
This is my focus zone, after all, and having her in it will fuck everything up. But itâs not like she disappears from my mind when sheâs out of sight.
Whoever said that is a fucking moron.
Besides, either sheâs with me or with someone else. And thereâs no way in fuck I was going to let her be with Knox, Daniel, or even Sebastian.
Iâve been hit by the same haze that took over me when Aspen told me that my âwifeâ brought cupcakes and was talking with the three fuckers. Logical thoughts were the last thing on my mind when I barged in there. I knew she didnât like it when I refused the internship, but I didnât think sheâd show up and negotiate her way into one.
Behind my back.
Iâm well aware of her half-jogging behind me as I march to my office, but I donât look at her. Iâm charged up enough as it is without being distracted by the sight of her.
If I had enough decency, I would slow down and let her catch up, but that term doesnât fucking exist in my dictionary.
As soon as weâre inside, I shut the door, lean against it, and face her.
Gwyneth stands in the middle of the office, catching her breath. But then she glares at me with her arms crossed over her chest. âI donât want to intern with you.â
âGood thing you donât have a say in it.â
âBut you said no the other time. What made you change your mind?â
Her going to someone else.
Knoxâs hand on her.
The fucking cupcakes she brought.
Any. All.
âWhy do you want to intern here?â I ask instead of answering her question.
âI want the experience.â
âWhy now?â
âItâs summer and pre-law students intern during the summer.â
âThatâs all?â
âAndâ¦to keep busy, okay? I canât afford to feel empty right now, so donât stop me from doing this.â
Itâs about Kingsley. Fuck.
I shouldâve known that the happy façade she puts on in front of Martha and the world is just that. A façade. A disguise to hide what sheâs feeling inside.
Sheâs excellent at that. Hiding. Whether physically or emotionally. Especially when it comes to the emotional pain, because sheâs far more open in other areas.
I push off the door and approach her slowly. I donât miss the way her eyes widen a little or how she watches my every move. She does it all the time back at the house, which is one more reason why I keep my fucking distance.
âWhy didnât you say that when you first talked to me about the internship? When asking for something, youâre supposed to back it up with all the right arguments.â
âYou didnât really give me a chance. You said no, and thatâs final. And the discussion is over. Your three favorite expressions, remember?â
âWatch the tone, Gwyneth.â
âIâm sure Knox wouldnât mind it if you just let me intern with him.â
âThatâs out of the question and thatâs final.â
âSee? You said it again! Itâs final this and final that. Iâm not a robot, you know. Thereâs this little thing called emotions, and Iâm not desensitized to them. I donât have that word on my negative list.â
âYour what?â
âItâs a thing. You donât need to know about it.â Then she mutters under her breath, âMaybe I should add you to the list.â
âAre you calling me names, Gwyneth?â
She fakes an innocent smile. âI canât do that to my new boss.â
âHow about your husband?â
Her lips fall open again, and I revel in that, probably more than I should.
I love taking her off guard, making her bothered in her own fucking skin. Itâs a small taste of what she does all the time.
âI can call you names,â she whispers.
âSuch as Uncle Nate?â
âThat was because I wanted toâ¦â
âWhat? Get attention? Provoke me? What exactly were you thinking about?â
âI donât know.â
âIâll call you kiddo until you figure it out then.â
âNot that! Iâ¦just wanted to provoke you, I think.â
âWill you be repeating it?â
âNo.â
âGood, or else youâll be back to being kiddo.â
Her lips part again and a bright fucking light shines in her gaze. But instead of focusing on the happiness sheâs projecting in waves, on how pleased she is about not being a kiddo anymore, I march to my desk, retrieve a thick case file, and push it at her chest.
âGo through the previous case records and find me something I can use.â
She remains there, fingers wrapped around the file. âThatâs all?â
âWhat else should there be? You asked for an internship and this is it. I wonât take it easy on you, Gwyneth. In fact, itâll just get more difficult going forward. So if you donât have the will to go through this, walk away now.â
âI can do it. I will do it.â
âIf you say so.â
âYou donât believe me?â
âI donât believe things I donât see.â
âYouâre so cynical, you know that?â
âAnd youâre still standing here. Go work and behave.â
Her hold on the file falters and I lean forward in case she drops it.
She bites her lower lip and I donât take my eyes off it, watching her wet it, her teeth nibbling on the plump cushion before she finally releases it. âB-behave?â
Itâs like weâre playing a game of cat and mouse, and I donât think I have the will to stop where this game is going anymore.
Or maybe I lost control of it a while ago and Iâm only just admitting it now.
Either way, this is heading in a dangerous fucking direction, and Iâm letting it.
Because fuck this. Fuck whatever is left of my conscience. Iâve never had one anyway, so I might as well stop pretending itâs there.
âYes, Gwyneth. Behave or youâll pay.â