Chapter 120: Chapter 120

Luan’s POV

“You ready?” Abe came in.

I looked at myself in the mirror.

“No” I muttered.

Abe sighed and closed the door behind him.

“You didn’t sleep last night, did you?” he said.

I slightly chuckled.

“Nothing new” I said as I fixed my tie.

Abe gave me a look.

“Livi would’ve wanted to be here to cheer you on” he suddenly said.

I turned to look at Abe.

“I know” I said and looked at myself again.

“I know” I said again.

Abe gave me a pat on the back.

“Finish up, Luan. Your coronation starts in 30” Abe said and left.

As soon as he was gone, my knees weakened.

I leaned on the wall for support as I fell to my knees.

I felt like my heart was being torn apart inside of my chest.

I shut my eyes tightly to stop the tears from falling but still failed.

It still hurt.

Liviana has been gone for so long yet it still hurts like it was only yesterday.

It’s been more than 2 years since Liviana disappeared.

Since she…passed.

I had become nothing but an empty shell ever since.

I still hoped that one day she’d just miraculously come back.

Come back to me.

To us.

I turned 21 yesterday.

Today is my coronation day.

The day that the throne of Lunar would be passed on to me.

It should’ve been Liviana.

She was the rightful ruler of Lunar.

Not me.

We would’ve led Lunar together.

But she’s gone.

I screamed and sobbed as I punched the wall in frustration.

All I ever wanted was to be with her.

The throne didn’t matter to me anymore.

I just wanted to be happy with my mate.

That’s all.

Was that too much to ask?

Was happiness with the person you love, too much to ask for?

“Luan!”

The room to my door burst open and Abe and Beau came in with guards.

“Get out” I said in a low tone.

I heard someone sighed and was followed by footsteps and the closing of the door.

I weakly pushed myself up and saw myself in the mirror again.

I looked like crap.

I felt like crap.

My fist was bleeding and there were little stains of b***d in my clothes.

I sighed as I walked back to the walk in closet and changed.

I gathered the last of my energy left in me as I made my way out of the room.

As soon as I got out, I saw Abe and Beau waiting for me outside.

“Let’s get this over with” I said.

Abe and Beau nodded.

We made our way through the hallways.

The hallways that I have been locking myself in since the passing of my mate.

The hallways I dreamed of walking with Liviana with.

Every corner felt empty now.

“Your majesty” Benjamin, Abe and Beau’s father and my uncle suddenly appeared.

“Your father wants to see you before the coronation proper” he said.

I sighed and nodded.

I glanced at Abe and Beau and they simply nodded at me.

I went with Benjamin to where my father would be.

“Congratulations, your majesty. This is a very special day for you. You will finally be able to rule Lunar” Benjamin congratulated.

It doesn’t matter.

I’m not happy.

Not without my mate.

This day isn’t so special without Liviana by my side.

My queen.

“Thank you, Benjamin” I said.

“Of course, your father and I will always be by your side to help and guide you. You need not worry” he said.

I almost chuckled.

I’m sure ‘held and guide’ actually means manipulate me.

No.

I need to be stronger than this.

Liviana might not be by my side anymore but I know that she wouldn’t let Lunar be led by a weak king.

The last thing I can do for my mate is to lead Lunar properly.

To be a proper king.

One that Liviana can be proud of.

“Oh I know, Benjamin. I know” I said with a fake chuckle.

I know that you and my father will never leave me alone.

I know that you’ll both do anything and everything to get involved.

But I won’t let that happens so easily.

I refuse to disappoint Liviana any further.

I refuse to disappoint Lunar.

“We’re here. Your father is inside waiting for you” he said.

I nodded and Benjamin left.

I stood outside of the door for a few moments.

After this day, I swear to my life to be the king that Lunar deserves.

I took a deep breath and opened the door to where my father is.

I immediately saw him sitting on a chair as he turned to look at me.

“Luan” he said as he looked at me.

“Father” I said.

“You don’t look like you slept” he pointed.

“I was a little excited for today, that’s all” I lied.

My father stood up and walked in front of me.

Then, he started ‘fixing’ my collar.

“You know, son, after this day, you will finally be Lunar’s new king” he started.

“The ruler of a whole territory” he said.

“The man that every wolf will fear” he continued.

“The one who everyone shall bow to” he said and looked at me in the eye.

“So pull yourself together will you?” he said and held me by the collar.

I just looked at him.

“So you lost your mate. Now, stop acting like a depressed teenager who got dumped” he hissed at me.

I looked at him in disbelief.

“I lost your mother too, didn’t I? Did you see me act the way you did? Did you?” he said holding my collar tightly.

“It’s been more than 2 years since that mate of yours passed away. She’s not coming back to life anytime soon. Get that in your head” he said and aggressively let go of my collar.

I looked at him with a glare.

Of course I knew that.

But it will never be easy.

To forget someone like Liviana is as hard as forgetting how to breathe.

She became my life.

The reason for me to live.

And now, she’s gone.

“She’s never much to begin with anyway. She wouldn’t have made an excellent queen. You were better off without her” he said.

I saw red.

I held my father by the collar.

“Don’t you dare say talk sht about my mate! You never knew her like we did! You never knew her like I did! You will never know how it feels to lose someone like Liviana!” I growled.

“She was an amazing leader. She was kind, selfless, loving and loyal. She was an even better leader than both of us combined. She would have made an amazing queen if she hadn’t passed” I hissed at him.

“She deserves this throne more than I do. She was supposed to be the one next for the throne. Not me! She’s the heiress of the Alaric family. This throne is supposed to be hers. Not ours” I said in anger.

My father only gave me a serious look.

There was no trace of surprise in his face.

“So you knew who she actually was” he said.

I looked at him confused.

“And you were still head over heels for that woman. How naive of you. I didn’t think I’d be raising an i***t” he said with a chuckle of disbelief.

My eyebrows furrowed.

“Did you know?” I asked confused.

He only looked at me.

Then, he pushed and I let go of him.

“You better get your priorities straight, young man. You’re going to be ruling a whole territory by tomorrow” he said casually as he fixed his time.

“You no longer have time to mourn” he said as he looked at me.

“Do your job right” he said and walked passed me and out of the room.

I stood there confused.

He knew.

All this time, he knew.

My father knew who Liviana actually was.

But how?

Since when?

Why didn’t I know?

Then, the door opened again.

“Luan, it’s time” Beau came in.

I closed my eyes tightly in frustration.

“You okay?” he asked.

I shook my head.

“No” I said and turned to look at him.

“But I don’t have a choice but to pretend to be okay, do I?” I said.

I saw the worry in his eyes.

I sighed and walked out of the room.

“Let’s go” I said.

Abe, Beau and I made our way to to where the coronation will be held.

“Did anything happen?” Abe asked.

I shook my head.

“Nothing” I lied.

I just found out something that I should’ve known a long time ago, that’s all.

“It doesn’t seem like nothing” Beau said.

“Just stay out of it” I told them.

They both sighed.

We arrived at the entrance.

Abe and Beau stood behind me.

They will be my right hand in leading Lunar from tomorrow onwards.

“We’re in this with you, Luan” Abe said.

“We’ll support you till the end no matter what” Beau added.

I turned to look at them.

“Thank you” I said.

They smiled and gave me a pat.

Then, the doors opened and I turned back from them again.

“His Majesty, Prince Luan Grey of Lunar!”

I was welcomed by cheers and claps.

I made my way to the front.

There were a lot of people inside but one group caught my eye.

El, Edmond, Dante, Theresa and Ellie.

They were here.

They were here to see me.

They gave me a smile and Ellie waved at me.

I slightly smiled.

I got to the front.

There were many people watching.

But I still wished to see one.

My mate.

Liviana.

She was the one who I wanted to be here so badly.

But she can’t.

I still held my head high in front of everyone.

I kept a mask on.

“With the power vested in me, I now crown his majesty, Luan Grey as the new king of Lunar” the man said and placed the crown on my head.

My eyes landed on my father as he looked at me.

Then and there, I vowed to be the best king I could be to Lunar.

Unlike him.

“His Highness, King Luan Grey of Lunar”