âMiss, are you upset?â She asked, sitting next to her.
Hai Xiaotang sharply rebutted, âNo! Why would I be upset, why should I be upset?â
But the more she denied it, the more it made others doubt.
Madam Zhang sighed, âMiss, Iâve seen everything thatâs happened between you two over the years. I donât think anyone knows your situation better than I do. Tell me honestly, do you still have feelings for Young Master Dongfang?â
ââ¦â Hai Xiaotang wanted to refute, but the words just wouldnât come out.
She rubbed her face in annoyance, âMadam Zhang, am I being pathetic? I clearly swore that I would never like him again. But why do I always fail? Madam Zhang, you donât know, I donât know whatâs wrong with myself. How could I become like this? So indecisive. You donât know how much I hate myself!â
âWhy hate yourself?â Madam Zhang asked in confusion.
Hai Xiaotang painfully responded, âBecause Iâve always been unsure of my stanceâ¦â
She said she didnât love him, yet she slowly fell for him. But once she fell in love, she dared not to love him.
When did she become so entangled and timid?
âItâs because Young Master Dongfang is so lovable that you waver,â Madam Zhang suddenly said.
Hai Xiaotang was stunned, looking at her in disbelief, âWhat did you just say?â
Mrs. Zhang laughed, âMiss, although I donât understand your love. But I know you well. Once you decide something, you stick with it. If you truly did not love Young Master Dongfang anymore, you wouldnât have turned back. Your wavering is entirely due to the actions he has taken, enough to touch you and make you waver. The reason you dare not let yourself like him is because you are afraid of being hurt. However, you truly like him and cannot let go of himâ¦â
The words from Madam Zhang struck a chord in her heart.
Yes, the reason she dares not love is because she is afraid.
She lacks a sense of security.
It seemed like no matter how much love Dongfang Yu gave her, she could not be satisfied, nor could she generate a sense of security.
Her heart is like a bottomless pit that seems to never be filled.
She didnât like this feeling of anxiety, so she wanted to let go of everything, not expecting anything.
If she desires nothing, she wouldnât be insatiable, right?
But Dongfang Yu always comes to disrupt her heart, and she cannot shake him off.
Just when she began to waver again, he gave upâ¦
Thatâs how they are, always missing each other.
Hai Xiaotang couldnât help but laugh sarcastically, âMadam Zhang, was I wrong to fall in love with him from the start? Otherwise, why would I be entangled to this extent?â
She canât let go, and yet, she doesnât know how to carry on.
Madam Zhang replied, âMiss, in the world of emotions, there is no absolute right or wrong. Itâs about whether itâs worth it or not. Young Master Dongfang was worth your love, thatâs why you loved him so.â
âWhat about now?â Hai Xiaotang retorted.
At this moment, she was like a little kid unable to solve a problem.
Madam Zhang laughed, âAs for whether itâs still worth it now, youâll have to ask your heart.â
Her heartâ¦
Hai Xiaotang was still somewhat confused, because she could no longer see her own heart clearly.
But even if she could see it clearly, Dongfang Yu had already given up.
And she will never love a person who doesnât love her.
Hai Xiaotang said what she felt in her heart almost subconsciously.
Madam Zhang looked surprised for a moment before tentatively asking, âMiss, how are you so sure that Young Master Dongfang does not love you?â