Kai
Hell no, I was not having a crush towards the person with the set eyes. What is this? Teen romance film? I was just staring at the guy for almost one minute and here I was in denial of having a feeling for someone that I barely knew. Banging my head mentally to a pole inside my head, my mind was lost in space as I sat here in the class just thinking about it.
It was official ladies and gentlemen, I was officially starting to think about the early situation where Stan and I locked eyes for eternity. It was enchanted, almost like I was being struck by lightning and how Zeus was kind enough to have the voltage at zero per cent. Wait, if it was zero per cent, would it be no lightning? What kind of science was that Kai? Illogical science to be exact, my dear.
It was the last period for today and I have the feeling that things just went by faster after that staring contest. Seriously, after the assembly, what I did was just dozing off and thinking about why someone would stare at me for that long. Even so, I would be making a fool of myself for thinking that way. Maybe he was staring at somebody else. There was no way someone could have done what I thought.
Why?
I've been through it all for god's sake. Along the way of knowing that I like boys (and girls) when I was fifteen. I get a lot of these mixed signals from everyone around me. It was weird. I did not want to see it that way but how could I? This small heart of mine couldn't take it when someone just did what they did towards me. What was crazy was that I, who was a boy, was being treated softly by the guys in the school except for Charlie. It was just annoying. I wasn't that kind of soft boy but either way, they treat me like I was a girl. For example, rather than calling out my name out loud from afar, guys would just come at me and talk to me with manners... Or if they were with another boy, they would shove their shoulders playfully but with me, it was a whole another personality that I never got accustomed to. It was as if I was a mind washing machine that changes someone's personality when they're with me.
Following that incident, I would just go on about my day being quiet and have my thoughts to myself. Charlie has been looking at me with a confusing face the whole time knowing well enough I had something in my mind. He didn't even ask me about it, he was simply just respecting my thinking session. One that I never did want to have, but I did, and it's all because of that one guy who just can't keep his eyes to himself. Why can't you just look at the principal at that time? Idiot.
Holding the pen in my hands tightly, I was distracted from solving the equation I had in front of me. It was all because of my thoughts. They were poking my brain cells in different directions that I didn't realize that I was being poked as well on my sides. My head turns slowly towards the person who was taking away my attention from my thought. I caught a girl. She had raven hair that stops at her shoulder, wide eyes that made her look almost doll-like and wears glasses that frame her face so well that made her look overall cute and bright.
Smiling to the girl, I raise a brow to ask who she was. I seemly don't know people well in this school. Maybe that was why I never knew of Stan's existence, I was too ignorant to be knowing about people's presence. The girl then smiles brightly at me. She looked very cheerful like the sun shining over the blooming flowers in the open field. It made my smile grew wider as well.
"Hi, ...um, is there something I could help you with," I asked, breaking the silence between us. As much as I like her to say something first, the long silence was too much to bear.
She sits straight up on her seat, the smile never leaves her face. "Hi, I'm Liara. No... there's nothing I need but I think you might need some help," said Liara as she points towards the empty paper in front of me in which I haven't fill in yet with my answers. I glance from the paper than to her.
Scratching the back of my head, I smile awkwardly at what I have done. "Oh! I... I was just thinking too long of the answers... don't mind me," I chuckled, looking down on my lap while shaking my head. She chuckles as well at me. Yeah, I kind of look so awkward by now.
"Something's bothering you?" She questioned and it made me look at her that instance. I stop to think whether I should lie to that or tell what was in my mind that made me a distracted mess.
I laughed again, but less sincere this time. "No... not that I know of at least...," My tone ended with less enthusiasm than I would love it to be. Liara looked at me with a concerned face now, it was that she knew what I was thinking but can't decide whether I was thinking about it or not.
"Well, I hope we could be friends. I see you a lot at school but this is like the first time I ever talk to you... maybe being friends could help us both?" She replied, having to turn the confusion to me. There was an underlying meaning to that statement, but I can't point my finger on it. I nodded at her, giving my best smile as class ended seconds later. Thank goodness that the teacher was really kind enough to have the work as homework to be done outside school hours.
"Goodbye Kai, it was really nice to meet you!" Liara said while she walks backwards. I wave at her, smiling from ear to ear at her attitude. I figure that she was that type of girl. The people's person.
I walked out of class, only to be greeted by Charlie with his car keys dangling around his fingers. Approaching the guy, I snatched the keys right off his fingers, grinning devilishly as I walk away from him. "Hey! That's my key!" He yelled, sprinting at me as I started running towards outside the school. We stop running after each other when I finally gave up teasing him for his keys and give it back to him.
Walking side by side now, he nudges me by the shoulder, having my head turn towards him. "What?" I simply asked, smiling.
"You seem to be taken away the whole day... especially after the assembly. Is there something going on?" He asked, having me to think back to the incident again. Scrunching my forehead, I shrugged. "Nothing, I was just occupied with the work at home," saying that did not successfully make him believe me as he looks at me with one brow raised.
I sighed. "Come on, it's nothing. I'm just stressed out with school works. You know it's not the first time?" That made him nod eventually at me, but somehow he just was not having it. "True, but something's different. You're occupied in your head but your eyes look sparkly... wait... don't tell me... You're having a crush!" He said out loud, having me to palmed my face and dragging it down my face.
"No Charlie! It's not... I don't have a crush,"
"You're in denial. I get it, I get it," He raised both of his arms, looking down at his shoes as we're almost approaching his car.
I stop as he got in front of the driver's door. "Hey, my mom's picking me up. So... I guess you're going back by yourself?" I stated, sounding more of a question. Mom wanted to go grocery shopping this evening. She needed me on board to carry the stuff. Charlie looks at me in realization. I hope I didn't make him upset or something. "Oh yeah, it's fine. We could go back together tomorrow. So, I'll see you tomorrow?" He asked.
Grinning, I shake my head. "Duh, we have school tomorrow," That made his mouth go into an 'o' shape, seeming to not realize that part of the story. What a goof.
Watching his car drove out from the school ground, I walk towards the bus station to wait for my mom. At that moment of waiting, I started thinking back to what had happened today. After the assembly, I had never seen his face in the crowd. It was a one-time thing but it was the only thing that was stuck in my head all day long. I wonder what was really on his mind at that moment. He just seems so awed and just stunned by something. It just made me overthink about it.
Almost too caught up with my thoughts, mom arrives soon after. I shake my head as I started to walk to the car but not before being bumped into someone. The object which the person was holding, which was a guitar, falls down onto the ground with a loud pang that pierced into my ears. My face froze, scared that the guitar would be broken.
Looking up, it was him. My eyes were wide to see the same eyes but in a different mood now. Anger. He then picks up the guitar from the ground. The anger and dissatisfaction never leave his face. "What the fuck dude? Watch where you're going!" He lashes out, startling me out of nowhere. Now I was the one feeling angered for some unknown reason. He was a total dick and just can't seem to talk it out.
"I'm sorry, I was just not looking okay? It doesn't seem that your guitar is broken to me," I replied, lowering my head slightly. I was embarrassed at myself.
"But what if it does? Think you can pay for it? I don't think you have that money to do so. Not for someone like you," The words just made strikes the mark in my heart that made me can't take it from the bull he was talking. "Wow... never thought someone who has that kind of money to be talking so cheap of someone. You wanna know something? I have that kind of money as well. I could even buy an even better guitar than your stupid one,"
"You did not just insult my guitar," He walks closer, standing up tall even when we were almost the same height. That did not even faze me.
"So what if I did? What are you gonna do about it? Idiot," His dark eyes widen at my words, surprise that I had that courage. I always did. But I was not ready for what he was about to say after this... something that started a hate-love feeling inside of me.
"I'm gonna shut that mouth with a kiss to keep your mouth off my guitar if I have to,"
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