Chapter 103: CH 103

Fang Xiao Ying never expected in a thousand years that there would exist another person in this world who was transparent like her.

No, she should say there were many other people.

And Lu Zhi Wei just coincidentally happened to be one of them.

And this was even more shocking than learning that Xiao Lu jie was Lu Zhi Wei, and that Xiao Lu jie‘s girlfriend was Sang Wan Ci.

How was it possible?

If Lu Zhi Wei really was transparent like her, then how was she this successful, how was she seen by so many people?

Could it be that their transparency was also separated by tiers?

Fang Xiao Ying was clearly doubtful.

She suddenly didn’t know if she should believe what Lu Zhi Wei said.

“You…… really are like me?”

Lu Zhi Wei smiled warmly: “The same, in the past.”

“At that time, I was like you, unseen by others, unliked by others, lonely, forced to live in my own world. When I was sad, there wasn’t anybody to comfort me.

“I’ve met countless strangers and continued being a stranger in their world after they turned away. Like a roll of transparent tape, sticking onto something and tearing it off, unable to leave any visible mark.

“This sort of life is painful, it’s upsetting, it’s suffocating, but I still gritted my teeth and stubbornly lived on thanks to an optimistic outlook.

“Then after that, I’m now able to sit here and talk to you.”

Fang Xiao Ying’s doubt receded with each word.

That’s right, a transparent identity wasn’t trendy and it couldn’t feed them. And it was so painful to boot, what good was there using it to bluff someone?

“So it’s not just me that’s like this……” Fang Xiao Ying said lightly.

Seeing her with the same doubt she had at the start, Lu Zhi Wei wanted to laugh but she couldn’t laugh.

This sort of sad matter, it would be better if there were fewer of them, and best if there were none.

“How did you see me? I thought we wouldn’t remember each other……”

“Maybe, because we’re the same?”

“Oh…… That makes sense.”

There were too many strange things, the transparent physique was one of them. Even if something else came along, it wouldn’t seem so abnormal.

Besides, Fang Xiao Ying quickly accepted Lu Zhi Wei’s made-up scenario.

“Then how did you get rid of your transparent identity?”

Talking about it, Fang Xiao Ying’s eyes immediately lit up, her excitement visible.

Lu Zhi Wei turned to look at her.

In her eyes, Lu Zhi Wei saw something called “hope”.

And she was indeed the hope of everybody who was like her.

“It’ll get better.”

Lu Zhi Wei smiled slightly.

“I said it before, everything will get better.”

“Maybe you’ll turn back to normal like me tomorrow.”

Fang Xiao Ying blinked.

Lu Zhi Wei’s reflection shone in her eyes, with a gentle smile and clear eyes.

“Xiao Ying, try anticipating it,” Lu Zhi Wei said warmly. “There’ll be a day when what you want will arrive, trust me.”

Fang Xiao Ying continued staring at her.

The sunlight shone through the tree branches and draped itself on Lu Zhi Wei, like a gentle layer of gauze, making her suddenly appear extremely eye-catching.

Like the light, like the sun, like the gentlest existence on earth, attracting people to follow in her footsteps unknowingly and listen to her.

She was worth trusting.

She wouldn’t lie.

“I believe you.” Fang Xiao Ying’s gaze was determined.

I believe I’ll have such a day too, I believe I’ll also be as warm and eye-catching as you, able to be seen by many people.

Hearing her answer, Lu Zhi Wei was suddenly satisfied.

Giving others a future to look forward to, wasn’t that the meaning of her decision?

Everything was particularly perfect at this point.

Enough, everything was enough.

Lao Wu watched the actions of the two of them.

That hopeful look on Fang Xiao Ying’s face suddenly touched a certain part of his heart.

He seemed to have seen the old Lu Zhi Wei.

“Eat the dumplings, I put a pair of chopsticks in there too, you can use them,” Lu Zhi Wei said. “We can chat as you eat, I’ll stay a bit longer to talk to you then leave after we’re done talking.”

“Alright!” Fang Xiao Ying was happy.

She solemnly ate a corn and pork dumpling, feeling extremely blissful.

She was too blessed to have gotten to know Lu Zhi Wei and eat her dumplings!

And she could chat, she was now someone who could be close to the gossip!

“Xiao Lu jie, you and Teacher Sang…… Who confessed first?”

“If we have to figure it out…… It should be me?”

“Then did you two get together after forming the CP, becoming real after interacting with each other?”

“No, we already liked each other before.”

“Wow…… So there was an ulterior motive in forming the CP.”

“……”

Although Lu Zhi Wei felt like that sounded strange, but it was kind of right?

Sang Wan Ci formed the CP with the intention to eventually make it real, didn’t she?

And she did have those thoughts towards Sang Wan Ci then too……

Lu Zhi Wei couldn’t help but smile.

“Yes, I was plotting long ago because I liked her too much.

“It’ll forever be my honor to be able to be with her.”

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It was the afternoon when Lu Zhi Wei left home.

After sitting with Fang Xiao Ying and chatting for a while, it was already evening when Lu Zhi Wei returned.

In the end, Fang Xiao Ying still couldn’t bear to finish all the dumplings at once.

Seeing that, Lu Zhi Wei gave her the box and chopsticks.

She couldn’t let Fang Xiao Ying carry the dumplings home in her hands now, could she?

Night tended to arrive quicker in the winter than it does in the summer.

When Lu Zhi Wei got home, the sky had already turned dark.

The clear, bright moon was hanging in the sky, spreading light.

She opened the door, immediately seeing Sang Wan Ci in the living room looking at the scenery outside the window.

Seeing her return, Sang Wan Ci put down her cup and got up, walking toward Lu Zhi Wei and holding her hand, trying to transfer some of her body heat.

“You didn’t wear gloves,” Sang Wan Ci held her hands tightly. “Is it very cold outside?”

Lu Zhi Wei looked at her, smiling slowly.

After deciding to destroy herself, she had gotten even more accepting and calmer, cherishing Sang Wan Ci more every day.

—— Every second and minute spent with you is the most beautiful treasure of my life.

She closed the door and kissed Sang Wan Ci, touching her lips.

“I’m not cold after seeing our Teacher Sang.”

Sang Wan Ci kissed her back a few times.

The two of them clung to each other.

“Has Wan Ci eaten?”

“Waiting for you.”

“Then I’ll cook now, wait a while.”

“Let’s have dumplings, there are still quite a few left, then Zhi Wei doesn’t need to cook.”

“…… Mm, that works too.”

So dinner was also dumplings.

After eating and cleaning up, the two of them sat on the sofa and watched the scene outside the window.

Thinking about the meal, Lu Zhi Wei suddenly said: “Dumpling Sang.”

Sang Wan Ci really loved eating dumplings too much.

Just like she said, she wouldn’t get sick of them.

In a certain way, her Teacher Sang indeed was a person who stuck to their words.

Hearing her new nickname, Sang Wan Ci’s head tilted as she rested it on Lu Zhi Wei’s shoulder.

“No matter what I become, it’s fine as long as it’s the person Zhi Wei likes.”

Hearing it, Lu Zhi Wei raised her arms to hug her, her eyes filled with love.

“Of course, I only like you, I’ll like you forever, it won’t change even in my next lifetime.”

Sang Wan Ci said: “Then Zhi Wei needs to remember to come and find me in the next lifetime, with this lifetime’s heart.”

Lu Zhi Wei smiled and conveyed her sincerity with wittiness: “Alright, I definitely will!”

I will bring along this lifetime’s heart to love you forever.

It won’t change even until death.

“Our Wan Ci should go bathe.”

“Accompany me, jiejie.”

“Alright, alright.”

In the bathroom, Sang Wan Ci leaned against the sink, staring at the person in front of her.

Lu Zhi Wei was helping her unbutton her clothes, looking between her and the buttons from time to time, a hint of seduction in her eyes.

Sang Wan Ci willingly took the bait, touching the back of her neck and pulling Lu Zhi Wei towards herself.

Their lips touched.

Love and desire tumbled between their tongues.

Their breaths were close, the atmosphere was heating up.

It was like they could no longer hold back their liking for each other, abandoning reason as they sought what they wanted from each other.

Lu Zhi Wei’s originally calm fingers were now hurried, her actions of unbuttoning the clothes were a lot faster.

She finally undid the last button.

Sang Wan Ci had already impatiently grabbed hold of her, the cold palm surprising Lu Zhi Wei as she wrapped her arms around Sang Wan Ci’s neck.

The emotional curtain was slowly pulled apart.

She pressed her forehead against Sang Wan Ci’s as she said lightly: “Anywhere is fine tonight……”

Anywhere is fine, I want to have you one last time.

One last time of knowing that you love me…… That you loved me.

Sang Wan Ci hummed lightly, a trace of doubt in her tone, as if she was questioning Lu Zhi Wei.

Lu Zhi Wei tilted her head and smiled, answering sincerely: “Because I like Wan Ci too much.”

Then she gently added; “I want to be with Wan Ci forever.”

Sang Wan Ci hugged her: “We’ll be together forever.”

Lu Zhi Wei couldn’t help but bury her face in Sang Wan Ci’s neck: “Actually, I’ve even thought of next year’s birthday wish already. I wish my Wan Ci will always be happy.”

She didn’t want to wish on candles this time, she wanted to wish on her.

She hoped that Sang Wan Ci could fulfill this wish.

—— Her last birthday wish.

“With Zhi Wei, I’ll always be happy.”

“…… Wan Ci, I’m really very happy to hear you say that.”

Sang Wan Ci suddenly felt that something was wrong.

Lu Zhi Wei’s emotions tonight were exceptionally fragile and sensitive, as if she would shatter once touched.

“Zhi Wei, did something happen?

“Are you hiding your sorrows from me?”

In order not to let her see what was wrong, Lu Zhi Wei immediately brought out the actress in her.

“No, how could I have any sorrows.

“Don’t think too much, I just went out to chat with Xiao Ying for a while and thought of your goodness even more. So I want to cherish you even more, I can’t bring myself to leave you.”

“Then don’t leave me.”

“Mm, I won’t leave you, never.”

If I slumber forever at the scenic viewpoint, even if you don’t remember me, then it counts as me accompanying you forever, right?

When you go to the scenic viewpoint in the future, you won’t be alone anymore. The waves and wind are me accompanying you.

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Lu Zhi Wei lay on the sofa, her long hair spread out.

She lifted her arms and Sang Wan Ci leaned down, delivering herself into Lu Zhi Wei’s embrace and offering up her lips.

“Wan Ci…… Wan Ci……”

She couldn’t help but call out her lover’s name.

Her tone mingled in the chaotic atmosphere, sounding soft and charming, each word tickling Sang Wan Ci’s heart like a feather.

Lu Zhi Wei willingly offered herself up.

“What does Zhi Wei want? Tell me.”

“I want you.

“And I want you to say you love me.”

She wanted to hear it a few more times before she left.

In the future…… In the future she wouldn’t be able to see Sang Wan Ci anymore, nor anybody else.

“I love you,” Sang Wan Ci’s tone was gentle and moving. “I love you, Zhi Wei.”

Lu Zhi Wei’s eyes suddenly misted over.

She hugged Sang Wan Ci tightly with red eyes: “Say it a few more times, I like hearing you say you love me.”

Sang Wan Ci said those three words again and again.

Lu Zhi Wei was suddenly satisfied.

No matter what happened in the past or what will happen in the future, at least in this moment, Sang Wan Ci loves her, Lu Zhi Wei.

“I love you too.”

She smiled.

—— More than anybody else.

With the thought of pleasing her girlfriend before she left, Lu Zhi Wei flipped over and started attacking more than once.

She kissed every inch of Sang Wan Ci’s skin.

She whispered all her love into Sang Wan Ci’s ears.

Before dying, her last bit of selfishness was all Sang Wan Ci.

They were entwined in sweat and desire.

In every sweetness and affection that poured out.

They satisfied all the desires each other had, marking each other as theirs.

You are mine.

Tonight, you and I are the most compatible people in the world.

…

1.08am.

Lu Zhi Wei slowly opened her eyes, looking at the person she loved next to her.

She wasn’t sleepy. She was waiting for Sang Wan Ci to sleep, just like now.

Sang Wan Ci looked as beautiful as ever while sleeping.

Her features were distinguished and refined, carved out of white jade. When her eyes were opened, they had a peerless elegance. When her eyes were closed, they were as beautiful as flowers, making nobody willing to disturb her.

Lu Zhi Wei couldn’t help but take another look.

This was Sang Wan Ci, the person she had loved for over two years.

Actually, if she had the chance, she might have gone to look for Sang Wan Ci again after the world reset.

But there was no chance, there never would be a chance.

The system would not keep a self-destructive “virus” like her, it definitely would eliminate her.

But it didn’t matter.

Her love was alive, Sang Wan Ci was alive.

She believed that if Sang Wan Ci were her, she would definitely also choose to return freedom to every transparent person in the world.

She had no doubt of Sang Wan Ci’s decision.

But she wouldn’t let her do that.

Sang Wan Ci had no system, she didn’t know anything. She was just an innocent person in the big world.

She should live well and choose the life she wants to live.

As for matters of life and death, Lu Zhi Wei would handle it.

Because she couldn’t bear to let Sang Wan Ci destroy herself.

She normally didn’t even bear to pinch Sang Wan Ci, how could she bear to let her forever be eliminated by the world?

Besides, there were still so many people who would miss her in the world…… She deserved to live the most.

Live well.

Lu Zhi Wei smiled with reddened eyes.

She reached out a hand, her fingertips gently and silently brushing against Sang Wan Ci’s dark hair. It was the last time she was touching her, and she couldn’t resist lightly, yet emotionally leaving a last kiss on Sang Wan Ci’s cheek.

“Your head won’t hurt anymore,” she said softly, as if afraid she would wake up her heart’s treasure. “Goodnight.”

Goodnight, my love.

I hope that your future without me will still be as brilliant, with everything going your way.

She got off the bed lightly and closed the bedroom door carefully.

Her gaze went through the narrow gap, reluctantly bidding farewell to her sleeping lover.

The door closed.

They had once again become two people in different worlds.

Lu Zhi Wei changed and left the house.

Every action she took before leaving was incredibly careful, light to the point that it was like she had never come.

Never come to this world, never entered Sang Wan Ci’s heart.

She was still her, that lonely, transparent person on the fringe.

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Sang Wan Ci’s house was close to the scenic viewpoint.

Lu Zhi Wei reached after just ten minutes of walking.

The wind blew past her ear, rustling her long hair.

After making her decision, her heart had calmed down and become determined.

So every step she took now was steady.

After tonight, everybody would have a tomorrow worth looking forward to.

Except her…… Unknown in life, unremembered in death.

Lao Wu watched as she walked towards the scenic viewpoint.

The tree branches on either side were laden with snow as the moon shone on them, cold and lonely tonight.

Lao Wu couldn’t bear it.

This was his first time watching someone walk toward their death.

This person wasn’t even the protagonist the world had selected.

【Zhi Wei,】 he still couldn’t help but try to convince her. 【are you really going to do this?】

“Mm.”

Lu Zhi Wei calculated it simply for him.

“Without me, a single person, I can exchange it for the normal lives of so many people. This deal clearly is in my advantage.”

Every life in this world was worth anticipating, worth respecting.

Nobody had the right to strip them of the privilege to enjoy everything that the world had to offer.

It didn’t matter whether they became an excellent star or an ordinary lamp. What Lu Zhi Wei was doing now was to return the right to choose to them.

As she spoke, she smiled happily.

As if what was waiting for her wasn’t death, but a radiant tomorrow.

【But nobody will remember you.】

“You’ll remember me.”

Lao Wu froze.

Lu Zhi Wei smiled: “I still have you to remember me.”

She had always been easily contented.

Even if there was only one person who could remember her after she died, that was enough.

After all, not a single person had remembered her for twenty-odd years.

Lao Wu was speechless.

At this moment, he suddenly felt what Lu Zhi Wei felt the first day when she found out about this.

——Why do you have to treat me like this?

That’s right, why did she need to be treated like this?

What did she do wrong?

She clearly just wanted to live a normal life, wishing to be loved and to love, to fulfill her dreams.

She clearly, clearly was more innocent than anybody else……

Why did they have to make a victim give up their life……

Why did they have to create this ridiculous second layer!!!

His fingers curled into a fist slowly, with a sudden rebellious hatred in his eyes.

Lu Zhi Wei finally reached the scenic viewpoint.

The sound of the waves were near yet far, one after another.

The ocean breeze whistled as it hit the cliffs.

Nobody came by, it was quiet.

The edge of Lu Zhi Wei’s coat flapped up.

The wind was hitting her shoulder, as if pushing her to return.

But she couldn’t return.

She had to stay here, forever.

At this moment, she was like the goddess Ah Yue that she had acted as.

The goddess could perform miracles for mortals, she could too.

She could finally fulfill her old dream to let transparent physiques completely disappear.

Then, she suddenly had an epiphany. The shows that she had acted in with Sang Wan Ci were all foretelling this day.

In the show, she died for the female lead.

Outside the show, she still died for the female protagonist.

Well-deserved.

She chuckled and walked towards the railing.

She gripped the cold railing with both hands and looked down.

The roiling ocean was like the mouth of a beast, opening its gaping maw again and again.

There wasn’t a single trace of the bottom of the ocean, it was terrifying.

Jumping down would definitely result in death with no chance of survival.

Lu Zhi Wei had just taken a look at it, with her limbs starting to grow cold.

Her white fingertips trembled slightly, both because of the cold and because she was afraid.

She had once heard that jumping into water from such a height was like smashing into concrete, as painful as your entire body exploding.

The pain-fearing physique made her unconsciously want to retreat.

But her feet and her willpower kept her there.

She forced herself to look down.

You can’t escape, you’re not willing to escape, you don’t want to escape.

Jump, Lu Zhi Wei.

Jump and the world will reset and everything you’ve done will have meaning.

Don’t be afraid, jump, it won’t hurt anymore after you’re dead.

Lao Wu couldn’t bear it the more he watched.

Why did they have to torment someone who was afraid of pain?

【Lu Zhi Wei,】 he asked suddenly. 【You’ve really made up your mind?】

“Mm,” Lu Zhi Wei ignored her trembling fingers. “I’ve made up my mind.

【Okay, I respect your decision.】

Lu Zhi Wei closed her eyes.

But Lao Wu didn’t tell her to jump.

【Wait a while before jumping,】 he said. 【Let’s have one last chat, as friends.

【Sit down and take a rest, and make your mental preparations.】

Lu Zhi Wei didn’t know why, but she sighed in relief after hearing that.

Yes, when truly facing her death, she still needed a bit of mental preparation.

She had to continue to prepare herself and force herself to conquer her fear of pain.

She retreated a few steps and sat on the wooden bench with a drained, pale face, hugging herself.

She didn’t speak.

Neither did Lao Wu.

She suddenly heard a “beep”, then followed by Lao Wu tapping on the keyboard.

She asked lightly: “Why are you still typing on the keyboard?”

Lao Wu answered seriously: 【Work.】

She couldn’t help but laugh with her pale face.

Having to work even at this time, it seems like being an administrator is indeed hard work.

“Consider switching jobs.” She advised him sincerely.

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Sang Wan Ci slowly stirred awake.

She didn’t know why, but she didn’t sleep very well or soundly tonight.

Opening her eyes, she saw the blank space beside her, devoid of warmth.

She stretched slightly as she looked around.

There was no trace of Lu Zhi Wei in the bedroom.

Maybe she was drinking water in the living room……

Thinking about it, she still couldn’t rest assured.

So she got up and put on her cotton slippers, walking towards the door.

She pushed it open.

And was greeted with silence.

There wasn’t a single light turned on in the house, with only the cold white light from the moon illuminating the rooms.

And that familiar silhouette didn’t appear.

Sang Wan Ci paused.

She stood at the door, woodenly and slowly calling out: “Zhi Wei?”

Nobody answered.

A bad feeling viciously smashed into her heart.

Unease wrapped around her like veins, constricting her breathing.

Her sleepiness disappeared immediately.

She turned back quickly to take her phone and call Lu Zhi Wei.

The next second, Lu Zhi Wei’s phone rang from the living room.

The happy tune broke the silence, filling the house.

At this moment, the big house was as desolate as an abandoned city.

Sang Wan Ci stood there, the sound of the phone suddenly far away in the distance.

…… She was gone.