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We spent half an hour taking notes for social studies and then Phillips ultimately decided that she couldn't be bothered to teach so she left us to it, she just said no one could get out of their seats.
This whole lesson I've noticed how Amariah's mind seems to be elsewhere, there's a pattern of words that she usually spells wrong but this time round she had a few more spelling errors.
"You know you've been tapping your pen for about ten minutes now"
She frowns before realising and putting it down, still keeping her eyes on the clock.
"What's up with you", I say confused
"Nothing"
"Bs and you know it"
She looks at me, "I just want class to end. That's all"
"Rushing off to go somewhere?"
She doesn't answer my question and stays looking at the clock, I figured that I might use this time to bring up the party.
"So who gave you that hickey at Blair's party?"
"Aren't you feeling nosy today"
"I mean you lied and said it was me so you can understand why I'm curious"
"You had a whole lot of time to ask me this question and you choose now?"
"You're stalling"
"I got it from my boyfriend", She says simply
Shes got a boyfriend?
"You have a boyfriend?"
"Don't act so surprised"
I mean I'm not surprised, she's very pretty and that's not a lie but she's pretty innocent, the only guys I've seen her talk to are CJ and Archie.
"So you cheated on your boyfriend and kissed me-
"Mmm no, we weren't together at the time"
Weirdly I feel the need to ask questions about this boyfriend of hers, like does he go here or not. Has she had sex with him?
Soon enough she looks away from the clock, tilting her head at me. "So are you ever gonna tell me about the thing I keep asking you about or are you gonna avoid it all the time-
"It's none of your business"
"Right so you get to be in other people's business but the minute they do the same it's like how dare you"
"Exactly that"
She waves me off, "Whatever"
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I've been pretty distracted today only because I want the day to end fast so that I can call my mother, I know that GG's with her right now but I'm just scared that I'll get a text saying she passed out again. And what if next time it's much more serious.
"Girl what's up with you?", Indiah interrupts my train of thought as she opens her locker
"What?"
"You been staring out the window for the past minute, did you even hear anything I said?"
I frown, "What'd you say"
"Nothing, forget it-
"No I'm sorry what was it?" I ask sincerely
"I'm going to Archie's today"
I raise my brows with surprise, "You're what?"
"For our project, and maybe a little more. I'm still tryna figure out how I feel bout him"
"What's there to figure out? I see the way you pretend to hate it when he puts his arm around you during cheer" I say amused
"I do not-..... is it that obvious", She gives in
"Very"
"I gotta sort myself out"
"There's nothing wrong with it Indi, you like him and that's ok"
My best friend sighs in thought, "I guess I have been a little harsh"
"You have"
"Well you ain't meant to agree, now what's up with you cause your eyes are glued to your phone"
I was checking a text from mama
Mamað©·: hi baby, yeah I'm ok. GG's here treating me like a hospital patient ð
Ok I can breathe now
"Sorry. I was worried about my mom, she fainted yesterday-
Indiah scoffs, "She what? And you ain't tell me?"
"We were so focused on her I literally forget to tell you or anyone to be honest"
"She ok?", Indiah asks softy
"Yeah, she's fine now. GG's at home with her"
"I know she hates all the extra care"
I laugh, "Yeah she does"
"I should come over instead of going to Archie's"
We walk to the cafeteria, "No it's ok do your thing. Sleepover tomorrow if you want"
"You sure?"
"Yeah"
"Alright"
We haven't heard from Destiny since the argument, but as for Blair she's not here because she's spending the day with her dad. I'll invite her to mine too because a major girl talk is due, they're both welcome at anytime to be fair. I've actually got a key to Indiah's house and she has one to mine, that's how frequently we see each other.
~*~
"You guys did really good, I'm proud"
"Thanks miss K", The girls smile
"No problem"
"Wait you forgot to do star of the week", Leila reminds me
"I'll tell you what, this week we won't do it"
"Aww", They all say with disappointment
"Well hold on you haven't heard the good news yet", I say amused
"What's the good news?"
"Whoever I pick next week gets a treat-
"Even if it's a box of donuts?", Crystal double checks
"Even if it's a box of donuts", I confirm
"What is it with you and donuts?", Aaliyah asks as they walk over to the benches
"My mom never lets me have them", She shrugs
"Miss K where's your friend?", Mabel asks as I help her untie her skates
"At home, relaxing probably"
I'm assuming
"Are you sure you don't like him?"
"Nope", I wink at her and she gasps before covering her mouth excitedly
"Between us two"
"Ok", Mabel giggles and I get up
It took a lot for me to convince dad that I'd be fine if he left me to lock up but I managed to do it, he told me to call him when I was done so he can pick me up but I'll just get an uber. Bless him, he works so hard.
Once the girls were gone I switched off all the building lights and locked up, during this my phone buzzes.
I check it before rolling my eyes.
Xavier: in the car park
I turn back and head over to the car park once spotting his headlights, I mean I haven't even booked the uber yet to be fair but that's not the point. Xavier frowns as I get in, "You ignored my message"
"Well apparently that's what we're doing now. It's not like I called you three times when you said you'd come earlier and it's certainly not like I texted you good morning and afternoon. No worries"
He sighs, "Ree I wasn't ignoring you I was-
I frown as I turn to his chin to face me, "What's this"
"Nothing big"
"That's a bruise under your eye, you been fighting?"
"I iced it earlier-
"Doesn't answer my question. Who gave that to you?", I demand
I'm asking but I already feel like I know the answer
"Alright I can see you getting fired up, you gon let me explain?"
"Just answer the question"
"You gotta let me talk-
"So it was Treyvon"
"Amariah-
"Yes or no Xavier, stop playing with me" I say annoyed
"Yes", He finally answers
"Right" I open the door before getting out of the car and he lowers the window down
"Ree come on it's late, get back in the car and we'll talk"
I was pulling open the uber app as I ignored him
"Amariah", He says annoyed
"Fuck off", I start to walk away but he gets out of the car and comes over to me
"You gon let me talk or what?-
"I don't wanna talk to you"
"Baby come on"
"No, since you wanna be playing with your life all the damn time and doing all this nonsense then go do it. You fucking lied to me-
"I didn't lie, look just come back to the car" He stands in front of me with a pleading look
"No-
"Amariah, please"
"I can't stand seeing you hurt yourself like this and you know that"
He gives me a soft look, "I know mama, I know. Just come to the car and let me talk to you, please I wanna be honest with you"
I move his hand away from me before silently going back to the car and he sighs as he follows me. I'm not saying shit, I have nothing else I wanna say.
"That day I told you I stopped doing shit for him I meant it, but I told Malik to tell him for me cause I was too pussy to do it myself. Then a couple days later Treyvon texted me which confused the shit out of me, turns out Malik never told him in the first place because he was trying to protect me. He knows it's not that easy"
I still don't say anything
"I was still holding back because the stuff Malik was saying to me was just playing over and over again in my head-
"Right so you're listening to Malik, of course"
"No baby you don't understand, he's right-
"When is he ever right"
"Malik knows bout me and you, believe me Ree he's trying to help. I can't just quit and tell Treyvon that it's because of my girl-
"Then lie"
"No I can't do that, if he wants to find shit out then he will. Today I talked to him and I lied despite it being a risk, he was pissed"
"And so he beat your face", I say annoyed
My annoyance isn't aimed so much at Xavier anymore, it's aimed at this Treyvon guy
"No, that was from his guys" Zay lifts up his hoodie and my eyes widen
"Oh my God", I whisper
It was a whole fricking stab wound staring right at me, I lift his hoodie higher. "This is not ok"
"Don't cry baby", He says softly
"He's gonna kill you", I cry
Zay pulls me in for a hug and I cry against his shoulder, "Don't worry about me I'm fine. It's minor"
"No it's not"
I cried for a good minute until he calmed me down, I'm so mad at myself for being ignorant because I can see that he's really trying for me....
"Why didn't you tell me", I murmur against him
"I didn't want you to worry, that's why I got Jamila to sew it up"
"Is that the gay friend", I check
"Yes", He confirms
He doesn't really have female friends to be honest so I'm not worried.
"I don't care if Treyvon finds out about me-
"I care. It's dangerous and he'll use you against me, he still expects me to handle the next pickup"
"What happens if you don't"
"Worse than what he did to me today"
"Why can't we just tell your dad, he's a lawyer"
"No I don't want pops to get into this, Von has connections everywhere and I don't need him threatening my family. Especially Indiah, he's disgusting and perverted"
I'm scared
"This is my fault"
He strokes my hair, "It's not your fault. I been trying to escape him for a long time"
"Let me help you-
"No. I need you to remain a secret from him"
I lift up my head, "I can't just watch him hurt you over and over again"
"If that means that he won't find out about you then he can hurt me as much as he'd like"
"Well I'm not having that, let me help you-
"No I'm serious, stay out of it"
"It's not gonna get better"
"Do you trust me?"
"Of course I trust you"
He kisses my cheek, "Then stay out of it"
I sigh, "I don't understand"
"It's alright, its been a long day"
I notice a duffel bag filled with clothes in the backseat, "You're not going home" I notice
"My mom'll ask questions"
"So where are you going?"
"Hotel for a couple nights, it's cool she'll think I'm at Kaians' house"
"I'm coming with you", I decide
"What? No"
"I don't think you realise this but when I became your girlfriend your problems became mine"
"You just wanna babysit me-
"No I wanna make sure that you're not doing anything stupid and yes I may also want to make sure you're ok, I'm caring. Sue me"
"What are you gonna tell your mom"
"We'll get to that later let's just go to the store and grab a couple things first"
Xavier's just looking at me
"Well don't just stare at me, drive" I gesture
He shakes his head with a smile before giving in and starting the car. Clearly I can't leave him alone for a day cause he ends up hurt.
**
Xavier watches as I clean around his stitches, "I can't believe you told Jamila before me"
"I knew you'd freak out on me"
"Not an excuse"
"Alright fair enough, I promise to alert you first for anything and everything. Even though I pretty much already do"
"That's how it should be", I set the cotton bud down before covering his stitches
We stopped at target on the way for a few things for me and some snacks cause we know I can't survive without food. Xavier can though which is weird. We're at this hotel that's not too far from his house, now Zay may get down but he also has high standard. If I were staying away for like two or three days I'd pick the first hotel I saw, he went for the best of the best. I'm talking five stars, extensive buffet (we missed dinner time though), top tier service. This is what you book when you're on holiday.
And not once does he let me spend a dime
He turns my phone to me for about the fifth time, showing that my dad's calling again.
"Ignore it"
"That's the fifth call now, he'll know somethings up"
I sigh before reaching my hand out and he hands it to me, I decide to send a text because he always seems to know whenever I'm lying just from hearing my voice.
Me: staying at Indi's, sorry I forgot to text x
He was typing for a couple of seconds
Dad: u gotta stop with the last minute plans, not tonight. come home
I put my phone down, deciding that that message is tomorrow's problem. "You're so lucky your parents aren't onto you all the time", I say as I get into the sheets beside him
I don't think I've slept besides Xavier since I was like six and he was seven, but that one was an innocent sleepover cause me and Indiah had an argument and I didn't wanna sleep with her. I'm currently in nothing but his shirt and some underwear, I changed in the bathroom though because I somehow felt shy.....even though his fingers were literally inside me the other day.
"I don't know I kind of miss that shit"
"Really?", I turn my head to face his
"Yeah, just shows they care"
"I guess, I mean but they obviously still do"
"I'm out late all the time so they gave up"
I hold his face whilst stroking it, "But they care. You know that right?"
"Yeah"
"Good. And so do I", I say softly
"Even with all the crazy shit that's going on"
"Yes, even with all of the crazy shit going on. I'm probably gonna get wrinkles because of you but it's ok"
He grins and I poke his dimple before leaning my forehead against his and closing my eyes. "Just don't die on me", I whisper
"I won't", He promises
I kiss Xavier softly and he rolls me on top of him, "Your stitches-
"You're good", He replies before continuing to kiss me
This kiss wasn't a soft and innocent one, no this one was a hungry one. There was sexual tension from the minute I stepped out of bathroom, Xavier's eyes darkened in a lustful way once he saw me in his shirt. It covered up to halfway of my asscheeks.
I'm glad he rolled us over because I couldn't take it anymore, I just didn't wanna hurt his wound.
"Just let me know if I'm hurting you", I try not to moan as I say this
"You ain't", Xavier assures me
I feel the shirt rise as I spread my thighs a little further to straddle him, within seconds he became hard. I like to call it a super power of mine.
I trail kisses against his face before slowly moving them along to his neck, he released a moan and it was like music to my ears. See when guys moan.....that shit is just so majestical and sexy and ugh, everything. "Next time you lie to me you can handle your erection on your own" I murmur
"Fucking hell Ree", His hand circles over my ass before grabbing it and I grind against him, still sucking on his neck
I love every single name he gives me, it makes me feel so special. I just really need this whole situation between him and Treyvon to be over so that I can stop worrying.
Eventually I sit up and Xavier frowns
"You're not messing up this install", I let him know
He leans against the headboard with disappointment, "Not even a little?"
"Pfft, no. This shit cost six hundred dollars" I reply as I tie on my silk wrap
"So I'll buy your next one", My man tells me simply
"I wouldn't even allow that"
"Stop doing that", He fusses whilst keeping me still
I shift again with amusement, "Why?"
"You know why", Xavier replies
"You know why" I mock
"I promise you if I didn't have these stitches I would've flipped you over by now"
"We can have sex when you're better"
"You ready for that?"
"I'm not a kid", I remind him
"You still shy"
"Only when you stare at me", I defend
He tugs my cheek teasingly, "Aww do I make you nervous"
I slap his hand away, "Shut up"
"Do I?"
"Sometimes"
"You get pussy butterflies?-
I screw him, "What do you know about that"
"A lot", He says amused
"Mhm from those girls you been fucking before me"
"My body counts two", Xavier defends
I don't even know who and where, one was when he was fifteen and one when he was sixteen. I was jealous but I didn't say nothing about it at first, then he got annoyed with how my energy changed around him and then we got to the source of my annoyance because he kept picking and picking. Then we kissed.
"Yeah yeah whatever"
"If I could go back I wouldn't have", He tells me softly
I kiss his wound, "I know"
Then I go back to my place beside him, leaving the bulge in his shorts to disappear on its own. Xavier leans over to the nightstand, "Yo your dad is blowing up your phone and so is your mom"
"It's fine"
"It's not fine, you're in trouble because of me"
I put his arm around me as I close my eyes, "Well look at that now we're both in trouble"
"How are you so chill right now?"
"I'm shitting bricks. Let's just sleep please"
He sighs, "Alright"
I was not ready for the shouting I'd receive tomorrow
A/N
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