8-10 minutes 19.04.2023
For dinner, Onii-san made homemade hamburgers. He brought them to our room, and we ate them. I still felt a bit resistant to eating together with him in the living room⦠But he understood that, I suppose.
As soon as the dishes were placed on the table, the three of us dug into the food. Especially, the dish on Chiakiâs plate seemed to disappear in fast-forward. Watching that, Chinatsu commented in a low voice, âAre you a food fighter or something?â and I laughed in agreement. It was an endearing sight.
After finishing our meal, I noticed Chiaki had sauce around her mouth, so Chifuyu wiped it off for her. I actually wanted to do it myself⦠and felt a little disappointed.
âIsnât it strange for an older sister to have her younger sister wipe her mouth?â Chinatsu teased.
âYouâre noisy.â Chiaki retorted.
âThis is normal, you know.â Chifuyu said.
âIs that so? Well, Chiaki is still too young, so it canât be helped.â
âWhat did you say?!â Chiaki exlaimed.
âOh? I only spoke the truth.â Chinatsu replied.
âChinatsu, you have sauce from the hamburger on your mouth; let me wipe it off for you.â
âOh, thank you, Chiharuâ¦â
I wiped off the sauce from Chinatsuâs mouth with a tissue. It wasnât like I was doing it as a substitute for Chiakiâs, since I couldnât wipe hers, but I enjoyed taking care of my sisters the most.
Arenât you childish too?â Chiaki teased.
âYouâre so annoying!â
After cleaning Chinatsuâs mouth, I tossed the tissue into the trash. As I turned to Chifuyu, I noticed a small smear of sauce on her mouth as well.
âChifuyu, let me wipe it off for you.â
âHuh? I can do it myselfâ¦â
âJust stay still.â
âMmm⦠Thank you.â
Chifuyu, who disliked being treated like a child, made an awkward face, but it was still adorable. Now that everyone in the family had finished eating, we needed to take the used trays and containers downstairs.
As I tried to take the tray,
âI myself will take it.â
Said the third sister, Chiaki, as she stood up and grabbed the tray. Her face had a somehow proud expression, and her mismatched eyes sparkled. Taking the tray meant creating an opportunity to interact with Onii-san on her own terms.
It seemed like she had come to trust that Onii-san and was not just seeking conversation with her sisters. Seeing Chiaki, who used to only talk to us sisters, willingly taking the initiative to do something, it brought tears to my eyesâ¦
âChiaki, even though youâre easily scared, youâre going?,â
âIâm going, no problem.â
âHmmâ¦â
Chinatsu turned away grumpily. It bothered her somewhere in her heart that while she couldnât trust that Onii-san, Chiaki was starting to trust him, right?
Chinatsu was only ten years old, but she understood. Even though sisters understood each other the most, there were always things they couldnât empathize with among themselves.
She knew that, but when faced with it, her heart became restless. She always thought it was better to be together. They only had each other, and they were the only true understanders of each other.
Because there was no one who accepted their existence as the âdifferentâ ones. It was because they didnât exist. If even that little bit of acceptance started to fade, it became lonely and unbearable.
Chinatsu was looking away, but from her back, I could sense a slightâno, a great loneliness. I was contemplating whether I should say something to Chinatsu about it, feeling troubled.
As her Onee-chan, I should say something in times like thisâ¦
âIâm just greeting the chef who made this hamburger. Iâll be back soon, so donât worry,â spoke Chiaki with a reassuring smile.
Chiaki had a knack for saying unexpected and sometimes strange things, things that I couldnât have predicted. She was a truly remarkable and one-of-a-kind child, unique in every way. What amazed me the most was how effortlessly she could change the atmosphere of any situation.
Throughout our lives, Chiaki had always been the beacon of light in our darkest moments. Even when we were feeling lonely, in pain, or overwhelmed with sadness, this extraordinary child had the power to chase away those negative emotions. She had continuously lifted our spirits in the past, and we were grateful for her unwavering ability to do so.
Upon hearing that, Chinatsu, who was looking sad just a moment ago, broke into a small smile.
âHehe, okay⦠Just be careful not to drop and break any dishes,â she said.
âHah, Iâll handle it,â replied Chiaki.
âDo you even know what that means when you say âIâll handle itâ?â Chinatsu asked.
âI donât know. It just sounds cool, so I used it. Do you know what it means, Chinatsu ?â Chiaki asked in return.
âI donât know, butâ¦â Chinatsu trailed off.
âIt means something like âof courseâ or âobviouslyâ,â Chifuyu explained.
âOh, I see. Impressive, Chifuyu. Well, I knew, but I pretended not to,â Chaiki said with a smirk.
âOf course, I knew too. I was just testing the third and fourth sisters,â Chinatsu replied.
âOhh, is that soâ¦.â
It was no exaggeration to say that Chiaki was a wizard. She had a true masterâs skill in not leaving any inconsistencies or discomfort when trying to change the atmosphere of a situation, something that I, Chinatsu, and Chifuyu couldnât quite achieve. Chiaki  was truly awe-inspiring, and as her Onee-chan, I was currently filled with admiration.
âAlright then, Iâll be off.â
âIâll come with you. Just in case.â
âDonât worry, Iâll go alone.â
âBut what if you drop the tray? It could be dangerous.â
âIâve got it, so no worries.â
With a confident smirk, Chiaki declared her intentions. However, her hands trembled slightly as she held the tray, and I couldnât help but feel worried.
âAre you sure youâre holding it correctly?â
âDonât worry.â
With that reassurance, she left the room with the tray in both hands. But I couldnât shake off the concern about her trembling hands. Itâs good for Chiaki to have positive experiences interacting with that Onii-san and others outside of just us siblings. Itâs good for her to branch out and socialize. But the thought of what could happen if she were to drop the tray on the stairs, shatter the glass, and then fall on top of it, made my body involuntarily tense up.
âThinking about it, Onee-chan will take them down.â
âHuh? No, that would be too excessiveâ¦â
âItâs dangerous.â
âBut I said itâs too exce-â
âItâs dangerous; give it to me.â
ââ¦Fine.â
A sharp pain shot through my heart, as if I had been stung by a bee, but there was nothing I could do. If by any chance she were to get hurt, it would be a big problem. If thereâs a possibility of injury, I had to prevent it beforehand.
âHaru-nee can be overprotective sometimes, huh?â
âI used to think the same toâ¦â
âWell, sheâs just looking out for Chifuyu and the others.â
âYeah, thatâs trueâ¦â
I could hear whispers from behind. I donât think Iâm overprotective at all, but maybe thatâs how it appears to them? Well, even among siblings, our perspectives differ. I shouldnât worry too much about it.
ââ¦Even though itâs excessive.â Chiaki said.
âIâm sorry. But itâs dangerous if you get hurt.â
âMuu.â
âDonât pout, okay?â
âButâ¦â
âWell then, shall we go together? We can divide the tasks⦠Iâll carry this tray, so can you hold these four forks for me?â
âYou always do everything by yourself, nee-neeâ¦â
Oh no, what should I do? She got a little sulky. Maybe it was wrong to say that⦠But I just want her to understand that itâs dangerous if she gets hurt. Even in this situation, Iâm happy to be called nee-nee, by Chiaki, who rarely says such things.
Nee-nee⦠You used to call me that so often in the past⦠But lately, itâs âmy relativeâ or âmy esteemed sister,â so distant⦠Sigh, I wish you would call me nee-nee, nee-nee again like before.
Nee-nee, just two words, but the satisfaction is unparalleled. Itâs even more fulfilling than low-GI foods. What am I thinking⦠This is not right. I made Chiaki feel down⦠What should I do⦠Ah!
ââ¦Canât you be the one to protect Onee-chanâs back?â I asked
âWhat does that mean?â
âWell, there might be sudden fallen angels or evil scientists attacking big sister from behind, so I want you to protect your sister from that.â I explained.
âOh, I see! Iâll do it!â Chiaki replied.
âGood, Iâm in your care.â
I casually took the forks and placed them on the tray before leaving the room. Chiaki followed me from behind.
âSometimes, I get worried about Aki-neeâ¦â
âYeah⦠I feel the same way.â
Chinatsu and Chifuyu were whispering some things to each other, but I couldnât catch their conversation clearly.