It's finally the day of the long waited quidditch match. The weather is meh. It's not too bad but not exactly a good weather. Pretty cold and cloudy but hey, at least it's not raining!
My relationship with James has gotten better. But I'm looking forward to his 'making up' thingy that he promised.
Everyone is cheering on the stands waiting for the match to start. Gryffindor against Slytherin. These matches are always... interesting?
I'm sitting between Lily and Remus. Next to Lily is Jasper and next to Remus is Peter.
I look over to Lily and Jasper who are laughing. Jasper is explaining something and making gestures with his hands, Lily on the other and is giggling at him. Those two have started hanging out more and more over the past week.
"Hey Remus." I nudge him slightly, not taking my eyes off the laughing couple. He let's out a small 'hm' before following my gaze. I look at him. "I think they're both crushing on each other." I state.
"You think?" Remus Jokes. "They're definitely crushing."
I lean forward and look past Remus towards Peter. "Hey Pete, you think these two are in love?" I ask him in a lower tone incase Lily and Jasper hear me.
He also leans forward and looks over at the pair. "One hundred percent." He confirms with a grin. "Right? It's so obvious, only they can't see it." I huff siting back up.
"Reminds me of you and James." Peter smirks and sits back up normally. Remus let's out a little laugh before covering his mouth.
"What did you say?" I lean to look at Peter again. He grins. "They remind me of you and James." He responds casually. Yeah, act like you're not teasing me.
I scoff "Pfft, yeah right. I don't giggle and twirl my hair around him."
Remus and Peter both give me a 'really' look.
Before I can say anything in response to that, the game begins.
The game is very intense and nerve-racking. Right now, it's a tie between the two teams. People are rooting for either James or Regulus to catch the snitch. Both of them are flying shoulder to shoulder towards the golden ball.
With a blink of an eye James catches the snitch and the crowd interrupts with cheers, including us.
"Better get to him fast. Heard you two had plans after the match." Remus leans over and smirks. I laugh and shake my head. "I guess I better go!"
I quickly make my way down the stairs of the stand and head towards the Gryffindor team. I spot James laughing and showing off the snitch along his teammates.
I feel a shove from next to me. A group of girls run past me, some bumping into my shoulder. Rude, could watch where they're going at least. They all run and swarm James and other players. Great. How am I supposed to congratulate them now?
I'm about to shout for James to get his attention but I stop. I watch as a girl with curly blonde hair grabs him by the collar and pulls him down for a kiss.
My feet stop moving and I just stand there. James seems a bit taken aback from the sudden kiss but still kisses her back. His hands move to the girl's waist as he pulls her closer. Meanwhile the blonde moves her hand to his hair.
I hear some people start cheering for the two. Some people shouting 'Get it James!' and others just clapping or cheering.
I feel like I just got punched in the face. I'm unable to move as I watch the two of them snog not far from me.
Ouch, that really hurts.
I feel my mouth getting dry and a lump starting to form at the back of my throat. This sudden urge to cry over comes me.
"Y/N, is everything alright? Why are you standing here?" Remus's confused voice asks behind me.
I don't respond, I don't think I can without breaking down.
He steps in front of me with Peter by his side. Both of them frown at my face. "Y/N, what's wrong?" Remus questions, concern lacing his voice. Peter nudges his shoulder. He looks over to where Peter is pointing.
All three of our gazes are on James and the girl he's literally making out with.
A small 'oh' passes his lips before he turns back to me. "Um Peter, I'll go and take Y/N out of here. You can tell Sirius that we left because she wasn't feeling too well." Remus places his right hand around my waist and pulls me closer to himself.
Peter gives Remus a nod and a sympathetic smile to me. He quickly runs towards the team. I turn away from them, not wanting to see that awful sight anymore.
"C'mon, let's get out of here." Remus whispers softly, leading us away from the crowd and back towards the castle.
I try my best to hold my tears. Why does it hurt so bad? Why do I feel so sad, angry, betrayed?
We go to a quieter place in the castle where we won't be disturbed. Remus sits down with me on a bench.
"It's okay." He whispers. And that's where I break. I break down into tears and bring my hands to my face. Remus rubs my arm and brings my head closer to his chest.
I wrap my hands around his torso and heavily sob into his chest. He starts stroking my hair with his other arm as he says comforting words to me.
"It hurts Remus, it really fucking hurts." I sob as my hands grip his robe. "I know." He mumbles sighing.
I admit it, I have feelings for him. But I realized it only now. That's why I was so moody when he started 'dating' other girls, I was jealous. But I didn't realize it until now." I rant to him. Remus listens and nods quietly.
"I realize it now when he has hurt me and is snogging another girls face off. I'm so bloody stupid, how didn't I realize it before." I try to take a breath but only gasps and hiccups come out.
Remus lifts my head and holds me by my shoulders. "Hey, look at me."
I wipe my eyes for a moment and look back at him.
"You aren't stupid, feelings are hard to understand and take time to even realize that they are there. Both you and James didn't realize them for each other,"
"Don't-" I start to cut him off with the James thing. Oh, sure he didn't. That's why he didn't care about me and went out with other girls. 'James didn't realize his feelings' my ass.
"Don't cut me off with your argument that James doesn't like you. I don't want to hear it. Yes, he's a total fucking idiot for everything he has done to you. But he's also a fucking idiot who doesn't realize his feelings for you." I feel some tears still falling down my cheeks.
"You can't deny that fact Y/N, even if you want to." He finishes his little speech.
I sniffle and wipe tears from my already red eyes. Remus pulls me back into a hug and rests his head on top of mine. I try to control my breathing and calm down.
"You have every right to mad at that arsehole." Remus mumbles into my hair.
I laugh at that, feeling a bit better. Who would've thought that one day I would be crying in Remus's arms while confessing my feelings for James. Not me.
"Thank you, Remus." I pull back from the hug and smile at him.
"Of course, that's what friends are for." He smiles back. He stands up and holds out his hand for me. "Ready to go, or do you need more time?"
I take his hand and pull myself up "Ready."
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A little bit of drama for you guys because we can't only have good things. A bit of suffering and teenage drama<3
Edited 7/19/2022