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" ðððð ðð ðððð ððððð, ððððððð? "
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ððððððð ððð ððð ð ðððð ðððððð ðð ððððð ðððð ðððððððððð in the hospital. She left school early, surprised to hear the news. He looked pale and sick as he laid on the hospital bed, his heart monitor beeping in rhythm.
He was awake, but his eyes looked tired with dark circles underneath them. A bag of liquid ran a tube into his wrist giving him the nutrients he was lacking. It upset her seeing him like this. It wasn't how everything was supposed to turn out.
"You lied to me, Theo." She didn't look up at him as she smoothed the skirt of her uniform out, "You've never done that before."
"I'm sorry-" She cut him off with a high pitched laugh.
"Sweetie... don't even try to lie again. I know you aren't sorry one bit. If you were you would've been able to control yourself." She rolled her eyes, "Now you're in a mess even I can't get you out of."
"Did they expel me?"
"Close," She answered, "Suspended. You were expelled, but my dad paid them to keep you there. Same with your sports teams." She leaned in closer to him, "Aren't I the bestest friend?"
"What is your angle, Bethany?" He looked her up and down suspiciously. She raised her eyebrows innocently.
"What do you mean?" She asked, "I know our special relationship started out as some ploy created by our parents, but that doesn't mean we aren't friends." Beth flicked her blonde curls over her shoulder, "I've always protected you, Theo. You and I are on good terms. And trust me, that's the best one to be on." She winked, but he didn't reciprocate.
"Trust you? That's hard for me because I know for a fact that at lunch you told Mei and I not to trust anyone." Theo scoffed, "Admit it, Bethany, you only do what's best for others when it's what's best for you." She frowned at him.
"The ballet thing wasn't the only reason I took the videos of Ella, you know. I was scared. If she becomes a prima ballerina then she'll quit tennis. That'll break the four of us up. We wouldn't all share a common interest anymore. I would lose her as a friend because she'd be so busy with dance. If I got the spot, I'd be able to handle it because I have great time management. Her strict parents would make her quit so she could keep up her grades." Bethany sighed, "That wasn't just for me. It was for all of us, Theo, so things wouldn't change."
When he didn't answer her she sighed again, running a hand through her golden hair.
"I left school today just to see if you were alright, but now I understand that I shouldn't of come. You don't even want me here anyway," Beth began grabbing her things, "Have fun spending the rest of the day alone, asshole."
Bethany stormed out of the room without looking back. Tears threatened to spill from her eyes, but she took a deep breath and tried to keep them in. It was so hard seeing Theo like that. Their relationship had always had ups and downs, but that didn't change how she felt about him. She loved him. She really did. Even if she acted like she didn't.
And it bothered her how he hated her just as much and she knew everyone else did.
When she hopped in her car she didn't know where she was going to end up until she found herself pulling into her driveway. She slipped out of the car and into the house, heading straight for the wine closet. She popped one open then took a long nice swig. The alcohol was bitter on her tongue, but she swallowed it anyways.
Theo and Bethany has always been close friends, but when they were freshman her their fathers struck a business deal and pushed them to become closer.
Except in the thickness of it all they both had actually grew feelings for each other. It was going good for them until Bethany noticed he started paying attention to her friend Ella. He asked about her, watched her, hung out with her. It made Bethany jealous, but because they weren't an official thing it wasn't like she could actually do something about it.
She always had to act like she was okay with everything when she wasn't, and when she did something about it people called her a bitch. She was tired of people walking all over her and acting like she would just take their crap. If Meili wanted judge her for the Ella incident and get Theo kicked off the lacrosse and rugby team then she was in for it. She couldn't just voice her opinion and mess with things that didn't effect her. What she says doesn't just go.
Bethany's eyes betrayed her as they shifted over to the medicine cabinet. She walked over to it and opened the door. Pill bottles stared back at her and she couldn't help, but take one. She knew she shouldn't have been doing it, but she felt possessed. She would regret it later, but when she was upset... there was only one thing that could make her feel better.
Her only best friend, of course. Xanax.