Avery's POV
Fuck. I was fucking kissing Dawson.
So apparently I decided to distract people from not only my emotional trauma but their own emotional trauma by making out with them. Good to know.
Dawson didn't really move at first. I'm hoping it was merely cause he was stunned that I finally did something about...all this. Did something about us. But there was always the possibility that he totally did not wanna be kissing me right now, which, if I'm being totally honest, would kinda crush me.
But thankfully that was ruled out real quick when he ends up moving his lips against mine and slides his hand to the back of my neck and through my hair.
Holy fuck.
I'd kissed a lot of people in my day, and no one and not any one of those kisses compared to this. Not even close.
I think I could feel my heart speed up, almost to the point I thought it would just burst through my chest or put me into cardiac arrest. But like, that was in the best way possible.
My entire body felt warm and I tried to hide the fact that I was kinda fucking freaking out by running my hands underneath Dawson's shirt, which now that I'm thinking about it, might've just made it worse for the both of us cause his hands pulled on my hair a little harder when I did that.
I never really thought about kissing Dawson that much, I liked him a lot but for some reason, that was never the thing on my mind when I thought about him. But now that I was kissing him, I don't think I would ever stop thinking about it. There's just absolutely no way.
He moves his hands from my hair down to my waist and pulls me closer to him, almost to the point I was straddling him. But we still were on a roof and if this got out of hand we could still fall to our death. But I'd die happy and with my last moments being sucking face with Dawson and that's all that mattered.
When we pull apart for a small second to get our breathing settled once more, he takes that opportunity to spit out a question.
And with the mix of his panting and me being totally dazed and slightly out of it right now, I wasn't sure I heard him right.
"Can you say...that again?" I ask opening my eyes and seeing how close we actually were and letting the situation sink in a bit.
He smiles at me and cups my face a bit with one hand. "Will you go out with me?" And his smile didn't fall the entire time.
I didn't respond right away. Just let a huge ass smile take over my face and then nodded.
Dawson just closed his eyes and leaned his head back against the wall. "Fuck yeah." He said almost laughing.
***
"You guys ever sleep in your own damn beds anymore or no?"
"You ever gonna learn to knock or no?" Dawson asks Callum back as I just groan and hide my face deeper into my pillow.
I couldn't see Callum exactly but I could hear his mocking him and could just picture perfectly the way he scrunches his nose and squinted his eyes in anger with a neck vein popping out a bit more than usual.
A mesmerizing sight, really.
As soon as I open my eyes they lock on the door frame where I see little tufts of hair poking out from all directions.
"Really? All of you?" I ask to no one in particular almost astounded.
And slowly but surely, one by one, they all come walking in with their heads down and guilty looks on their faces.
"You guys are so fucking nosy," Dawson tells them snickering while running his hand through his hair and yawning afterward.
And all I'm gonna say is hot. Very hot.
Sawyer ends up walking down the hall right past our room but you can hear the clicking of her heels stop and then slowly return, growing closer until she appeared at the doorway peaking in as well.
She raised an eyebrow and frowned a little. "I told you all not to do this. Leave the poor kids alone."
And like sad little children they all let out a 'fine'. I'm pretty sure I heard a 'you can't make me' and I had a feeling it was coming from Callum.
"We made breakfast. So you're all gonna go eat and Avery and Dawson will come down when they're ready. And you'll all stay down there until then."
And they all trailed out sadly and then it was just me and Dawson again.
"So," I said after a little while. I guess I never considered what would happen after I kissed him or what effects it would have on...everything.
And don't get me wrong, I didn't regret it, at all, and honestly it was one of my proudest moments but like it did bring along awkwardness for the time being.
"So." He repeated. "How're y-"
Before he can even get a third word out I quickly turn to look at him and impulsively let out the question I'm pretty sure we've both been thinking since last night.
"What are we?"
I don't think either one of us had a solid answer to that though. So Dawson just shrugged a bit and smiled softly at me, "Whatever you want us to be Aves."
I laughed and decided it'd be best to make jokes and playful banter about this rather than stress and take it too seriously. For now at least.
"How cheesy."
He nodded and tapped my nose making my face scrunch back a bit at the unexpected boop.
"That's my entire brand."
"But really though..." he added with a slightly more serious look on his face now. "We can figure that out later. No need for labels if we're not ready for that. Although I definitely have one in mind that I'd love, but hey, no pressure." He said letting a smirk take over his features at the end of his sentence.
I just shook my head and laughed while biting my lip. "No pressure," I repeated flicking his arm.
"None at all."
***
Dawson and I had telepathically decided that our date was tonight, and while I was hella fucking excited, I think I was even more nervous.
And there was no better mix to help ease my nerves than Mona and alcohol. But as she was pregnant and neither of us was that stupid or immature, I settled on cake instead.
"What if everything goes wrong?" I ask wiping some frosting off my lips while letting my head hang off the couch upside down.
"Avery have you met the damn kid, he's like...in love with you. And plus, how many times has it been 'awkward' between you guys hmm?" She questions me between bites of cake.
"...like never," I mumble pouting at how she was right and I was worrying about issues that never existed and would probably never exist anyways.
"See?" She says dragging out the 'e' to get her point across.
"Aves, I promise you nothing like that will happen and the only reason you're worrying so much is cause you want it to go good. And I know it will. Probably better than just good." She tells me winking with a suggestive face. "If ya know what I mean."
I almost choked on my cake at that.
"Oh don't even." She said. "I know you and I know him and I know you both together and what your relationship is like. I give you 24 hours before it happens. At most." She added raising an eyebrow.
"Mona I'm only a whore on occasion," I tell her pointing my fork in her direction. "And would it really be the best time to fuck here? Where there's literally almost a dozen other people?" I asked lifting my head up now to let the blood flow return.
"Do you not watch reality tv, Aves? That's life boo. Horniness overpowers logic. Always. And plus....mothers intuition." She adds on tilting her head like she was some sort of wise being now. Maybe she was.
"I'm not even your child though. So it doesn't apply." I say frowning at the idea, although it was simply me being more in denial than anything as her 'mothers intuition' bit was probably a real thing and this was just a small part of me not wanting to believe she was right. Very small part though.
"Of course it applies." She tells me tossing her arms up. "I see things now. Things you don't." She squinted her eyes at me but couldn't keep the straight face for long, and soon she ended up tumbling over on the couch laughing and I couldn't help but follow suit.
We laughed for a while and talked about other random shit. And part of me missed the time when it was just me and Mona, some reckless and stupid teenagers who did dumb shit and talked about dumb shit. Part of me missed spending all my time with her. But things had changed. And in one of the best ways possible, for all of us.
It got quiet again as we just watched whatever was on the screen in front of us. Until Mona spoke up, although still quietly.
"Hey, Avery?" She asked me not taking her eyes off the screen.
"Yeah?" I questioned only letting my eyes glance to the side the tiniest bit.
"Whatever happens, I hope you know I'm pretty fucking positive you guys will work out in the end."
"Is this more of your mother's intuition stuff?" I asked her still eating some cake.
"Something like that." She mumbled.
***
I struggled so much with this chapter so basically it was written and edited over the weekend which I don't usually do but hey I got it done.
Also, I'm gonna have some new characters being brought up and introduced soon and I need lots of names. So if anyone wants to leave any name suggestions here that'd be great lol.