CH 26

I’ve been struggling.

Saying that I would start a relationship now, I don’t know what to do.

I was able to reconcile with Himari.

The rest were Shiraki, Mifuyu, and Sensei.

I could still talk easily with Himari even though it was awkward.

But these 3 people are incredibly uncomfortable.

If I were to be honest, I would not even want to get involved with them.

But that’s not good enough.

I’ve already made up my mind.

I have already decided to find my true self.

To do that, I can’t turn away from these three people.

If I do, I will never be able to go back to the way I was.

I couldn’t stand that now.

It’s funny, because just a little while ago I even wanted them to disappear.

It would be better to keep a little distance from Mifuyu.

Then it’s either Shiraki or Sensei.

… I feel a bit uneasy.

Let’s start with Shiraki.

Miyo Shiraki.

She called me to the back of the school building and lied to me.

But she really likes me.

I can’t believe her words.

It is a given.

She may have been influenced by her friends, but she’s the kind of person who plays with people’s hearts.

Will I be able to forgive Shiraki?

Will I let my emotions explode again?

Let’s not do that. Let go of negative thoughts.

There’s no point in thinking like that.

The first step is to meet Shiraki.

I decided to do so and took out my phone while lying on my bed.

I dialed Himari’s number from there.

After a few calls, Himari answered.

“Himari, do you have a minute?”

“What’s wrong?”

I tell her what I need.

“Do you know where Shiraki lives?”

“Y-Yusei?! W-Why would you want to know that?!”

What are you so upset about?

“Well, I’ve been thinking about it a lot, and I’m going to try to make things right with everybody. So I need you to tell me where Shiraki lives.”

“Is that it… in that case”

For some reason, Himari sounded relieved and told me where Shiraki’s house was.

“Thanks a lot.”

I express my gratitude to Himari.

“No problem. It’s fine. But”

Suddenly, Himari’s voice became cold and I started to feel cold sweat on my forehead.

I don’t know why, but I sat upright on the bed.

“That’s it, okay?”

“What do you mean by that?”

“Do you understand?”

“Y-Yes!”

I was so overwhelmed by Himari’s unspoken enthusiasm that I could only reply honestly.

Then we were talking about nothing else.

I looked at the clock, it was a little after 10 pm.

“Well, I think I’ll go to bed.”

“Are you going to bed already?”

Himari called to me sadly.

“Well, it’s a good time.”

“I see…”

It’s hard to cut it when she sounded like that…

“Is it okay? I’m going to hang up?”

“Oh, wait a minute.”

What?

You still have something to say?

“Yusei. I’m really sorry for everything I’ve done. And thanks for talking to me again.”

“I’ve already accepted Himari, and I’m the one who should say thank you.”

“No, I’m the one who should thank you.”

I say this to Himari as I feel my eyes burning.

I wonder why the tears are coming out on their own.

The reason for this is that the person who is the childhood friend of mine is very special.

I am very thankful to have a childhood friend.

I was deeply moved by this thought.

Then I’m going to hang up.

“Yes! See you later.”

Saying that, I hung up the phone.

Talking to people is fun after all.

Was I out of my mind to realize such a thing after all this time?

No, at that time, I might have been out of my mind if I didn’t do that.

…..This might be an excuse.

I must change my mind.

If the person I was then had seen me now, he would have said, “What’s wrong with you?”

I lightly mocked myself.

Now, let’s work on improving this relationship.