Chapter-46

I nod absentmindly as my men discuss various strategies.

I don't even know what they are saying just know that they are talking about being cautious and demanding separate house.

I just want to meet kuhu. It's only been a few days without her but it feels as if an eternity has passed.

When Lorenzo told me about her drowning herself, I felt jitters running over my body. It felt as if someone has knocked me hard on my fucking chest.

I came here as fast as I could along with nikaloi.

And when I finally saw her she was too busy looking after nikaloi. She noticed me later. Way too later.

I feel a pang of sadness in my heart but there's nothing I can do about how another person reacts to me or feels about me.

Oh! Shut it. I am getting jealous of my own son.

My subconscious reminds me.

Yeah, I am being an asshole right now. Of course she paid noone else attention but nikaloi.

That's nikaloi. She saw him after so long.

"What do you say?"

I hear all my men turning to me and asking me something.

"Huh?"

I am dumbfounded

"About discussing the matters with Italians?"

They elaborate.

"I think we need to relax and take our time. We just got here. Let things settle a bit. We will surely get the separate housing."

I tell them calmly.

They nod at my opinion.

"If that what you want, we will wait."

They say and disperse.

Finally I'll get to meet her. I have been dying to see her. And after that singing incidence in the morning....

Fuck, she is angelic.

The realisation that she has bewitched me fully once again dawns over me.

I immediately make my way out of the room and stride towards her room.

Climbing up the stairs I reach the door of her room. I grab the handle of the door but quickly retrieve back my hand to fix my tie and brush my hair back.

Once I make sure that everything is perfect. I pull down the handle and enter in the room quietly.

My eyes move across the whole room and then finally settle on her.

Bless my eyes.

I say internally as the sight in front of me feels like a sweet on my tongue which slowly melts leaving it's sugary taste behind to be relished.

There she is with my son on her lap. She is saying something in her native language while lightly tickling him and his childish laughter is filling the room.

In her sweet voice she says

"मम्मी को याद नहीं किया?"

(Didn't you remember mummy)

"मम्मा ने तो इत्ता सारा याद किया, अपने लड्डू को"

(Mumma remembered her laddu so much)

"मेरा बच्चा"

(My child)

She says kisses his cheeks.

I clear my throat to get both of their attention and say

"Am I interrupting you both?"

They both turn to look at me.

"Well you are."

She says and hugs nikaloi while putting his face next to her face.

"But we will let you join. Right, Niko?"

As if on cue he giggles.

Chuckling I move in.

"Well I shall be highly greatful to my queen and my prince."

I say sitting besides her pecking nikaloi's cheek.

He claps his hand excitedly.

"To finally see him happy feels so good."

I say somberly.

"When you were gone he was constantly crying and noone properly took care of him. I was busy finding you and he got sick because of me not paying him attention. Everything was a mess."

I say putting my head in my hands.

"Don't blame yourself for any of this. You know you are not at fault. You are always overachieving. You are a human too, Xavier."

"Give yourself a break. You are always there like a rock but you need to rest too."

She says leaning into me and putting her head on my shoulder.

"You gave me my life back as nikaloi. Without you I would have been lost. So give mumma and baby a favour and stop pressuring yourself, dada."

She says lightly bumping into me and puts nikaloi in my lap.

I take him and pull him closer to my chest.

"You both are my solace. Thank you so much."

I say happily. She smiles back at me.

Remembering what happened I ask her

"But kuhu I came to know about the bath tub incident. Why did you do that? You know how fatal it could have been?"

I want to be harsh but I don't know why I fail in front of her.

"I know but I don't know what came over me a lot was going on and I just...

She sighs.

"I am sorry for making you worry, Xavier."

"It's fine darling."

I say and and put my hand on her head reassuringly.

She smiles at me brightly.

I also smile back but my eyes shift towards her neck.

That red mark.

It's a hickey.

I feel my throat drying and eyes zooming in on it. I feel this twitch, this ick. I want to rip everything in this fucking room.

Every fucking thing.

"Xavier, it's just that...

Kuhu begins to explain after noticing what I am looking at.

"It's fine."

I interude and remove my hand.

"We are not in that kind of relationship. You are free to do as you wish. You don't have to explain anything."

I say the bitter harsh words but they are the truth.

I can't be misled by my expectations of her.

She is free to do whatever she wants in her life.

I repeat this line over and over in my head but the fury burning my heart doesn't seize. The dejection filling up my veins feel poisonous as it aches my heart.

My eyes are a bloody nemesis because they again turn towards her neck as if the first time wasn't enough.

But this time I see a bruise on her collar bone.

My hand immediately pushes her hair out of the way.

I lighlty feather the purplish bruise and she winces.

"What the fuck? Who did this?"

I ask

"Don't tell me that Lorenzo did this. I'll kill that motherfucker."

"No no he didn't. He didn't do this. It's actually, this...

She stammers.

"Then what happened darling?

How did you get this?"

I ask her politely calming her down.

...................

"I'll see you later."

I say and close the door to kuhu's room with a smile.

As the door closes my smile is wiped off.

I wanted to storm to that bastrad lorenzo's room as soon as kuhu told me that she was assualted but I acted calm because I know she would worry.

So I pretended to not bother Mr Accardo about it but I will bother him. I'll beat the fuck out if him for not taking care of her.

I walk to the other end of the corridor and immediately barge into his office.

I see him sitting on the chair and typing something on his computer.

"Entering without knocking is bad manners, Xavier."

He says while typing.

"Well excuse me, Mr Accardo for not being polite to a jerk."

"I am glad to hear that you hold me in such a high regard."

"Aren't you the sweetest?"

He says and give me a disgusting smile.

"I want to talk about something."

"Of course you do. You won't be here to make out with me. Do you?"

I am absolutely flabbergasted by his remark and I look at him in absolute horror.

"What? You are here to make out with me."

He fake gasps

"Well I don't swing that way, Mr Ivanov."

He says and buttons up the upper most button of his shirt.

"Cut the crap, Lorenzo. This is serious."

"Well what is it?"

He asks nonchalantly while focusing back on his computer.

"Kuhu was assaulted."

He finally looks at me with seriousness. He gets up from his chair and moves around the table to stand in front of me.

"Who told you?"

"It doesn't matter who told me. What matters is what she has to endure beacuse of your negligence."

I say while seething in anger.

"I know I am at fault but....

"But what Mr, Lorenzo. You were quick to take her away from me, to claim her as yours. But you couldn't protect her."

He listens to me quietly while I spew.

"You couldn't even take care of her and you claim to be her lover."

"Ridiculous."

"And still you want her to stay in this mansion where all that happened.

I know you don't care of about anyone but atleast think about her.

I know you won't let her go but shouldn't you let her move away from this place where all those horrendous things happened with her or you want her to live in those tormented memories."

He just says quiet while I yell at him.

"Well the ball is in your court whether to let her stay here or not. You couldn't protect her but atleast let her move away from this house and live with us because I will protect her."

"Now you decide that do you really want her to live here with you where she was assaulted."