Chapter-44

The warm water around my body is ironic as compared to the coldness my heart is feeling.

I feel trapped in a maze with no way out. The guilt of leaving Lorenzo was already burdening my heart but now my baby, my son is sick and I can't even take care of him. The worry is eating me alive.

Will he be alright?

There is nothing more I want in this moment than being besides him. I know seeing my care for him and Xavier hurts Lorenzo deeply but I can't help it.

I am his mother. It's in my blood to take care of him. To worry for him.

How do I make Lorenzo understand this?

I tilt my head back against the tub. The warm water providing soothing comfort to my aching body.

I close my eyes enjoying the pinch of the hot water. If not mentally but atleast physically this is realxing. I feel myself get sleepy. My eyelids drooping against my will. I try to push them open but they are closing on their own accord.

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The water which was soothing is now becoming suffocating. I feel breathlessness due to the lack of the oxygen. I open my eyes but all I see is water. I am in an ocean with only water around me. I try to swim upwards but to no avail. I can't breathe I have to get out, else I'll die.

I push my hand trying to swim but still I am stuck. I feel my lungs burning.

Air.

I need air.

I jerk open my eyes and sit up straight. I inhale deeply trying to make up for the lack of the oxygen. I turn my head and see that I am in a familiar room.

A woman immediately comes rushing by my side and asks.

"Are you fine?"

"What happened?"

I ask her back.

"You don't remember? You almost killed yourself by drowning."

She questions me and then explains me.

I put my head between my palms pondering on whether I did what she just said. The last thing I remember was sitting in the bathroom wondering whether nikaloi is fine?

Nikaloi.

"Where is Lorenzo?"

I ask her

"He is in his office."

She replies.

I immediately get out of my bed and make my way towards his office.

"You can't get up. You need to rest."

She yells from behind.

But paying her no mind I move forward.

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Standing in front of lorenzo's office I contemplate on what I'll say to him?

My mind has officially gone out.

It is tired.

Giving up all the thoughts I gently push down the handle and slightly open the door of his office peeking in.

But it's too dark for me to see anything clearly. So I swiftly move in and close the door behind me.

"What do you want this time?"

I hear Lorenzo ask and see him sitting in the left extreme corner of the room.

A glass in his hands filled with alcohol. His hair is messed up, the first few buttons of his shirt undone and his clothes crumpled. I look up at his eyes and see them having a reddish tinge.

He looks deafeted.

I came hear to ask questions but seeing him like this my brain starts working in opposite direction. So, instead of questioning him I go near him, bend down and take the glass from his hands putting it back on the table besides him.

"You are such a nuisance. Since, the day you have entered in my life all you have done is create problems."

He says grabbing my jaw with his hand that was previously holding glass.

I look down and say

"I am sorry."

"Sorry?"

He laughs mockingly.

"Your sorry won't solve my problems. It is pathetic and of no use."

He spits

His words hurt but I know I deserve it. I am the one responsible for this condition. So I just look down and let him speak his mind.

"Now your are crying."

I feel the tears when he says that. I didn't even realise that I was.

"Stop with the crying, it's irritating."

I rub my face trying to get rid of the tears but still they fall inevitably.

"I said stop it."

He says harshly making me look in his eyes.

"I am trying."

I say while wiping my eyes vigorously.

"Come here."

He says and makes me sit on his lap. He gently rubs my eyes.

"I hate you."

He tells me and I sniffle.

"I hate you for making me feel such mundane emotions. I hate you for making me realise how actual fear feels. I hate you for making me crave you so badly. I hate you for so effortlessly making me fall of you."

He says as his voice slurs a bit.

More tears fall from my eyes hearing his words.

"You are crying again?"

He asks exasperated and astonished.

"I can't help it."

I say in my crying wobbly voice.

"Make it stop immediately."

He lightly warns me.

"I am trying but it's not under my control."

I tell him

"I know how to make your crying stop.*

He says.

"How?"

I ask him

The next minute I feel his lips on mine. His lips capture my lips in a deep kiss.

I feel his tongue swiping against my lower lip. He then gently takes my lower lip in between his both lips and sucks on it relentlessly.

I close my eyes and kiss him back. I feel his tongue probing into my mouth and a moment later he pushes his tongue into my mouth making me taste the bitter alcohol.

I moan deeply as both our tongues collide and he pulls me more into him.

I grab the back of his head and try to match his pace, kissing him back.

Feeling myself running out of breath, I break the kiss taking in the much needed air.

He doesn't stop he still takes my lower lip between his teeth and bite it, making me wince.

"That's for making me worried sick."

He says breathlessly and his lips move down. He kisses my jaw and then neck.

I feel his teeth gently scraping my neck causing a sweet pain which is relieved by his tongue licking the same spot.

I tilt my head back giving him ample space.

"You are like a drug, irresistible."

He murmurs.

"I am intoxicated by you."

He says

And peppers kisses all over my neck while moving down.

He reaches my collar bone and gently pecks it, moving along the bone towards my shoulder.

He then looks up at me and gently pulls down the thin strap of my night gown.

He does the same to the other side leaving my upper body bare. I feel the shame washing over me. He has seen me naked once but it was a long time back and after that he is seeing me now. I feel my body heating.

"Don't doubt yourself, you are beautiful."

He says and pinches my nipple harshly as if giving a punishment for doubting myself.

He looks at my boobs and then back into my eyes uttering.

"You are a work of art, sweetheart."

The next thing the feel is his mouth on my nipple sucking it hard.

I moan and put my hand on the back of his head.

He let's go of my nipple for a second, before grabbing my boob and puckering it up. Then he again latches onto it like a hungry animal.

His other hand fondles my breasts, rubbing his hand over my nipple, occassionally pinching it.

His tongue lashes on my teat as he flickers it over and over again, making me frenzied. His teeth then lightly bite my nipple increasing my delirium.

"I need more."

He says and let's go of my nipple.

He gets up with me in his arms and turns around. He makes me sit on the chair while he kneels down in front of me.

"What are you doing, Lorenzo?"

"Sshhhh"

He puts his fingers over my lips.

He pulls up my dress and removes it leaving me only in a pair of panties.

"The past year without you has been hell."

He says and I feel his fingers feeling my pussy through my wet panties.

"Do you have any idea how much I missed you?"

He says and I feel his fingers rubbing my pussy, especially my clit.

He pinchs it lightly between his thumb and index finger through my panties.

"Do you, sweetheart?"

He asks again

All I am able to do is move my head sideways.

"Look, how wet your are? You are soaking through."

He says and pushes my panties aside.

He fingers now directly touch my folds. He moves his fingers up and down feeling my wetness.

Then, he lifts up his hand smeared in my juices to show me.

He runs those fingers over my nipples, wetting my nipples with my juices.

Maintaining eye contact he brings out his tongue and licks my wet nipple making me moan.

"Still the same sweet taste."

He says and I feel his hands hooking into my panties. In a swift movement he takes them out and pushes my legs apart.

"Look at you creating a mess."

He says and lightly blows over my wet pussy making me quiver in anticipation.

He moves his head down closer to my pussy and then kisses my inner thighs. He keep playing around. Kissing at all places except where I want him too.

"Lorenzo, please."

I beg

"Please what sweetheart."

He smirks while looking at me mischievouly.

"Please....

He then kisses the crown of my vagina making me go dizzy.

"Complete the sentence, sweetheart."

He says

"Please, lick me."

I finally say giving in.

And he does as I say. His tongue licks me from my opening to the apex.

I moan and grab the chair feeling euphoric.

He then kisses the lips of my pussy, placing gently and light kisses all over. I feel his hand pinch my clit.

Taking my clit between his fingers he places a kiss on it before sucking it into his mouth.

His fingers then move down and I feel his one finger entering inside. I grab the back of his head pushing his face more into my pussy as he pushes another finger in. While his tongue moves in a circular manner over my clit.

"Get one thing straight, this cunt belong to me, you belong to me, Lorenzo Accardo."

He says and again sucks harshly on my clit. While his fingers move in and out of me at a rhythmic pace.

I feel his teeth as he bites lighlty on my clit and that does it.

I feel a sense of euphoric dizziness washing over me as I orgasm on his fingers and mouth.

He keeps licking me and his fingers keep moving prolonging my orgasm.

And when I get down from my high I feel his lips on mine as he kisses me deeply making me taste myself on him.

He breaks the kiss and utters

"Next time, it'll be my dick instead of my fingers and mouth."